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Are You Complying Or Rebelling?

In our current phase of personal development, people are learning how to maintain connection to each other in relationship and maintain a sense of themselves (autonomy) at the exact same time. We are currently struggling with two polarized forms of pain, enmeshment (loss of self) and isolation (loss of closeness with others). In this struggle, people tend to become very confused and fail to see what they are doing clearly. This is especially true when an individual who has experienced enmeshment trauma or isolation trauma begins to heal. Today, I’m going to explain a pattern that people struggling to heal from enmeshment trauma tend to slip into without seeing it.
Autonomy (having a sense of self vs. other) is an important part of physical existence for a person within a social group. So is a sense of closeness and connection. What people need is to be able to have themselves and have other people too at the same time. To understand more about this, watch my video titled: The Freedom/Connection Split Within Humanity.  Enmeshment does not allow for you to have yourself and have others too at the same time. An enmeshed relationship does not recognize or accept boundaries. Remember that a boundary is simply the imaginary line that uniquely defines your personal happiness, your personal feelings, your personal thoughts, your personal integrity, your personal desires, your personal needs and therefore most importantly, your personal truth from the rest of the universe. Therefore, enmeshment trauma happens when in a relationship, the person does not recognize or accept or acknowledge or work with the reality of your personal feelings, your personal thoughts, your personal integrity, your personal desires, your personal needs and therefore most importantly, your personal truth. In fact, differentiating yourself puts you at risk of consequences such as punishment or abandonment. The result is that you either choose to face those consequences, or (in order to maintain harmony in the relationship and closeness) you have to ‘give yourself up’ and mirror the other person so that your thoughts and feelings and needs and desires and truth and choices are either the same as theirs or what they want them to be… You comply.
If you would like to understand enmeshment in a much more in-depth way, I strongly encourage you to watch my video titled: How To Heal Family Enmeshment Trauma. Long story short, many people do not believe it is possible to have themselves and have other people too at the same time. They believe that in order to be able to have a relationship, they must simply comply to the other person. Conversely, they believe that to have a sense of self, they must rebel against the other person.
So many people are stuck in this pendulum swing between compliance and rebellion… Either conformity or resistance. And neither of these states are healthy or empowered. So many people simply give themselves up to have a relationship with someone. So many people spend their life in the disempowered state of rebellion, imagining themselves to finally be empowered, when in reality, in a state of rebellion, their life is still controlled by the same person they tried to break free from. So that you can better understand what I mean, I’ll give you an example:
A woman grew up in a house with a verbally abusive, dictatorial father who would slap her across the face for disobeying. This is not a house where boundaries are accepted. So she learned that the only way to stay safe and to have a relationship is to please the other person. She spent the first part of her life complying and suffering from everything that goes along with the experience of enmeshment. Then, she hit a breaking point, at which point she rebelled against her father. In response to this, he disowned her. What she lost in that rebellion was all of the very real needs that were being met through that relationship. What she found in that rebellion, was a sense of herself… The feeling of boundaries. This felt personally empowering. But obviously, this whole experience caused very real trauma. She transferred this entire traumatic experience onto the next authority figure, the government. She spent her life politically fixated. Any time there was a rally to attend, she went to it; determined to “stick it to the man”. To her, this felt empowering and definitely made her feel a strong sense of self-hood. But from a higher perspective, she was still completely controlled by her father. Her life had first been lived for him and then had been lived against him. Her entire life was about him. Therefore, he was always the one in control of her life. But because rebellion feels so much more empowered than compliance, people fail to see when they are in a state of rebellion, that they are every bit as disempowered and enmeshed as when they were complying. And they fail to realize that dedicating your life to being against something or someone, is a recipe for suffering.
If you feel that you fall into a risk category with this pattern, it is important to live with the following question in mind: “Am I complying or rebelling?” Then, make the situation about yourself, instead of about the other person. What I mean by this is, imagine that there was nothing/no one there to comply with or push against. If you suddenly found yourself away from them and in a vacuum of space and time (but aware of the situation) what are your personal feelings, your personal thoughts, your personal integrity, your personal desires, your personal needs and therefore most importantly, your personal truth? What are you for instead of against? What do you want instead of not want? What would you think, say or do if there were no consequences in this scenario? This is the beginning of stepping into a place of actual free will. Free will is not about being against something, any more than it is about complying with something. Where people need to go is towards the conscious development of free will within relationships. This implies the existence of both autonomy and alignment in relationships. For this reason, it may benefit you to watch my video titled: How To Create A Safe Relationship.
A little-known fact is that if you are taking action based off of what you are for, your actions will be totally different than if you are taking action based off of what you are against. It is as important to establish a sense of self that is not dependent on opposition in order to exist, as it is to establish connection that is not dependent on compliance or obedience. True empowerment and true freedom do not lie in either the extreme of compliance or rebellion. Your life does not have to be reduced to a reaction to other people. Seek genuine personal truth and empowerment instead.

The Purpose of Life (Why to Choose Life)

What is the purpose of life? This question has plagued people for centuries. It is the subject of religious, philosophical and cultural debate the world over. No person lives their life without asking this question at least once. When we ask this question, the first thing we are curious about is whether life (including our own individual life) is a random accident or whether life was created intentionally and therefore, has some inherent reason to exist and some intrinsic value. For this reason, I am going to explain the purpose of life, including why it is so important and what is so good and valuable about being alive. Essentially, I’m going to make a case for incarnation; for physical life.
Before I launch into this, know that I am very limited by language when discussing things that transcend the physical laws, whose concepts are inherent in the very creation of our language, and are therefore limited when trying to accurately convey any realities outside of those laws. Also, strap on your mental seatbelts.
From a more objective perspective, life is something that transcends the physical. This means that a scientist’s definition of alive or living is painfully limited. Many things that a scientist today would consider to be inanimate and therefore not alive, are in fact living. And there is life going on outside the physical dimension, separate of any physical embodiment. Consciousness imbues everything in existence. From an objective perspective, “life” is the experience of being able to perceive and being able to create thought. Therefore, anything that can perceive or create thought, is alive. And it is important to understand that the brain is not the originator of thought. The brain is, in and of itself, a specific thought that manifested in the physical dimension. But because understanding this level of reality becomes very complicated, let’s look at the reason for your physical life here on earth.
Collective consciousness (often called Source or God) is in the process of seeking self-awareness. When, the concept of “I” was born within Source, an event so much infinitely larger than the big bang occurred. Since Source is all there is, with no beginning or no end, Source suddenly felt lonely. If Source is all there is, there is nothing else to be in relationship with. That thought, “I”, suddenly created the concept of a beginning and end or a boundary to something that has no beginning or end. The thought “I” cannot come into existence without the concept of “other”. Source began to fragment itself in order to have something to be in relationship with. It split into parts, like a mosaic. Source is now aware that this “loneliness” is really only the result of the thought “I” and also that the perception of separation is really only the result of splitting itself into these fragments. Which is why Source has become aware that it now wants to come back to a state of oneness. But the initial curiosity that it had… “what am I”? is served by this process of fragmentation and then return to oneness. By the energy of Source splitting into these “differing thoughts” and each differing thought projecting forth new differing thoughts, Source learned more and more about itself. Each new thought, is a new drawing forth from potential energy. It tells Source more and more about itself. We call this process of continual creation and perception “expansion”. And it was taking place far, far before the existence of the physical dimension, much less physical life on earth.
Each dimension was a creation that was part of this process of expansion. Each dimension had different laws and each universe within each dimension operates according to different laws. These different laws were created to enhance this process of expansion and of self-awareness within Source. The concept of a “mirror” was created long before an actual mirror was ever invented. The idea of being able to see yourself reflected on the outside is one of the principal laws that governs this time-space reality that you are currently incarnated into. It is often called the law of attraction. Essentially, whatever vibration you hold, is reflected on the outside, so you can see that reflection and use that awareness you gain from it, to decide what you desire to create next. And then perceiving that new creation, what you desire and therefore will create next. Physicality is another concept that was created as a part of this process. As a way of better perceiving these thoughts. Essentially Source, which you are a fragment of, created the time-space reality of physical existence here on earth as a giant learning/self-awareness construct. And you, as a fragment of Source chose to project forth and attune yourself to this specific time space reality to assist in that process, because being a fragment of Source itself, doing so not only serves your own personal expansion, but also Source’s.
I have found that perhaps the best way of describing this to a physical human, even though this analogy has many flaws, is to have a person think of themselves as God who knows that everything in existence is them, simply appearing in a different form. And then, to imagine themselves sitting down to play a video game that they, themselves designed, using their own energy to build it, for the purpose of self-awareness. They first think up an avatar for this video game. And then project forth a portion of their energy to not only create this avatar in the game, but to enter into it, so as to perceive this video game world from inside the individual perspective of this avatar. This means, they are now two points of perspective. The non-physical “god self” and the physical, temporal person that is called John or Nancy or whatever. This avatar must participate in the very laws that govern the game, and there are important and valuable reasons for those laws to exist. The aim is to experience this video game world, through this individual perspective so as to allow the contrasting experiences that are a part of it, to give rise to new desires and therefore new thought and therefore, new things to fully perceive. Do you feel like you can truly understand something until you walk in someone’s Shoes? No? Source agrees! So, it seeks to walk in the shoes of and view other parts of itself from the perspective of all things that could possibly be created from its own infinite potential energy.
And perceiving in the physical dimension, is as intense as it currently gets. It is the cutting edge of expansion, because it is the cutting edge of perception. Here, Source can see, smell, hear, touch and taste itself. This is also a “consensus reality” which means that part of what you chose to come here to do, was to co-create the overall experience of physical existence on earth with everything and everyone else that exists here. Consensus realities tell Source even more about itself than individual reality constructs do. For example, being an avatar itself and being another avatar, observing the first one, are two very different experiences. Also, it is a great way to elicit consensus, which flushes bigger, overarching truths to the surface of awareness.
There is always a very important reason why the non-physical projects forth into this physical dimension as the avatar that you call by your name. This is one’s “life purpose”. Using our example, because of this initial intention for coming into this game, each incarnation that comes into this construct, is enhancing the game itself. But this intention is within you, you were created in its image. Your entire emotional guidance system is created in its image. Therefore, your purpose cannot be separate from your joy. Following what feels good will lead you into alignment with your purpose for being in this construct to begin with. This is why many teachers, who are aware of this dynamic, teach people to follow their joy. And even go so far as to say that the purpose of life is joy.
Every being has a different perspective and therefore has a different experience of life. Which is why the couch has a different perspective of being kicked than the dog. This different experience, creates different and new thoughts and this is one reason why each being, whether it is human or not, has such a valuable place within this picture of the universe at large. You come into a different perspective (incarnation here) in order to extract all possible awareness from that specific existence. And it is the amalgamation of all of these subjective perspectives that adds up to universal, objective perspective… universal awareness.
This means that the ultimate purpose of life is the process of self-awareness within Source, which you are a fragment of. And this process of Source becoming self-aware is being actualized through the process of expansion. And the process of expansion is being served indescribably by this physical human existence in the time space reality that you call life on earth. You could call this the more practical purpose of life.
There is also a less practical purpose of life, and that is… life. To understand this aspect of the purpose of life, ask a surfer why he surfs. Or a traveler, why he travels. Or ask a child why he climbs a tree. It is for the experience itself without some secondary aim. It is for the intensity of the experience of projecting forth into this specific dimension so as to have this specific experience. It is to experience more. To know more. To project forth more thought and more desire. To see those thoughts and desires come to fruition and manifest in the physical. And when those new things manifest, to know that you are standing in a new perspective, which in and of itself creates more and different thoughts, desires and manifestations. To be able to touch and taste and smell and feel and hear those manifestations. This means that an element of the purpose of life is the thrill of it. Physical existence is one hell of an adventure. This is where the action is. Which is why so many other non-physical perspectives are focused on physical life on earth. If you can accept that it is an adventure and consciously choose that adventure, then it matters less whether your experience here is “good or bad” because it is all so valuable.
There is an undeniable intensity to physicality… both positive and negative. There is nothing like physical life on earth. This is where you can touch your lover’s skin. This is where you can feel absence. This is where you can experience an ending and a beginning. This is where you can taste flavors that evoke tears and hear sounds that stir the soul within the body. To sort through the incredible contrast of this time-space reality and to feel the strength of the desires that are born from that process and to follow those desires so as to see the tangible manifestation of your desire through all the senses, is a sweeter actualization than you can currently find anywhere. It is a much more powerful actualization. When we experience something like complete isolation, we want to actualize something like togetherness in the physical. And guess what? It will feel like unfinished business until that happens. Even when you die, unfinished business in life relative to the desires that life caused you to create, compels you back to life. We are an ocean of potential energy and we want to see what those potentials are. We want to see and taste and smell and hear and feel them.
It is totally understandable that if you come into this time space reality, into a physical incarnation and begin to suffer, you would second guess the decision to come here, especially if you have forgotten that it was a choice that you deliberately made at one point. But re-connecting with the purpose for life in the big picture of things and knowing that you were meant to come here for the adventure and richness of the experience of this time-space thought construct, can help you to re-connect with the commitment and curiosity that you initially came into this life with. There is no middle when it comes to life. You can’t be “kind of committed’ to life. And the only way to really extract all that life has to offer, is to consciously and powerfully decide to commit to it. Many people have a conditional relationship with life. I can promise you that you did not have a conditional relationship with life itself when you first made the decision to come into life.
  You did not come here to suffer. You came here to have an adventure, knowing that the path of the specific adventure that you decide to walk down, will create your own expansion and create expansion within the universe at large. You knew that you would be able to do this by following your unique and specific passion. You came prepared to chase your joy to the ends of the earth, knowing that not everything you encountered here would feel good.
So, I’m going to ask you a few questions: What about life makes it worth it to go through unwanted, negative or painful things? How might life be good, even when life is shitty? What would it take for you to let go of the conditional relationship that you have with life? What is making you push against life? What is the value in life in and of itself? What do you value about physical life? Make a list.
One thing I want you to remember, is that physical life is a manifestation of both wanted and unwanted. Both positive and negative polarities exist in everything in existence. Nothing is all good or all bad. Both polarities are in everything. This means, there is negative in every positive thing. But there is positive in every negative thing. For example, loss of job security may bring you more personal freedom than ever before. And it goes further, there is a positive and negative inherent in personal freedom too. People take life for granted. And in a way, this makes sense. In the same way that many people don’t value the taste of food until they are starving. In the same way that many people don’t value the feeling of aliveness inherent in emotions, until they are numb. Now, I want you to very seriously imagine that the only thing here in this adventure called life is good and positive. What would be negative about that?
Don’t become closed to experience in and of itself. Change the way you are thinking about the experiences you are having. Becoming closed off to experience, assigning painful meaning to experiences and perceiving yourself to be powerless to create change so as to get to your preferred experience is what creates suffering here. It is why people make an enemy of the experience itself. Pain is a part of life. But pain has a positive side. Pain is your indication that you need to change something. If you don’t make a change when pain appears to tell you to make a change, you will suffer. Imagine life with no pain. No new desire would ever be created. There would be no expansion, there would be no movement.
The beauty of physical experience is that you can change your experience here. Never accept that it must stay the way it is, or that it is meant to stay the way it is. Find the “can” in any situation. You are meant to experience the manifestation of what you desire here. It serves the universe at large for you to do that. You can change your adventure. But to change your adventure, you must be willing to change! To understand more about why we don’t change, it may benefit you to watch my video titled: The Real Reason Why People Don’t Change.
You must be willing to see that life is an adventure and no one is getting out of it alive! Life did not happen to you. No one ends up here without choosing it. Luck or curse has got nothing to do with it. The people who sink into habit and who do not change and who wait for this life to happen to them, rather than to actively happen to life, will simply arrive at death… safely. There is value inherent in death. But death will teach you the value of life.
Therefore, if you were to decide to stop resisting what you don’t want in life and instead took action based on what you do want, what would that action be? What adventure would you choose if you were brave enough to be committed to what you know right now that you want?
Don’t live for the afterlife. This life is not a test to get through. Fall in love with the process of life itself as if this is the place to be. After all, physical life is an unfinished project. The most exciting thing is to see how it will turn out.

You Care About Power!

