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Why Nothing You Do To Feel Better Ever Works

Do me a favor…
Close your eyes and for a few minutes, think back to your childhood. Think about being emotional in your childhood. Try to remember those times that you were happy or excited or sad or mad or afraid. How did the people around you react?
Now try to remember times the people around you felt strong emotions. How were they treated by others? How did they deal with having those emotions?
What did emotions mean in the family or culture or society you grew up in?
Mentally review each emotion. Which emotions were good and therefore acceptable? Which emotions were bad and therefore unacceptable? Which ones were expressed, which ones were suppressed?
What were you told or indirectly taught was the bet way to handle your emotions?
What emotional control strategies did the people around you use?
Look at your life today, what ideas or control strategies are you still using that are a perfect reflection of the way you were subconsciously programmed to deal with emotion growing up?
I want you to watch my video titled: Meaning, the self destruct button and while you are watching it, think about how this video applies simply to emotion. What did you decide that anger meant or sadness meant, or fear meant?
It is normal to want to feel good. The basic survival instinct is to shy away from pain and go towards pleasure. This is not in and of itself a problem. This instinct in and of itself does not cause suffering. Suffering is caused when instead of going towards pleasure, we resist the pain. And this, is what we have done with emotion.
I want you to imagine that in the back of your head, there is a control switch, like a light switch on a wall. Except instead of light and dark, this control switch controls good and bad. This switch is designed to be triggered and switch on whenever you encounter something that you have judged as bad. If you register something as bad, you register it as a threat. So when this switch goes on because it thinks it is encountering something bad, your body responds to that threat by going into fight or flight mode. You either try to escape or fight with that thing. Escaping from something and or fighting with something is an attempt to CONTROL that thing, yourself or the course of events to follow.
The problem is, when we judge certain emotions as bad, this control switch is triggered by those emotions. It is essentially an emotional control switch. We immediately try to control these emotions by escaping from or fighting with them. The thoughts we think about the emotion we are having, cause us to immediately add emotion to emotion and this is like adding kerosene to a fire that is already blazing. No matter what we do to feel better, nothing works.
For example, lets say growing up when you expressed anxiety your parent turned to you in an exasperated manner and said “stop being such a fraidy cat, there’s no reason to last like this come on now” you would have gotten the message that anxiety is bad and perhaps that if you feel it, but your parents are right that there is no reason to feel that way and yet you feel that way that there must be something wrong with you. In the future, if you feel anxious, your control switch will turned on because you have been conditioned to see anxiety as bad. you will start to fear yourself because you’ll feel like something is wrong with you and therefore, you would feel anxious about feeling anxious.
This is how to know that your Control switch has turned on. You will start to feel bad about feeling bad. for example, you’ll feel angry about feeling depressed or anxious about feeling anxious or afraid about feeling anger or sad about feeling depressed.
You will also immediately revert to all of the emotional control strategies that are linked to that control switch such as: Drinking alcohol, reading a book, going running, eating, shooting up heroine, distracting yourself, obsessively writing affirmations, positively focusing, arguing with and contradicting your negative thoughts, All of which are an attempt to make the emotion go away because you have judged it as bad. You believed the story that a particular emotion is bad.
This is the reason that it doesn’t work to positively focus negative emotion away. Control in and of itself is resistance. So, the minute positive focus becomes a tool of maintaining control, it now serves resistance instead of allowing or deliberate creation.
It isn’t helpful or useful to judge your negative emotions as bad. For more information about how to deal with negative emotions, watch my video on YouTube titled: The emotional wakeup call.
Now before you assume that we only have this reaction to negative emotions, it’s important to know that we can be conditioned to believe that positive emotion is bad as well. For more information about this, watch my YouTube video titled: When Happiness is a BAD thing. The more your parents and caregivers needed to maintain control over how they felt and therefore control over how you felt, the more resistant they were to all emotions, both good and bad.
It is time to become aware of this emotional control switch when it goes off within us. The time has come to notice ourselves resisting our own emotion in the moment it arises. This is in fact the initiation of a downward spiral. It ensures that our emotions will work like quick sand where we struggle against them and end up drowning. If we are in a situation where we feel like nothing ever works and like we will never feel better no matter how hard we try, it is because we are approaching our life from that very angle… that we must feel better because negative emotion is not ok. Anxiety is not ok, anger is not ok, sadness is not ok, grief is not ok. The way we feel is bad and so it has to change. We think thoughts like, “what have I done to deserve this or what is wrong with me or I wish I didn’t feel like this or I can’t handle this or why am I like this or the very worst… I shouldn’t feel like this.”
