My hidden agenda 

to belong 

heal be whole 

let go 

why is it hidden

feel like I’m not suppose to be and if I let go I’ll never stop crying there’s to much to heal in me and from those around me

to get attention and appreciation

why hidden..i learned it s selfish 

Hidden agenda 

Try to be something or someone important or acceptable 

why is it hidden 

because I don’t want to face myself with the responsibility I face for who I really am 

To force everyone to become healthy and start caring about the environment.

It's hidden because mostly unhealthy people get offended when their lifestyle gets questioned, myself included. It's the ego I guesss....

To NOT "fail" at yet one more relationship by it ending, and to avoid dying without having experienced a long-lasting relationship where we have truly gotten to know each other's "ins-and-outs".

Because I see it as a selfish, mening a bad agenda, which makes it even more likely I will die alone to show. Lol.

I nitpick. A lot. Especially when I feel out of control, which is a decent amount of time. 

Power why? Because I want to feel important. Why do I want to feel important? Because I don't believe I am, because I was made to feel less than all others in my household. I am important, this is the truth, not the belief that I learned from childhood. I want to release this belief. I release this belief. My new belief: I am important. Do I still want power? Yes, but to express my creative self as a vehicle for my creativity.

My hidden agenda was to scare people away from me, and have reasons to isolate myself... 

Dont know if that's still the case. Maybe it shifted again ro what it was before. 

Beeing a lesson to people. A teacher. Of how to do right. And how I can be very bad if someone does me wrong. 

I feel like theres still something else I dont see. Oh I like to help people though I dont like too, only to connect with someone, also be very ill so I will need alot of help to actually find sone connection. 

Still feel I've got more on this. Yes I want myself and others to velieve I'm bad so I can kill myself. 

This is kinda very harsh to be honest, but its the truth.. 

I want others to also perceive me as good so that they may choose what to see in me, depending on if someone actually loves me, kill myself or not. Havent found a clear answer on this one yet. 

This is telling me I'm a very lonely person. Oh yes I am. 

I guess mine is to feel capable. Im not sure why that's hidden yet.

my hidden agenda when I have sex is to be loved. it is hidden because the men I have sex with see love as a weakness.

My hidden agenda is to magically get what I want without putting in any work towards it. I want everything to come to me and I don't have to do anything to get it.

On 6/8/2021 at 7:20 AM, Raquel Bastos said:

Power why? Because I want to feel important. Why do I want to feel important? Because I don't believe I am, because I was made to feel less than all others in my household. I am important, this is the truth, not the belief that I learned from childhood. I want to release this belief. I release this belief. My new belief: I am important. Do I still want power? Yes, but to express my creative self as a vehicle for my creativity.

 

Wow I could relate I wish we did not feel the need to try to hard

Maintaining my Youth, Beauty, and financial Security.

I'm afraid of rejection, growing old, and dying alone--even though I know we all die alone. 

To be seen perfect in order to cover my flaws and might even whole me.

To get to know more about others and help them to live happy life as I might don’t have/don’t want to see who am I  in reality (although except for self love it is my biggest wish to know what is my authentic me truly is - what is my identity) and coz my trust in my own successful creation of my life is very low as I always betray my self somehow (as recently at work).

To be in a relationship that feels like security in other areas of life

It's hidden because people have called me a "gold digger", but I don't want money.. I want stability and to feel safe. The money is irrelevant.. I just want an environment that isn't constantly changing beyond my control

My hidden agenda is to have everything I want doing as little as possible, and giving up as little as possible.  

It's hidden because of how childish and lazy that is. 

Walk silently with grand observance and create peace and calm on this earth.

To remember 

To get done with it. Because it makes no sense. 

Sexual experience.  Hidden because i feel it complicates things.

My hidden agenda is I want to hurt people (society at large) or scare them or make them feel guilty ect. For them to change for the better. And mainly this is about my parents. I want to wake them up and teach them something with my bad behavior (wich never worked and never will) 

And I want my son to have a wealthy exciting, joyous and happy life.

My hidden agenda is to stay LOST. (to keep my ego, and to stay unenlightened) because it's my pick up line, in the psychwardXD

No it makes me stay distant towards others, while having my needs met, and it makes me realign also. I only keep people who handle me well at my worst. 

Im manipulative, I feel alot of shame, and I prefer having my needs met in covert ways. This is the hidden agenda. Other than that I'm actually trying to heal. 

Another hidden agenda is that I believe you shouldn't tell others about any of your plans or agendas. For what you are saving money? What are your goals. Noone needs to f* know that.

I like talking about my shame to schizophrenic, I find them. To be emotionaly intelligent, and also less judgmental. Because I offer them the same. Less judgmental, wise thoughts on difficult matters. And they do process difficult shit.

I also find these group of individuals to be lovely people. (who are actually really good at creating closeness:) and I appreciate their Openness, playfulness, and creativity. I'm 100% convinced these people exist to teach others something. At least those I've met.

Another hidden agenda of mine. I don't actually talk to people anymore. I ask only once for something, accept a no directly. Shady behavior or stupid talk, I can see it, no reaction. (Noone wants to change anyways. People want to stay the way they are, they only get upset and you can sense it what people are open to receive and what not. 

And most of the time, I don't actually talk to people anymore. It's almost as if I lived in a Sims universe, hello, good bye, oh look at the weather.

Being dj misterio, the greatest artist ever, I will make it. But I have to keep taking steps. I also thought that it wasn't possible but it is!

My intention, my connection to the spirit world, my purpose 

My hidden agenda is to have my needs met, while never actually commiting, never beeing in a relationship.

I never ever put my heart on the line, never. Period.

But I do alot to apear as if I do. And im inauthentic.

And it rukns my life and my relationships.