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  1. lightworker

    Childhood Story

    Cinderella - specifically the Disney one and Ever After. I was suffering from being abandoned by my family emotionally. They were there physically, but not really as evidenced by the "evil" stepsisters and step mother. I was suffering from being unrecognized and diminished and belittled and tried upon. I wanted to be and feel important. I wanted to be loved. I wanted to be chosen by someone and to be lifted up because of who I am. I wanted to be envied and admired and cherished. I wanted the kind of passion for life that Danielle had and inspired in Henry. Swan Princess - the cartoon. I felt cursed and forgotten by the world. I felt like I had a double that was what people saw as me but wasn't really me. I wanted to be fought for and cherished and adored and beautiful and obsessed over. Ocarina of Time - I identify with both Link and Zelda. I was never believed or taken seriously, like Zelda wasn't when she warned her father of Ganondorf. I lost my childhood early like Link did, and was forced to grow up before I was ready. I had some guides and helpers but their help was limited or disappointing and the odds were always against me. I wanted to fight for something and believe in something and to be important, to matter. I wanted to be vindicated. I wanted to be powerful. I wanted to experience an epic life full of adventure and meaning and deep destiny-level importance to the fabric and history of the world. I wanted a return to innocence. Fated and epic and lifelong friendships with important and powerful people. God-touched, legendary destiny to save the world with the help of my friends. The Wind Waker - again I identify with both Link and Zelda. I was thrown into the world by force, suddenly my.xuoldhood was ripped away and i was smacked in the face with reality. I was pretending to be someone I was not for the sake of safety. I wanted to find my place in a world that had swallowed me whole. I wanted adventure. Destined lifelong friendships. Leadership among my peers. The unwavering trust and support of my comrades. The importance of my destiny to be revealed and for that destiny to be fucking epic. I wanted travel and inspiration and passion. I wanted to meet and intertwine with souls I had known for thousands of lifetimes and for us to recognize each other as such. I wanted my life to be god-touched and epic and legendary.
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    Monotony

    Lilac. We had a lilac tree in our backyard when I was little. Lilac puts me into a trance. Pine Sol. Spring breezes. The smell of the ocean.
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    Teal On Candy

    Almond joy and Mounds. Snickers. Kit Kats. OMG. Also Skittles. And those giant chewy Smarties. Blow pops. Sour gummy worms. And SWEETHEARTS!! Love those. And butter mints. And the wintergreen lifesavers. oh my godddddd
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    Transcendence

    Can I just say that from the MINUTEv 2020 hit, this energy of reinvention, transcendence, and the collapse of the old to bring in the new hit me like a fucking wall of bricks??? LITERALLY THE MINUTE. It started with a new years kiss that ended up with me being sexually assaulted in a bathroom. It has caused a lot of drama among my friends and forced me to look at my own trauma. I had been gaslighting myself about the fact that I was raped twice in November. I had been lying to my friends, pretending I am okay with drinking and doing drugs when I'm not. It's forced me to confront my issues with confronting people for fear of losing connection. It's forced me into a SERIOUS level of respect for my emotions that I never had before. I gaslit the shit out of myself for so long. No longer. I started a group for sex workers who are sober on my twitter, which has 40+ members and is already making waves and connecting people in ways that no one was previously connected by. It's forced me to take a look at my daily habits and what contributes to my substance abuse and how doing something towards my goals every single day can prevent me from using drinking and drugs to cope with the fact that I hate my life. I don't feel disempowered anymore. I feel infinitely powerful and capable and like this is just the beginning of something great.
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    Online Workshop OCT 2019 - 1/2

    Landlords and private property ownership are not a necessity, they are actually a hindrance to social and human progress. Property would belong to all people (,your house would be a personal possession, not private property. Personal possessions still exist, but no one "owns" a place of business except the people who do the labor).
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    Salt Flats Shoot

    This is so fun and teal is so beautiful!! Photoshoots can be fun if you are working was photographer you trust and like. I have worked w many photographers who are just awful.
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    Salt Flats Shoot

    Beautiful introspection.. thank you!
  8. What you're looking for is the end of capitalism into a more connected, alive, creative, sustainable, win-win system like socialism, communism, and eventually anarchism - which is where we need to go if we are going to survive. As of right now, by the time we reach global cataclysm, it will be too late. We need immediate systemic change, not apocalypse.
  9. If we could "pray" that all the CEOs of these corporations, the board members and investors, and the corrupt politicians somehow "reincarnated" as donkeys within the next few weeks, that'd be great.
  10. Beautiful and beautifully said.
  11. Horrible.... I feel so powerless to do anything about what other people are doing, I look out and see so much unconsciousness, meat eating, lack of respect for the self by destroying the earth completely ignorantly. I feel like the only power i have is over myself and that that's not good enough because I still see so much blind arrogance. The fact is that CEOs, destructive politicians, and the people who run these corporations need to be taken out. They need to be rehabilitated forcibly at the very least and if they are unwilling to change, their power needs to be taken away completely so they can at least cause no more harm.
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    Fear Of Intimacy

    You look so beautiful, that yellow suits you!!
  13. I wanted to see what their quotes would be too!! Mine would be "I have no special talent. I am only passionately curious".
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    Rejecting 3D

    Wow. Classic denial tactic as well as negating your experience and denying you as a person. Incredible bypassing.
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