When you feel this emotional control switch go off, switch it off by practicing releasing resistance to the emotion you are feeling resistance towards and wanting to control. Allow and accept the emotion. Question the idea that this emotion is bad or good. Ask yourself, what am I making this emotion mean and then go to work dismantling that meaning. Thoughts and emotions themselves don’t cause us pain. It’s believing them that causes us pain. If you have judged an emotion as bad, get outside the box by trying to find approval for it. Why is that emotion good? What is this emotion trying to tell me, what is it asking me to do differently or to change about my life? Allow yourself to go back in time to when you were programmed to believe that the emotion was bad and un-do that trauma. To learn how to do this process, Watch my video on Youtube titled: How to Heal the Emotional Body and when you’re doing the process, begin by going into the sensation of the resistance to the emotion for example go into the anxiety you’re having about the anxiety. If you want additional information about this concept, you can watch my youtube video titled: Positively Embrace Your Negative Emotions. Painful emotions only become chronic (as in nothing you do ever works to make you feel better) if your emotional control switch is switched on and as such you are in resistance to the emotion you feel. This is the difference between temporary discomfort and long term suffering.
So… is your emotional control switch turned on?

Dysfunctional Relationships

So much focus in the field of spiritual, mental and emotional health has been dedicated to the healing of dysfunctional relationship dynamics. Essentially a dysfunctional relationship is one where two people make an emotional “contract” and agree to meet each other's needs in what ends up being self-destructive ways: For example, one person feels unable to take care of themselves and the other feels inadequate. And so, they make an emotional contract that if the other person takes care of them, they will make them feel better about themself. A dysfunctional relationship is a relationship that is destructive instead of constructive. It is a relationship that ends up being powerlessly dependent instead of interdependent. As a result, it is never secure. It is never secure because it is a transactional relationship. The relationship is only ever as secure as the ability to fulfill on the subconscious contract involved in the transaction.
The most common form of dysfunctional relationship is the classic relationship between the narcissist and the codependent. This classic dynamic can appear in a non-alcoholic home with a person who suffers from what mainstream mental health professionals would call a mental illness or personality disorder for example. But it is nearly always the dynamic that is occurring in an alcoholic home. I encourage you to do your own research on the narcissist/codependent dynamic and how it creates the dynamics of a dysfunctional home.
Regardless of how much your parents or family defend the idea that they are healthy and it is you who are dysfunctional, it is a sure thing that if you have dysfunctional relationships as an adult, it is because you witnessed or experienced dysfunctional relationship as a child. You have learned that this dynamic is how to have a relationship. You don’t know any other way to be in a relationship.
The reason I am doing this video today is that I am going to expose another dimension relative to transcending this dynamic. Much of the focus of healing from dysfunctional relationships is placed on establishing independence. It is essentially a strategy of meeting your own needs. What I want to expose today is that this strategy does not work. In fact, it re traumatizes people and makes them twice as likely to never get out of dysfunctional relationships and here is why…
When a child is born, that child cannot conceptualize of themselves as separate from their parent. Obviously to have a ‘relationship’ a person has to have a concept of a self and something other than the self. They have to be able to conceptualize of something other than the self to be in relation to. Therefore, relationships are part of development. The heart of relationship development begins at the age of separation and individuation. Mature differentiation resolves the relational tension between agency and communion. In other words, healthy individuation involves both autonomy and connection, whereby one can be a separate autonomous self without being isolated, alienated or not having their needs met.
From a spiritual or more inter-dimensional perspective, a human baby is in fact born three month premature. Coming out of the womb too early is a collective contract people have which immediately creates separation trauma. Because of this premature birth, the phase of separation and individuation actually begins at about 3 months old. For the rest of our life, we work with the contrasting energies of togetherness and separateness. There are several developmental stages where we are particularly focused on individuation. In my opinion, if I were to generalize it, the most fundamental happens from 3 months to 3 years old. We are familiar with this phase because we usually say a kid has “the terrible twos”, meaning they are defiant because at this age they are establishing a sense of what they want as separate from what the adults in their life want. The second happens when we enter teen hood and develop independence from the adults in our life within the context of our home. And the third, when we enter young adult hood and develop independence in the world when we leave the home.
When we begin this life, we cannot meet our own needs. Our physical and emotional needs are met by other people. It is by having these needs met that we feel the sensation of them being met and then become curious about meeting those needs ourselves. We develop a desire to meet those needs ourselves. Beings initiate their own autonomy because it is in alignment with expansion, a progression from powerlessness to empowerment. And this is where developmental trauma comes in.
Developmental trauma is essentially trauma that effects one’s ability to progress, develop or mature in a certain area of their life where we would normally see progression, maturation or development. We see developmental trauma clearly in situations where a child is completely abandoned and because they are not spoken to, they fail to develop language and speech in their adult life. You can think of a person as a garden. Each aspect of our lives are like seeds that then grow into a tree. When we experience trauma that we cannot find resolution for, it halts our development in the area that trauma effects. So, if that portion of ourselves were a seedling growing, when we experience that trauma, that seedling stops growing and stays a seedling even if the rest of us matures.