In the modern era, power has garnered a really, really bad reputation. So has anyone who values it or seeks it. You’ll hear things like: He or she is just power hungry. Power destroys. Power is always dangerous; it attracts the worst and corrupts the best. All experiments in power have a bad ending. The problem with this country is power. The root of all evil is the quest for power. Whoever has power is going to try to control people. Only the weak seek power. You only need power when you want to do something harmful, otherwise love is enough to get everything done. Power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely, and the list goes on and on. 
The problem with power being seen as such a bad thing, such a wrong value and the seeking of it so shameful, is multi fold. I’m going to explain just a few reasons why. Firstly, it isn’t actually possible for a person to not want power. If you are alive, you care about power. If you are alive, you are involved in power struggles. If you are alive, you want power, whether you can admit to it or not. And if you are a person who likes to think that you don’t care about power, that there is your strategy for gaining power. For example, it allows you to gain power by being in a superior moral position relative to other ‘less evolved’ people. Saying “I don’t care about power” is in and of itself a power trip.
Power is energy. It is the inherent capacity to create, direct, influence or do something so as to bring about what you want. All people desire this, regardless of whether other people are in the picture or not. But, let’s introduce other people into the picture. When we do this, we see that because of ‘them’, we can easily find ourselves in certain situations where we feel incapable of creating, directing, influencing or doing anything so as to bring about what we want. When this happens, we feel out of control, disempowered and at the mercy of others. It is when we find ourselves in these situations that we become concerned with our power relative to other people or about having power over others so as to be able to keep ourselves safe and feeling good. This means, the more relationally traumatized you were, the more you care about power relative to others. And you can’t even say that something went wrong. It makes perfect sense if you were put in situations where you felt powerless to others, that you would become hypersensitive to power dynamics, prone to power struggles and very concerned with making sure you were always in a position of either equal or more power relative to the people around you. All people have power, all people want power and all people seek power. But believe me, they have some seriously creative and disguised ways of getting it.
The second problem with power being seen as such a bad thing in and of itself, such a wrong value and the seeking of it so shameful is that the minute society makes something bad and wrong, people try to suppress, deny, reject and disown it. If all people inherently have power, care about power and seek it, this just means that our power, the caring about it and the seeking of it will become a subconscious process. This means, we can no longer see the need for power in ourselves. We can’t recognize or accept that we are doing things specifically to gain power. We will enter into subconscious power struggles and not see the manipulative strategies that we are using to gain power; including gain power over others.
When society makes something so bad and wrong that it has consequences, it becomes an enemy of the ego and we can no longer see it in ourselves, even when it is there. It threatens our self-concept. This means, we have created a modern society full of individuals that deny our power, deny that we care about and want power and deny (are blind to) the ways we are going about gaining power. This makes society very, very gaslighting. This is what makes people use power in very dangerous ways. This also prevents our awakening. To understand more about this in-depth, watch my video titled: Self Concept, The Enemy of Awakening (Accept the Badness Within Yourself).
For example, there are wonderful police officers and security professionals in the world. But there are some police officers or security professionals who take positions like that subconsciously and specifically because of the power that being in those positions gives them. And when they are not consciously aware of their love of power, as well as how that power could heal or poison and could help or destroy lives, they can and do abuse that power.
Or for example, we could be helping other people, so as to ensure that they are in debt to us in some way, or to gain the moral high ground. When we are doing this, we will outright deny that we care about having power over other people, while in reality, having power over other people is really what is motivating us to help others.
The third problem with power being seen as such a bad thing, such a wrong value and the seeking of it so shameful is that it prohibits people from going for personal power in direct and conscious ways. Manipulation is what occurs when people can’t go for their needs in a straightforward way. Because we have made power bad and wrong, people must now be manipulative about it. This makes the ways we are seeking out and using power far more dangerous than before. Anyone who grew up in a dysfunctional family knows all about this.
In a dysfunctional family, daily life is a chess game for power between all members of the family. And in all kinds of overt and covert ways. The only way to survive in that kind of a social setting is to step up and play that chess game. This includes using inherently positive things like acts of love as a tool FOR personal power. For example, a parent may want a child to pick a certain profession because this would make the parent feel good. The way this parent may go about getting power in this scenario is to use the financial support that they gave their child over the course of the child’s life as leverage. The parent may say “I sacrificed my life for you, to give you everything you needed, so that you could have a better life than I did and make this family proud.” This puts the child in the position of being bad, wrong, ungrateful and even of betraying the parent if the child does not do what the parent wants. So, financial support is now being used as a tool in a power game to get the child to comply. But the parent will deny that he or she is in a power game with their own child. The parent may even deny that they care about power.
Or, a child may alter their entire personality, so as to please their parent. Because doing so, ensures that their own needs for things like approval, closeness and safety will actually be met. This was their strategy for gaining power in the family dynamic. But they are unlikely to be aware that this was a power play, even when it was in fact their winning chess move. Instead, because they are so in touch with the part of them that feels victimized by their parent in even having to employ this strategy, they will see themselves as being powerless.
Another example is that we may go about getting power by denying that we care about superiority, knowing full well that in a society that sees the need for superiority as a dysfunctional complex, the person who does not care about being superior, is automatically seen as superior and therefore more powerful. Because going for power in covert ways is such a problem in the spiritual community, it may benefit you to watch my video titled: Self-Development – The Transcendental Power Trip.
When we cannot go for personal power in direct and conscious ways, we fail to recognize and make use of the unique innate power that we have. Believe it or not, this pulls us away from our life purpose. Your innate power will fall perfectly in alignment with your life purpose. And often, acknowledging this power that we have, power that may be superior to others, is what leads you to the recognition of your life purpose. For example, a person may be so good at analyzing, organizing and creating systems. Far better than other people. This person may discover that her purpose is operations management for the government.
When we cannot go for personal power in direct and conscious ways, we put ourselves in all the wrong kinds of places and in incompatible situations, trying to get what we want. For example, I knew a man who was so ashamed of his desire for financial power that he could never just decide to go directly and make money in the financial market. Instead, he had to keep getting jobs in non-profit organizations, where he repeatedly created conflicts by arguing for salary increases and the introduction of bonus programs. Or for example, a person may want the power of fame. But instead of going for it directly themselves, they decide to go about it in an in-direct way, by publicly going against someone who is already famous because no one knows who they were, or cared who they were, until they went against someone who was known and cared about. In this situation, going for the power they wanted in an in-direct way, caused negative destruction.
Believe it or not, recognizing our own power and how that power could be used in either positive or negative ways, as well as going for power directly and overtly, greatly decreases the chances that we will cause harm to ourselves or others with that power or by going for that power.
The fourth problem with power being seen as such a bad thing, such a wrong value and the seeking of it so shameful, is that it prohibits people from seeing or admitting to the power that they do have. All people have power. To not see the power that you do have, is an incredibly dangerous thing. To give you two examples, a person may have the power to sense vulnerabilities in others. If this is your power, you have a 6th sense for people’s weak spots. You could use that power to heal or you could use that power to destroy. If you are unaware of this power that you have, and what you could do with it, you could be in a position to be the one who can change someone’s life for the better. But you might just sit there and let them suffer. Or, you could get into a bad mood and carelessly emotionally cripple another person, even if you love them. Another example is that a surgeon and an anesthesiologist both have the power to take someone’s life. Think of how dangerous it would be for a surgeon or anesthesiologist to not know that he or she had that power when they have a patient before them, ready to go under for surgery.
Something to know is that there are so many different types of power. Too many to list.  Anything that can help you to bring about what you want is power. But to give you a tiny idea, intellect is power, finances is power, artistry is power, knowledge is power, non-reactivity is power, strong emotions is power, physical strength is power, optimism is power, skills are power, natural talent is power, charisma is power, language and communication is power, discipline is power, social contacts is power, good looks is power, caretaking is power, being spiritually attuned is power, openness is power, decisiveness is power, truth is power, morality is power, empathy is power, flexibility is power, organization is power, leadership is power, fame is power, storytelling is power, creativity is power, your entire physical form is power… just think what opposable thumbs enabled you to do that other animals can’t do.
People tend to only care about certain types of power and minimize or refuse to see other types of power AS power. People have a huge problem valuing one type of power over another type of power; as well as failing to recognizing all types of power. You care about the certain type of power that you care about based off of needs, desires, traumas and personal experience. That’s why a person who was very poor often cares more about financial power than about mental power. That’s why the super-rich often suddenly value the power of eternal life more than financial power. That’s why people who perceive themselves to have been harmed by financial power, devalue financial power and value the power of kindness. It’s why someone who feels they have suffered because of desire, does not honor the power of desire, but honors the power of non-attachment. In order to be in-alignment about power, you need to recognize power wherever it exists. Don’t negate it.
If you don’t see the power you do have, chances are high that one of the reasons you don’t see it, is that your breed of power is something that your society doesn’t value or potentially doesn’t recognize as power. If you don’t see your love of power, chances are high that one of the reasons you don’t see it, is because the types of power you care about, are not the traditional types of power that society recognizes as power and thus has condemned. For example, you might have the power to sense other people’s needs. This is a serious power. But, because you’ve lived in a society that sees only things like leadership or wealth as power, you don’t even recognize it as power. Or for example, every person cares about a type of power and argues that this one type is the most important and more powerful power than the rest. Such as, if a person cares about wealth, but not spiritual power, they will argue that wealth is the most important thing and may argue that spending time meditating is literally a waste of time. On the other hand, a person who cares about spiritual power may meditate every day, trying to increase their spiritual power and they may argue that chasing wealth is a fool’s errand. Because of this, people often fail to see what kind of power is necessary and/or most effective in any given situation.
Power is the inherent capacity to create, direct, influence or do something so as to bring about what you want. This makes power rather like a master tool, somewhat like a knife. You can use a knife to chop up vegetables in order to better feed someone or to cut the ropes around your ankles to set yourself free. You can also use a knife to threaten someone into compliance, harm yourself or kill someone. Power is something that takes on a positive or negative expression, depending on how it is used. But power in and of itself is not the problem. How power is used is the problem. How power is used and why and for what aim is what matters most.
You care about power… all people do… so own it. It is not virtuous to not care about and to have no need for power. In fact, so many of the people who would convince you that it is a virtue, are simply after another kind of power… a moral or a spiritual power.If you want to consider yourself an awake and aware person, see the power that you have. See that you care about power and see that you seek it. See the power struggles you are in. See the ways that you specifically go about getting power, including power over other people. And when you go for power, go for power consciously, being very aware of the positive and negative consequences for you and others of doing so. Just be aware that being able to see and admit to all of this, can in and of itself become a part of your power game!

Action, A Necessary Ingredient of Manifestation

Desire is something that springs forth from life experience. You don’t even have to think about it. It happens on both a subconscious and conscious level. When a desire is born within us, we want to see it manifest. This is a big part of physical life… The conscious creation and subsequent physical manifestation of whatever it is that you are wanting.
The process of manifestation takes place on both a non-physical and physical level. It is an energetic, mental, emotional and one could say ‘vibrational’ process. It is also a physical, embodied process. But so many people forget how important the physical element of manifestation is. They forget how critical action is. They forget that action is what they came specifically to the physical earthly plane to partake in.
Something very important to understand about life is that it doesn’t matter how much information you have, if you don’t apply it. It doesn’t matter how much mental and emotional processing you do, if you never make a change. It doesn’t matter how much you want something, if you never take action towards what you want.
So many people fall into the trap of using spiritual practice (and even mental and emotional self-development) to separate further from, and even escape from, their physical life; rather than to use spirituality (and mental and emotional self-development) to further connect with and enhance their physical life. So many people fall into the trap of learning more and more and more. And doing more and more mental/emotional and spiritual processes. They imagine that what they want will somehow spontaneously appear on their doorstep. That it will require no change, movement or action on their part. But this erases one of the main purposes of being physically incarnated. Unless you are in resistance to being physically incarnated, to changing, to moving and to taking action; changing, moving and taking action is part of the thrill and joy of physical life itself. By learning things, by becoming more aware, by mentally and emotionally focusing on what you want so as to pull yourself energetically into alignment with it, you are making it so that all the necessary people, places, things, circumstances, resources and events that are ingredients for what you want, will converge with you. But you still need to take action. You need to allow the non-physical things you are doing to compel you into taking action to bring about and actualize what you are wanting.
It doesn’t matter if you know that you need exercise and that exercise is critical for your physical, mental and emotional health, if you keep coming up with excuses to not actually take action and exercise. It doesn’t matter if you want a romantic relationship and keep doing visualizations in order to manifest one, if you commit all your action to working from home and watching TV series in your apartment. It doesn’t matter if you do all the shadow work in the world to realize that your parents acted, and still act, in a way that is counterproductive to your progression, if you keep living with them, in their home. It doesn’t matter if you want to be financially free and learn all about finances and know that you have to start to save up and spend your money on things that make you money, if you keep piling up stuff you don’t need in your house and living from pay check to paycheck. It doesn’t matter if you read every book there is to read and watch every tutorial there is to watch on surfing, if you never go to the ocean, rent a surfboard and paddle out to get on an actual wave. Your physical actions must align with what you are wanting, in order for manifestation to be assisted by you instead of prevented by you.
If you are unwilling to actually physical do something such as change, move or take action, you are resisting the process of physical manifestation. You’re making it that much harder for the universe to bring you together with those ingredients that make up the recipe of the manifestation of what you are wanting. You’re also making it hard for the universe to bring you to others for whom you could be an ingredient for the actualization of their desires. Action is meant to naturally arise as a byproduct of gaining information or a change in perception. But sometimes, when a person is in resistance to taking action, it doesn’t. And what most people don’t know is that this will make your life worse, not better.
It is a common assumption to make that the more you know, the better your life will get. And the more mental and emotional healing you do, the better your life will get. But this is often not the case. If you don’t want to physically change anything and if you plan on not taking action, avoid awareness. Avoid mental and emotional processing. And avoid focusing on what you are wanting. Instead, focus positively on what is. The reason I say this is because without action, all these things will make your life worse, not better.
For example, imagine that there is a woman who is in an abusive relationship. If she gains more awareness, she will become aware of just how abusive her environment is. If she starts to heal on a mental and emotional level, she will become more and more aware of what her needs actually are. If she focuses on what she wants (a safe relationship) the distance between where she is and what she wants will get bigger. If she takes no physical action to change the relationship or to exit it in search of a new one, being in it, and it staying the same, will get more and more painful. She will feel more and more unsafe, more and more deprived of her needs and emotionally worse and worse because the gap between herself and what she is wanting will grow and grow. Until she reaches a point of total desperation. It is critical to understand that if you do not take actual physical action based off of the things you learn, the awareness you gain, and emotional and mental healing that you do, your life will get worse, not better. All the forces that be, will be pulling you in the direction of what you want, like an unassailable current, and you will be turned against it. This is what suffering is all about. Suffering only occurs when you desire something else, but for one reason or another, you are staying and holding yourself in the ‘way it is’. In the ‘unwanted’. To prevent your own expansion in this way, is to invite the escalation of your own pain.
Hearing all of this, it may benefit you to think about what you want and to ask yourself the question, what is in the way of me taking action? One of the main reasons that people don’t take action is that they fear making a change. This is so often the case when you need to take action (and you may even know what to do) but you can’t seem to make yourself do it. If you think it would benefit you to understand this more in-depth, watch my video titled: The Real Reason Why People Don’t Change. A common excuse that people give for not taking action, is that they don’t know what action to take. When this is the case, know that there is no one right action to take. You are not being tested by the universe in terms of your ability to take the right action step. People often think there is some ‘miracle action’ that will bring about what they want and they have to know what that miracle action is, before taking any action. This is not true. No such thing exists. There is no magic way, even though every way is magic. What there is, is steps. And anyone who brought about anything through action, must take those steps that are unique to their own path of achievement. Don’t be passive to finding out what action you could take. Consult people who might have a better idea of action steps you can take. Become an expert on what action steps the people who already have what you want, have taken before in order to get themselves to where they are today. And should you ever come to an action step that no one has ever taken before, don’t be afraid to be a pioneer. With any step, there has to be a person who was the first to ever take it. That person might just be you. And no matter what resistance stands in the way of you specifically taking action, it is important to genuinely resolve that resistance. Because if you do not take action, you will be starved of results.
To wait for what you want to happen to you is a passive and powerless way to exist. It is not how you meant to come here and exist. Knowledge is power, but that power is useless if you don’t translate it to action. Motivation is useless unless you take action on it. Act on what you come to know! Act to bring about what you want! After all, in the physical, knowledge without application is incomplete. Visualization without action is incomplete. It is like an inbreath without an outbreath.

The Transcendental Power Trip

All people have two main aspects of self. The non-physical self and the physical self. Many people have called the physical self the temporal self and the non-physical self, the higher self. They have also called the nonphysical self, the soul and the temporal self, the ego. Your temporal self, your ego, is the seat of personality. But the personality is fragmented. To understand more about this, you can watch my video titled: Fragmentation, The Worldwide Disease. This fragmentation sometimes makes it hard to distinguish between your actual non-physical self and parts of your personality that are mimicking the higher self. It makes it hard to distinguish between your ‘ego’ and your ‘higher self’. 
The ego, which is essentially your self-concept, wants to distinguish itself. It wants to be things like good, right, better, superior, more. There is nothing inherently wrong with this drive. But most people are not aware enough of this element of ego to integrate it or consciously work with it. As a result, their nonphysical self and physical self are not engaging in an aligned relationship. Instead, their ego is subconsciously running the show. This is the case all over the world. But in spiritual communities, there is a special shadow. In spiritual communities, the ego can run the show by thinking, speaking and acting like what that person imagines a transcendental, enlightened person would think, speak and act like.
In the spiritual communities, a person who is seen as ‘spiritually superior’ is celebrated as right, good, better, superior, more. Naturally then, there is motive for a person to be that. So, an aspect of their personality often adopts that identity. On top of this, people often turn to spirituality in order to escape pain and so, it is only natural that a spiritual way of thinking, speaking and acting can be developed as a protector personality so as to keep an individual safe. If you want to understand this in depth, watch my video titled: The Sad Truth About Most Gurus. 
When an aspect of a person’s ego adopts the identity of a spiritually transcendent person, most people mistake that for the higher self. They mistake this personality fragment that acts in all the ways that they imagine a spiritually superior being would act (things like ‘above and beyond it all’, transcendental, non-reactive, always seeing the beauty in what is, forgiving, ego-less, etc.) for their ‘true self’… Who they really are. They become selectively identified with this spiritually transcendent part of themselves and often slip into the practice of suppressing all other ‘less woke’ parts of themselves. The ego has hijacked their spiritual practice without them knowing it, because it has come in the disguise of the higher self and they fell for it. 
When this happens, the person is on a kind of transcendental power trip. Only now, what makes their ego strong is seeing themselves and being seen as things like more woke, more aware, more forgiving, more loving, more meditative, more intuitive, more transcendental etc. Spiritual superiority becomes the ego’s new power game.
I’ll give you one example to illustrate what I mean. Imagine a woman who grows up with a vicious and dictatorial single mother. She could never gain any power in her relationship with her mother. Until the day that her ego found a way… To be Jesus-like. To use things like unconditional love and deciding that she will be the one to teach her mother how to love and kindness (no matter how she is treated) in order to feel superior to her mother. This made her ego feel in the position of power. Really, she found a creative way to play the power game with her mother. And all of the spiritually transcendent qualities became a part of her power trip. But because the ego disguised itself as spiritually transcendent, she fell for it. She believed herself to actually be operating from the perspective of her higher self. Not only did this bring her further from integration and further from her actual non-physical self, it also worsened her relationship with her mother and made her stay living with in her highly abusive mother, because she was now getting an ego boost by continuing to do so.         
It is a reality that certain individuals are more tapped into the non-physical, are more conscious, are more aware, are more able to consciously love etc. In the same way that there are people walking the earth who are more athletic, are able to jump higher and run faster and go further. It is important to be in reality about this instead of to imagine that equality exists relative to these things. The thing is, when your ego is identified with being spiritually transcendent, you will have a hard time accurately perceiving this reality and will instead imagine yourself to be more conscious, more developed, more aware, more knowing, more able to love, more forgiving etc. than you actually are. You will also be on a subconscious power trip relative to other people. If you have been unsafe with people or feel unsafe with them still (especially people in positions above you) you want to be “on top” of them or at least “equal” to them in order to feel safe. You will be trying to establish superiority or at the very least, equality relative to other people in your environment. And you will go about doing that by thinking, speaking and acting spiritually superior to them.
You can turn any quality that one identifies with being spiritual into a power trip. For example, forgiveness can be used as power trip. Love can be used as a power trip. Kindness can be used as a power trip. Awakening can be used as a power trip. Positive thinking can be used as a power trip. Growth can be used as a power trip. Ego-lessness can be used as a power trip. Inner peace can be used as a power trip. Non reactivity can be used as a power trip. Compassion can be used as a power trip. Intuition can be used as a power trip. Meditation can be used as a power trip. Yoga can be used as a power trip. Humility can be used as a power trip. Simplicity can be used as a power trip. Personal responsibility can be used as a power trip. Healthy living can be used as a power trip. And the list goes on and on.       
Before you think you’ve got a handle on things, it is important to know that spiritual egoism is especially hard to recognize because the power trip often takes place in so many ‘disguised as the opposite” ways. For example, a person who is on a spiritually transcendent power trip is likely to be demonstrative about how unconcerned they are with power. They are likely to put on an act of humility. They are likely to say that they are very aware of their shadow side and ego… because doing so makes them seem good and right and better and more to themselves and to others. Consider that the part of you that says it doesn’t care about power, is the one having the power trip by saying that in a world where power has been made the bad guy; and therefore the person who doesn’t care about it, superior.  
Often people who are stuck in a state of identification with a spiritually transcendent protector part of their personality will be more obvious to others than they are to themselves. Being around them will feel like they are putting on an act. You can feel those vulnerable and unsavory things that are being suppressed, denied, disowned, avoided or rejected beneath the facade. And also, you will feel the power struggle taking place underneath that facade. It will feel like a gas-light. Just be careful to check your own power trip when perceiving this kind of thing in others.                                       
You should not be trying to get rid of your ego. To understand more about this, you watch my video titled: The Lesson of Christ and Lucifer. The thing you should aim for is to integrate your ego. And you care about power whether you are able to admit to it or not. To not fall into this unconsciousness trap, you need to see how you are using your spirituality or self-development to strengthen your ego. You need to see what you may be trying to avoid, suppress, deny, disown, reject or keep safe by seeing yourself and trying to get others to see you as a spiritually transcendent person. It would benefit every person who is into spiritual practice of any kind to do parts work with the part of themselves that is protecting them by being spiritually transcendent… The part of their ego that is disguised as the higher self. So as to become aware of and integrate this very real coping mechanism. To understand more about how to do this, watch my video titled: Parts Work, What Is Parts Work and How to Do It. 
The direct truth is that each and every of us who identifies with spirituality and self-development, will have parts of our ego that are identified with all of the qualities that the spiritual field and self-help field sees as right, good, better, superior and more. Being aware that your ego IS involved in your spiritual practice is critical. By seeing this, you can begin to experience your actual non-physical self, even if a spiritually transcendent identity within your personality construct steps forward to try to convince you it is the ‘real and only and true self’. 

