Teal, we are absolutely on the same page. This is the blog post I wrote, intentionally without once looking at yours before publishing!
What an exciting year! I did not begin the forming of some of the things I am doing now in 2009, but that's mainly because I was still at the very beginning stages of awakening... However, to be honest, in 2009 I really, really liked this guy who went to my church because he's had so many interesting philosophies that have changed my life... Anyways, today we got coffee ?
The old me hated myself so much that I couldn't see him ever liking me (Oh yeah, I had it bad, and if you're reading this and recognizing you've felt that way towards someone you've liked, you've got it bad too), but last year I had an awakening - I was making this video on the heart chakra (sarcastically) and while making it I realized that I avoid people that I like because of this shame based mindset. Suddenly the fact that I did that made no sense! I went through all this crazy shit and almost died, literally multiple times, (which you can read about in my previous blog post) ... But thanks to that, I've lost the fear. ?
As always, thank you for being a catalyst for integration, Teal! An exciting year indeed!