The problem is that I don't assume the universe has any involvement in it at all. I assume that everything that happens to me is because I attracted it, and because of that, I don't trust that the universe is on my side at all because I believe it's just more of my bullshit that I, for whatever reason, can't seem to stop attracting. So how are you supposed to know when the universe did it "for you" or when a situation is just a reflection of your thoughts/vibe?
I'm kinda thinking that if the universe apparently can't do anything against your free will, then how could it put me here if I didn't somehow attract it?
Clearly I have a pattern of self blame under the guise of responsibility, but still, wtf? How does that idea of the universe make sense?