The Cube Test

The power of interpretation and association is evident in relational psychology. Relational psychology is well known for its tests and quizzes. Many of them feel more like games and you know how much I love games!
Most of these tests are designed to allow the subconscious to reveal the truth about you to your conscious awareness and/or to your therapist. To see how this works for yourself, give this very famous one to try! It’s called “The Cube”. This test was said to have been created by a psychologist from Japan. 
Follow along with this exercise, keeping in mind that it is important to try to concentrate on how you feel about what you are describing and not just on how it looks. For example, you may describe something as a certain color because it gives you a feeling of calmness. However, another person may describe a different color but say that it gives him or her a sense of calmness. In other words, though both people picture the thing differently, the interpretations of their answers are the same - the color, represents calmness to them.
Ok. To start this exercise, close your eyes.
You are in a vast desert and you see a cube.
1. The desert.
What is this desert like? How big or small is it? What is it filled with? What is living and what is non-living in this desert? How do you feel about the desert? How do you feel being in it? What do you think about it?  
2. There is a cube.
How big is the cube?What substance is it made of? What is its texture? What is its color? What do you think about that substance and color? How do you feel about this cube?How far away is it from you?Is it transparent? Can you see what is inside?How big is the cube compared to the desert? What is the ratio?
3.  There is a ladder.
Is the ladder leaning on the cube?What is the color of the ladder? What is it made of?What impression does it give you?What is the distance between the cube and the ladder? What is the relationship between the cube and ladder?
4. There is a horse.
What is the distance between the cube and the horse?What is the color of the horse? What is it doing?What impression does it give you?Is it tied? Is there a saddle?
5. There is a storm.
What is the distance between the storm and the cube.Is it a big storm or a small storm?Is it passing by or staying? How do you feel about this storm?
6. There is a flower/ there are flowers.
How many flowers are there?Where is/are the flower/s and especially, where are they in relationship to the cube?What is the color of the flower/s? How hardy or fragile do they seem to you?How do you feel about the flower/s? How do they feel about you? 
Remember that your interpretation of what you see also matters!
Desert: The desert represents your world view. Your idea of the world you live in. The size represents your knowledge of the world and how vast your worldview is. The conditions of this desert represent how you view the conditions or reality of the world. For example, if there is nothing else alive there, you feel very lonely in the world and perceive the world to be a lonely place. If there are many dead or non-living things, or if it is dull and empty feeling, you are pessimistic and are not feeling enriched by life. Or for example, if it is full of life and healthy and/or vibrant, you have an optimistic worldview and feel like the world is the place to be.  
Cube : The cube represents yourself. How you think about the cube reflects how you think about yourself. For example, you may think the cube is made of yellow stones. Yellow may give you a feeling of warmth and stone may give you a feeling of strength. Then, it means that you believe that you are a strong and warm person. 
The distance between you and the cube reflects your understanding about yourself. If the cube is far away, then it means that you do not feel close to your inner self. 
The ratio of the cube to the desert is how you think about yourself in this world. The bigger the ratio, the grander you think of yourself and what you're meant for. People who see an excessively tiny cube, feel that they are smaller than life. People with a cube that is excessively large, feel as if they are larger than life. A small ratio means that you recognize that you are just one part of this world and there are many other things out there beside you. A large ratio means you thrive on being the center of attention.
To generalize, a cube with a transparent surface means you tend to let others know how you feel on the inside. You show your inner thoughts, and you are deeply sincere. You know that you are good inside. And chances are, you feel seen, heard, felt and understood (or are trying to be) by others.  
A cube made out of water or ice indicates that you let external elements influence you completely. Your personality is sensitive to social pressure, relationships, and other environmental factors.
A hollow cube tends to mean that you are primarily concerned with your outside appearance, with far less care for what's going on within. However, this does not mean that you have nothing to offer on the inside.
A  solid cube made out of metal or rock indicates that you have solid integrity. Your personality is so strong that it cannot be bent or influenced by any external force. You are dominant and consistent. But you are defensive of people trying to see into your inside world. You would rather control what they see or don’t about you.  
What does the image of your cube tell you about yourself? 
The ladder represents your goals. The length of the ladder shows the scale of your goals, the shorter the ladder, the simpler the goal. The distance between the ladder and the cube determines the focus and effort that you are currently investing in your goals. If your ladder is close to your cube then you are making all effort to achieve and assist your goals. If your ladder is leaning on your cube, you have a big goal to achieve. if your ladder is extending beyond or is in any way over the cube, you may feel your goals are too hard to achieve or you don’t have what you need. If it is under your cube, you are someone who likes to be on top of things but you may keep goals small because of this. The strength of the material of this ladder alludes to the support you feel you have from others in order to achieve this goal.    
The Horse:  The horse represents the lover you are subconsciously seeking. The distance between the horse and the cube represents the closeness you have with your lover. If the horse is facing the cube it shows you want to be the focus of attention in the relationship. If your horse is closer to your ladder it might suggest you want a lover who supports your goals. If the horse is tied up, then it shows the need to be controlling in a relationship. If the horse has a saddle then you feel secure with them. If the horse is free and not saddled, it means you view your lover as uncontrollable/unpredictable or someone who is very independent.
Storm: The storm represents the obstacles or problems in your life. If the storm is very intense then your problems are causing havoc in your life. If they encompass the entire desert then it means you might have some ongoing issues, which you think will take a while to resolve. If your storm is light then it means your problems don’t really upset the balance of your world. If it is outside the room it means you see your problems at a distance and they can easily be controlled.
Flowers:  There is some argument about the flowers in relational psychology. The first argument is that the flowers represent your social connections. This could be those you consider to be family or friends. How you feel about the flowers reflects how you feel about the people in your life.  The number of the flowers determines your significant connections and how close you are to them, a “bunch” of flowers suggests you have a close group of friends you rely on. A couple suggests you may be close to only very few people. Tons of flowers suggests that you are a social butterfly with many connections or contact, but may not develop a deep relationship with any of them. A row or more of flowers suggests that you have levels of connections, some have stayed and some have gone. The location of the flowers relative to the cube determine how close you are with your people. The color of the flowers represents your current feelings toward them. 
The second argument is that the flowers represent kids. Some believe the number of flowers you see is either the number of children you will have or the number of children you want. The closer the flower is to the cube, the closer you feel to your children or the thought of having children. If your flower is close to the ladder then a goal in life might be to have children. Different colors also represent a variety in children (you want boys/girls of varying ages). 
It's worth looking into the meaning of colors deeper, but here is a quick and generalized list of color meanings as it applies to psychology:
Black: Black is the color of authority, elegance, sophistication, mystery, secrecy and seduction. Black can also imply darkness and/or painful emotion. Or rarely, oneness/every thingness. 
White: White symbolizes innocence, peace, purity, simplicity, cleanliness. And rarely, nothingness, like a blank slate.  
Red: Red represents dominance, power, action, motivation, ambition, leadership, willpower, passion and sexual energy. It is also the color many associate with romantic love.
Pink: Pink represents softness, kindness, friendliness, nurturing, calming, love, naivety. 
Orange: Orange represents energy, enthusiasm, excitement, attention seeking, thrill, warmth. 
Blue: Blue represents knowledge, openness, royalty, loyalty, tranquility, calm, serenity, security, stability, reliability and sometimes sadness. 
Green: Green represents compassion, growth, balance, harmony, equilibrium, prosperity, relaxation, renewal, vitality. 
Yellow: Yellow represents optimism, joy, enthusiasm and playfulness, overpowering, sociability, uplifting, cheer, inquisitiveness, original thought.
Purple: Purple represents nobility, luxury, wealth, wisdom, spirituality, frustration, arrogance, creativity. 
Brown: Brown shows stability, reliability, solidness, strength, resilience, grounded-ness, safety, stubbornness, isolation, it is also the color of nature, earthiness. 
Grey: Grey represents neutrality, calm, balance, detachment, lack of emotion, impartiality, loss, depression. 
Silver: Silver represents dignity, graciousness, justice, discerning, unbiasedness, sleekness, ornate, industriousness, quiet wealth, perseverance, patience, emotionality.  
Gold: Gold represents success, wealth, winning, achievement, triumph, luxury, prestige, extravagance, pride, charisma and luck. 
In some cube tests, the ladder represents friendships. If you’re curious about that interpretation, you can easily look it up online. You can also look up any other symbolic meaning of any of the elements you saw in your vision. Don’t forget to spend time thinking about what the images you saw (ie: your answers) mean to you. And try it with a friend!

Discipline, an Essential Element of Happiness

To be completely honest with you, many of the self-help, new age and spiritual practices of the modern day have led to a community crisis relative to discipline. The idea of discipline has been thrown out the window to the degree that you’ll hear people say things like: “It just stopped feeling good, so I knew the right thing to do, was to quit.” Or “I can’t make plans, because I don’t know how I’m going to feel at that time.” And the problem with this, is that some people are forgetting that discipline is an essential element of overall life satisfaction.
When someone is disciplined, or has a high degree of self-discipline, it means that they have the ability to use their own conscious, objective free will to govern their emotional system, mind and body. Free will is something that is external to body, mind and emotion. You can think of this as being a quality of the ‘observer self’ (consciousness that exists beyond the temporal form). You are meant to observe or perceive the information that is being given to you by your own mind, body and emotions, so as to use that information to make the right choice for yourself in any given situation. This makes a person appear in control of themselves; in other words, able to determine, influence and direct themselves. A self-disciplined person is not controlled by their own thoughts, emotions or body.  
Conversely, when a person is not self-disciplined, their free will is not what is governing them. Instead, they are operating from a position of determinism. Their choices are controlled (determined, influenced and directed) by their own thoughts, emotions and/or body. People who are not self-disciplined, let themselves be controlled by their emotional guidance system, rather than using it as a source of information, with which to make a better decision. This is rather like putting a compass in charge of your life, as opposed to using a compass to gain information, with which to make decisions for your life. 
If you are deeply seeing, hearing and feeling your own body, thoughts and emotions, you are gaining information, which makes you better able to make the right decision about what to do or not do. This is distinctly different than believing that any time something doesn’t feel good, it automatically means that it isn’t right to do. 
We can’t talk about discipline without taking about resistance. When we say that a person is disciplined, what we are talking about in layman’s terms is that they can take action regardless of how they feel. Or that they do what needs to be done to achieve goals, even if it is difficult or painful. Or that they pursue what they think is right despite temptations to abandon it. Or that they make themselves work hard (or behave in a certain way) without anyone else having to tell them to do it. All of these examples, imply that self-discipline has something to do with self-governing as well as the ability to persevere despite resistance.
Resistance is any oppositional force. This resistance can come from the outside or the inside, or both. If you want to understand resistance more in depth than what I can convey in this video, watch my video titled: Urgent, Deal with Your Resistance Before You Do Anything Else. 
For example, you may have scheduled yourself to go visit a friend, but it may not feel good to do because you started to have thoughts about the effort it will take to get showered, dressed, out the door, and get to them via public transportation. A person who is not disciplined, will probably simply act at the mercy of their emotions and thoughts and cancel the meeting. A disciplined person, will take the resistant thoughts and emotions being shared into account, but within the context of what is objectively in their best interests and what is in alignment with their true values and then, put energy into resolving the resistance so as to make the right decision for themselves with their free will. That may mean keeping the appointment, even though getting to it is a struggle and therefore, does not feel comfortable. Sometimes, resistance is a “you’ve got a message” bell containing a message that something feels bad because you shouldn’t do it. But sometimes, resistance is a “you’ve got a message” bell that you have an outdated belief that needs to be updated or a trauma that needs to be resolved or that you need to change the way you are doing something. Or that discomfort or even pain is an element of getting to what you want, that you need to say yes to.    
A person who is not self-disciplined misinterprets the meaning of resistant words, thoughts or feelings. They make resistance, discomfort or pain automatically mean that they should stop or not do something or change course. This means that a person who is not self-disciplined, runs the risk of aligning with and enabling their own resistance. And by doing so, they actually avoid integration.   
For example, imagine that you decide to get a college degree. There are days that it will suck. For example, when you get invited to a party but, you need to stay home and study in order to get your degree. Now, imagine that for a period of time, it feels super bad to study. So, you decide to let your emotions control you and you stop studying. Eventually, your grades drop to the degree that you drop out of school. You may tell yourself the story that you just weren’t meant to go to college. But imagine that the reason it actually felt bad to study was that an old belief of yours was triggered… The belief that no matter how hard you work on something; it will never turn out. Letting your emotions govern you (your emotions told you to stop studying because it feels bad) was actually you aligning with that old belief, not you following your emotional guidance system towards what was right for you. Just because something feels good, does not mean it is an absolute indication that it is good for you or right for you. If this were the case, heroine would be good for you and help you to achieve your desires.  
When you hear teachings like “follow your joy” or “listen to your emotional guidance system”, that doesn’t mean “never do anything that feels uncomfortable or painful”. That doesn’t mean “your emotional guidance system is always going to lead you to something that feels good, so let it govern your life”. That also doesn’t mean that “your feelings are always a reflection of an accurate perception”. Discipline goes hand in hand with following your joy or listening to your internal guidance system. For them to operate hand in hand however, you’ve got to understand that your emotions and mind and body are simply providing you with information about you and the world around you all day long, but this information, though important, is not necessarily accurate. So, your conscious awareness and free will then must decide what is right to do given that information. 
People who are concerned with discipline, are not actually afraid of discipline, they are afraid of bulldozing. To understand bulldozing, I want you to imagine a bulldozer. When a bulldozer encounters resistance or opposition, it drives straight through and over it. It will not stop and consider and it will not work with whatever is resisting it, so that there is any alignment. It plays a zero-sum game with whatever is opposing it. “I win and you lose.” “I get my way and you don’t.” To understand about bulldozing in-depth, watch my video titled: Bulldozing (The Way to Ruin Your Relationship With Yourself). 
Bulldozing is not good for you. Many people who struggle to be self-disciplined or who don’t value discipline already know this. They feel like being self-disciplined is betraying themselves and bulldozing themselves. But guess what? All too often, people who struggle relative to self-discipline are actually bulldozing, and therefore betraying a part of themselves without knowing it. They are using the way they feel in the moment to bulldoze long term goals or the objective reality of what is best for them in the long run, for example. Discipline is not about your ability to bulldoze yourself. It is about your ability to work with resistance instead of against it. Working with resistance means seeing, feeling and hearing into it deeply so as to be aware of the cause and the WHY of the resistance. From there, it is about resolving that resistance, so as to make a decision with your conscious free will that is actually in your best interests. Doing so, will make it so that all of you can say yes to something because it will feel right for you to do, potentially even if it comes with discomfort. 
An important thing to know is that “it doesn’t feel good” is not the information you are looking for when it comes to what you should and shouldn’t do. The fact that something doesn’t feel good is simply your alert that there is a red flag. It is the same as hearing the ‘you’ve got a message’ ring on your cell phone. But it is as strange to decide that this automatically means you shouldn’t do something, as it is to decide that when your “you’ve got a message” ringer goes off, it means you need to not do something. All it means is: You’ve got a message! You have to actually see, hear and feel what the message underneath the alert is, in order to make the right decision relative to the information.
Many people who struggle with self-discipline, struggle so much with really feeling their own free will, that in discipline they feel the pain of ‘having to, even if they don’t want to’. The thing is, there is no such thing as a ‘have to’ in this universe. You could actually decide today to never get out of bed, pee and crap the bed when you have to use the restroom, never eat again and simply wait for death to happen to you. You need to realize that you have that much free will. And no one can actually take that away from you. All they can do is use their own free will to escalate consequences or reward for your choices. And once you realize this, it will feel like you can consciously choose discomfort or even pain with your free will, instead of it feeling like it is something you are being forced to do, despite the discomfort or pain. To learn more about this in depth, you can watch my video titled: Have To… The Life Philosophy That Will Ruin Your Life.   
Living without discipline, means that you are at the mercy of everything around you. It means your life is limited, when faced with the inevitable downsides of doing something, you will give up on it, achieve nothing, build up nothing, never end up where you want to be, be unreliable, unable to plan, be a floater in life, align with your own resistance (regardless if your resistance is in your best interest or against it) and fail to delay instant gratification in the face of short-term temptation. You will have ruined every relationship around you. And you will be at the mercy of everything around you, including your own mind, emotions and body. 
There are a great many things that involve discomfort or pain that are worth doing and that can very well be in alignment with your best interests such as: Learning something new. Moving to a different place. Persisting, despite your mind showing you all the worst-case scenarios. Developing your physical fitness. Looking at the contents of your subconscious mind. Achieving something that has never been achieved before. Having children. Developing security in a relationship and Healing, to name a few. And I mean an absolute few. This is why it is a mistake to think that your internal guidance system and/or the universe at large will only ever lead you towards things that feel good, if it is in alignment with your best interests. To understand more about that in depth, watch my video titled: How Your Inner Compass Leads you To Both Pleasure and Pain. 
If you are making a choice from conscious, objective free will, often times it becomes obvious that the right choice to make is in the direction of something painful because you align with the reason for doing so. Just ask a professional athlete, the feeling of rightness can exist even when something you are doing, doesn’t feel good. A professional athlete only gets to that position by learning that you can add any meaning to discomfort that you want to. Going for what you want is going to entail a certain amount of discomfort. So, the meaning that you add to discomfort is everything.
It is all too common that if you lack discipline you will slip into a ‘passive’ way of being rather than an active way of being and forget that you did not come to this earth to have a desire and sit back and wait for it to show up on your doorstep. You came here to use your actions and will to bring it about. Discipline pulls you into active manifestation.   
With true discipline, you are working with yourself not against yourself. Without discipline you are at the mercy of yourself (thoughts, emotions and body). And therefore, at the mercy of other people, because until you are truly conscious, who do you think programed your internal system?  
The good news is that discipline is something that can be developed. You can become someone who is actually motivated to persist despite downsides and to enjoy self-discipline. If you struggle with self-discipline, here are just a few things you may want to try in order to bring discipline back into your life:
Become aware of your relationship to Discipline. What do you really think about and how do you really feel about self-discipline? Know that motivation is the main power generator for willpower. Willpower is what discipline is all about, so if you lack discipline, you need to look at your relationship to motivation as well. Anytime someone’s motivation dips, their discipline dips too. Are you motivated? Why or why not? What could you think, say or do in order to increase your motivation?
Learned helplessness is the exact opposite concept from learned industriousness. In learned helplessness, life experiences teach a person that effort and self-discipline is useless and even potentially yields worse results than putting no effort forth at all; no reward. Learned industriousness on the other hand is when life experiences teach a person that effort and self-discipline lead to desired outcomes, and therefore, a sensation of reward. Knowing this, can you identify any experiences in your life that could have zapped your motivation or caused you to slip into a learned helplessness pattern? Are there times that you feel depleted and totally incapable of disciplining yourself? If so, you might benefit by doing The Completion Process relative to this issue in and of itself. To learn how to do this process, you can either pick up a copy of my book that is titled: The Completion Process. Or, you can go to www.completionprocess.com and select a practitioner to lead you through the process. Essentially, release your resistance to self-discipline in and of itself, before going forward with developing self-discipline. Do parts work with the part of you that you feel out of control of. Many people who struggle with self-discipline, report a lack of faith in their own ability to control themselves. They report that they feel like some part of them just takes over control and so, their discipline goes out the window. For example, they want to be disciplined to not eat sugar anymore. But there they are, standing in front of the bakery counter, buying doughnuts. When this is the case, one part of you is on board with the decision and the other is not. So, it’s down to which part of you has more control in any given moment. You need to integrate and establish alignment between these opposed aspects, whose opposition is sabotaging your self-discipline. Keep in mind that a part of yourself that you may need to work with is the part of you that is against self-discipline in general. To learn how to do this, watch my video titled: Parts Work (What Is Parts Work and How To Do It). Create rewarding challenges. This means, add things to your day that are achievable and that you know will feel good to complete, but that you also know will cause you to feel some resistance. Things like completing a puzzle. Stopping yourself from letting your anger express outwardly when you feel it, and trying to get to the vulnerability underneath it instead. Going on a run. Eating something healthy instead of unhealthy. Meditating for ten minutes every morning. Completing an online class. Setting a date on the schedule and sticking to it, etc. This exercise will re-train you that you have the willpower to do things, and that doing so actually pays off. Small acts of self-discipline act like muscle strength training. It improves your overall will power for the things that really matter. Practicing self-control strengthens willpower.       Make a list of times that your self-discipline, willpower, drive, self-control or effort actually did pay off. As people, we tend to only focus on the negative, especially when we have a poor relationship to something, like self-discipline. You may even want to add times that other people’s self-discipline, willpower, drive, self-control or effort paid off for them. Doing this, causes you to form a positive mental link between self-discipline and reward. Decide what (in your current life right now) you want to be self-disciplined about. If you struggle with self-discipline, you will want to only pick one to a few things. Write down that list and consider these your commitments. From there, find your meaning and/or motivation for being self-disciplined relative to these things. In order to be self-disciplined, you need to remember WHY they are important and meaningful to you. Anytime that you are feeling demotivated relative to something you want to be disciplined about, take a moment to think about thosebigger and potentially long-term reasons for doing something, so that you can reconnect to the meaning behind your commitment.   Fall in love with challenge. Self-disciplined people like challenges. This means, they have a positive association with the process of overcoming setbacks, downsides, failures and weaknesses, even if the process itself can be painful at times. A setback, a downside, a failure, a weakness or a challenge is usually not a message from the universe to quit or not do something in the first place. See challenge as an expected part of any process, especially when it comes to achieving success, personal growth and personal desires. Each challenge is an opportunity to know more and to become better.         Develop an if-then plan. A big part of self-discipline is to be able to delay instant gratification for long term pay off. It is harder to be self-disciplined when you are in the moment, facing a temptation. Because of this, it is beneficial to plan how to stick to, or achieve, whatever it is that you’re committed to. For example, say your self discipline is about finishing a project. You can say, if someone calls to invite me to do something fun, then, I am going to say no and stay here to finish my project. This helps you to identify goal-serving behaviors and to decide in advance how you are going to behave so as to keep in alignment with your goal.       To live a life that is truly worth living, you need to allow your thoughts, emotions and body to inform your conscious, objective will. You need to listen to your internal guidance system. But you must take that information you receive and use your free will to decide what to do with that information, so that your actions can actually be in-alignment with your highest and best good. You need discipline. After all, discipline is a major component of the bridge you are looking for, between wanting something and actually achieving it.

The Inner Compass Leads You to Both Pleasure and Pain!