For example, say our self-concept were a seedling, if we experienced our parent repeatedly shaming us, this self-concept seedling would stop growing. Our need to feel good about ourselves was not met and we couldn’t meet it ourselves, so that aspect of our life halts in its progression. We progress into adulthood with an underdeveloped self concept and no way to create healthy self esteem in and of ourselves because we have no reference for it.
Why is all of this this important? Because dysfunctional relationships in adult life are the result of developmental trauma revolving around the separation and individuation experiences you have in your life. What I have seen is that individuation trauma experienced in the phase from 3 months to 3 years old is the trauma that creates the bulk of dysfunctional relationships in adulthood. Of course, it is repeated separation and individuation trauma that creates the very worst developmental damage.
Let’s dive even deeper. The very earliest phase of separation and individuation is a phase where you recognize yourself as separate from your mother or caregiver, but you have a desire for that person to meet your needs. You have no capacity or even desire to meet your own needs yet. It is trauma experienced in this phase that creates the biggest problems in adult relationships and in fact causes things like personality disorders, attachment disorders and co-dependency. When we experience a trauma at this phase and thus experience a developmental delay, like a very small child, we experience ourselves as being unable to meet our needs even as an adult.
What’s more than that, we do not even feel the desire to meet our own needs. We feel the desire still for someone else to meet those needs. This is why we enter into a dysfunctional relationship in the first place with someone who also has likewise trauma. In fact, we find the idea of meeting our own needs traumatizing because it is often a mirror of the wound we received growing up when we were expected to separate before we were ready or experienced a consequence as a result of trying to individuate with an adult that found our individuality threatening.
Here is an example of how this can go, Mary is two and she is just now learning how to say the word no. To her, the word No is a way of asserting boundaries, meaning that she is beginning to sense that she has a will separate from her mother’s will. This is healthy and normal. But Mary’s mother finds this threatening and invalidating, so every time Mary says no, she is shamed for it and put in a timeout. This is a trauma involving her sense of autonomy. Because her exploring individuation from her mother is met with the punishment of isolation, she stops becoming autonomous. Her desire for autonomy in fact becomes suppressed. She learns that she cannot have her autonomy and have connection with other people at the same time. For more information about this dynamic, watch my video on YouTube titled “I can have me and I can have you too”.
To continue, as a result of suppressing her need for autonomy, she only experiences the need for closeness. She becomes very clingy. As Mary grows up, she experiences separation anxiety and hates to be alone and fails to experience herself as someone who can take care of herself. She then gets into relationships based on a needs transaction. The transaction of “If you take care of me and never leave me alone, I will make you feel needed and appreciated all the time”.
There are so many trauma scenarios that can cause developmental delays that then translate into adult dysfunction within relationships. But what all this boils down to is that dysfunctional relationships are the result of developmental delay involving the development of individuation. Therefore, the area of life that is affected is the area of autonomy and connection. It is trauma involving needs. We do not know how to meet our needs involving autonomy and involving connection.
When people with developmental delays get into spirituality, self help or therapy, they are told that the way to heal is to realize that no one can be relied upon to meet your needs for you and that wanting them to is unhealthy dependence so they have to “meet their own needs”. But this does damage. Remember that the aspect of them that is still a seedling, not only experiences itself as being unable to meet it’s own needs, but also doesn’t have the desire to. And remember that the trauma is that even though it wants those needs to be met by someone else, that someone else isn’t meeting those needs. So there is no one there to even give them a reference for what it looks and feel like for those needs to be consistently met. This means the aspect of them that is stuck as a seedling is often not even developed enough to desire autonomy, much less have it forced on them by someone’s independence building technique. We are essentially skipping a step in our development that cannot be skipped in order to reach maturity. Doing so is like trying to build a house on a wet foundation.
So what must we do to heal dysfunctional relationships? We have to mentally and emotionally go back in time to resolve the developmental trauma and provide the unmet needs for our child self. I have developed a process for doing this; it is called The Completion Process. To understand more about this process, you can buy a copy of the book I wrote about it, which is available for purchase as of Fall 2016. You can watch my Youtube video titled, How to Heal the Emotional Body. And alternatively, you can sign up to my newsletter and contact a Completion Process Facilitator who can walk you through the process.
The second thing we must do is to follow a basic formula.
1. We have to realize and recognize the pattern of dysfunction in our relationship. 2. We have to become completely aware of what needs we are trying to have met through this pattern. 3. Instead of meeting that need in the way you normally would, the way that causes destruction, find a way to meet that need in a different way that is constructive. To do this, we must meet ourselves wherever we are in terms of our delay of development, not try to skip a step and to meet the need we have directly so that development can begin to progress again.
