Physical problems: Excess weight, droopy chest, eyesight, insomnia, fatigue, migraines, fatigue 

mental blocks, depression, night terrors, anxiety, panic attacks

passion and purpose blocks

body image majorly, and poor self image, low self esteem, insecurity.

Financial abundance! Coming from a Catholic background it was never amazing but my three years of buddhist practice has COMPLETELY DESTROYED my ability to manifest abundance.

Trying to become a straight A Nursing student. Everytime I come up with a new plan to get me there it fails; I end up doing worst or getting the same grades. 

Money

 Man

Money.

Emotional and mental healing, I can’t seem to access anything due to cover emotions, coder emotions cover emotions and cover emotions oh gosh
 

Pure O ocd. Intrusive thoughts, constant (mental) obsessions and never ending rumination. Fuck my life I'm gonna die like this.

Right now everything. Lack of faith, laziness, procrastination, self sabotage, self criticism, hopelessness, victim mentality, all chakras unbalanced, complete disconnect from self (zero interest in self discovery, self improvement) and the universe out there. almost total apathy. vast , gaping emptiness of void inside. Like a black hole that sucks all light in. Nothing stays.  Its like i reverted back pre-awakening. I say things, I know them to be true in my mind, but I feel empty inside as I say them. Like im just repeating things. I dont really believe them anymore. I miss the openness and pure belief I had when I first woke up. 

I need a man in order to handle the world, but I need to go into the world in order to be found by a man

On 2/8/2021 at 5:32 AM, G98 said:

Pure O ocd. Intrusive thoughts, constant (mental) obsessions and never ending rumination. Fuck my life I'm gonna die like this.

I've suffered from intrusive thoughts too. What has helped me is finding something healthy to obsess about. Chances are that you've got a very active mind, that needs to grip onto something. If that is the case, your brain might be obsessing over unvoluntary things just because you haven't given it anything else to chew, so to speak. This is just my speculation, take it as you will. 

I want to experience ongoing Reciprocal Romantic Love in my physical reality. IE: true and lasting love with a partner that I'm deeply attracted to.

On 2/7/2021 at 10:32 PM, G98 said:

Pure O ocd. Intrusive thoughts, constant (mental) obsessions and never ending rumination. Fuck my life I'm gonna die like this.

I’ve struggled with that too. How are you doing now? 

Completing my degree, becoming financially independent and getting the fuck away from my abusive family

Literally everything. I'm blocked at every turn. Everytime I try to make progress I'm blasted backwards. I don't get it. My life is just one epic failure after another. I can't even kill myself properly. 

I'm not meant to work. But I am terrified of men & my family is abusive. I'm not a hustler. I'm not meant to hustle and break my back for survival. And yet it's all I do. I work all day. My day is spent working. And I am in poverty. I have nothing to show for it. When I tell her what I'm going through my mom recommends a homeless shelter, I would say I've fallen, but I would have had to be up somewhere to fall from. I have no hope. I have nothing. 

Mostly my environment. I can't seem to get away from this home that isn't mine. I've changed as a person, completely as an entirely different person year after year, yet disappointment comes when I've still failed at changing my environment. It keeps me from truly healing from my past traumas as most reside here, and not only the house itself but it's owner as well. Yet work hasn't worked out as my body couldn't take what was required for it (endometriosis). Though I'm creating a business together with a friend in hopes it will get us both to where we want to be, the process is rather slow. I love working on our business, but I'm afraid it will be another ten years before I can finally feel free. I probably sound very dramatic, hell maybe I am. But being stuck in my own room constantly being gaslit and reliving trauma isn't my idea of living. I feel like I have chains around my ankles and the person holding them is telling me to run, only to yank them back and my face just hits the floor again.

sexual abuse

E V E R Y T H I N G

On 5/12/2021 at 4:39 PM, Hannah Black said:

I’ve struggled with that too. How are you doing now? 

 = 

I can't let go of things..people who died ..relationships painful situationsor events...etc..I carry them with me

so many things!

- Overcoming social trauma. I mostly can do one on one. As the group gets larger I dissociate. I can't get past it. Tried the completion process over and over and I the same emotional pain and fear comes up. 

This spills over into work (interacting with clients) and relationships.

 - finding what i love doing. i almost think i feel dead inside. 

- easily angry and judgmental

Giving up control (cause I feel scared) 

On 12/1/2021 at 1:27 AM, Klara Linea Ejerskov said:

Giving up control (cause I feel scared) 

I managed to give up as much control as needed and it's actually really wonderful. 

Where I am at rn is this: I'm afraid of people overstepping my boundries, especially men. But almost always I'm afraid that it's the clingy type of man that will not attune to me and respect my emotional or physical boundries. It's frustrating, because many of the people I've talked to really bypass this problem because I'm scared of a "sweet guy" and not a toxic masculinity type of guy (you know the one big guy that catcalls you on the street). I'm also afraid of the toxic masculinity guy, but getting validation on the validity of that problem is waaay easier! 

I am stuck between control and anarchy. I am afraid of both. Controlling inherently abuses free will and does not make people feel respected or free. Anarchy abuses promises and agreements which creates an unsafe environment for every parties involved.

What is the third option here? Anybody have ideas?

Acceptance and releasing resistance. Also letting go of the past. 

Another is self confidence. 

On 9/13/2021 at 3:07 AM, Mykie said:

Mostly my environment. I can't seem to get away from this home that isn't mine. I've changed as a person, completely as an entirely different person year after year, yet disappointment comes when I've still failed at changing my environment. It keeps me from truly healing from my past traumas as most reside here, and not only the house itself but it's owner as well. Yet work hasn't worked out as my body couldn't take what was required for it (endometriosis). Though I'm creating a business together with a friend in hopes it will get us both to where we want to be, the process is rather slow. I love working on our business, but I'm afraid it will be another ten years before I can finally feel free. I probably sound very dramatic, hell maybe I am. But being stuck in my own room constantly being gaslit and reliving trauma isn't my idea of living. I feel like I have chains around my ankles and the person holding them is telling me to run, only to yank them back and my face just hits the floor again.

Thank you for sharing, i feel the same right now and it's maddening. I really crave some spiritual friends who can understand. Please reach out if you feel like making a connection - @earthyleonie on insta xx