Socializing. Succeed. Win. Compete. Look nice. Be excellent. Create something incredibly beautiful exquisite refined and elegant  looking. Honestly the list would be as long as the Great Wall of China 

I can't make money without money. I'm finding out how incorrect that statement is.

I can’t make money and meet many of my needs as I currently am financially broke & have a toddler to care for.

Handling my thoughts emotions, making changes to my life that are scary, processing fear, looking beautiful, be a nice and kind person, be brave, be talented, decisions big and small, keep a relationship, have healthy relationships, self love, self esteem, self esteem and a sense of self especially without opposition, live a happy life, resolve anything, succeed, make things I want to come true come true, 

functioning

Being masculine. Gratifying the conventional systems of this society

I was raised catholic...I need a clear conscience..... to be able to face myself and my parents and family...so I can't reach out and take what I want sometimes if it means someone else gets screwed... this means I kinda always lose

I say “I can’t” be positive, happy, joyful.

I feel like I associate being happy to being ignorant or unconscious.

Ironically I fall in love with those who allow themselves to be unconscious. 

Like the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. 

I can't stop being so negative.

I tell myself that I cannot have true love with a man.

I can’t stop replenishment/newness 

Drugs

say what is best for my own well being…but should not impose that on others

I feel like I can't find someone who'll love me for me. Someone who'll understand and accept, or atleast help with my flaws.

I also feel like I can't get out of addictions. Damn those EVIL addictions.

I can't be brave. I can't live up to society's standards (or my own standards) of courage and masculinity.

I can't have a life where I'm just happy doing what I truly love doing. I instead have to live out my "soul mission", some god-ordained thing that honestly feels like a chore.

I feel like I can't have a normal life... one where I do what everyone does; have a "normal" job, have "normal" relationships, do normal sh!t. Instead I have to sacrifice all this for a "greater purpose". 

Screw spirituality, man.

Every fucking thing is a 'no' for me

I cant change the world.. alone.

I cant pay attention.  

Can't heal

Can't have a healthy & loving relationship with my son. 

Can't move forward

being social when I just had a meltdown. sometimes im actually more recharged after, cause I let it all go.. but I keep telling myself I can't, and it may not me a good idea..

Cant be myself figure out who me is can't follow my dreams to the end of the earth can't own a house can't be by myself cant function can't be androgenous can't transition can't have people who want the things I want can't do anything unless I think I can master what it is iam doing can't have things come easy have to earn have to struggle have to survive can't buy what I want without consequence can't have my soul mate back 

I cant have peace/rest and eustress. I can only have stress.

I cant change to the possitive/better, it can only get worse.

That I can’t move on in my spiritual journey until I learn how to feel again.
 

I have to be more flexible. I am resisting this lesson and have procrastinated for weeks, stalling my research completely. Maybe I need to research other things & gain more introspection. Maybe how to feel will come naturally, or I will become more ready to learn this lesson as I learn other things. Keep going, Melissah. You can do this. You can figure this out.