All people possess an internal guidance system. Sometimes people call it ‘the inner voice’. Sometimes people call it ‘the internal compass’. Sometimes people call it their emotional guidance system. This internal guidance system helps a person navigate life, make choices and keep heading towards their desires. But people make a faulty assumption about the internal guidance system. The faulty assumption people make is that the inner compass will always lead you to pleasure and never pain.
This assumption is what causes many people to misunderstand their own internal compass, to the degree that they stop listening to it. This is also an assumption that people capitalize on, in order to get others to abandon their own personal guidance system in favor of doing what they want. To illustrate both points, I’ll give you an example. A client I saw many years ago had very controlling parents. They did not like the stress of chasing a kid around and so, they preferred that she sit still and watch TV or use her coloring book. In order to discourage her from being active, they warned her about the fact that it was inevitable that if she was active, she would get hurt. Following her own internal guidance system, she put on a pair of roller skates instead of obeying her parents. A few minutes into the activity, she fell so hard on her butt that she couldn’t walk. She sat there crying and then had to crawl home. When she got home, her parents said “I told you so”.
That day, she made the experience mean that she could not trust her internal guidance system. That her inner voice and emotions would point her in the wrong direction. After all, if the internal guidance system was working, it would only say ‘yes’ to things that would lead to her pleasure. So, she abandoned it and instead, looked to her parents to know what is right for her and what to do and what to decide. This of course greatly pleased her parents, who were very happy to have such a compliant daughter and who truly believed that their estimation of what is ‘right’ for their daughter was far superior to her own estimation of what is ‘right’ for herself.
Consequently, this woman originally came to me because she had such a hard time with autonomy in relationships. Though she wanted freedom within a relationship, her emotional guidance system kept leading her into relationships where she had no freedom at all. She had no freedom because she had learned to look to her romantic partners to tell her what to think, say and do in the same way that she had looked to her parents for what to think, say and do. She did this so she would never get hurt again or have to blame herself for making the wrong choice again.
This idea that people have, that the inner compass will always lead you to pleasure and never pain, also tends to come with the beliefs that pain is wrong and that pain = negative results. All of these beliefs are inaccurate.
The inner compass is designed to lead you in the direction of what is in your best interests, what most people would call ‘right’ for you or ‘good’ for you. But just because something is in your best interests does not mean that it will necessarily be pleasurable. After all, your internal guidance system is not separate from the law of attraction or synchronicity or ‘divine plans’ within the universe at large. Not all elements of synchronicity are pleasurable. Not every element of a divine plan feels good.”
For example, another client I saw was an extreme skier. One morning, her internal guidance system told her to go skiing in a new location with a friend. She was super excited to go. But fatefully, that day she took a fall that completely ruptured her ACL in her knee. It derailed her sports career, which was her entire life. She slipped into a depression. But, one day, she received a call from a person that she knew, asking her to help out teaching students at a Montessori school. In the first three days of teaching the kids, she felt more purpose and more joy than she had ever felt doing anything else, including skiing. She now feels that she has found her place in the world. And gives the credit for finding her purpose to her injury. So, her internal guidance system led her towards pain. But was it wrong for it to do so? Or was doing so in fact in alignment with her best interests?
Another example is that if a person has learned a codependent style of relationships, their internal guidance system is likely to lead them into such painful relationships that they become aware of their own dysfunction and then consciously change a pattern within themselves, thereby bringing them closer to relationships that feels good.
Another example is that an athlete’s guidance system may point them in the direction of a gold medal and thus in the direction of a really difficult training regimen which causes them to bleed and cry and sweat and struggle.
I am not saying that the inner compass is always perfectly healthy. After all, the inner compass can be “messed with”. To understand more about this, watch my video titled: Why ‘Follow Your Joy’ Doesn’t Always Work. The main reason that channels and spirit guides often do not care about this nuance (and teach a person to follow their feelings anyway to the ends of the earth) is because they know that if the person follows their compass that was meddled with, it will lead them to a destination that they don’t want to be at, at which point they will then discover that they don’t want it and change direction entirely, back into alignment with the pre-meddled-with course. You should not distrust yourself and distrust the way you feel based off of knowing this. That would be worse than following your emotional guidance system towards what feels good with no awareness about why and lining up with the unwanted. Rather, when you follow your emotional guidance system with the awareness that your compass can be ‘faulty’ (mostly due to the process of socialization) you will be able to question yourself in the spirit of curiosity and the desire to be totally aware… You will ask yourself WHY something feels good to do. 
That being said, if your inner compass has been messed with, it is in fact still working perfectly; therefore, not actually faulty. For example, if what was right for you, was to be an artist, but you were born to parents who would not put up with that career choice, and you adopted a deeper value of being close with family than personal purpose, your internal guidance would point you in the direction of: “then it’s right to give up your art for the career mom and dad want you to have”. It will make doing so, feel better (more like relief) than pursuing art. So, perhaps it is better to say that it is important to make sure the reason that your compass is pointing the way it is pointing, is both conscious and something you can consciously align with.
What all this boils down to is that just because your internal guidance system (following what feels good and what feels like a yes to you) leads you into something painful, that is not a reason that you should distrust yourself and abandon your internal guidance system. With a better understanding of how this universe works and the role that your internal guidance system plays in that more objective picture, your interpretation of these kinds of situations (as well as what you make it mean) will change.
We are conditioned to believe that feeling pain is both unnecessary and a bad thing. We also often make it mean that we’ve somehow failed. But pain serves a powerful purpose in the universe at large. And as such, it isn’t completely avoidable. To understand more about this, watch my video titled: The Meaning of Pain. Pain calls us to become conscious of ourselves and others. It is a messenger. Treat pain like a teacher and learn from your pain. Next time you feel pain as a result of your internal guidance system leading you towards something that ended up being painful, remind yourself that pain is the catalyst for the true alchemy of life change. And so, consider that it may just be both your inner guidance system and the universe at large working together FOR you and FOR your best interests, instead of against you or against your best interests.

The Fear of Desire

To generalize, human beings have a very unhealthy relationship to desire. People do not understand desire. They have been both directly and indirectly taught the wrong things about desire. And as such, so many people have developed a fear of desire.
People tell themselves that desire causes personal suffering. That desire causes a separation between them and the people they love. That desire causes people to get hurt. That desire means they are not evolved or spiritually mature enough. That desire implies missing the value of what is and the list goes on and on.
For the sake of your awareness, I want you to look at your fear of desire. Take out a blank piece of paper and at the top of the page, write down “I am afraid of desire because (fill in the blank). Now below it, fill in that blank as many times as you can.
When a person fears desire, they can fall into any of the unhealthy coping mechanisms or responses relative to desire that a person might fall into with any fear, not realizing that this in fact makes them more unsafe and leads them into more pain long term. For example, a person may push away, run way from, suppress, desperately try to change, control, deny, disown, reject and misunderstand desire in and of itself, or a specific desire. Not just their own desire, but the desire of others as well. Spend some time thinking about how dangerous this is. To give you just a few examples, if a person suppresses their own desire, they want things they are totally unaware of and these desires begin to come out in completely back-door and manipulative ways. If a person rejects the desire of another person, the first person is effectively trying to shut down the life force and compass of another person. If desire is in and of itself misunderstood, there is no way to have a safe and healthy relationship to desire and one can never use desire to the benefit of their life experience. If someone refuses to accept a desire in another person, they may be completely missing the reality of incompatibility in the relationship. Etc. Consider what the fear of desire in yourselves or others may cause you to do or not do. Consider the negative implications of that.
Because humanity does not currently have a healthy relationship to desire, adults do not have a healthy relationship to their own desire or to the desire of the children in their life. Our relationship to desire is often corrupted by the adults in our early life. Because of their own needs, thoughts, feelings, preferences, aversions, fears, beliefs and ironically desires , they often turn against our desires and teach us to turn against our own desires. We learn certain desires are acceptable and certain desires are unacceptable. We learn either directly or indirectly that what we desire (or desire in and of itself) is a threat. This is where we begin to experience shame relative to our desires. And begin to shame ourselves for our desires. Because of this shame, we suppress our desires so deep that we aren’t consciously aware of what we desire. Our self-concept would suffer so much as a result of admitting it to ourselves and to others that it isn’t until the desire is fulfilled in a subconscious way that we get to know thatthis is what we desired. But we still often feel a sense of shame that this is what we desired.
Think back to what you really wanted as a child. How did the adults in your experience behave relative to their own desires? How did they behave relative to your desires? What did they teach you about desire in and of itself? What did you make that mean about desire, about your specific desires, about the desires of others and about you?
In order to live a healthy, happy, fulfilling life, you must come to love desire instead of be afraid of desire. When I say love desire, I mean you must accept and take it as a part of yourself. To move from a place of fear to a place of love for something, you must understand that thing. For this reason, let’s come to understand desire.
Desire is a life force. It is not something to try to get rid of. It is not something that you can get rid of even if you try. Even the desire to rid yourself of desire, is in and of itself a desire. To try to get rid of desire, is to try to get rid of life itself. It is to try to get rid of expansion and movement in yourself, in others and in the universe at large. Desire is the fundamental motivation behind all human action. All negative emotions are ultimately about desire. For example, negative emotions like anxiety and fear are ultimately related to desires about the future. Negative emotions like anger and sadness are ultimately about un-met desires about the past. It is desire that moves you. It is desire that gives your life direction. It is desire that gives birth to what is possible. It is desire that brings forth the new. It is desire that brings you to your purpose.
It may be of interest to know that desire and destiny are so linked that in Latin, they are almost the same word. Desire comes from the word desiderare, which means ‘to long or to wish for’. And de sidere means ‘from the stars’ meaning destiny. Your desire and your destiny are inescapably linked together. If you do not follow your desires, you will not align with your destiny.
Many aware people have learned that so much of what makes up who they are today, including what they want in their life, is trauma. If a person becomes aware of and resolves that trauma, many times, you change. What you want also changes. And so, when it comes to desire, so many people try to heal themselves specifically so that one of their desires will change. Essentially, they try to process or heal themselves out of a desire. To learn more about this and about why it doesn’t work, you can watch my video titled: You Can’t Heal Yourself Out of a Desire.
Desire is so much a part of life and who you are that, like breathing, you are not even consciously aware of it. You usually only become aware of a desire if there is something in ‘conflict’ with it. You usually can only infer what you or someone else desires from the way that you or they behave. Desires are constantly being born through you. You are not even creating them yourself. And they are constantly being amended. Without this constant stream of desire, like breath, what would occur is ended-ness.
Desire is intimately connected to contrast. It is intimately connected to wanted and unwanted. To pleasure and to pain. We seek to control desire for the same reason that we seek to control life itself. We want it to lead to something we want instead of don’t want. We want it to be pleasurable instead of painful. But because of this, we fail to see or accept that all desirewill lead to contrast. Desire will be painful if you don’t get that you will never, ever reach that place where you have everything you could ever want and so, you do not desire more and life feels only good. That is a state of ended-ness. You will always desire more, no matter what. That does not mean you cannot at the same time appreciate what is. That does not mean you will always be unhappy with what you have. Your desires will always be amended. You cannot ever guarantee that what you want today will be what you want forever. They will always lead you to different contrast. To both wanted and unwanted. This does not mean that desire in and of itself is a bad thing. It means that if you continue to allow your desires to be amended, your life experience can be one of: ‘The better it gets, the better it gets’.
Many people are afraid that desire makes a person out of control or makes them not free. This is not the case. Desire does not erase free will or freedom. They are two separate concepts. When you have a desire and perceive a desire inside yourself, you are aware of it. Now, you are truly free because now, being aware of it, you stand in the position of choice. You are free to decide what to do in response to that desire. Your desires do not control you any more than a compass can control you. But ignoring, denying or trying to change a compass to say what you would rather it say, tends to have drastic consequences.
One reality that you need to accept is that people are unaware of the majority of their desires. For this reason, people think their desire is one thing, when it is in fact another thing. For example, a man could want to be a multi-millionaire because he wants that feeling of being financially free and that specific feeling of abundance that comes with knowing that he is the one creating that stream of income. For this man, being wealthy in this way is his true desire. For another man, if he asks himself why he wants to be a multi-millionaire, it is so that he can have women be interested in him because he wants a relationship so badly. Why does he want a relationship so badly? Because he is lonely and therefore wants connection and wants to be wanted. It is obvious then, that he is not taking a direct route to getting what he really wants. He is finding a back road to get it in a roundabout way. Trying to make money will not feel good to him because it is a means to an end. If he accepted his true desire, he would probably go about getting it in a different way. His thoughts, words and actions would change to be more in alignment with his actual desires. As a result of being more in alignment in this way, he will feel happier and achieve his desires faster. To understand this more in depth, you would benefit by watching my video titled: If You Want to Be Happy, Don’t Do This.
It is important to discern between personally determined and socially determined desires. In this context, a personally determined desire is a desire that would exist with or without the presence of others. A socially determined desire, is a desire that only exists in the presence of others. For example, if you lived on a deserted island or if you were the only person on earth, the desire for fame or status suddenly does not occur within you. There is nothing wrong with socially determined desires, but you will find that the meeting of personally determined desires will lead to the greatest happiness. So consider, if you were alone on a deserted island or if you were the last person on earth, what would you desire?
When it comes to relationships, one of the biggest fears we have relative to desire is that desire is going to pull us in two different directions. This fear puts us in the position to fight with our desires and fight with the other person’s desires. We want to be able to control and change desires in order to remain aligned with other people, which we imagine will allow us to feel pleasure and avoid pain ourselves. But this only creates pain in us and in them. This is where desire demands the most respect. Destiny, purpose and happiness is calling when someone has a desire. Therefore, if two people have opposing desires and cannot find an arrangement of compatibility in their desires, the universe will lead them in two different directions. And it is not healthy for either of them to try to let go of their own desire for the sake of their own competing desire to stay ‘with’ the other. This simply results in a resentful relationship where one denies their own expansion for the sake maintaining connection.
When a person has a desire, it is important to drill down to what the actual core desire is about. And to meet that core desire. What makes you ‘safe’ to do this in a relationship, is if each person in the relationship has a desire for the other to feel good. Out of this desire, the third option is born. A win-win scenario. This is the desire that puts an end to the zero-sum game and that can ensure alignment between two people.
It is perfectly ok to want a relationship that will last for the rest of your life, a relationship where you will keep lining up with your respective desires, but together. If you can want that, you can have that. It is a matter of releasing the resistance you have within you to that desire. Where humanity is unhealthy is that so far, human society has ascribed the idea of ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ to staying together or taking separate paths. It is seen as not only possible (which it isn’t) but virtuous to let go of one of your desires for the sake of someone else’s desires. And longevity rather than quality of relationships is what is valued. In this way, human society is in a state of contradiction to the greater universe. Longevity of relationship is so often maintained by the denying, suppressing, disowning or controlling of personal desires. Therefore, the desire to maintain human bonds is currently often at odds with other desires, which are in alignment with personal expansion.
Being aware of and accepting another person’s desires, is your key to being able to end up in the right relationships for you and also to predict the other person’s behavior. When a desire conflict is occurring within a relationship, it may benefit you to ask yourself: If I accepted that it is not going to be possible to get rid of my desire and it is not going to be possible get rid of their desire and that it is important that we both attain what we desire, what would I do instead?
Desire is not painful. Unmet desire is painful. It is supposed to be because it implies you are in this moment separated from what you want and therefore, what you are meant to be one-with. Many people have sought to end this pain and suffering by making desire the enemy. By seeking to rid themselves of pain by ridding themselves of desire. This is a tragedy. It means that a person has such a feeling of powerlessness relative to the attaining of what they desire, that it feels more empowering to try to get rid of the desire for that thing in the first place.
The more you discover and integrate your desires, the better your life experience will get. And you will inevitably see that joy is really about the never-ending process of aligning with each amended desire.

Cry but Don’t Cry

Society is full of mixed messages because people are full of mixed messages.  To say that these mixed messages make it really hard to know what to do and not do, is the understatement of the century. One area in which these mixed messages create a big problem is in the relationship between men and women. So today I’m going to sort through one such mixed message for you. And this time, it’s going to be a mixed message that women give to men. Let’s call it the “cry but don’t cry” message.
So many men in society feel paralyzed and angry because the mixed message they keep getting from women (and honestly society as well) is to cry, but to not cry. To be vulnerable but to not be vulnerable.  To be emotional, but to not be emotional.
Throughout history, men have been expected to be tough, rational, strong, un-emotional, stoic etc. Weakness of any kind in a man was not tolerated. Of course, men being pushed and punished into this way of being didn’t only lead to good things such as protection, leadership, providing, strength, rationality, containment etc.  It also led to things like brutality, control, emotional unavailability, cruelty, coldness, unresponsiveness and lack of empathy etc.
When women came more into a mentality of taking back their power, a lot changed. I can’t say that women came into their genuine empowerment as women, because starting in the 1960s women started to try to gain their power (in what was a man’s world) by becoming masculine. One of the main things that changed is that men were feminized. Polarity began to flip in many relationships.  Women were suddenly demanding that men become the opposite of the men that had hurt their mothers and that had hurt them when they were young.
Women were suddenly faced with a huge problem.  Wanting strength and protection and rationality and leadership and positive ownership and masculinity.  But also wanting the safety and closeness that comes from attunement, sensitive response, emotional availability and the raw vulnerable truth. But to women, this began to feel impossible. Instead, it began to feel like they got to choose between a lose-lose scenario. It began to feel like either a woman could choose a man who was unsafe because though he would protect, provide for, lead and contain her; but would leave her alone emotionally, be unattuned, unresponsive, cruel and controlling.  Or a woman could choose a man who was unsafe because though he would be emotionally available, sensitive, kind, responsive and attuned; but would put her in the position to have to fend for herself, protect herself and be the strong one.
As a result of all of this, it seems to men that women are telling them that it’s ok to cry one minute and then getting upset with them for crying the next minute.  One minute they are saying it’s ok to be vulnerable, but the next getting upset about it.  It seems like women want a man to be vulnerable, but at the same time, they don’t.
Men are looking for one, solid message about whether to be vulnerable or emotional or not.  They are not going to get this solid message because it isn’t cut and dry that a man should always or should never.  The message varies and depends on safety for a woman.
In general, men in the modern world lack attunement to safety. I’m not just talking about physical safety; I’m also talking about emotional safety. Because of this, many men lack attunement to timing, situation and setting.  Most women however, are constantly attuned to unsafety and therefore to timing, situation and setting. To understand about this in depth, watch my video titled: What Every Man Needs to Know About Women.
I’m going to tell you something that will make it all make sense.  A woman will tell you to be emotional or vulnerable or cry if you doing so, makes her feel safer.  A woman will get mad at you for it if given the timing, situation and setting, you doing it makes her feel more unsafe.  Context matters!
This doesn’t just apply to women. Even men within society will be ok with other men being vulnerable, emotional or crying at certain times, in certain situations or in certain settings. There are other times, situations and settings that this behavior causes problems for other men or society at large and thus, this behavior won’t be well tolerated.
To make this make more sense, I’ll give you a more extreme example.  If a saber tooth tiger is headed towards a man and a woman and the man starts crying and expressing how unsafe he feels in the world, the woman is going to feel totally unsafe and get mad at him.  If a man and a woman are struggling because they are not on the same page emotionally or mentally and a man starts sharing emotionally about the pain of his childhood and how it relates to their relationship, the woman will feel trusted, more intimate, closer and more secure (therefore safer) with him and be happy that he became vulnerable.
A man can hold a new born infant and in doing so, be very gentle and soft and kind and emotionally available and even cry without being weak or losing his strength or masculinity. It really is so much about timing, situation and setting. What makes the process of discerning when being emotional, vulnerable or crying will make a woman feel safer and when it will make her feel more unsafe challenging, is that ‘unsafety’ is much more complex and usually less overtly obvious in the modern world than it was in the past. For example, a woman in the modern world is usually experiencing less containment by a man in a relationship.  As a result, she may respond poorly to a man’s vulnerability in a moment because she feels like she is fending for herself and if he becomes vulnerable, may feel like she is even more on her own and even has to bear the weight of his wellbeing as well.  To understand more about this in depth, watch my video titled: Containment (What a Woman Needs from a Man in a Relationship).
Challenging or not, men need to learn to be attuned enough to women, to timing to situation and to setting to be able to discern when vulnerability makes the situation more unsafe and when it makes the situation safer.  And women, now being made aware that this is why they keep giving mixed messages, need to help men with this attunement. Clearly explain why and in what ways being vulnerable at certain times, in certain situations and in certain settings makes you safer or makes you more unsafe.
Women vary.  There are definitely shades of dysfunction to be found relative to both certain women being repulsed by a man who is being emotional, vulnerable or crying and certain women loving it when a man is being this way. For example, some women are traumatized to the degree that they have a solid cultural association with a man ever being emotional or crying and a man being weak which then makes them feel unsafe. This solid association may make them interpret unsafety or weakness where it does not actually exist. Or for example, a woman’s wires could have been crossed. In this scenario, a woman who has been traumatized in her childhood by having less power than her cruel father could partially love it when a man is being emotional or crying because it makes him feel smaller and weaker than she is, and therefore she feels more powerful than he is and thus safer than she felt in her childhood.
The bottom line is, if you are a man, in order to not feel so confused and in order to get the reflection that you are doing the right thing, you have to see when a woman is made safer or is made more unsafe by your vulnerability. This is a real level of attunement and practice to master. But being able to sense when going into vulnerability is going to make a female feel safer and when it is going to make her feel more unsafe is part of the divine masculine. A man who is genuinely in his masculine energy understands that vulnerability only becomes weakness and is only unsafe at certain times and in certain situations and settings.  In other settings, vulnerability is strength and creates safety.
A woman wants a man who is strong, not a man who is weak. But the fact that a man cries or is emotional or vulnerable does not in and of itself make him weak. Crying or being emotional or vulnerable at the wrong time or in the wrong situations or settings is what makes a man seem weak. Being vulnerable or emotional and crying in specific timing, situations, and settings makes a man seem strong and therefore makes a woman feel safe. When it comes to a man being emotional, vulnerable or crying, t really is everything.

