Starking

Psychology Animals Singing Writing poems

I'd take more advantage of being single before having a child. Traveling and learning and going wild because I had no idea how much responsibility this would be and how I feel like all my decisions affect him. So for example traveling to a different country would be a lot easier without a toddler lol

Sing, pet animals, take care of my son, paint, write, lots of random stuff I guess

To be in a relationship that feels like security in other areas of life It's hidden because people have called me a "gold digger", but I don't want money.. I want stability and to feel safe. The money is irrelevant.. I just want an environment that isn't constantly changing beyond my control

My lack of discipline

Absolutely nothing, being alone forever without connection is my greatest fear. What a nightmare it would be to give up all this love

In thinking of like negative catastrophic events... nothing except my son. Because if I risked it for anything else, I would be risking him being without a mother and someone to raise him and look after him. But then I think of a positive.. I guess being around lions and safari animals is technically "risking your life" so.. in that case I would be willing to experience this at this risk. But I don't believe it to be a very high risk. It's a rather safe feeling risk and I'm okay with that.

I carried my son. That was most meaningful because for the first time in my life, it wasn't just me to look after. But unlike other relationships, I was happy to look after him. It didn't make me feel trapped it made me feel nurturing and I didn't know I could do that until I was pregnant with him