Ask Yourself...

I blame myself (and even my unconscious self) for having some “glass walls” which  stop me from getting an abundance. (Ok, so.. parts work it is!).
 

I also blame myself & my partner for not getting enough resources for our son.

I blame my negative beliefs 

I blame my parents for not seeing me or helping Me. I especially feel angry with my dad since he he’s blaming me for demanding to come here(to live with him) even though He know this was my only option to be able to survive, literally(I’m sick and also have no income).  
 

I blame him for not treating me like a person, with needs and wants. That he decides on whether I can have my needs met, which makes me feel unsafe and scared. So yeah, definitely blaming him for feeling that. I also blame my mum for her not taking in critisism(turns it back on me very quickly), cause I really need her to know how I’ve been affected so I can have a better relationship with her and also so she can actually help me. 
 

I also see that if I would’ve had more strong and solid boundaries, It wouldn’t have gotten this far. 
 

Gonna try to be more solid(though it’s so hard as I’m sick and barely want to continue), and try to reach my mum again about how I feel and what I need. I’m so scared I won’t be able to do it/not do it properly though. Wish me luck, thanks.

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my MOOOOOM! she sucks....😶😬😓😅

Thanks for the support!!!:) What do you mean out of control here?

Edited August 7, 20224 yr by Garnet
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Thanks a lot for the validation! The struggle is real since I don’t know how to go forward and get the help I need. Thanks for reaching out. x

Edited August 7, 20224 yr by Garnet
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Right now no one, nothing and otherwise well it starts with me and it ends with me. while me is everything and everyone, life itself. But life is beautiful in the end, this which I can not name now, yet, maybe never. This is amazing* Wonderful, beautiful, magical because it is. To be is what I do not blame because I want it. ❤️

abhorrent spiritual teachers and pretty much 99% of spirituality at this point

Myself. For EVERYTHING. Maybe that's art of my problem lol.

I blame closed doors that I feel I have closed.

I blame my actions and how they have limited me. I blame myself for not acting also.

There's no one to blame..its a shit scenario that I got caught up in...ya I could blame my mother, circumstance, god, the fates etc but man it was all on me..nobody made me do anything..I did it..I am responsible and I have to live with my choices....it sickens me but no one in to blame but me and even then anyone would have struggled in that scenario....I just got selfish and greedy and having been through what I have I can't blame myself for that...to grab on with both hands to a tiny bit of love I was given is human...especially having been starved of it all along....how can you ask more of me there like...I'm just sorry that I dragged her through the mud....she showed me kindness and look what it got her...sheer destruction...incredibly rank..and I have to live with that 

Edited August 6, 20215 yr by The hot cro

my mom and dad, and aunt

Myself for involving with others not in alignment

Birth

Myself for getting involved in the drama at times. Learning to click it to another channel.

I blame the system. The societal structures that have been built without the individual and collective best interest at heart

The government, colonial rule, unrequited love poi, my mum a tiny bit and myself a whole lot

Can only blame self really

I blame people and my past

And I blame myself.

Wheel of life and the immature part of myself.

I blame my own expectations of others. The reflection of a reflection that turns into an infinite loop. With no end to how far from the reality of what the object of my expectations is really capable of.

And when i say others i do include my ego as well.

I blame myself😭😭 n My mother, the world

Everyone and everything. But most of the time. My mother.

My parents, if they'd given me up for adoption, I would've gotten the chance to have real actual parents. 

I'm an orphan basically, both just stayed because of status (and to abuse and misuse us). I wish Id never known my biological parents.

This is to me even worse than orphanage. (and I've been thinking this way the last 25 years) I'm 28.

An imaginary belief system built to confrom and be 'right'. Family for their absence, and not acting on what I truly want. I mean, they put me on drugs from the age of six lol. It is part of the good reason I've left. Love feeling loved and don't want to keep the cycle going.