The main reason that any form of therapy is even remotely successful is that the secure connection provided by the therapist is healing a lot of individuation and connection trauma, which therefore causes those underdeveloped aspects of the client to begin to develop and mature.
We must begin to meet our unmet needs. For more information about this, watch my video on YouTube titled: Meet Your Needs! The fear that prevents people from ever getting out of dysfunctional relationship patterns is the fear that doing so means they are never going to get their needs met and that they will lose connection with the person who they want to meet those needs. How are you supposed to know how to meet your needs? Have someone teach you by first meeting them for you. Ask directly for those needs to be met by people in your life instead of going around the back door to try to get them. For example, ask for appreciation instead of becoming a nurse so that people will appreciate you. There are some very interesting new therapies developing that enable people to experience having their developmental delays addressed and unmet needs met. Some even go so far for example as to simulate being in the womb for people who were born premature or provide the experience of breast-feeding to people who were never breast-fed or were weaned too early.
And when you have needs that involve other people, needs that are not needs you cannot meet on you own (yes… those exist) look for healthy ways to meet those needs to that are not destructive, but are instead mutually beneficial. I know a bunch of you just recoiled at the idea that it’s possible to have needs that cannot be met independently of other people. But it is true, you want to know why? Because people need each other, we need connection and there is a bunch of very real needs that directly involve connection with each other. It’s ok to directly seek those needs out too.
A funny thing happens when you consciously meet a need that is perceived as an immature need. That need matures. The aspect of self that is developmentally delayed begins to develop. This means, a person will eventually gravitate towards progressively healthier and more autonomous ways of meeting the needs that they can meet and finding healthier ways of meeting the needs they cannot meet alone. I am becoming increasingly more and more convinced that therapies involving somatosensory healing are the way to treat developmental trauma because the most detrimental developmental trauma happens before we have a thinking brain, the body is forced to store the memories of the trauma somatically. So, I encourage you to seek out any form of somatic therapy that appeals to you. How are you supposed to know what a functional relationship looks like and how to create one if you’ve never experienced it? That’s right… you’re not. So stop expecting yourself to know what you do not yet know. You wouldn’t expect yourself to speak Spanish if no one ever taught you how to speak Spanish. All you can do is set out to learn.
Developing a healthy sense of self, your wants and needs, your likes and dislikes, your values and priorities along with developing the capacity to connect deeply with other people, will inevitably lead to healthy relationships that are not dysfunctional.

How To Open Your Heart Chakra

At the most basic level, your body is made up of energy. That energy organizes itself into the physical body you are looking at in the mirror every day. But before that energy organizes itself into physical body parts, it organizes itself into meridians and chakras. These chakras are centers of energy that lie along energy channels and each one holds a very specific vibration and has a specific purpose. Each chakra is a specific expression of Prana (otherwise known as life force or source energy). The chakras look a bit like funnels of energy or vortices. They both absorb and emit energy. When a chakra is out of alignment, meaning it is not letting life force in or is out of alignment for any number of reasons, it starts to affect your equilibrium. It becomes a serious imbalance within the system. When chakras are out of alignment, they appear small and do not absorb or emit much energy. They also change in their color, patterning, texture and sound. The traditional name for the heart chakra is Anahata. In Sanskrit, this word translates to unhurt, which is important to know because it gives you some key insight about this particular chakra. The heart chakra is the center chakra. It is located in the very center of your chest. Though all chakras are doorways for spiritual energy, it is the heart chakra that unites the physical and spiritual aspect of your embodiment. The heart is the first organ that manifests physically in a fetus for this very reason. You can think of the heart chakra as the central power point generator of love. Love is the central theme of the heart chakra. This is why it is seen as the chakra most associated with healing because vibrationally speaking the frequency of love is the most healing frequency of all. The heart chakra is also the chakra that is associated with compassion, forgiveness, emotional safety, absence of fear, gratitude, hope, trust, generosity, joy, altruism, kindness and connection. Because it is the unifying chakra, it is the chakra with the capacity to bring you into integration and therefore wholeness. Your heart chakra maintains the truth that you are connected to all that is. You can never be alone because you are an integral part of the web that connects and makes up the entire universe.
The heart chakra is associated with the color green and is associated with the air element. The heart chakra governs the heart as well as the circulatory system, emotional regulation, the lungs, shoulders, arms and hands, breasts and lymph system beginning with the thymus gland. A little known fact is that our brains are governed by our heart. Our brain obeys the messages it receives from the heart. This is why emotional hurt is the root cause of mental illness. Any time you see an issue with these aspects of the body, you can be sure that the heart chakra is out of alignment.