The “Dupe Pattern" in Relationships

There are a few common dysfunctional relationship patterns that people slip into that if not resolved, will cause inevitable end to a relationship.  One of those patterns is one that I call the “Dupe Pattern”.  This pattern is particularly hard to consciously recognize, beyond the overall feeling it causes that you are somehow and suddenly in a relationship that you didn’t sign up for; perhaps the exact opposite of the relationship that you signed up for.  It is this ‘Dupe Pattern’ that I’m going to expose to you today.
The reality is that for so many of us, our needs were not well enough met as children.  Most people can trace (or condense) these un-met needs to a core un-met need.  When there is no way for this need to be met in your childhood, it is experienced as a trauma.  You are essentially pinched into a situation where you must split your own consciousness in order to cope with the situation.  If you want to understand about how the consciousness splits and why, you can watch my video titled: Fragmentation, The Worldwide Disease.
As it applies to un-met needs in childhood, you create a split between the part of you that has the need and the part that can function without getting that need met.  But this doesn’t only happen one time.  This un-met need will go un-met over and over again.  So, it will show up as traumatizing situations in a person’s life over and over again.  And when it does, several splits will form that are all slight variations of the same theme, essentially creating a complex internal system that is all built around the theme of this one un-met need.
I will give you two examples:  A little girl was in a family where she was always put in a position to have to fend for herself.  She was the scapegoat in a family that did not take ownership of her.  She also lived in a very dangerous environment. Her core un-met need is to be fended for.  But because there was no opportunity to meet this need, she had to simply deny, suppress and disown the need to be fended for.  At the same time as draw from within herself the ability to fend for herself completely.  Because she was put in situations where she needed to fend for herself over and over again, and many of those times had to find a new way or strategy to fend for herself, she developed several parts of herself who are hyper capable, hyper responsible, independent etc.  Because those were the ones that kept her safe, those are the ones she wears on the surface of her personality.  Everyone sees her this way.  To the opposite side of each of these parts is a part that is desperate to be fended for by someone else. And the more this occurs, the more this need becomes desperation. Her internal system is now a complex system built around the theme of fending for herself and the need to be fended for.
A little boy was in a family that put all the pressure on him.  He had to do everything for his lazy single mother who kept irresponsibly getting pregnant and making him take care of all of his younger siblings and her.  His core un-met need is to be taken care of.  But because there was no way for this need to be met, he had to simply deny, suppress and disown the need to be taken care of.  At the same time as draw from within himself the ability to take all the pressure and responsibility and do everything for everyone else.  Because he was put in this situation where he needed to ‘carry’ everything and everyone else over and over again, and many of these times, had to find new ways to do it, he developed several parts of himself that were hyper responsible, that take everything on, that say yes instead of no, that are codependent etc. Because those were the ones that kept him safe, those are the ones he wears on the surface of his personality.  Everyone sees him this way. To the opposite side of each of these parts is a part that is desperate to be taken care of by someone else. And the more this occurs, the more this need becomes desperation. His internal system is now a complex system built around the theme of all the pressure being on him to do and be everything for everyone and the need to be taken care of.
Ready for the next layer?  This unmet need is what a person will be desperately searching for, especially in primary relationships.  The girl in our example will be desperately searching for a man to fend for her.  The boy will be desperately searching for a woman to take care of him.  But she and he keep ending up in situations that are just a repeat of the original theme.  She will end up in a relationship in which she has to fend for herself and he will end up in a relationship where all the pressure is on him to do and be everything for everyone.  Why do you ask?
The parts on the surface (not in the background) are what is obvious to others and on the surface to see.  The ‘protector parts’ of self.  This is what attracts someone to them.  The kind of man who will be attracted to a woman who is hyper capable, hyper responsible and independent, is not a man who is looking to fend for a woman.  It is a man who is looking for a woman who can fend for herself and even take care of him.  And the kind of woman who will be attracted to a man who takes all the pressure and responsibility and does everything for everyone else, is not a woman who is looking to take care of a man.  It is a woman who is looking for a man that can fend for her.
  When a need is not met to this degree in childhood, chances are that the child was also shamed for having this need.  For example, the girl in our example would have been shamed any time she looked to be fended for by her parents.  The boy would have been shamed any time he looked to be taken care of by his mom.  As a result, the child learns that it is not possible to get this need met directly.  Instead, their only hope is to manipulatively get this need met.  If you want to learn more about how un-met needs lead to manipulation, watch my video titled: Meet Your Needs!  For example, when she is a woman, this girl in our example may learn to try to get her need met by putting herself in situations that require rescue.  When he is a man, this boy in our example may learn to try to get this need met by chronically coming up with excuses as to why he can’t do something, so that someone else will eventually get so sick of it not getting done, that they do it themselves.
  In alignment with this last point, many people get into relationships by sensing the other person’s need and providing it for the other person. It is true that some people go so far as to intentionally portray themselves to be whatever the other person needs and wants, regardless of the fact that the truth of them is the exact opposite, in order to get whatever they want.  It’s a bait and switch. This is a pattern that both codependents and sociopaths are in fact famous for.  But a bait and switch is also something that can be subconsciously done, even by the most well-meaning people.
When this happens, it is usually because of this:  They see the other person as being whatever the person displays on the surface.  But that same person may be displaying a part of their deep, unmet need.  The parts of them that have compensated for their own unmet need are fully capable of meeting that need which the other person is currently displaying.  In fact, being that way is what guaranteed them any closeness with their family growing up.  So, being that way in this new relationship situation is what they believe will secure the connection. Using our example, the man sees the woman in our example as totally hyper capable, hyper responsible and independent, even when he sees her in a temporary situation needing to be fended for. Because he had to fend for his mother, he has the skill and confidence to do so.  He has already experienced that this is what secures his connection to other people.  So, he will sense the opportunity and jump in as the rescuer and fend for her.  He knows she will want to commit to him if he does that.  Really, he is attracted to her because being so hyper capable, hyper responsible and independent, he imagines that if he rescues her and fends for her, she will be even more capable, responsible, confident and independent.  Essentially, he might, in a back-door way, end up being with the woman he always dreamed of.  The woman who is the opposite of his mom.  A woman who takes the pressure herself and takes care of him.  But she simply sees a man who finally will fend for her.  She commits to him thinking he is the man who will do so.  Eventually, when the man sees that she really just wants to be fended for forever (and so the scenario will not evolve into him getting his need of being taken care of met), he stops fending for her.  He feels he is back in his childhood situation again.  The parts of him that went for the relationship to get the need of ‘being taken care of’ met now take over and he constantly creates scenarios where he chronically comes up with excuses as to why he can’t do something.  She eventually realizes that instead of being fended for, she is having to do everything for herself and on her own and even for him.  So, she too find herself feeling like she is back in her childhood situation again.
This is why I call this the “Dupe Pattern”. Both people in this scenario feel duped.  The man thought he was getting into a relationship with a woman who was hyper capable, hyper responsible and independent.  But ended up with a woman who needs to be fended for.  The woman thought he was getting into a relationship with a man who was hyper responsible, would take everything on and really fend for her.  But ended up with a man who leaves her to fend for herself and even for him too.
It may be of interest to know that I have seen scenarios where a person enters into this pattern saying that they are looking to be the exact opposite of what they are actually looking to be in a relationship, due to their own un-met needs. Such as a man I worked with once who said he wanted to be a provider and even sold himself to a woman as one, when what he really wanted was to be financially supported himself.  Of course, instead of being attracted to a woman who was struggling financially, he was attracted to a woman who was financially independent because of how hard she worked and because of the fact that she had never been provided for by anyone else.  Sensing that she was desperate to not have to do that anymore, he came in and said “I’ll be the man to financially provide for you for a change, you’ll never have to worry about money again!” only to later come up with excuses as to why he quit his job and she had to provide for them both.  He even found a legal way that the money she earned in her own business could be funneled into a business that they owned together, so that he could legally claim 50% of it and transfer it to his own private accounts. Obviously, this takes the “Dupe pattern” to an even higher level.
But I have also seen this pattern play out even if a person is directly saying exactly what they are actually looking for, because the other person does not register what the person says, only how they act.  Such as a man I worked with who said he wanted a partner who could make supporting him in his career, her priority so that he could run a successful political campaign.  Even though he told every woman he dated that what he was looking for in a wife was for her to really make supporting his life and career her focus, he acted the opposite.  He acted like his life would be about their life instead.  He would adjust his schedule to their schedule.  He would focus on helping them with their goals.  This obviously attracted women who wanted a man to make his focus supporting her life, not women looking to be financially supported and included in a man’s life completely in exchange for dedicating her energy and support and focus to his life and career success.
When two people find themselves in this “Dupe Pattern”, the un-met need in both partners was attracted to the ‘coping mechanism’ being displayed by the other.  But this means that any time the un-met need is being met in one person, the un-met need is not being met in the other.  This becomes a re-traumatization.  Using our example, the parts of the woman who need to be fended for are attracted to the parts of the man who coped by being hyper responsible and taking care of everything.  But the real truth underneath that coping behavior is that he wants to be taken care of.  The parts of the man who want to be taken care of are attracted to the parts of the woman who coped by being hyper capable, hyper responsible and independent. But the real truth underneath that coping behavior is that she wants to be fended for.
Now, any time the woman is fending for herself and taking care of him, she is being re-traumatized and her need to be fended for is again, doomed to stay a desperately un-met need.  Any time the man is fending for her and taking care of things, he is being re-traumatized and his need to be taken care of is again, doomed to stay a desperately un-met need.  Both are in serious pain and when that pain reaches a certain threshold, the relationship ends.  But tends to repeat itself with the next person they end up with.
Becoming aware of this pattern (and especially of your un-met need) actually causes a positive shift in this pattern in and of itself.  Because the un-met need represents a trauma of yours and/or is linked to many traumas, it is connected to your fight or flight mechanism, which is super primal stuff.  Your likelihood of being conscious and reasonable about it is slim.  Instead, it will exist like a huge trigger within you, ready to go off at any moment and in response to the slightest of things.  Just like someone who has severe abandonment trauma is likely to react like they are getting abandoned, even when someone is just going on a trip for a matter of hours. You may just be subconsciously reacting to situations like your need will not be met.  For example, the girl in our scenario may not actually be in a situation where she actually has to fend for herself.  But that is exactly what she has in her head and therefore, she will be reacting like she does.  Or the boy in our scenario may not actually be in a situation like his past, where he is taking care of everything.  But he is telling himself that story and is reacting according to that reality that he, alone perceives.  Becoming aware of this pattern will cause you to see yourself in this pattern and be able to discern reality from projected trauma.  And this, in and of itself can actually cause healing and also calm the desperation and reactivity of both the part of you that has the un-met need and the part of you that learned to cope and function without that need getting met.
 To solve this pattern, the split between the part of you that has the un-met need and the part that has learned to cope or function without that need getting met must be mended.  An integration must occur between them.  All you need to know to begin this work is what the un-met need is.  From there, one of the best methods to create this integration is parts work.  To learn how to do parts work, you can watch my video titled: Parts Work (What Is Parts Work and How To Do It).  Alternatively, you can find a therapist who is adept at parts work to help you with the process.  Or you can go to www.completionprocess.com and select a completion process practitioner who is specifically adept at parts work as well.
During this process of integration, the parts are likely to reach an agreement or harmonize and this is likely to alter your thoughts, words, actions and choices. The intense polarization dissipates.  As a result, you will come more into alignment with getting that un-met need met.  You will be able to go after that need in a different and more conscious way.  And because the polarization dissipates, you will no longer be a vibrational match to partners who are likewise polarized.
When people are severely polarized, it means that they have had to ‘split’ in order to cope.  This means, that exaggerated extreme that you are attracted to, may not be authentic.  There may also be something else, even potentially the exact opposite thing, hiding behind it.  That part of their personality you are attracted to, may just be a coping mechanism!  Coping mechanisms, because they aren’t an authentic presentation of who someone is, are prone to go away when someone begins to heal or integrate or develop self-awareness.
Until someone becomes completely authentic, and they cannot be completely authentic until they completely know themselves, and they cannot completely know themselves until they completely integrate, they are going to dupe others.  They aren’t going to dupe others because they intend to or because they are bad.  They are going to dupe others because they are duping themselves without knowing it.
Being alive implies being in the process of self-discovery. This means whenever you decide to commit to being in a relationship with someone, be aware that what you are committing to (whether you know it or not) is the process of self-discovery, but together.  All you have is a range of probabilities as to whether someone actually is who they think they are, much less say they are.  There is no way to have an absolute guarantee as to whether someone that you meet, befriend, date or marry is who they think or say they are.

Love is Selfish!

To generalize, wherever you go in the world, in human society selflessness is a huge value.  At face value, this seems like a good thing.  After all, if everyone was just running around in a self-centered way doing whatever they wanted, regardless of who it negatively impacted, social wellbeing and especially social order would be hard to maintain.  The problem is, it isn’t actually possible for a being to be selfless.  At first, this truth might shock you, especially if you are identified with being a selfless person.  But stick with me.
What was the relationship that your family of origin or culture had with selflessness? When you were young, can you remember the people in your life expecting you to do things for them or things that were in their best interests?  Do you remember times where it felt like doing those things were in their best interests, but not your own?  Do you remember that when you put up a fuss about it, you were shamed or punished for it?  Essentially, were you taught that to be right and good and therefore loved, you had to disregard yourself for the best interests of others?  And that doing so was loving them?  Most people on earth today were taught that to love others is to be selfless and to be loved back is to be selfless and you are only really loved if someone is selfless relative to you…  Long story short, you were taught that love is selfless.
This belief causes all kinds of pain amongst people. For one thing, it can create both narcissistic and codependent styles of relational behavior in people.  It can cause people to give themselves up for the sake of harmony with their social group.  It can cause people to go totally off of the direction that their own internal compass (and purpose) is pointing them.  It can cause people to cross their wires so that the pain they feel is interpreted as ‘good’ for them and others.  It is a recipe for resentment as well as manipulative and invisible strings dynamics amongst people. And this list goes on and on.
But one of the most damaging relationship patterns that this creates, is the “you only love me if your actions are selfless” pattern.  When people have this pattern in relationships, they don’t feel loved and feel totally alone unless they can’t link any of your actions to any potentially selfish motive. Meaning that if you get anything out of what you do for the other person, they don’t see you as loving at all.
To give you an example of this, I worked with a man, let’s call him Derek, who had a mother that (due to her own trauma) could not make any relationship with a man work out.  She was married 4 times and each of those times, she had multiple children with the current husband.  But because the men she chose had no interest in actually providing for the children, or in being husbands or fathers, from age 5 on Derek got saddled with the job of being surrogate husband to his mother and raising all of his younger siblings as if he was the father.  His mother only gave him positive feedback when he did this. And his mother would pull a victim control drama any time he protested. He coped by subconsciously building the belief that he was loved for being selfless like this and that he would know if someone loved him if they did things that were totally in his best interest, regardless of whether they were in their own best interests. In other words, he was looking for someone to give him love in the same way that he showed his love to his mother.
He would enter into every relationship behaving completely selfless, happily sacrificing for every woman like he had for his mother.  Expecting to get the same in return if the occasion ever arose.  Every time however, eventually a situation would arise where the woman he was with would have to do something selfless to prove that she loved him.  Such as giving up a male friend that made Derek feel insecure or ceasing to wear the outfits that he disliked.  And if the woman protested or refused, he would suddenly sink into a depression, now convinced that she didn’t love him.  Derek would also pass everything that a woman did for him through the filter of: What’s in it for her?  And if he found anything, anything at all that she could possibly get out of doing it, he could not feel love through the gesture.  For example, if she made him a food item that she hated but he loved, he felt that she loved him.  On the other hand, if she hugged him and he could feel that she wanted physical touch, he felt that she didn’t love him and was just using him.  He did the same thing with friends.  Derek subconsciously loved to put people in lose-lose situations just to see if people would choose his best interests, even when there was a consequence for doing so, so that he could test whether or not they loved him. Needless to say, every woman and every friend who entered into Derek’s life ended up completely depleted and found him impossible to be with.
When someone has this pattern in relationships, he or she feels loved with more benign little stuff, where a person is obviously acting in his or her best interests but obviously against their own, such as a person who hates the color purple buying them something in the color purple because that person knows that they love it.  But this also tends to escalate and turn into another pattern which I call the “Suffer So I Can Feel Loved Dynamic”.  Where he or she feels loved when a person is acting against their own best interests in an extreme enough way so as to actually suffer.  To understand all about this dynamic in-depth, you can watch my video titled: The “Suffer So I Can Feel Loved” Relationship Dynamic.
The idea that love is selfless is something that people need to let go of in order to have good relationships.  And feeling loved only when someone’s action can’t be linked to any selfish motive, is a recipe for never feeling loved.  This isn’t to say that there are not totally self-centered people, who do everything (even loving things) for personal gain, regardless of the negative impact on others.  It is to say that people need to change their definition of what is and isn’t loving.
Most people think that love is to feel intensely positive towards something or someone.  This is not the case.  This can be a byproduct of love.  But to love something is to take it as a part of yourself.  If you take something as a part of you, you do not perceive yourself to be separate from that thing and so you can perceive it fully and you seriously take its best interests into account. If you take something as a part of you, you can’t hurt that thing without hurting yourself.  This doesn’t mean that when you do this, you give yourself up.  Instead, it is as if the truth of the other thing, and your own truth exist like two entities inside yourself.  You can’t act against the best interests of either of them.  Most people can only understand this by thinking of two of their own children.  If you have two children, you feel pain any time that one of them is happy and the other is not, so you’re automatically looking for a ‘win-win’ or a ‘highest and best for both’ situation.  This is what truly loving something translates to.  This means that the best type of love, is love where both the giver and the receiver of the love benefit.  Both people’s best interests are a part of the gesture.  For example, a person who is giving love through affectionate touch, feels fully received (and therefore also loved) by giving touch.  Or a person who loves to cook (because cooking makes them happy) cooking for someone who feels loved when they are fed.  Or a situation where neither partner is ok with the other feeling bad, and so in a needs conflict situation, they each work to try to meet the needs of the other so as to arrive at a mutually beneficial arrangement and decision. And this is one reason why compatibility is such an important part of healthy relationships. To understand more about this in depth, watch my video titled: Incompatibility, A Harsh Reality In Relationships.
In a universe that at the highest level is ‘all one’ (which it is) there is nothing in existence that is not you.  Even when collective consciousness decides to hold the perspective of separation (which is what gave rise to individual fragments within source consciousness like you and me) this is true.  So, even doing something for someone else is doing something for yourself.  On top of this, because there is nothing that is not ultimately you, all love is ultimately self-love.  This translates into the physical embodiment as the inability to actually be selfless.  Every single thing that is done, is done because it makes the person doing it feel better themselves.  Even things that we, in human society label self-sacrifice.  So much of the time, even when a person thinks they are being purely selfless or is self-sacrificing, they are being that way in order to feel like they are a good/right person; which is a self-centered motive. If you want to understand this in depth, watch my video titled: Self Sacrifice, The Most Self-Centered Thing In The World.  If you don’t believe me, try it!  You can ultimately take anything that any person does, and whittle it down to the fact that they did it because it made them feel better to do it.  Even the things that we would on the surface label ‘self-sacrificing’.
But all of this should not make you depressed, nor should it make you feel like you live in a hopelessly cold and narcissistic world.  Instead, it is a good thing that you can’t erase caring towards yourself.  You are, after all a precious part of the universe and must therefore take care of it.  And “US/WE” thinking is how we will ultimately reach a state of peace and unification, not by being able to slip into ME vs. THEM thinking, which is what selflessness and self-sacrifice ultimately is.  And believe me, there are a great many acts that a truly conscious person might do that would be judged as self-sacrificing by other people, when in fact from their own perspective, the truth is quite the opposite.  They are simply connected enough to see it!

