Jenny Lee

As a scientist I got to rewatch the last conversation multiple times! So important!

The answer for the judge is applicable for me as a scientist who couldnt stand the scientific career system any further. Thank you.

Did you just shit on people and ask them why they manifested you? This feels twisted to me. I see that you are in pain with lots of anger. You are seen.

Well, it doesnt sound like an easy answer to me. I am not sure what you are trying to achieve by commenting this, is it to make people see your pain?

Love the last question, totally relevant until today. The takeaway is - we are in a consensus reality, which means what that we are all cocreating this current reality. In this case our vote count immensely, not the vote for a political election, but a vote on what we want to create. So where should we put our focus on when the world systems go haywire and crumble? We focus on what we want to see. This is not avoidance or denial, as the world situation is indeed painful, because the boiling point needs to be turned on super high for some people to realise that they are not living the life the come here to live. This is casting your vote. Instead of paying attention to what you don't like, focus on what you want to see more, focus on what brings you joy.

The part on visibility is helpful. I am at the point where the universe is calling me to look at how I always feel invisible but want to be visible. It had been manifesting (without me realising of course) in my romantic relationships, friendships and also career, where I constantly feel unseen or unimportant. Recently the need to be seen has been coming up as a power struggle with a friend, and my manipulative behaviour is looking at me squarely in my eyes. Since we only manipulate when we believe we cannot meet a need, I know the time is more than ripe to address this.

How many times have we verbally said that we want to change something, but when the change is offered to us, we freak out and worse, reject it? Awesome reflection ❤️

I would regret not living in every moment, not savouring each and every taste of life. I would be glad that I loved, I loved life enough to take steps towards authenticity. If I got another shot, I would love without reservation, towards myself, others and life.

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That I am not good enough

To speak my truth

Quotes that hit me: 1. There is no difference between ADHERING and REBELLING against something/someone. It is still about them. 2. Shame is the aspect you push away, so the more you try to fix shame, the more shame you feel. So what you can do is to give it presence, sit with it. 3. Parents then their kids into dolls as a way to deal with their own shame, so their dolls can give them a sense of self esteem. So think about what are the aspects of you that are triggered by your own child. 4. What determine a good/happy mum is a supportive husband.

Love this. The anger of the people mashed up with their will to get going and to live, is precisely how I feel living in Germany for 3 years.

"Every argument is shame deflection" - this is really eye opening 😮 makes me see the conversations in my daily life very differently.

Oh my god the scientist answer is gold! Thank you for asking this, I work as a scientist too and went through an identity crisis in 2020.