What causes the heart chakra to go out of alignment? Hurt that impacts or is caused by your connection with others. This is why I find it fascinating that the Anahata translates to un-hurt. This is what it feels like when the heart chakra is fully open. But conversely, it is hurt that causes it to close. It is pain experienced in conjunction with love, things like grief, jealousy, hatred, loneliness and isolation, resentment, the inability to forgive and betrayal that cause the heart chakra to close. Both the negative emotional states and the positive emotional states that apply to our connection with others are governed by the heart chakra. Around your actual heart is a membrane that encloses the heart and the fluid around your heart like a sac. This membrane is called the pericardium. On a non-physical level, this membrane is a “protector and nurturer” of the heart. It is like a spiritual amniotic sac for the heart. But the emotional energy that you feel, affects this pericardial fluid. This fluid adopts the vibration of the emotional energy and ultimately the heart is bathing and gestating in this energy. This is a good thing if the emotional energy you feel, is a feel good emotion. But it presents problems if the emotional energy you feel is a painful emotion. This is especially the case with grief. The pericardium is an in-born wall that protects your heart, but it does so in such a way that it allows energy like love both in and out. However, when you are hurt at an emotional level, you will start to armor the pericardium on a non-physical and even physical level. This is when we say that someone has an emotional wall. The term we use for this is a heart wall. The painful emotions associated with the hurt you experienced become trapped inside this heart wall, they strengthen the heart wall and love cannot flow in or out. To understand more about this dynamic, watch my video on YouTube titled: Building Walls To Keep Pain In.
If you’d like to look more deeply into the concept of a heart wall, I’d suggest exploring the work of Dr. Bradley Nelson, who has dedicated the majority of his career to the healing of heart walls. All this being said, nothing affects the health of your heart chakra more than a heart wall. One thing we need to get out of the way before continuing is that people in the spiritual field have become preoccupied with the idea of balance. They try to achieve equilibrium through control. An adjunct to this idea is the concept that chakras can be too closed or too open. As it applies to the heart chakra, you’ll hear theories going around that a heart chakra can be too open or active and this is what creates weak boundaries and co-dependant relationships. Though logical, this is inaccurate. If your chakras are fully open you will experience your being naturally coming into equilibrium. And weak boundaries have much more to do with trauma that effects the solar plexus chakra and sacral chakra.
Co-dependent relationships are not relationships that occur between people with open heart chakras. The opposite is true. A codependent relationship is a transactional relationship based on meeting needs in an unhealthy way. It is the byproduct of a closed heart chakra. This myth comes from the desire to see the codependent as the underdog and victim of a relationship and thus… the good guy. It comes from the myth that co-dependent people are “just too loving”, when in fact they are not in their codependent relationship because of love. So contrary to some warnings you may encounter, don’t worry about opening your heart chakra. How do we open our heart chakra and bring it into alignment?
First, we need to connect with our heart in order to become aware of what is keeping it out of alignment. Intuitively, what emotions do you think you are struggling with that are keeping your heart closed? Have you been hurt in the past or recently? What emotional memories are unhealed? What do you feel in response to the word relationship? I created a video called “Connecting With and Healing Your Heart”. I encourage you to pause this video and watch that video first before continuing on.
Also, nothing affects the heart chakra quite like grief. Grief is the cardinal trauma we are dealing with when the heart chakra is out of alignment. It is this situation that causes us to say we are “heartbroken”. Greif is often the result of having an experience where we feel we have lost love. So, if you are dealing with heartbreak, I encourage you to watch my video on YouTube titled: How To Survive a Break Up and/or Heartbreak. Be open with your emotions. Emotional repression is the undoing of the heart chakra. We need to become aware of them, express them and then let them fade away like leaves being taken downstream so as to not cling to them. To learn how to do this, watch my video on YouTube titled: How To Express Your Emotion. The heart chakra is the chakra that is thrown out of alignment by hurt in conjunction with relationships. An often-overlooked aspect of health relative to the heart chakra is self-love. If you have a painful or self-hating relationship with yourself, it is as if you have locked your heart inside a prison where it is tortured by its jail keeper every day. So cultivating self-love is crucial to the opening of the heart chakra. If you feel that you are struggling with self-love, I invite you to try out my book titled: Shadows Before Dawn, Finding the Light of Self Love in Your Darkest Times. It is a practical guide to loving yourself that tells you how to actually do it. Many of the dimensional realities outside the physical dimension do not have a time/space aspect to them. This means to think something is to cause the thing to happen or to be instantly. It’s a “think open, it opens” kind of thing. Where as in the physical dimension there is a time and space buffer between thought and thing. The chakra system influences the physical but is a multidimensional aspect of you (which is why they are invisible to most people). This means if