Masculine Containment

So often, when I’m speaking about relationships between men and women, I mention the importance of a man providing ‘containment’ for the woman he is with.  As it turns out, many men and women both are confused about what containment even is, much less how to provide containment for someone.  For this reason, I’ve decided to write this article entirely about containment.
This article must come with a warning however because the topic of containment relative to men and women will come up against many erroneous, but currently deeply revered belief systems about perfect sex equality.  As well as many erroneous, but currently deeply revered belief systems around power/freedom and the sexes. This means try really, really hard to keep an open mind and try to separate your own personal wounding and triggers from this intellectually objective conversation about men and women.  Also, this article is about something men provide for women in a relationship.  So, this particular article mentions nothing about what women do for men in a relationship.  And as a last disclaimer, keep in mind that you can do your relationships any way you want, if it works for you.  As we say in the West, you don’t need to fix what ‘aint broke.  But you really have to ask yourself the question: Does the way I’m currently doing my relationships really work for me and the other person?  For a lot of men and women, the answer is no.  And for a lot of them, lack of masculine containment is the reason why.
The first thing that must be said, but that I can’t believe I have to point out, is that women and men are different and therefore, are not the same in many ways.  If this were not the case, even on a physical level men and women would be physically designed the same.  Until we accept that women are men are different, we will never be able to create a healthy relationship between the sexes.  This is critical because many of the people who fight hard for gender equality erroneously do so by fighting for gender ‘sameness’.  In other words, they try to establish equality of value or equality of power or equality of whatever else by trying to prove that men and women are the same.  Because they are not, this is a losing strategy.
Containment is something that women need from men in order to feel good in a relationship.  If you want to understand this even more in depth, watch two of my videos titled: 1. What Every Man Needs to Know About Women and 2. Why Women Like Assholes.  The bottom line is, a woman can’t feel good in a relationship without containment.
A big group of women who act like they don’t need as much containment from a man, are actually getting containment from somewhere else (usually it is still their family or origin for example).  Another group of women simply ‘seem’ like they don’t need it (because they seem to be able to fend for themselves) when in fact, they have simply had to compensate for, acclimatize to and normalize the lack of containment. Contrary to the first group of women who act ok without containment from a man, these women don’t act ok.  They tend to seem feral, displeased, controlling, anxious and uptight.  And women who go so far as to resist containment (or who worse, say they don’t need it) have trauma around things like being negatively controlled by a man or being seen as being weaker or less than by a man etc.  They too, in their behavior, don’t seem ‘fine’.  Instead, they also display the negative behavioral characteristics associated with lacking containment.
To conceptualize of masculine containment, imagine that in a relationship, a man is a clam shell and a woman is a pearl inside that clam shell.  This is a healthy symbol for divine masculine and divine feminine.  This masculine clam shell is creating a safe, nourishing space in which the female can exist or occur.  It enables a woman to be soft, open, receptive and to grow.  If you imagine removing that masculine shell, the female immediately contracts, goes rigid and into a state of defense.  It is a coping mechanism rather than a natural feel-good state of being. She is forced to compensate for the lack of that masculine shell by becoming masculine herself.  And this, causes a ‘flip’ in polarity, which is to blame for so much of the dysfunction between men and women today.
With that image in mind now, let’s look deeper at containment.  To contain a woman, in this context, is to actively (not passively) create a safe space of wellbeing for her. The healthy masculine energy creates a container in which the feminine can truly exist and thrive.  To do this, a man must take positive ownership of a woman.  Many people have a negative association with ownership.  This is because they ‘threw out the baby with the bathwater’ relative to ownership. The reality is that a woman actually wants to feel owned.  She just doesn’t want to feel oppressed, controlled, looked down on or limited.  And these are all things she’s been taught to associate with ownership.  To be owned is the opposite of to be stray.  Women do not do well with being stray. Here’s the thing, to truly own something is to see it as part of yourself. If you see something as part of yourself, it becomes impossible to hurt that thing without hurting yourself too. You cannot usurp its free will without harming yourself.  Therefore, in true ownership (which is for something to be a part of you and therefore to belong to you) the best interests of that other thing is of the utmost concern. This makes a woman feel happy in a relationship.  To understand more about this, you can watch my video titled: Own People! (How to Take Ownership of Your Relationships).
Many men who don’t understand what it would practically look like to contain a woman, are benefitted by thinking of containment in terms of ‘fending for a woman’.  When a man does not contain a woman, she has to fend for herself.  To fend for herself is to look after, protect and provide for herself without help.  When a man fails to provide containment for a woman, she ends up feeling like she has to do it all herself and fend for herself. This means, a male who lacks the skill of containment inevitably makes a woman feel like she is all alone.  Not just all alone, also unsafe, starved of needs and as if all the pressure is on her.  This will make a woman become controlling, anxious, hard, cold, masculine, bitter, angry and resentful.  It will cause her mental, emotional and physical health to corrode.
  If you want to provide containment for a woman, don’t let her (or expect her to) fend for herself on a mental, emotional, or physical level.  Instead think: How can I fend for her in this situation?  
 Many men create a way better container for the car they drive than the woman they are in a relationship with.  A man who takes positive ownership, and who therefore creates containment for his car, acts in the best interests of that car.  He doesn’t let the car fend for itself.  Some men rub their car with diapers to keep it clean and protect the paint job.  They appreciate the hell out of their car emotionally.  They put energy and effort into the upkeep of their car.  They keep the oil tank full and rotate the tires and learn all about the engine and lock the car doors so no one steals it.  And doing so, actually makes them feel good.
So, what might providing a container for a woman, where she feels positively owned and fended for, translate to on a physical level?  I’ll give you a few examples, of which there are so many more.  It could look like:
To energetically put your energy around her, no matter where she is in the world To take responsibility for her wellbeing (the positive form of claiming her) To create safe, supportive conditions and a safe, supportive environment where she can grow and expand. Rather than expecting her or encouraging her to grow and expand by virtue of her not having those safe and supportive conditions/environment To do things that create a feeling of ‘security’ on any and all levels for her To provide for a woman in terms of resources (this could be financial or otherwise) To take it upon yourself to create improvement in her life, without being asked to do so  To take charge of a situation by taking the lead To be ‘reachable’ and available to her To be initiative relative to her To be active relative to her wellbeing instead of passive To protect and defend her physically To protect her emotional wellbeing To do things like open doors for her or pick her up in your car or pour water into her glass or have her take your arm when walking down the street To reassure her  To remember important dates and make those dates special To attune to her mental, physical and emotional state so that you know what is ‘right’ to do or not to do relative to her.  For this, you must put considerable energy into understanding not just women in general, but her specifically To do things that take pressure off of her, without her having to ask To organize a date with all the details totally under your control To take charge of logistics To initiate repair if rupture occurs in the relationship To put effort into meeting her needs and wherever necessary, to help find ways for her needs to be met outside of you  To be physically with her, or to make sure she is ok when she is not with you.  In other words, to make sure she does not have to fend for herself when you are not around to fend for her  To not put her in lose-lose situations To not put her in dangerous situations To deliberately create regular time to be present with her and totally focused on her.  To appreciate her  To be communicative and speak your mind as well as listen to her  To caretake the relationship itself To be and to act committed to her To do things that cause her pleasure To make decisions, especially tough decisions To take responsibility for your decisions and actions To romance her To figure out what needs to get done and actively get those things done To take responsibility and initiative for facing and resolving problems you might become aware of or things you might need to heal within yourself To provide containment for any children you might have together and/or she might have from another man To be in your masculine energy and power To help her face the parts of herself that are resistant to being contained, rather than to simply stop giving her containment, when she resists it. Keep in mind that it isn’t a great strategy to simply try to memorize and do all these containing things. The containing things that a man does naturally, come as a direct result of first deciding to ‘contain’ and ‘fend for’ a woman.  This means if you are a man, your actions naturally follow suit and you don’t have to think hard about HOW to provide containment.  It is second nature.
In the past there used to be a saying… “Over the mysteries of female life is drawn a veil, best left undisturbed.”  Sorry but in order to provide containment for a woman, you’ve got to throw this saying in the trash can completely. In order for men to contain women to the best of their abilities, they’ve got to put energy into trying to understand women in general.  In order for you to contain a specific woman to the best of your abilities, you must understand that specific woman.  Those of you who love cars know that containing a Ferrari entails different things than containing a Ford Taurus.  Women are very much the same in many ways and are still very different in many ways and because of this, you’ve got to start trying to understand her.  To learn more about this, you can watch my video titled: Stop Trying to Love Them and Start Trying to Understand Them.
Women… face and resolve your resistance to being provided containment by a man.  And men… face and resolve your resistance to providing containment for a woman.  A feel-good relationship, depends very much on this.  As you do this, keep in mind that containment has nothing at all to do with being oppressed, controlled, looked down on or limited.  And if a man does any of these things to you, he is in fact NOT containing you, as he is not acting in your best interests at all.  That is not positive ownership at all.
In a homosexual relationship, there is still need for containment.  But there is usually more struggle relative to power dynamics in the relationship.  This means things simply get much less straight forward relative to containment.  Usually, the partners do best when they communicate openly, honestly and freely so as to mutually and consciously decide what containment they will provide each other in the relationship and to what degree. There is often a higher degree of “flip flopping” relative to who is containing whom and in what situations and why.  And these decisions that define the how and when one person is containing the other, is largely based off of what makes each party feel like they are in their personal power.  And personal healing aside, in a homosexual relationship, this mutual process of defining containment within the relationship obviously has less to do with gender.  There must be intense honesty however about what roles each person wants to play for the other, rather than slipping into the shadow of ‘no roles’.
Containment is not something that is only natural for a man to give a woman that he is in a relationship with.  It is something that is natural for a man to provide for any woman, whether she is his partner, a friend, a sister, a mother or a daughter.  And it is natural for men in general within society to provide this containment for women in general within society.  In generations past (especially in tribal societies) this was something that men expected from every other man towards the women in society and in fact held other men up to the standard of.  So young men would first be taught how to contain by being contained themselves and later, stepping into adulthood, they would be directly educated about how to contain by other men.  They just didn’t use the specific word: Contain.
It is at this point that I must make you aware that the modern single-family household, especially the broken single-family household, is one of the unhealthiest societal structures to have ever existed.  It is also to blame for so much of this lack of containment that people experience.  So many men who struggle with providing containment, struggle with it because they never got containment as children.  They did not get the opportunity to learn by example, or to be directly taught by other men.  So it is, in essence, a developmental trauma.  For this reason, men with this wounding often look for containment from the women in their life and subconsciously enter into polarity flipped relationships.
And all this being said, this is what I will leave you with: Providing containment is not only something that makes women feel good in relationships.  When men are healthy, they love the feeling of providing this container. In fact, it gives a man a huge feeling of purpose, value and self-confidence to do so.

Advice All Women Need To Hear (Caretake A Man’s Confidence)

One of the most common complaints that I hear from women is that they feel totally powerless to a man being or not being in his masculine energy; and exhibiting or not exhibiting those traits that make her feel good in a relationship.  And while ultimately the choice and ability for a man to step into his power lies with him and not with her, there is something that women can do in order to feel less powerless in this scenario as well as to play the role of an ally to a man’s masculinity.  And doing this is one of the most powerful tools you have for creating a successful relationship with a man.  That thing you can do is: Caretake a man’s confidence.
Confidence is a feeling of self-assurance that arises from a person’s appreciation of their own abilities or qualities.  This makes people feel good about themselves (like they hold value). This also gives rise to a feeling of self-trust, and personal empowerment.  Most women don’t think about the importance of making sure that a man feels confident.  Also, because so many women feel powerless to men, the idea of having a huge impact on a man’s confidence is not really something that occurs to women.  On top of this, many women have huge fears about a man being confident.  We will touch on that later.  But it is critical to understand just how important confidence is for a man.  Don’t get me wrong, confidence is something that both women and men need.  But it plays a very special role in a man’s life.  You can think of confidence as being like the necessary precursor for him being in his power and masculinity, which is where those things you love about being in a relationship with a man come from.
Those awesome things that you love about being in a relationship with a man… things like protection, containment, positive ownership, responsibility, leadership, initiative, action, commitment, direction, movement, strength, focus, fatherhood, generosity, encouragement, material abundance/provider-ship, and growth usually depend heavily on confidence.  Therefore, if you haven’t noticed already, when a man’s confidence goes down, so do these things.  He often ‘flips’ to become the opposite of these things.
It’s important to know that one of the more doomed dynamics that occurs between a man and a woman is that both perceive the other to have “flipped” on them. Usually in this dynamic, the man perceives that in the beginning the woman is positive about him and likes everything about him. Then, suddenly she becomes negative about him and critical.  He usually feels confused as to why she’s not happy anymore.  To the opposite, the woman perceives that in the beginning he exhibited all of those awesome character traits and then suddenly (or gradually) became the opposite.  She usually feels duped into a relationship with a man who is actually the opposite of who he sold himself to be in the beginning.  This becomes a ‘which came first the chicken or the egg’ type argument.
Regardless of whether it is the woman’s negative feedback or some totally unrelated thing that negatively impacts his confidence (such as something at work), it can easily become a downward spiral where the confidence decrease causes a man to behave in a way that invites negative feedback from a woman, which decreases his confidence further, which invites even more negative feedback, which decreases his confidence further and so on and so forth, until the relationship becomes nothing but pain on both sides.
The bottom line is, if you want power relative to having a feel-good relationship with a man, find out what makes your man feel confident and put energy towards those things.  For a man to be the most strongly in his power, he needs to place his confidence on things that can’t be taken away by others.  As much as possible, he needs to make sure that his confidence is not in the hands of others.  But people influence each other.  No matter how much confidence a man might have, you influence the confidence of the men around you!  So, figure out what makes men in general and your man specifically feel confident and be an ally for those things.
I will start you off by listing some general things that tend to cause men in general to feel confidence.         
Having a defined and important role/place where they are useful and needed and wanted.  This includes an important place in a woman’s life! Because this point is so important, it would benefit you to watch my other video titled: What Every Woman Should Know About Men.   Achievement/accomplishment/completing something Power (feeling like they are able to bring about what they want) Feeling important To feel like he is making things better wherever he goes and whatever he does Social status (this is why men tend to feel confidence with the certain type of car, the beautiful wife, that certain house, that job etc) The recognition of his authority where his authority exists  Being believed in and feeling like others want him to succeed Being encouraged  Having knowledge Having skills Recognition Practice and repetition Feeling strong physically, mentally and emotionally.  With this, I must say that it is critical to a man’s confidence for him to feel strong physically and able to move, be active and respond to any given situation, threat, or call to action.   Security Taking Pride in things Praise/appreciation Being trusted, especially when he is in a position of leadership To see that he has grown/improved  To have autonomy without losing connection Feeling able to protect others and to make others feel safe Knowing how to do things and how to solve problems,  Being able to provide Being prepared (ie: being ahead of things and on top of the situation) Being active Having a sense of purpose/mission The ability to please a woman.  A man feels incredible confidence when he feels that a woman he is with is happy with him.  The reason this is so important for today’s topic is that this is where a problem often happens in a relationship between a man and a woman. A real relationship is based off of honesty and reality.  This means, it is critical for a woman to be able to voice when she is unhappy with something in a relationship.  So, caretaking a man’s confidence does not mean that a woman should be silent about her complaints so as to not make things worse.   But often, when she voices that she is unhappy or when she gives negative feedback, it serves to only make things worse because instead of the negative feedback leading to an improvement, it further corrodes his confidence, leading to even worse behavior.  And if a man feels like he is not making things better, he feels like he is not in the right place. This means that a) how to fuel confidence in a man in general and b) how to caretake confidence in a man while expressing a potentially confidence crushing truth, are two separate things.  And certain men have much shakier confidence than others.  Some men already have such low confidence and high shame levels that a seemingly small thing can cause a collapse.  And with men who have super low confidence and high shame levels, it can easily turn into a “you hurt me so much by telling me how I’m hurting you” scenario.  It’s a difficult thing for people with low confidence levels and high shame levels to discern between when they are actually being shamed or are simply feeling shame in response to something that someone is saying.
As a woman, you must understand something about men.  Many men in the modern world today have much less confidence than men did in generations before. Many men in the modern world have been stripped of their masculinity and therefore stripped of power.  The shadow of the feminist movement went in the direction of: “Because you are a man, you hurt others and are bad.  And we don’t need you”.  If you look through the list of things that makes a man feel confident and think about the many messages of modern feminism, it is easy to see the contradiction.  Essentially, a man who is stripped of his place and role and who is told he is not necessary, is a man with low levels of confidence to start.  This means, many men especially need the opposite message and special fueling of their confidence in order to heal.  Women must admit that they need and want men in order to help re-establish confidence in men.         
All this being said, the key here is not to be silent so as to not hurt his confidence.  The key is also not to only shower him in only positives that would build his confidence; or worse, lie to him so his confidence increases.  The key is to communicate the truth to him in a way that considers his confidence.  Can you fuel his confidence at the same time as telling him something that might negatively impact his confidence?  For example, telling a man directly what you want from him, instead of just how he’s messing up.  Or for example, focusing the conversation much more on your own vulnerability and on how things are negatively impacting you than on criticizing him or telling him negative truths about himself.  Or for example, explaining how the negative feedback is intended to benefit him or is intended to be helpful.  Make him aware of how the feedback enhances him, as opposed to how it takes away from him.  Or for example, letting him know what he’s doing right as well.  Positive feedback is important for men.  Just make sure it is an AND communication, not a but communication.  And is inclusive.  To say “I like that you are being super responsible, and I feel ignored by you” is very different than “I like that you are being super responsible, but I feel ignored by you”.  And doesn’t take something away from a man.  But does! It negates or diminishes the initial statement.  How could you communicate or re-phrase things or act in a way that makes you seem more like an ally than an adversary to his confidence?   To learn some more about this in depth, you may want to watch my video titled: Criticism (How To Give and Take Feedback).
Once you know what causes a man to feel confident, consider how you can be an ally to/support for those things.
Some women have serious fears about the idea of caretaking, putting energy into or fueling a man’s confidence.  For this reason, I highly suggest that you look deeply into what your specific resistance to enhancing a man’s confidence is.  Some common things that women say are:
That if a man gains confidence, he will become narcissistic, cruel, obnoxious and heartless.  And become unresponsive and un-caring of the feelings and needs of others (most especially her). In essence, he will begin to play zero-sum games.  Women have thousands of years’ worth of trauma relative to a man having more power than she does, and that causing her to get hurt.  So, naturally if confidence increases a man’s power, this might terrify women that it will happen again.  That if a man gains confidence, he will choose another woman. That if a woman has to give a man confidence, he’s more of a boy, not really a man and therefore pathetic. That if a man depends on her for his confidence, he is weaker than she is.  That means she has more power and control and is therefore bigger than he is, which is both a total turnoff to most women and makes most women feel like they have no containment and are therefore, totally unsafe.  Many women become very insecure relative to their own safety when they feel that the man they are with is fragile. That if the responsibility for his confidence is in her hands, it is a flip in polarity and she can’t be ‘in the feminine’. The “I don’t want to be expected to give what no one ever thought I should expect to get” fairness dynamic.  Some women feel that they had to step up regardless of all the discouragement they (and women in general) face.  They feel they did it and had to do it, despite no one supporting their confidence.  Therefore, some women feel repulsed at the idea of a man not stepping up regardless of discouragement, like she had to.  In other words, it feels super unfair. Most women need a man to be “large” but are afraid of him being “large” at the same time.  Large in this sense means all kinds of things like confident, strong, powerful etc.
Aside from resolving your specific resistance to fueling a man’s confidence, the first thing you need to do is to separate confidence from a man’s character, desires and needs.  This is the same as separating power from character, desires and needs.  You’ve probably heard that power doesn’t change who someone is, it simply reveals who they are. This is absolutely the case with confidence.  If a man’s truth is that he wants to sleep with lots of women and not just one, confidence is likely to make it so that he will act on that.  If a man’s truth is that he wants to provide for a woman, confidence is likely to make it so that he will act on that.  Therefore, it can be said that confidence reveals who a man is, it does not change who a man is.  Metaphorically speaking, confidence makes one man turn into a white knight and the other into a black knight because he already was underneath it all.  Confidence enhances both positive and negative qualities.  And here’s the thing, as a woman you care a great deal about safety.  Safety is about being in reality.  You’re safe if you know who a man really is.  You don’t really know a man until he has confidence.  So, fuel a man’s confidence not only to make him feel good in the relationship and act in a way that is conducive to him being in his strength (which makes you feel good in the relationship).  Fuel a man’s confidence to see who he really is.  But remember, if he begins to exhibit negative behaviors once he gains confidence, it isn’t about the confidence itself.  It’s about whatever underlying thing always existed that is either being enhanced or showing itself because of the confidence.
On top of this, it might be interesting to know that a man not only tends to relinquish his masculine traits when he is not feeling confident.  He also tends to go into the shadow expression of his masculine traits when he is not confident.  For example, he might become controlling, passive, irresponsible, disconnected, immature, destructive, tyrannical, manipulative, passive aggressive, jealous, self-centered, dishonest, unreliable or greedy.
It is not your responsibility to create a man’s confidence.  In fact, men will be much healthier and also more attractive to you if they derive their confidence from many things, not just what you say and do.  But the reality is that you have incredible influence on a man’s confidence.  And confidence is that key that not only reveals who a man really is, but that unlocks all those things you want from a man in order to feel good in a relationship. So, this information is intended to give you a sense of empowerment relative to your relationships as well as a greater chance at relationship success.  Try it out for yourself!

