Sackr1

I want my life to be in service of building a more loving, inclusive world; a world where everyone feels jubilant within and lives their life as an expression of their joy. I want to build a world where people work not to earn their bread but to truly be of service to humanity. I want a world where humanity can maximise and realize their highest potential.

I want to help bring awareness to the collective human shadow, especially the "dark" side and all those aspects humans regard as frightening, ugly and unlovable. I want to help integrate these shadows so that humanity can become a more inclusive and compassionate species.

I envy highly successful, powerful and masculine guys. I think I envy them because they attract the attention of women effortlessly. I'm not quite sure how I can bring this into my own life. Suggestions welcome.

To have a healthy sense of self-esteem; to not feel unworthy; to feel confident to the point of being cocky.

I would stand for: the right to off-the-grid living, freedom of expression, financial freedom for the masses, upholding moral values and spiritual principles, empathy, love, inclusion, and the raising of consciousness. Stand against: totalitarianism, religious fanaticism, bigotry, authoritarianism, shaming, cancel culture, and attempts at silencing creative expression.

I indulge in random acts of charity so that I can get into God's good books and live a blessed life free of suffering.

There's nothing wrong with wanting someone to take care of you. I'm a man and I'd love to take care of my woman

My sexual preferences/fetishes. I don't want people (especially women) to know what kind of freakish perv I am, given how im into things like bdsm and throat-fucking. I feel like I can never be myself around women because of the dark fantasies I have.

I would be less judgemental about other people's life choices and be more empathetic. I would spend more time with them, getting to know them better and hearing them out completely. I would share more of myself with others so I could connect with them better and let them see me. I would socialize more instead of being an island unto myself.

I love mentoring people, especially in a professional sense, wether it be assisting them with their business, or their career progression. I love helping people make money. I love inspiring people to be the best version of themselves. I love helping them see their value; seeing and capitalizing on their strengths and helping them do what they love and excel at.

I want stimulation. I want growth; expansion. I crave stimulation and the resulting joy really badly, especially intellectual stimulation. I want to learn new things and be able to code and study to my heart's content. Why do I want stimulation? Why do I want growth? Because it feels good to me, isn't that obvious?

My stuckness, and my lack of courage to do anything about it. Also, the fact that I have to do things I don't like to get to a place I want to be. Frustrating AF.

Mathematics and programming. Basically anything that provides intellectual stimulation.

I think I am meant to integrate my shadow/ dark side in this life and complete my spiritual "challenges". I want to live a life where I am able to do almost everything I feel like doing; a life where my capabilities are "maxed out", so to speak, but I fear that I'll never be worthy enough to live such a life until I complete my challenges.

For my life, and my life choices. I keep using a set of tarot cards for guidance and direction in my life but I've come to realize that in this process of divining answers to my questions, I've given away all my power to make my life the way I want it. I've also developed a binge eating disorder and an addiction to porn and I know that these habits don't serve me and have terrifying consequences, but I don't want to suffer those consequences. I feel uncomfortable taking action to resolve these habits, because I fear that doing so might involve scary shadow work.

I appreciate the honesty.

Whether I should pursue my desires, or give them up and surrender myself to God's will, even if it means that I may never get to fulfill my dreams. Whether I should censor my dark side (so as to allow socializing), or be authentic in all aspects, even if it means social ostracization and disapproval.

Oh my God dude. I know you're suffering but.... HAHAHAHAHA

Oh my God dude. I know you're suffering but.... HAHAHAHAHA

My answer to this question is a question mark. I dont know, and that pains me. I don't know what I want, let alone what I want badly enough. I wish I did know. It would give me some sense of direction and movement, rather than the stagnation I find myself in. I DO know that I like the feeling that comes with spending quality time with friends and loved ones. I want to love and be loved in all aspects; even those which I feel are unsavory or dark. I want to feel understood. I also want to feel the feeling of interconnected-ness that arises when I imagine the vastness of the universe, with all the myriad shapes and forms in which it expresses itself. I like the feeling of belonging, of communion with a larger whole. I also like the cocky, confident feeling that comes with being an unapologetic alpha male. I like the feeling of relaxed confidence and power that comes with being a badass; the feeling that I can do anything in the world no matter how dangerous or difficult. I like how I feel in all these situations, but these feelings are so fleeting that I soon lose interest in them. I guess you could say I want purpose, movement, growth, masculine confidence, intelligence and a feeling of interconnected-ness with the whole. I just have to figure out if I want it badly enough.

I feel like I can't find someone who'll love me for me. Someone who'll understand and accept, or atleast help with my flaws. I also feel like I can't get out of addictions. Damn those EVIL addictions. I can't be brave. I can't live up to society's standards (or my own standards) of courage and masculinity. I can't have a life where I'm just happy doing what I truly love doing. I instead have to live out my "soul mission", some god-ordained thing that honestly feels like a chore. I feel like I can't have a normal life... one where I do what everyone does; have a "normal" job, have "normal" relationships, do normal sh!t. Instead I have to sacrifice all this for a "greater purpose". Screw spirituality, man.

I need to integrate my dark side in a manner that doesn't lead to guilt, shame, fear or pain.

I feel the burden of carrying humanity's and the environment's torch. I feel pressure; feel like there's not enough time left to do what "needs to be done", like I have a difficult mission to fulfill, even though I'd much rather spend my time doing something fun. I feel that I must succeed. There's a deep nervousness and fear of failure in me and those are the only things motivating me to strive towards my mission. If not for that, I'd just chillax.

I would relax. I've been pushing myself to succeed in my "spiritual mission" with the belief that if I don't push, I'll fail and if I fail the world and all those who inhabit it will be screwed. But if my success was guaranteed, I'd just take it easy and play my favorite RTS and RPG video games (Pokémon and Warcraft FTW). I'd practice my favorite musical instruments and study mathematics. I'd play basketball, badminton and soccer and I'd go for a swim in the beach. I'd watch it favorite comic sketches and have a hearty laugh. I'd try and cook up some healthy, vegan food and eat it with a cup of coffee.I'd try to make friends online and spend time with them. I'd spend some time romancing my significant other, lol. But most importantly I'd love to develop automated systems that serve people, like an advanced electronic job portal for low income families in India. Now THAT would be awesome, lol.

I'd let it all burn, but if there were a memento given to me by someone who loved me deeply, I'd save it.