Climb a mountain 

Experience and prioritize joy and my own personal freedom 

I would prioritize joy, creativity in some physical way, and most importantly prioritize finding a romantic relationship and never self sacrifice instead I’d negotiate 

I kind of lost everything once already and I was suicidal. But it has made me determined to practice the path of integration so if I lost everything now I guess I'd just keep going with that. 

Banging chicks more

I guess I would take Teal's advice and throw "balance" out of the window. I would indulge fully in all those things that I love and have loved since I was a kid. I would take them as far as I could go with them. I would go "balls to the wall" and be curious to see what would happen if I actually invested 100%.

All I can think of is having A WILD amount of sex. Tinder Bender 

On 12/16/2020 at 10:32 AM, Riah said:

All I can think of is having A WILD amount of sex. Tinder Bender 

Nice one man.

I would be devastated at first, but then I would like to leave practicing western medicine and get involved in a mission which is authentic and helps people.

Put myself out there.

I would drop into myself even more....connect to nature...and truths of existence. 

I imagined a car accident with coma and memory loss, and becoming homeless through that. To make it more real for me. 

I would create a friendly but more distant relationship with my family, (probably more distance towards my mother). No contact to my father. 

I would go on a trip to Italy. (imagining I had the money) In italy I would wear dresses in different bright colors (without patterns ect.) in the evening to impress. (and just feelin myself:)

I would read many books, go to the library on a regular basis. I would try out lots of recepies. maybe have a layed back, less intense, but still happy and procreative relationship. (most definetly keep my family out of that relationship and don't even care what they think) I would have many plants. (till then Ide probably be way to lonely and sad at times, and get myself a pet, probably a newt or a cat. 

And I dont know actually, what else. 

I would choose to live in some suberbial area, (maybe in a different country, anyways most likely further away from my hometown and more towards the south) (a tiny house, with maybe 2 - 4 rooms, and a garden, I would grow herbs and beautiful flowers) where some beautiful nature aint that far, but you still have all the possibilitys to do your grocery shoppings. 

I  would spend lots of time in nature. Go hiking and swiming in some nearby lake. Regularly go on vacation. Maybe join a choir or a pottery class. (ide love to have a pottery/ myself in my home)

And I actually don't know what else. What I would want to do for a living.. Just to many options.. And I can't get clear about it right now. A floristic, a teacher, entrepreneurial & artsy stuff. 

And I would have get togethers with friends and neighboors, in my garden. Once a month.

To put it all together create a simple happy mondane life. 

After a time of that, I guess I wouldn't just randomly go hicking. I would take a wastebag with me, and collect rubbish. Ide probably go into therapy because of my kinda somewhat closedupness/ returning feelings of sad and lonely, and my weird relationship with my family. And Ide probably start to wright.

This is so far from where I am and kinda disturbing. But a eye opening question. Thank you

*eddit: I would like to go to a fair. 

I will love myself to the ends of the earth.

This question is kind of exactly what happened to me, so long story short I woke up & couldn't get back to how I perceived everything around me & even if I could I wouldn't. So I took the first step inwardly & just enjoying the universe inside of me with all it's uncomfortable truth. Learning, growing, changing and healing. 

I would write 2 books. 1 about my life (it would probably fill 3 books and Ide call them: 10 years, 20 years, and 30 years) to say something and also reflect emotionally and I would write a small book with poetry for the heart. I would do my best to live a healthy and wholesome lifestyle. Probably cancel a few people, probably my family. (most likely to be honest, though it would be tough in a sense) Ide try to give people something along the way, choose kindness and wisdom more often. And spend time with people I like and have fun. 

I would finally calm the fuck down.

Find another way.

Come out of my shell 

That's an ultimate freedom. My last words to say; I love You.

Love

Maybe start singing for tips

Either i would go outside, or I would travel and visit people in a different country. eat healthy food mainly Im thinking of oranges rn XD:)

Maybe Ide be a homeless person in a different city, because I would deffinetly leave my hometown city, and try to get money, either be an artist or grow some other sort of buisiness, maybe engage more in music and people, go for long walks at a river in a city all on my own.

I most deffinetly wouldnt stay in this city i would move! emideatly ( but rn I cant cause Im having no money, and Im going to give birth end of may in the beginning of june) 

As nothing is impossible (maybe there is a way for me to do so:) 

But do I really want that rn.

I just moved in (and dont even have all my stuff here)  And somehow I dont know even if this city is full ov toxicity to me it kinda feels known and safeXD

I would have to move right after giving birth tf... (but maybe that would also be different in reality)  Maybe I could move even earlier)

I feel confused.

I dont think its stupid to wait until I can move properly and I have things in my life more in order. Anyways this was a good question to realign myself. 

You have everything to gain.  Lol.

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Ok. If I lost everything except for my child (cause this is a whole different question) I would move to a different country, live and work in a comune or something alike. Maybe work at a Cafe or something. Maybe in France. And maybe become more artsy and girly againXD

If I lost everything plus my child. Ide throw myself of a bridge into the river. If I survive never again talk to anyone. Beeing completely to myself. Laughin, crying to myself. Smoking cigarettes. Spending the rest of my days in a psychward. After 20 years maybe start talking again and go on a long walk like Jesus or other prophets. Never return to a place where I was before, because life is a river, and I am the riverXD...