you think of your heart chakra opening or visualize it opening, it opens. The visualization I see working the best is when you place your hands over your heart and imagine your heart chakra as a rich emerald colored vortex like opening in the center of your chest. Then visualize expanding it with the help of an opening movement of your hands to about a foot wide. Then visualize it spinning clockwise. When you are ready, open your arms and hands wide, with your chest to the sky and sense this chakra pulling in energy from the world with each inhale and emitting loving energy to the world with each exhale. Imagine your heart wall. If it were made of something, what is it made of? The answer could be granite or glass or wood for example. Feel into the reason that this heart wall is there and see if you can intuitively feel what caused it to be there. Then ask your heart what it needs in order to be able to let go of that heart wall. Don’t try to tear down a heart wall. Remember it is there to protect you and so, it will only go away if the energy you approach it with an attitude of helping it to realize that it doesn’t need the heart wall anymore. If you get to this point with the heart chakra, imagine this heart wall being lovingly dissolved or released in whatever way feels best to you. Stimulate it with sounds. You can find binaural beats on the Internet designed specifically for the heart chakra. You can expose yourself to crystal singing bowls designed for the heart chakra. You can also stick with thousands of years worth of toning tradition. To do this, sit in meditation and stimulate your heart chakra by chanting LAM or YUM depending on which one resonates in your chest the most. Play around with the tonality of these sounds to find the one that causes your chest to vibrate the most. Surround yourself in the color green. Wear this color, decorate with this color and eat foods that are this color. Eat green, leafy vegetables such as kale, spinach, lettuce, dandelion greens, cabbage, chard, broccoli and collard greens. Vibrationally speaking, this is the food that benefits the heart chakra the very most. Also include green tea, basil, sage, thyme, cilantro and parsley. Use essential oils to help your heart chakra align. My top picks for effect on the heart chakra are rose, melissa, neroli, marjoram, chamomile, yarrow and eucalyptus. I find that using these oils in conjunction with placing something warm (like a warm water bottle) over your heart area is the most effective. Bring certain mineral spirits into your life. In my opinion, the best for the heart chakra are tourmaline (especially green tourmaline, watermelon tourmaline and pink tourmaline) green kyanite, chrysoprase, rhodonite, rose quartz, malachite, emerald and jade. Move your body in ways that open the chest. The tradition of yoga has many poses that are designed to facilitate heart opening. Doing so outdoors is the best. Go to places that are lush and green with plenty of fresh breeze. Practice “living from the heart” and “speaking from the heart”. To understand how this is done, you can watch my video on YouTube titled: How To Live From The Heart. Criticism closes off the heart chakra amazingly fast. For this reason, practice directly caretaking the aspect of you that feels negative and thus generates negative appraisals of the world. And when you speak, speak from the heart. To do this, when you speak to other people, imagine literally taking the thoughts you think and are about to verbalize, down through your throat to your heart and filtering them through your chest. So that even if the sounds come out of your mouth, the thoughts themselves are being fed to the throat from your heart instead of head. Deliberately think thoughts and say things and take actions and seek out experiences that cause you to feel love, compassion, emotional safety, absence of fear, gratitude, hope, trust, forgiveness, generosity, joy, altruism, kindness and connection. Any experience that causes you to shift into these frequencies will cause the heart chakra to open and come into alignment. For example, start a gratitude journal or do something loving for someone in your life or initiate a gathering with like-hearted people or go out into the world and do random acts of kindness. Especially form connections with people. When we experience trauma within relationships, we rehabilitate that trauma and find resolution within relationships as well. For this reason, I want you to watch my video on YouTube titled: How To Connect With Someone. I also want you to watch my video titled: How to Receive. Practice Metta on a daily or weekly basis. In the Buddhist tradition, Metta is a practice of embodying unconditional love. For 12 minutes, imagine allowing your breath to come and go from your heart area. See if certain loving intentions or words emerge from your heart. For example, "May I enjoy peace, may I enjoy good health, and abundance of love." Continue this way until you feel a sense of well-being. Then, visualize or imagine this wellbeing radiating outward in a series of concentric circles, like ripples from a stone dropped in water. See it reaching out to other people. Starting with people you do know in your private life to and then expanding outward gradually to the people you do not know and then to your country and then to the world at large. For example, "May my husband enjoy good health, peace, and abundance of love." Then, “May all beings on earth enjoy good health, peace, abundance and love.” Continue radiating this well being outward until you feel a sense of completeness. You don’t only have to focus on people. You can focus on sending wellbeing to anything and it will cause the heart chakra to open. By intentionally doing things which enable your heart chakra to come into alignment and open, you will be setting yourself up to live in harmony with the world. All relationships in your life will reap the benefits of this decision, most especially the relationship you have with yourself.

