She’d think I need better hair. And she’d be disappointed we haven’t found someone to hold us. 

She would be disappointed by the monotony and suffering in our life. She would want us to love ourselves and go towards our desires and prioritize our happiness.

My six year old self would not want to be me. She would probably judge me for being such a loser and so disrespectful of my parents. I had such a narrow view of the world when I was younger. What she would want me to change is how I relate to people

She would want me to relax. She would want me to do what I love, what I feel inspired to do. She would want me to love myself.

I think he would say thanks for trying ur best...I know u wer hit hard and u didn't forget about me completely..despite the pressure...but stop fighting now...just chill and relax...cause.ur beat up...I need u to come home and stop running...become an sna classroom assistant and just chill...see how it goes...but no more hurting yourself..no more pain..play pokemon

She'd be like "woah, you've been through a lot... didn't see all of that coming." I think she'd be proud of how far I've come but be a little sad to know I still hold myself back in some ways due mainly to self-consciousness. I think she'd want me to cater less to what i think i "should" be or "should" look like, and just follow my joy, knowing i'm deserving of it no matter what. 

Play a little more & be less inhibited.

She would be silent for a while staring at me and probably disappointed probably angry or crying. Shed try to tell me where I went wrong and what I need to do.

She would tell me to get a job I like, and focus less on difficult relationships. Eat healthier. And to love myself more for real, spend more time outside, stop lying to myself and others, rather quit old relationships and start over a new. Shed tell me to just enjoy life, make new friends, and have fun, be glorious, be glamourous. 

She'd honestly be very disappointed at me. Crossing her arms, turning her back on me.

Shed probably suggest something like bunjee jumping or screaming in the forest or go onto a trip into wild nature, so as I might remember who I am. She would probably, suggest I cry, and just sit with it. Telling me, it is ok. Then though she would tell me to get up, everythings fine. Just do something about it.

I think she would want me to be more bold, be more special. More unique. More rare.

And she would appreciate me and seeing me. She would also see a lot of potential that I am not necessarily aware of.

Wow! You met so many ppl, traveled and lived in many places to follow your soul’s calling. 
Keep evolving, it isn’t over yet by any means.

My six-year-old self would tell me that she is so proud of me for overcoming so many obstacles and embracing the pain and its healing power and accept my self-hating parts with unconditional love. She tells me to validate the self-hating emotions that let them be so critical of me because they were under the influence of the sadistic narcissist monsters for over two decades She has made me realize that I should welcome the pain of the horrors of my childhood, that I hide inside of me, and welcome all my parts, good or bad, with purity, love, and kindness. The true meaning of self-love is genuinely accepting yourself in its true present form. She has taught me the meaning of true love and the transformative magic of listening with intention. I accept my self-hating parts and validate them. I stop resisting! I speak to them and ask them what happened? How do they feel? What do they think about me? Are they sad? Are they in pain? I listen to their stories, and I am always there with them in the grieving process.

I stop the resistance once and for all. I allow myself to feel every single emotion because I matter. I have so much purity and kindness in my heart that can heal even the deepest wounds. She also tells me that she loves me so much for being her mother. She feels safe in my arms. She is a child again who likes to explore and play because she knows I am always there beside her. She knows I can move mountains and burn anything to the ground that tries to cause any harm. She is free. Her laughter has so much warmth and comfort, which brings spring in the winter.

With love, 

Flayre

She would want me to play a lot more and be more creative, especially using colors and also building things with my hands. 

They would be very sad for me. 

Nothing

He would be disappointed and sad. This is not what we wanted to become and its not the life-experience we were looking forward to. Remember the energy we had as six years old. He would tell me to find my power and start over with everything, while you still can. Turn the whole new page in life.

He would love the yard i have to play in. He would love me, and we would change the  dependency to things that didnt come from family.......hummmm? That was a good one.

she would want me to believe in myself, maybe cry, maybe tell me how my heart is a beautiful heart, and I should paint my heart, and than she would show me how she painted her heart.

She'd be very disappointed and angry. Would have a hard time believing this is what I've become, but she'd also be very kind and gentle, and loving and possibly she'd be crying and afraid I mess things up even worse. She'd probably have an emotional breakdown. Maybe she also just cross her arms and turn her back on me in sheer disappointment. 

Apart from this she'd tell me, yes you really need that vacation. And you really should take that time off for yourself, for shure. 

And she'd tell me to first of all clean up my apartment right now. And to take a shower. And eat something properly. 

And she'd be like ok, you don't want to watch your child right now, it's OK. You cannot do it alone, it's OK. But someone has to watch him. Who is this going to be? Not our mother, than who? 

And to be honest if Ide take her advice Ide feel alot more relieved. 

She wouldn't recognize me as her, and if I told her she'd be terrified and totally devastated. And she'd be crying, saying No repeatedly. 

Than she'd be pointing a finger at me, and be screaming at me: this is your fault, and you are going to change this.

Or maybe she would look at me and role her eyes, and say: so this is it? This is what you've made of our life. We weren't born stupid, tell me what went wrong. 

Why aren't we famous and fancy, why didn't we engage deeper in a proffession? 

Where are all our friends, why are we so alone? 

Where are all the fancy dresses? And why is everything a mess? This place is trashy. 

And what are we going to do about it?

She'd tell me to stop emedeatly what I'm doing. 

She would think that I’m giving up too easily. She would want me to hold the people accountable who ruined things for me and see them for what they are - threats. This would cause me to remove myself out of this situations easier and recognize and bring about true safety easier. It would also cause me to feel more successful in my life.

I think my six year old self would be triggered/in disbelief and surprised that I wound up mattering to people to the point where I became a healer. She wouldn’t know what to think, if she could even focus enough to actually comprehend the vision or reality of it. She would either see it as a flat out lie or want to believe it but be afraid of ridicule. I think she would feel like it’s a trick. But if she did understand she would be elated to see that I do and did eventually become someone who not only is of importance but that I have something to give that will be received.  To feel like I matter (some of the time). And by that I mean my habit of “people pleasing” isn’t as masochistic and has become altered and more controlled into a benefit for me and others through my purpose that reaches people in a way where they really don’t know why, but I helped. Sometimes even on a bad day, I don’t even know why, but I did. I prefer to keep that part of my career as “anonymous” to the recipient as possible because I still have a fear that it will either be ridiculed or be a vibrational match to energy leaches - which is a HARD boundary to keep up since I have a desperate want for acceptance. I also fear that their own resistance will deny them the connection that they are yearning for. I am a massage therapist and along with my knowledge of how to physically help people with their muscular system, I weave love into my practice through just accepting that the person I am currently working on may just need someone to care about them, like I did - like they may have been deprived of and don’t know how to ask for or even know that that is why they are a match to me… I don’t know. I have worked to recognize that I absorb from them what isn’t mine and have had to create a mindful practice to not do that.

As far as what she would have me change, my first thought is nothing because it is way better than she could have ever imagined. But if she knew the path, and knew how fucking long it took for me to get here (even though I have a LOT of work to do) I think she would say  I’m glad i still get to brush Jackie’s hair, play with my doggies, and play in the river,  but you are beautiful and I can’t wait to be able to truly feel that one day.

Thanks to whoever is listening. Our projections and manifestations have purpose and the suffering that we face with our resistance is not in vein. I love you all. Mono no aware. 

He would no doubt look up to me for strength, inspiration, approval and validation He would encourage me to keep on going with my healing journey and keep moving in the direction im going, which is towards my happiness.