Why Women Like Assholes

As you know, there is a general feeling amongst both men and women that nice guys are out of luck and have to turn mean if they want a woman, because women like assholes.  For those of you who don’t know English so well, an asshole is a guy who is unresponsive to the feelings and needs of others.  He is intentionally cruel, obnoxious and heartless.  It is the masculine equivalent to a bitch.
Women don’t actually like assholes.  That’s a myth.  Women prefer men who are nice.  But I’m going to explain why it seems like women like assholes.  
A woman isn’t unattracted to a man because he’s nice.  What is actually happening is that she is unattracted to him because he lacks other traits that most women are not only attracted to, but actually need  in order to feel good in a relationship.  We could call these ‘masculine traits’.  And the guys that are usually labeled ‘nice guys’ by society and that identify with that label, tend to lack these traits. Therefore, due to both attraction to and need for these traits, most women feel ‘forced’ to be with men who have those traits, even if it comes with a side dish of other undesirable character traits.  “Nice Guys” tend to be passive, submissive, inactive and retreating.  They tend to follow instead of lead, they can be codependent and insecure. They are usually always agreeable to the degree that they lack boundaries and a sense of what is actually good or safe.  They tend to feel energetically small and therefore unable to protect and contain a woman.
To the opposite, men who are masculine tend to take the leadership role, they are protective. They have direction in life. They are creative.  They are strong.  They provide. They have good social skills.  They have drive. They are encouraging.  They possess charisma and confidence.  They have high energy levels.  They take positive ownership of the woman in their life. They take action.  They provide containment for the feminine.  In other words, it has nothing to do with whether a guy is nice.  Saying that a woman doesn’t want you because you are nice is a way for men to avoid looking at the actual issue… the traits they are currently not exhibiting that women need in order to feel good.  And guess what? A man could actually possess those traits and be a nice guy at the same time and a woman would actually prefer that guy.
So… why would a woman choose an asshole with those traits over a nice guy without them?
Let’s just look at biology first.  Keep in mind during this explanation that we are in a physical body and awakening is not about transcending the physical, it is about integrating it.  This means what I’m about to share with you is not something that needs to be ‘fixed’ in women.  Physically, for women attraction is about matching up with a person who will protect you, produce healthy offspring and provide for you and those offspring.  The man is your ticket to survival.  No matter how much the modern world has changed things, this is still the truth today for women on a physical level.  A vulnerable male, leaves a woman in a position to feel like she has to ‘do it all herself’ or ‘fend for herself’.  This means, a male who lacks masculine traits inevitably makes a woman feel like she is all alone… maybe with a friendly sidekick or servant.  But it causes her to feel like all the pressure is on her. 
Also, for a woman, fear is woven into her biology.  It is the baseline experience of her life whether she is consciously aware of it or not.  It is something she lives with (like a prey animal) day in and day out.  And when women have people that they care about, like a partner and like children, this fear simply grows.  If you want to understand more about this, watch my video titled: What Every Man needs To Know About Women.  At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter how nice a guy is if he can’t provide a woman with the feeling that she is ‘contained’, she will feel exposed to the world and therefore like there is nothing between herself and all the various threats in the world.
On top of this, most of the masculine traits such as confidence, are strongly connected to testosterone.  Higher testosterone means a woman will be more physically attracted to you, especially when she is ovulating.
At all of the different levels of reality, masculine and feminine is different.  It’s a different energy.  That energy takes on different expressions and manifestations. And polarities need one another!  Masculine energy has the tendency to call feminine energy into its full power and vice versa.  It feels good and natural for a woman to be in a state of feminine energy and expression.  But when a man lacks masculine qualities, it causes a flip of polarity between men and women.  A flip in polarity is to blame for so many relationship issues between men and woman today.  A flip in polarity tends to disable a woman from being in her feminine energy when she wants to be.  
When a man is trained to be “nice” by his parents or modern society, he is not actually being trained to be nice.  That’s a smokescreen.  In fact, he’s usually being trained to get rid of his natural power.  He’s usually being trained to get rid of his masculinity.  When a man begins to act passive, submissive, inactive and retreating, when he makes it a habit to follow instead of lead, becomes codependent or insecure or agreeable to the degree that he lacks boundaries and a sense of what is actually good or safe, he is unable to take positive ownership of a woman.  He cannot provide containment.  He does not create security.  He tends to not be very responsible.  Therefore, a woman compensates by becoming masculine.  The tissues of her body begin to armor and become like metal instead of be soft and receptive.  She becomes stressed because all the pressure goes onto her.  She has to take the leadership role.  She has to defend herself.  She becomes controlling and feels totally exposed to the world.  When this polarity is flipped, it’s terrible for both men and woman.  But women end up in pain physically, mentally and emotionally.
I’ve been talking a lot about the fact that if a man lacks certain masculine traits, he is unable to contain and positively own a woman.  A woman actually wants to feel owned.  She just doesn’t want to feel controlled.  But as far as an asshole is concerned, many women would rather choose to feel owned and controlled over feeling like she has to fend for herself but is free.  Not many women like the idea of being “stray”.  To truly own something is to see it as part of yourself.  If you see something as part of yourself, it becomes impossible to hurt that thing without hurting yourself.  You cannot usurp its free will without harming yourself.  Therefore, in true ownership, which is for something to be a part of you and therefore to belong to you, the best interests of that other thing is of the utmost concern. This makes a woman feel safe and secure.  To understand more about this, you can watch my video titled: Own people! (How to Take Ownership of Your Relationships)! 
Containment is not a limitation.  It is a safe space in which something can exist or occur.  When it comes to containment, the best way to think of this is like a clam shell and a pearl.  The pearl feels safe when it is contained in a clam shell.  The masculine serves as that clam shell that enables a woman to be soft, open and receptive.  Imagine removing that protective shell… the woman would immediately contract, go rigid and into a state of defense.  It is a coping mechanism rather than a natural feel-good state of being.  Very few women can live in this state.  Which is why they would choose an asshole who can provide ownership and containment over a nice guy who can’t.  The ones who do it, tend to turn angry, resentful, chronically stressed and bitter.  And those who choose to be in the flipped polarity role in relationships, usually have significant trauma around being controlled (especially by a man), which is why they swung the pendulum to the opposite extreme.
Our subconscious definition of love comes from our childhood home.  This means, for some women who had assholes for daddies, they are wired to feel more loved in an environment with an asshole.  What’s more than that, we all have unresolved trauma and we keep seeking out situations that mirror that unresolved trauma so as to resolve it.  This means that if a girl had an asshole for a daddy and deep down she always wanted to ‘reform him’ and feel loved by him and win him over, she will subconsciously find a man who behaves like him (also an asshole) in the subconscious hope that if he is reformed and if she is able to win him over and if he does become loving, she has just healed her daddy wound.  This attraction stuff is quite complicated.  So, if you want to understand more about this, watch two of my videos, titled: Why You Keep Attracting the ‘Wrong’ Person in Relationships.  And Attraction (Why You’re Attracted to The People You’re Attracted To).
There is a dynamic in some women (especially those with low self-esteem) where an asshole who is aloof and un-committal, triggers her feeling of not being good enough.  This automatically puts her into the position of desperately wanting to be good enough.  She then begins to ‘chase’ the man, trying to get him to want her and to commit to her.  There is an element of challenge in winning a guy over.  But the challenge isn’t the real reason women do it.  They do it because they are desperate for the self-esteem and confidence that comes as a result of it being confirmed that they are not only good enough, but wanted and special.  Suddenly, it feels like if the guy who is acting like you are not good enough doesn’t decide he wants you; you really aren’t good enough.  And if a man who is an asshole will morph into an affectionate, good man and a good dad for you and you alone, it makes a woman feel even better about herself.  This dynamic only appeals to women who have low self-esteem, are thrill seeking (which is extremely rare) or who themselves have commitment issues.  If you are a woman who desperately needs to feel special (especially if that need comes from a childhood wound) you’re at high risk for falling into this dynamic.  Again, this adult life dynamic is ultimately created by early childhood dynamics.
Some women adapted in their life by becoming codependent.  One of the sadder dynamics of codependency is that a person has so much shame that they believe they aren’t good enough to be with someone who is functional and desirable and good.  Therefore, they get into relationships with dysfunctional individuals and place themselves in the “fixer” role.  In this position, they can focus on the dysfunction of their partner rather than their own.  Also, they can always be in the position of the good guy by comparison and thus avoid their own shame.  Some women choose assholes so that they can “fix” them.  Or “love them anyway” because it makes them the saint and therefore, feel good about themselves by comparison.  It also serves as an externalized way of fixing and loving the part of themselves that they feel is unlovable.
A lot of women find assholes to be more honest and straightforward.  There is a lot of talk in the female world that nice guys only complain about women liking assholes because they are mad that being friendly doesn’t get them laid… meaning that nice guys might just be every bit as much of an asshole, but a manipulative, covert one.  Many women see it as an act.  A way of bribing her to give him what he wants.  And to be totally honest, there are definitely some dangerous, sociopathic men who will use this tactic and then pull a bait and switch.  And women who have experienced it, have spread the warning around.
So there you have it.  Female behavior is not simply irrational.  There are legitimate reasons for it.  But the key to a woman’s heart and even the way into her panties is not about becoming a jerk.

How to Create Unity in Today’s World

It doesn’t take a genius to look at the world today and to see just how divided people are.  Relative to almost every subject, there are concrete sides.  This creates a dramatic polarization.  That polarization fuels division and war.  Especially because so many of these polarizations that exist today are about fears, insecurities and therefore deeply held values.  So, what do we do if we want unity in the world?
The first thing we have to do is to see clearly what is going on.  Each one of us has different life experiences.  We simply may share these experiences with others whom we then relate more to than other people.  And life experience implies contrast.  It implies experiencing both wanted and unwanted.  It implies both pleasure and pain.  A simpler way of saying this is that all people experience different traumas over the course of their life as well as different joys.  These traumas and joys lead to certain preferences.  They lead to certain fears.  They lead to certain needs and desires.  And those needs and desires lead to very specific values.  To understand more about how needs lead to values, watch my video titled: The Value Realization (A Realization That Can Completely Change Your Self Worth).  Nothing polarizes people more than when they hold different or even opposing values.  And nothing polarizes people more than when they hold opposing values relative to a situation where they perceive danger.
When our own life experience propels us in a direction where we develop different fears, preferences, information, needs, desires and therefore values, we often end up in different realities from one another.  We may be experiencing the exact same situation, but we are perceiving that situation totally differently, even to the point of perceiving the exact opposite from one another.  When this happens, it means that we begin to live in a parallel perceptual reality.  And it is the most dangerous kind of parallel reality.  If you want to understand about this dynamic in depth, you can watch my video titled:  The Most Dangerous Parallel Reality.  Essentially, we will begin to react in direct response to the reality that we, alone perceive.  If other people agree with our perception, it further fuels our reaction to that perception.
In order to see this picture clearly, I’ll give you an example:
Person A grew up in a dysfunctional home with an adversarial and controlling parent.  This person learned based off of their own life experience that they cannot trust authorities.  They became hyper attuned to power dynamics and to the dangers of government control.  They developed the deep need for sovereignty and therefore one of their top values is freedom.  Therefore, when the government decides to impose rules and regulations, this immediately threatens their values and they become super aware of the danger of government takeover and they begin to live in the reality that the government is corrupt and is out to strip them of their sovereignty.
  Person B experienced pain in their life as a result of people doing whatever they wanted, no matter the impact that had on others.  They feel deeply unsafe when there is no authority around to impose rules and regulations to ensure everyone’s wellbeing.  Because of this, they value social order and they value standards relative to human behavior.  To person B, there is a clear thing that is right and there is a clear thing that is good and they believe that rules should exist so as to guarantee that all people behave in that way that is right and good.  Therefore, when the government decides to impose rules and regulations, they say “it’s about time”.  They clearly see the danger inherent in everyone narcissistically doing whatever they want, no matter the cost to others.  So, they celebrate and begin to live in the reality that the government is acting in the people’s best interests. Because of person A and person B’s different life experiences and therefore different fears and needs and therefore different values, they now live in two different parallel perceptual realities.  Their realities in this case are polarized and the opposite.  Because of this, each sees the other as incompetent, stupid, blind, and a liability… therefore, a threat!  It is this polarization that can easily lead to war.  Any polarization regarding values that involve a sense of personal safety can easily lead to war.
So, if we want unity instead, how do we back out of this mess?  First, we step into a place of AND consciousness.  If you want an in-depth understanding of AND consciousness, you can watch my video titled: And Consciousness (The Modern-Day Replacement For The Middle Way).  We realize that any time we are completely polarized, there is something we are not seeing, not feeling, not hearing, not understanding and potentially suppressing.  We must consider that we may be holding one side of the view of truth and the opposite party may be holding the other side of the view of truth.  In other words, objective truth may just arise out of the amalgamation of both currently polarized perspectives.
Then, we must stop invalidating each other.  Opposing views are usually invalidating to each other by nature.  But when we are in a specific perceptual reality, we see nothing but proof for that perception, so this invalidation doesn’t change our minds.  It causes us to feel crazy and like others have lost their minds and like we are caught in a collective gaslight.  Also, when we fight and take action from these two different realities, we only inevitably end up reinforcing and therefore strengthening the current beliefs and values of the other.  We cause further polarization.  We have to stop invalidating each other or even trying to get each other to change our perception.  Instead, we must shift our focus to the other party’s estimation of unsafety…The vulnerability underneath that ‘war’ they are waging.
The reality is that when there is a polarization based on the perception of unsafety, both sides often clearly see the danger inherent in the other.  An analogy is that two people are facing each other walking backwards. And each has a sheer drop off behind them.  Person A can see person B’s drop off, but cannot clearly see his own.  Person B can see person A’s drop off, but cannot clearly see his own.  So, each is holding a truth about the danger of the other person’s perspective, but not his own.  This awareness causes us to stop walking backwards… towards our own drop off.
From there, we need to choose love.  This does not mean decide to feel positive about them.  When I say choose love, what I mean is to choose to include the other as a part of yourself.  To understand deeper what love is, watch my video titled: What Is Love? When you choose to love, the best interests of the other become a part of your own best interests. Their safety becomes a part of your own safety.  And you can put your attention on caretaking their unsafety.  Really understanding their personal life experience, their vulnerabilities and fears is the only way to do this. It’s also the only way for us to lay our swords down and really open up to things we might not be seeing ourselves from our perceptual reality.  We have all lived different lives, so that other person might just have first person knowledge of something we have never thought of, heard of, seen or experienced before.  This means, any one could hold a piece of truth that we have not included in our awareness yet.
It is intimacy and attunement to vulnerability that will bridge the gap between these different parallel realities that make us so utterly alone and so polarized.  This is what allows you to accommodate the other person’s unsafety as opposed to playing a zero-sum game as far as your and their safety is concerned.  Play the game “If they were right about their estimation of the unsafety that exists, how do I mitigate that danger for them?”  Now think about a world in which both ‘sides’ did this with one another.  They would not rest until they arrived at a win-win scenario.
Using our previous example, Person A would focus on how to mitigate the risk of people doing whatever they want, regardless of the impact on others and take action to show person B that they actually are considering and caretaking their wellbeing.  Person B would focus on how to mitigate the risk of government over reach and take action to show person A that they are actually interested in preserving their freedom.  Believe it or not, this is not as utopian as it sounds because it is quite easy to find a win-win scenario when both people actually feel like the other is actively caretaking his or her best interests.
Humanity must learn to end the zero-sum game.  To be completely honest with you, it is no longer a luxury to do so, it is a necessity.  And the zero-sum game will only be ended when people choose to accommodate the reality of those who are standing on the opposite side of the fight.  Hopefully the understanding I have given you today, will help you to make that choice and to become a powerful force for unification rather than polarization.
I’m going to leave you with a question to ask yourself:  How is my personal life experience (especially regarding pain and unsafety) controlling my perception of reality?  How might it be limiting my perception to only one side of the truth.  How might it be controlling by values and therefore what subsequent actions I will take?

Find Out What Gives You Energy

People feel the best when they are full of energy.  But energy is something that most people go about getting in a subconscious way. It is a rare person who asks themselves: What would GIVE me energy right now?  And goes directly for that.  But that is exactly what I am going to ask you to do today and this is exactly the tool I want you to put into your tool basket.
The first thing I’m going to ask you to do is to make a list as long as possible of all the things that give you specifically energy or that cause you to be energized…  The things that feed you.  Make sure to include things that give you energy on a mental, physical and emotional level.  Every person’s list is going to look different because what gives one person energy might totally deplete someone else. For example, organizing might give one person energy and might make another person feel depleted.  An example of a very short version of one such list that one of my clients wrote is:
Listening to classical music
Watching a fantasy movie
Taking a walk somewhere I have never walked before
Rowing (which is an intense workout) on the canal
Drinking matcha tea
People watching in the park 
Going into different shops to see new items, but without the intention of buying something.
Steam Rooms
Having a long-term goal to aim for
Getting physically aroused, but making sure to not ejaculate
Debating someone
Going on a food tour in the city
Playing chess
Wearing a pair of new slacks
Scoring a new company as a client of my marketing firm
Eating Spirulina and Chlorella
Eating Apples
Listening to 15-20 Hz High Beta Frequency 
Watching, reading or listening to inspiring biographies
Attending retreats
Climbing trees
Traveling to tropical locations
You get the point.  When you make this list, know that what might energize you today, might not energize you tomorrow and that’s perfectly ok.  Different situations and circumstances call for different energy.  But the beauty of this is that you can always go to your list and pick something off of it that you feel would give you energy at that given time, rather than having to brainstorm in the moment.  Because brainstorming in the moment tends to take more energy from the people who don’t feel like brainstorming gives them energy. You can also keep adding to this list because it is guaranteed that there will be things that give you energy that you have yet to discover.
Now that you’ve done that, here are three other suggestions for how to gain energy.
Discover and do your best to eliminate those things that deplete and drain your energy.  A lot about gaining energy is about taking away energy robbing things, not just the energy giving things you add to your life.  What things do you do that take the most energy?  Keep in mind that expending energy can be pleasurable.  So, what we are really looking for are those things that are not pleasurable which take, that deplete you and that rob you of energy.  What might be some solutions for those things?  How might you take those things off of your plate?
  Meet your needs directly and do things that give you energy in a direct way. Most people are subconsciously motivated to do things or to be near places, people or things that cause them to feel energized instead of depleted.  But this often also causes people to try to meet their needs or try to get energy in a roundabout way.  The thing about this strategy is that it usually doesn’t end up paying off.  For example, we may help someone in the hopes that that they will reciprocate by giving us gratitude.  Or we may pour our energy into work so that we can earn vacation days.  This feels rather like fishing for energy or fishing for your needs to be met, when there is no guarantee that you will catch the fish.  When it comes to energy and needs, go the direct route.  To understand more about this, watch my video titled: Meet Your Needs.
  Do things that you love doing just for the process of it.  And do things that you love for the achievement, outcome, end goal or destination as long as you know for a fact that you can guarantee that outcome and quickly.  When we engage in doing things that we love for the doing of it in and of itself, we are fed energy at the same time as expending it.  We absorb at the same time as we emit.  This is one reason why people who choose careers that they love doing, have much more energy and experience much more wellbeing.  Also, achievements and outcomes do give energy.  But they only give energy if they actually happen.  So, when it comes to going directly for energy when you feel depleted, do things you love just for the doing of them.  And keeping your long-term goals, make sure to focus your energy on doing things you love for the outcome as long as that outcome is not only a guarantee, but is also a more immediate and instant gratification scenario rather than a long-term gratification scenario. Keep in mind that it is important to fill your days up with things that give you energy and that feed you, so as to maintain your energy.  Don’t fall into the trap of only engaging in these energy giving activities when you’re already running on empty!

A Critical Distinction You Must Make (Outcome or Doing?)

To some degree, all people are both outcome oriented and process oriented.  This means that all people are both destination and journey oriented.  The question is, to what degree?  Some people derive much more pleasure and energy out of achievement and some derive much more pleasure and effort out of process.  There is an idea floating around the self-help/spiritual community that it is much better to be about the journey than the destination or to be about the process rather than the outcome.  In reality, both offer a different kind of energy to your life.  In reality, neither orientation is superior or inferior to the other.  But, in order to live a fulfilling life, one must be conscious about distinguishing between what they enjoy for the outcome and what they enjoy for the process.  And with that, one must make sure that this conscious distinction causes them to make the right decisions.
For the sake of understanding this concept, let’s say that there are three camps to sort things into.
Camp one is things that you love doing for the outcome.  These are things for which if the outcome ceased to exist, you would not derive enough pleasure out of the doing of it to continue. So, these are things where the outcome, end goal, destination or achievement makes the process pleasurable. Camp two is things that you love doing for the doing of them.  These are things for which even if there was no outcome, end goal, destination or achievement; OR even if the outcome, goal, achievement, or destination that does exist never came about, you’d still do it because the process, or the doing of it is what you love. Camp three is things that you do solely for an outcome.  These are things for which the outcome, end goal, destination or achievement does not ever make the process pleasurable.  It is literally and only a “so that ______.” I want you to look at the things you do in your life and decide what things go into what camp.  You can make an organized list if you want.  Keep in mind that every person will divide up the things they do into different camps.  There is no right or wrong answer here.  There is no camp that is right or wrong.
I’ll give you an example of what I mean. One person may put cooking into camp one because they like to cook, but if they imagine their cooking never resulting in a good finished product, they may find they don’t like the process of cooking (like cutting things up and putting things over fire and selecting ingredients) in and of itself unless they can produce a result.  One person may put cooking into camp two because even if they never got to see a result or even if they didn’t end up with a good finished product, they love the process of cooking.  One person may put cooking into camp three because they dislike the process of cooking and even the outcome doesn’t do anything for them, but they choose to do it so that they create relationship security or so that they don’t feel like a bad person.
Another example is that one person may put exercise into camp one because they like to exercise, but primarily because it makes their body look good.  If they imagine getting no results in terms of physical appearance, they don’t like the actual process of exercising enough to keep it up. One person may put exercise into camp two because they love the in the moment experience of exercise and would do it because they love doing it, no matter the result.  One person may put exercise in camp three because they hate exercising and don’t even get anything out of results.  But they may do it to maintain closeness with a friend or lover of theirs who loves exercise and who they want approval from.  If you want to learn more about the danger of filling the majority of your life with things to do that fit into this third camp, you can also watch my video titled:  If You Want To Be Happy, Don’t Do This!
As you are doing this exercise for the different sectors of your life, it is a good idea to break those sectors down into specific tasks.  For example, a person’s entire job may fit into camp three for them. But maybe balancing spreadsheets, which is one element of their career is something they love to do and would in fact fit into camp two.
Making the right conscious choices for yourself, as well as sorting through why you may not have the life satisfaction that you want relative to what you are doing, is easier when you know what camp things in your life fit into.  For example, imagine that you discover that writing fits into camp one for you.  You only like the process of it, if it results in a book that other people love.  It will no longer be a mystery why you aren’t as happy and why your motivation to write disappears if people do not love the book you wrote.  Or for example, imagine that you discover that talking fits into camp two for you.  You may now see talking as something that gives you energy when you do it, so whenever you feel depleted, you can find someone to talk to.  Or for example, if you discover that shopping fits into camp three for you.  It will be easier to find another way to meet the need that shopping is meeting, but directly and in a different way.
There are potential pitfalls inherent in each camp.  Rather than tell you what they are, I’d like you to think on it.  That being said, it is important to know that when it comes to creating a life that feels good and when it comes to making the right, conscious choices for yourself in a given situation, it is important to know what camp the things in your life fit into.  Let yourself be both process oriented and outcome oriented.  Let yourself be both destination oriented and journey oriented.  Afterall, you already are.  Just be conscious about it!