The Vision of Teal Eye LLC

In 2012 I started a company called Teal Eye LLC. A company aimed at carrying out my vision for this earth. My vision is not mine alone; it is one that many people share. This vision can fit under one title: Positive World Change. I do not want this change because I am of the opinion that the world is somehow broken and needs to be fixed, because it is not. Instead, want this change because I see what is possible for humanity. And I have fallen in love with three little things: Health, joy and freedom.
I have deliberately formed this company in a rather unusual way. It does not pay anyone a salary; not even me, the owner of the company. Everyone who is working with Teal Eye including myself earns their personal income separate from being paid directly by the company. Let me tell you how this works. Let’s say someone has developed a cost effective way to get health food into school, but they do not have the money to start the program and no one is paying attention to them yet. Teal Eye will umbrella them, help fund their idea and help them get the attention that their endeavor needs. The people, who thought up the idea, will make their money directly from their particular idea. The only risk they take, is believing in their idea enough to really take a chance at making it work. Like any normal investor, Teal Eye will be making a small percentage of the income that they generate. That money will then be turned around and go towards other programs, centers or ideas; and process repeats itself. If you do the math, this company will soon build to the point where it is one of the wealthiest companies in the world. Except it will be unbeatable. It will be unbeatable because it does not pay out any wealthy executives. In fact, it has no expenses other than the normal one-time expenses all companies must pay such as lawyer or accountant fees. The real reason that I, Teal Swan am aimed at gaining fame on a worldwide level is that as the figure head for this company, the more fame that I have, the more attention I can draw to these positive endeavors. So the people, who have great ideas for positive world change, will piggyback on the fame that I accrue. And we all know that money follows fame. So it will only build on it ‘self. There will also be a non-profit associated with the company called “Headway” which accepts donations and whose goal is the exact same thing as it’s parent company Teal Eye; positive world change. The money that comes in through Headway will go in the direction of anyone who would benefit most by the money but who does not have plans to make money with their good idea, such as other non-profits, disaster relief organizations and humanitarian efforts. If you think of a company as if it is a giant ship, the more money that is being paid out, the more holes are poked in the bottom of the ship. My goal is to have as little holes poked in the bottom of the boat as possible. In other words, money is energy. I want as little energy as possible to drain out of this company. This will enable it to grow into a monster. But this time, the monster is on the side of the people. It is on the side of joy, equanimity, peace, unity, health and freedom.
As of now, Teal Eye makes its money from the workshops I hold and the things that I, personally create. None of that money actually goes towards supporting my personal life. So for example, when I hold a workshop, it doesn’t go towards my mortgage or towards a car payment or towards food or towards a shopping trip, instead it builds up in an account so that I can turn that money around and put it directly into investments and begin carrying out the vision of the company.
So you might ask, why have I created a company like this? Why do we need to generate as much capital as we possibly can? In today’s society, money rules the world. Money even rules and directs our governments. So if you want to have influence over things like the government and the medical industry (like I do), you need to build a formidable adversary. It is true that it is unusual for a spiritual type like myself to want to build a financial empire, but I came into physical life on the day that I did (June Sixteenth, which is the day of the capitalist) to teach by example what true capitalism is; and true capitalism is conscious capitalism. I love money. Money is a fictional idea that has the power to create incredible ugliness or unparalleled beauty, depending on the mind that wields it. It is true that we could change this society by “going off the grid” as many conscious spiritual individuals choose to do. But because of where most people are in their lives today and because of how plugged into the system most of us are, this will not happen in large enough numbers to make a difference. So, a better way of going about it is to stay connected enough to the machine to become an important part of the machine, and then to change the machine from within.
To give you an idea of some of the things that Teal Eye will be involved with here is a small list:

*End of life care
*Integrative medicine
*Alternative Health
*The education system
*Environmental endeavors
*Parenting programs
*Humanitarian endeavors
*Food industry reform
*Animal welfare
*Criminal Justice reform
Everything is consciousness. A person is a unit of consciousness. A race is a unit of consciousness. A country is a unit of consciousness. But what most people don’t know is that a company also has its own consciousness. And so, in a way, a company becomes its own entity. And I intend to build a company so driven and so large in its quest for positive world change that nothing can come up against it. Not even the creators, directors and CEOs themselves. I trust myself completely when it comes to carrying out this vision without becoming corrupt along the way; but just so you understand the depth of my dedication to what I have created, I will tell you that I have put controls in place to ensure that if anyone involved with Teal Eye (even myself) should fall out of alignment it can not affect the intention or direction of the company.
