"What do I complain about more than anything else?"

The universe is calling me out lol. I'd say the thing I complain the most about is my inability to achieve anything I want because I feel so blocked due to being brought to the US as a child and not getting DACA so I'm here as an illegal and have few choices of what to do with my life. It seems like everyone in my situation just works a physically draining factory job for 8 dollars an hour until they die. I feel like I just watch others live and I have no options. That's what I complain about the most. 

Right now: politicians.

How hideous and shitty I look, how inferior not talented and embarrassing I am, and likewise tear the ones opposite of me down the same way. It’s the same complaints about myself that I can’t change all day long everyday for as long as I can remember 

I complain sometimes at my inability to foster any kind of forward momentum despite trying for so long, I am learning with every attempt but I do wish to one day actually be able to live a more frictionless life

That I'm always busy and everyone give me more work to do and no one listening to me 

I complain to myself the most about how I don’t follow through on things I need & want to do...... that is currently decreasing & faith in myself drastically increasing

Loneliness

My eldest brother ...I give out about him alot...he makes life difficult sometimes....I complain about lack of fortune...iv no luck it seems....

Prob while driving. Complain about the other drivers or myself.

I complain a lot about the new world order as it worries me greatly.

Loneliness. Not feeling connected to others.

My patterns.

knowing this…makes me aware of them and whether to take action in rearranging them or eliminating them

How hard the difficult things I choose to do are.

How people use my love and understanding 

How people don’g take responsibility for how I feel

How I don’t have friends

How I’m alone most of the time

How I’m the only one who cares about connection or peace

How things are not up to my standards

Staying in patterns

That I haven't had even a one day with you.

A specific type of racism that directly impacts me in a life deterrent way.

Abusive relationships

Being emotionally tired

My environment 

About beeing alone.

Growing up in the Pscyhe services, being put on the drugs at the age of six, growing up paralyzed and numb, then being put on more drugs, running away, then getting locked into the system again at twenty on the site that my mum was training on to become a pscyhe nurse and then another few years of drugs, found my emotions again and then managed to get out. Had lost my heart in the midst of the process then gradually made my way back into spirituality. The system still exists and is failling people. That is what I complain about the most.

I'm constantly seeing my different fragmented parts arguing. It's exhausting.

Wow. Here we are calling ourselves out

I complain about never finishing what I start…which leads to me complaining about my lack of confidence in myself..I always upset myself when I think about the things that I could accomplish if I wouldn’t let myself and outside influences convince me of what the supposed outcome would be

Being lain low by circumstance, relational trauma, poverty, instability, addiction, and most of all my own poor choices based on the perspective that I had through those shit colored shades created by the previously stated factors.