A Letter from Your Inner Child

All people on earth hold within themselves the essence of the children they once were. As you matured, regardless of your childhood experiences (good or bad) the adult part of you grew up, despite not getting everything it needed as a child.  But the child-part of you did not die or disappear somewhere along the way.  This child self of yours exists in your internal system. This inner child of yours symbolizes the core of your emotional self… The raw essence and vulnerability of your personal truth.   In truth, people have many “inner children”.  To understand more about this, watch my video titled Fragmentation, The Worldwide Disease.  But if we are looking at ourselves in terms of fragmentation, you can think of these many inner children as being organized into one box inside yourself that is labeled the inner child.
If you want to think metaphorically, the inner child is the box within your psyche that holds anything related to the child self. Things like innocence, play, wonder, suppressed desire and interests, curiosity, creativity, being in the present moment, honesty, imagination, emotions, traumas that belong to your childhood, childhood memories, the origin of patterns in your life, and even your pre-birth purpose. And those things are just the tip of the iceberg.  Working directly with this part of you (and any of the parts that are inside of it) can go a long way in terms of healing trauma, ending dysfunctional patterns, getting in touch with your essence and personal truth, meeting your needs, finding joy and living according to your internal compass etc.
There are many different ways to work with the inner child.  One such way, is to allow the inner child to write a letter to you at the age you are at right now.  So, for example, if you are 32 today, your inner child is going to write a letter to you (as if he or she traveled through time to give it to you) at age 32 and today.
To do this exercise, get a sheet of paper and a pen or pencil and sit somewhere comfortable.  From there, the best way to do this is to imagine that you are a method actor and, in this moment, you are only diving into the perspective of and becoming that one part of yourself, as if your inner child is the totality of you.  Another way of thinking about this is that you are channeling only your inner child and allowing it to take over your whole body and awareness.  You are going to spend some time getting used to it as if you are in a foreign being.  Consider things like ‘What do I feel like?’ ‘How big or small am I?’ How old do I feel?  Where do I feel like I am?  Essentially, to begin with, you are simply becoming aware of it without asking it to express or questioning it.
From there, you can choose whether to let yourself (as the inner child) write or speak.  Some people choose to record themselves doing this if they feel like speaking. In my experience, writing tends to work best for most people.  If you have chosen to write and find it difficult at first to simply let the truth belonging to your inner child to flow through you, consider writing with the hand you do not usually write with.  It doesn’t matter if it is messy.  Your non dominant hand is more connected to your subconscious mind.
You are going to speak or write as the child self.  And you are going to speak or write to your adult self that exists right here today.  Keep in mind that some inner child parts are less communicative and verbal than others.  Let whatever happens in this exercise happen.  Don’t expect the inner child to be any certain way.  Your inner child may be really angry with you or so distrusting that it is afraid to communicate with you.  Conversely, your inner child may be full of love and joy and be supper communicative.  What is your inner child’s current truth?  What does it need to say or need you or others to hear?  Let your inner child express as much as it wants.  You may feel questions arise from somewhere deep inside you.  You can mentally pose these questions to the inner child while you are still channeling your inner child.  Things like “when did this start or when did things change for you?”  Or “what would you need me to be doing differently than I am currently doing and why?”  Any question that arises can help you to gain deeper clarity about your inner child.
Do this for as long as it takes to feel like the inner child has said all he or she has to say.  And from there, given the information you received, come out of that perspective.  If you feel stuck in that perspective, visualize a pearl sized, glowing white light beginning in your heart and begin to expand it, like you were blowing up a balloon.  Imagining that as it expands, it pushes the perspective of the inner child to the perimeter of that light until that perspective “splits” sort of like a ripping seam.  Then imagine stepping out of that perspective and turning around to pick it up and hand the energy of that perspective back to the universe at large.
If you feel inspired to do so as a result of what was communicated, you may choose to do a visualization involving your inner child.  One of the best ways to do this is to imagine that your inner child (at whatever age you intuitively see him or her) is standing or sitting in front of you.  From there, you do anything with the inner child that feels intuitively right to do.  That being said, don’t forget to validate your inner child. Validation is the thing that most inner-child therapies or approaches seem to skip.  Which is a travesty because it’s the most crucial step when we are doing inner child work. When we are working with the inner child, we usually rush to take the child away from the feeling, wanting to immediately make him or her feel better. By doing this, we send the message that the way they are feeling has to change because something is wrong with it.
Here is an example of how you might validate your inner child’s emotions.  Let’s assume that the inner child expresses that it feels jealous because our inner child feels unloved, unvalued, and insignificant. We don’t instantly try to make our child self feel better or less jealous.  Instead we validate the child’s feelings. Validating feelings is not the same as validating that they are correct in their version of truth, in the event that the validation of their truth will do them more harm than good. In other words, we don’t say, “You’re right; people don’t love you and they don’t value you”.  Instead, we comfort the child and validate the child’s feelings by saying something like, “You’re right to feel this way because anyone who was in this situation would feel this way. It’s totally understandable how you could feel like people aren’t valuing you. It makes sense that you would feel sad.  But I’m here with you no matter what. It’s OK that you feel this way. You have a right and a valid reason to feel the way you do.” Then we remain present with the child however he or she feels as a result of the validation.
Keep in mind that, on occasion, an inner child might actually need their version of truth (not just their emotions) validated in order to move forward. For example, if a child is being abused, but is constantly told by the perpetrator that he is just being given a bath in the places that he is dirty, this can create cognitive dissonance in the child great enough to be its own state of mental trauma. Therefore, during this step, we would also affirm that they are right in that they were actually being abused.
It’s natural to have a reaction to being validated when it finally happens, and usually the reaction is a good one. The child experiences a release and a sense of acceptance, and he or she can shift into an emotional readiness to move forward on his or her own into a solution. However, sometimes more painful emotions, such as sadness, come up. When this is the case, continue to validate those new feelings and remain present with those feelings as well. The point here is that you must be unconditionally there with the child, without needing the child to feel different than how they feel. This step of validation is not about feeling better; it’s about being with the child’s feelings.  If you truly feel that you can’t do this for your inner child, then imagine someone who can doing it instead. For example, if you imagine that an angel can do it, then imagine the angel coming into the scene with you and comforting and validating your inner child instead.  And from there, you can visualize meeting the child’s needs or resolving anything with the child that may need to be resolved based off of what was expressed in the letter.
Here is an example of an actual letter that was written by someone’s inner child to their adult self:
Hi Older Self, 
I see that you have taken a lot of responsibility from what happened to us in childhood. You should probably stop. Like now. You are still doing this from a place of you are guilty which is your problem. I just want to have fun. You are living life with a bunch of consequences in mind and the truth is that it is not reality. You are suffocating me and only letting me come out when its safe or there won’t be consequences. STOP!!! STOP it!!!! You are being our controlling mother. I know what happened was scary and feels like it left an imprint but actually I’m perfectly fine. It was an experience, if we only stay on that experience that is the only thing we will know. ABUSE IS NOT THE ONLY THING I WANT TO KNOW!!! AHH!! I want to explore; I want to let myself dream because what is life without letting yourself have possibilities. You know what that is, it’s a stupid life. Honestly why even bother. You are not acting like you are out of abuse, come on. This fear of feeling like you are going to lose everyone that there is going to be a major consequence has you frozen in the biggest consequence, stuck in your past. I want you to ask yourself, what new thing could I create today? Everyday. As you can see, I’m a little frustrated at you because honestly you just seem like an old fart. Do something different. This is not who we are, we are fun, social, actually pretty outgoing and so not lame. You are like trying to move a mountain, impossibly stubborn. Enjoy people, you are too worried about losing them that you don’t even notice they are there. You know what I am done with the advice, do something new today, that’s it. And no one took anything away from you so the end.
Once you have done this exercise, given the information you received from your inner child, is there any resolve you may need to create?  Are there any changes you might need to make?  Do you have a need that you need to find a way to meet?  Do you need to embody any of the suppressed aspects of your inner child in your adult life?  Do you have any childhood interests you need to pick back up?   To make the most of this exercise, make any changes that you need to make as a result of the information you gained by doing this exercise.  And don’t forget that you can do this as many times as you want.  Periodical check-ins go a long way towards the health of your emotional self.  And the better your relationship is with your inner child, the better your life will feel.

How to Trust Yourself

For most people trust is an abstract concept, which sucks because trust is essential for relationships with others and self-trust is critical for personal happiness.  If trust remains an abstract concept for you, you won’t know what the hell to practically do in order to create trust in relationships or to create self-trust. So, in today’s episode, I’m going to make trust simple for you. To trust someone is to feel as if you can rely on them to capitalize (act in) your best interests. This is as scientific as you can get with what trust actually is.  For this reason, it’s a good idea to sit with that definition for a moment and let it sink in. Keep in mind that I did not say that trust is about being able to rely on the fact that someone will put your best interests above their own.  Nor is it making someone else fully responsible for your happiness. It is being able to rely on the fact that they will capitalize (act in) your best interests.
Taking the next conceptual step, to trust yourself is to feel as if you can rely on yourself to capitalize (act in) your own best interests.  Even in a scenario where self-trust is about the assured reliance on your own character, ability, strength, and truth, this is true.  For example, if you were to consider whether you trust yourself to be able to execute a task well, you would have already decided that executing that task well is in your best interests.
The reason self-trust remains so abstract for people, is because they see themselves as ‘one thing’. I don’t walk up to you and introduce myself by several different names.  But this way of viewing yourself, is inaccurate. Consciousness itself functions like water. If you are looking at a river from above, you can see that a large river often branches off into smaller rivers. Over the course of your life, your consciousness splits, just like the river does. It is usually an act of self-preservation. When this happens, your sense of self becomes fragmented. So even though you have one body, within that body, you end up with multiple selves. The best way to picture this is to imagine that inside your body, you have a collection of Siamese twins.  They are technically all conjoined because they all share one body.  But each one has its own identity, its own desires, needs, perspective, strengths, weaknesses and appearance.
If you understand that you are not one thing that you call by one name, but that you are more like an ecosystem of different ‘parts’, suddenly self-trust or the lack thereof makes sense. These internal ‘parts’ of you can have any kind of relationship under the sun. All the way from super loving and supportive to violent and hating. The bottom line is, some parts of you cannot currently be relied upon to capitalize (act in) the best interests of other parts of you.
For example, if one part of you wants to go to a party and another part does not and the first part simply bulldozes and drags you to the party, the other part cannot trust it. Or for example, if one part of you wants to get rid of another part of you, that second part can’t trust the first one. Or for example, if one part of you really wants you to become an artist and another part of you wants family approval (which it knows is not possible if you become an artist). And the part that values family approval makes the executive decision to do what the family wants, the part of you that wants you to be an artist cannot by definition trust the one who values family approval. And in all of these scenarios, you will feel that lack of self-trust emotionally in your whole being. You know what it feels like to be in a relationship where someone cannot be relied upon to act in your best interests. When you lack self-trust, that same relationship is taking place in your internal system.
I’m going to say something I need you to understand. You cannot understand self-trust or repair self-trust unless you accept the reality of fragmentation. If you want to understand fragmentation in an in-depth way, watch my video titled: Fragmentation, The Worldwide Disease.
But here’s the good news: Trust can be rebuilt.  If you have lost self- trust, that trust is rebuilt through parts of you demonstrating that they can be relied upon to be aware of and capitalize the best interests of whatever part they are currently opposed to. Building trust in any relationship, including those relationships taking place between your own parts, is really as simple as being aware of and capitalizing on each other’s best interests.  It is as simple as finding a meeting of minds about what a win-win scenario actually is.
So, now that you understand that, here is what you need to do in order to trust yourself:
Start to work directly with the parts of yourself that are creating the self-distrust. This means the parts within you that are opposed, that disagree, that are fighting, abandoning, suppressing, rejecting, denying, disowning or bulldozing each other and that are engaged in zero sum games.  To learn exactly how to do this, watch my video titled: Parts Work (What is Parts Work and How to do It).  When you do this with parts that are creating an atmosphere of distrust in your being, you often need to make these parts of you aware that they are part of the same body and as such, they literally cannot play a zero-sum game. In other words, there is no “I win and you lose” for a something that shares the same body. Each part needs to be made aware that it no longer works to capitalize on its own best interest to the detriment of the other’s best interest. They will begin to look for a win-win situation when this is the case and begin to caretake each other’s best interests.  But stay open to this looking different than you would anticipate.  When certain internal parts become aware of others, and really see, hear, feel and understand them, their own perspectives and therefore estimation of their best interests often change.
  Become intimate with the part(s) of you that you don’t trust. This point goes in alignment with the last. But it must be a stand-alone point. If trust is about capitalizing on someone’s best interests, you have to actually know what their best interests are. To know what someone’s best interests are, you have to be willing to have intimacy with them.  Intimacy is seeing into someone, feeling into them, hearing them and understanding them as deeply as you can.  This means, you’ve got to be willing to face and create intimacy with the part of you that you think is the “bad guy” in the trust department.  For example, if you lack self-trust because a part of you keeps taking drugs regardless of your desire to stay sober, you need to stop playing a zero-sum game with it and really see, hear, feel and understand that part; especially the WHY, so you can help that part of you to get its needs met and act in its best interests in alternative ways than the ways it is currently going about getting its needs met.  “You” can’t oppose, fight with, abandon, suppress, reject, deny, disown, bulldoze or engage in zero sum games with any part of yourself and create an atmosphere of self-trust in your being.
  Accept that there is no such thing as self-sabotage. This understanding can go a long, long way towards developing self-trust.  Usually when we don’t trust ourselves, we become afraid of ourselves.  But this will help: If any of your internal parts or selves are resisting or opposing your desires, or if any of them are hurting other parts of you in any way, it is because they think it is in your best interest for them to do so. In other words, they believe they are saving your life by not going along with the plan.  For this reason, we cannot say that they are against you. They just don’t agree with the rest of you about how to be FOR you.  For example: consciously, you may really want a relationship to work, but you keep pushing the other person away or doing and saying things to create conflict in the relationship. In this scenario, one fragment or part within you (the one we are consciously identified with) has made the decision to be in a relationship and make it work.  Another part knows that relationships have been so painful in the past and that it has been abandoned and therefore thinks abandonment is inevitable. So, it is trying to save you from the pain of getting attached to something you are inevitably going to lose.  No part of you, even the ones who ‘hate you’ are actually against you.  To understand this in-depth, watch my videos titled: There is No Such Thing as Self Sabotage and Self Hate, The Most Dangerous Coping Mechanism.
  Build your self-confidence.  Self-confidence and self-trust are very good friends. When we use the word confidence, what we mean is your ability to depend upon yourself.  When we understand that lack of self-trust, goes hand in hand with lack of self-confidence, we see that not trusting ourselves is often a self-worth issue.  It is an issue of devaluing and invalidating ourselves  One of the reasons that we do not trust ourselves, is that we do not accept our own abilities, talents, intentions, and value.  This means, take time to recognize and acknowledge your abilities, talents, positive traits, and thus value.
Part of this confidence is allowing yourself to do what you are good at and what comes easily to you. Everyone is good at something. We don’t often allow ourselves to do what we are good at however because we have all been raised in societies with very specific values. Our strengths may not align with the values that those around us hold. And on top of this, most societies today value effort.  Most of us think it is weak to do the things that come easy to us.  But for us to learn how to trust ourselves, we need to allow ourselves to do what we are good at and what comes easily to us. If we always feel as if it is a struggle to do things, we will always feel behind the pack and lack confidence.  So, own up to the things which you excel at, and then focus on designing your life around those things.  Give yourself permission to take pride in them and give yourself credit for your successes.  And realize that sometimes, we have to look for the people who will value what we have to offer.  To learn more about this step, you can watch my video titled: The Value Realization (A Realization That Can Completely Change Your Self Worth).
  Listen to your feelings.  They always have important messages to share.  Most people view feelings as a menace; something to fight, something he or she is powerless to, a drawback, and even something to distrust.  The average person does not know what purpose they serve. The result is, many people are living in a tug of war between being a slave to their emotion and flipping around to wage war with their emotions.  We have a multibillion-dollar pharmaceutical industry set up to make a profit from chemically aiding people to suppress their feelings and change them. This is especially sad considering that your feelings are the compass guiding you through this venture called life. Emotions are the carriers of personal truth.  They never ‘come out of nowhere’. They are the exact reflection of the truths belonging to parts of you.  I am not saying that the thoughts, perspectives and opinions of parts of you are always accurate and a perfect reflection of objective truth.  But they are always real and important and they always exist for a valid reason. You have to notice and listen to the truth being carried by a feeling to recognize that a part of yourself is activated and to hear that part of you out. You cannot do what is right for you or in your best interests if you don’t ‘hear out’ the truth being carried by your emotions.  And consciously choose what to do given that information.
  Let go of the idea of “the” right answer and just look for “your” right answer.  People who don’t feel as if they can trust themselves, often defer to others.  They tend to become preoccupied with the idea of right and wrong and it paralyzes them. They tend to fear making the “wrong” choice so much, that they procrastinate making any choice, and they trust other people’s opinions rather than forming and “owning” their own. Gain perspective by eliciting other people’s opinions, but do not “weigh them” in order to make your final decision.  Instead, make your own decision. Use inquiry to question your current perspective and consciously choose a perspective, which serves your highest good. Every single person, experiences the world in their own way.  So we make decisions about what is right based on our own individual assumptions, judgments, perceptions and past experiences. This is why no two perspectives will be the same.  And no one can see the situation from your perspective. You are also never going to have all of the information that you would like to have in order to make ‘the perfect decision’. You can’t know everything and so sometimes you have to take a risk by making a choice anyway. If you are looking to develop self-trust, stop trying to find the right answer. Find your right answer and be open to it changing as you develop and become more and more aware and evolve.
  Take risks, even if taking those risks results in making “mistakes”.  We have to be willing to take risks and make mistakes in life. One day during my sports career, I was in a panic about racing as usual.  At that point in my life, my self worth was completely tied up in performance.  As a result, I had the habit of getting such bad performance anxiety that I did terribly in races and sometimes didn’t even show up for them. But on a chairlift on the way to the starting gate, I had an epiphany. The epiphany was this: I have lost 100% of the races that I didn’t run. This is the case when we don’t take risks.  We like to think that if we don’t take risks, we don’t fail.  But the truth is the exact opposite of that.  If we don’t take the risk, we have already failed.  While it can be scary for us to take risks in life, it is one of the best ways we can build our capacity for self-trust.  Taking risks takes courage, and courage makes us feel better about ourselves.  It allows us to see what we are really capable of, which in turn helps us to trust ourselves. You won’t know that you can trust yourself unless you take a risk and see that you can.
  Compile a list of all the ways that you do trust yourself.  Our level of trust is often different relative to different things.  For example, we may trust our instincts relative to some things, like driving our car; while we doubt ourselves relative to other things, like making a good impression in an interview. Take some time to compile a list of all the ways that you currently know you can trust yourself.  Compile this list by filling in the blank as many times as you can.  “I trust myself to________”.  For example, “I trust myself to be loyal to the person I have committed to”.  Or “I trust myself to be loyal to my own happiness regardless of whether or not that means breaking a commitment that I have made to someone”.  Some other examples might be, “I trust myself to care for my pets”.  Or “I trust myself to do exactly what I say I’m going to do”.  Or “I trust myself to make a breakfast which tastes good”. Nothing is too small or too large to include in this list.  Any kind of trust, no matter what it is in, is important because it is trust.  We have the tendency to ignore the ways that we actually do trust ourselves, when we become aware of the ways that we don’t trust ourselves. This corrodes our self-concept. It disables us by making us feel bad about ourselves, instead of simply allowing us to incrementally build trust in the things we don’t currently have trust in.
  Develop boundaries.  And to develop boundaries, you must develop authenticity. Having a sense of self vs. other is part of participating in this physical dimension.  The individual perspective and experience is what is currently serving the expansion of this universe.  And so, we perceive a difference between ourselves and the rest of the world. This individual perspective is a kind of boundary that defines us from everything else. A boundary is not a fence. Boundaries are simply the imaginary line that uniquely defines your personal happiness, your personal feelings, your personal thoughts, your personal integrity, your personal desires, your personal needs, and therefore most importantly, your personal truth from the rest of the universe.  When I say my favorite ice cream flavor is coffee, that is actually a boundary, because it is something that defines me vs. other.  But if someone else said their favorite ice cream flavor was coffee, I wouldn’t lose the boundary.  It would just be something the defines us both and that we both happen to have in common.
As it applies to authenticity, something that is authentic is not copied. It’s genuine, real, and true. As authenticity applies to a human being, you must accept the fact that each and every person, including you, comes into this life as a unique expression of source consciousness. We can’t really be ‘in alignment with ourselves’ and therefore trust ourselves if we are not being that unique expression and living according to what is true for us. The simplest way to understand authenticity (beyond it being an uncovering of your personal essence) is that authenticity is the conscious mending of the incongruencies between one’s inner self and outer self. So, authenticity is when your inside matches your outside. You must live according to what is true for you. You will come closer and closer to your genuine authenticity throughout the process of the integration of your parts and the inevitable self-awareness that process brings. So, consider your authenticity to be something that is unfolding.  And with that, boundaries to be something that is developing.  But the more you live in alignment with your personal truth, the more self-trust you will have!  If you want to learn more about boundaries and authenticity in depth, watch my videos titled: Personal Boundaries vs. Oneness (How To Develop Healthy Boundaries) and How to Be Authentic. Trusting yourself is a process.  Let it be a process.  Trusting yourself is not something that you can suddenly wake up and decide to do.  It is the inevitable byproduct of gradually improving the internal relationships taking place within your system. Just remember that the better it gets, the better it gets.


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