I do not think of Teal Eye as my company. I may have given birth to it and even though the legal paper work won’t reflect this truth, Teal Eye belongs to everyone who is associated with it. The company belongs to the volunteers who lend their time to it, the accountants who make sure it’s numbers are in order, the people who participate in its programs, the people who create ideas for it to invest in. Anyone who benefits by this company, is contributing to the vision and survival of this company and so, it belongs to all of us. It is our baby so to speak. Everyone that is involved with Teal Eye, shares the beautiful idea that I personally am so dedicated to; and the idea is this: That we can live free and healthy lives here on this earth, supporting one another, following our bliss. I am dedicated to that idea. In fact, my life revolves around it. My joy is in turning that idea into a reality. And so I will.

Suicide - What To Do If You're Suicidal

As living beings, we are hard-wired for survival. We're motivated towards life. But as we all know, sometimes the painful conditions of life can overrule that hard-wiring and instead we become motivated towards death. Feeling suicidal, having suicidal thoughts, attempting suicide or committing suicide are all symptoms. They are symptoms of a deeper underlying cause; a root trauma or wound. 
Thinking about suicide or attempting or committing suicide is just a symptom. It is a symptom of a deeper emotional condition. It is that emotional condition that needs our unconditional presence and conscious focus.
Before getting into the meat of this article, I will tell you that I am not just going to be talking to you from the standpoint of a spiritual teacher. I’m going to be talking to you from the standpoint of a survivor. Suicide is something I have struggled with since I was a child. I have attempted suicide four times. So what you can know going into this is that if anyone understands the kind of torment that you are in at this current moment, it is me. I’m going to tell you what most people tell you which is that if you’re genuinely suicidal, contact a mental health professional or check yourself into a hospital. This is an option if you really don’t feel you can trust yourself to not kill yourself. So I’ll leave that judgment to you, it may very well be the best decision for you at this time. But I also know from personal experience that being admitted to the hospital is a temporary fix that may enable you to be kept safe from yourself long enough for the extremity of the suicidal feeling to pass. And speaking for myself, I did not meet a single mental health professional that was actually able to help me to resolve the despair I felt, so the suicidal ideation kept coming back and I ended up making future attempts. This despair that seems absolutely unsolvable is the very reason you are contemplating suicide today.
Here’s the thing, I’m not going to be like every other person and freak out because I am afraid of death and tell you that suicide is wrong. I’m not going to flip out because I need you around for my sake and thus try to convince you not to do it from that self-centered standpoint. I’m not going to sugar coat this life for you by trying to sell you on all the good points of life and by trying to tell you it will all be ok. I get it that at this point life has not been good to you. Right now, you do not have proof that earth is anything but suffering and you have no reason to believe that it will ever get better. You’re right to feel this way. You aren’t wrong about your perspective. And you know what no one else will tell you? Anyone in your circumstance would have probably killed themselves already. There is nothing wrong with you for feeling this way. Right now, you’re in more pain than you can cope with. Suicide is nothing more than pain exceeding your pain coping resources.
A lot of what is making you want to kill yourself right now is the belief that on top of feeling this much despair, there is something wrong with you for feeling that despair. This causes you to feel more despair and ultimately to turn on yourself. But from the standpoint of a spiritual teacher, I am going to tell you that there is nothing wrong with you. Anyone with your experience would feel exactly this same way. Chances are if you are even reading this article, even from inside this internal torture chamber you’re living in, you are having your doubts about suicide. There is a part of you, maybe an infinitesimal spec that wants to believe that life could be worth living. And so, I don’t need you to want to live right now. All I need is for you to just try what I’m about to suggest instead of kill yourself right now. You are currently in a crisis, an emergency peak of emotional pain. And here is what I want you to try…
Know that you can always kill yourself tomorrow. In fact, you can always kill yourself in five minutes. What I want you to know is that for now, suicide can be your safety net in that it is always available to us. This will enable you to put suicide aside for a moment and instead, you can live with this in mind: “I can always commit suicide tomorrow, so what can I do with today?” Or if tomorrow seems too large of a timeline, make it “I can always kill myself in an hour. So knowing that, what can I do with this hour?” Then use that hour or that day to focus completely and totally on quite literally anything that makes you feel a tiny bit of relief.
  Know that the way our body is wired makes it so pain has a way of doing two things. The first is to convince you that you are the only one feeling this way, so you are alone in it and with it. The second is to convince you it will never end. Neither is true. There are people going through this exact same thing at exactly this minute. Think about it. On the other side of the world, there is someone reading this exact same article.
In your life, you have learned that happiness is transient and unreliable. It always goes when it comes. But what you aren’t noticing is that unhappiness is the same. It too shall pass. As unbelievable as it may seem at this minute, this extreme feeling state is temporary. If you didn’t do anything at all about it, it would eventually pass on its own.
Consider that your thoughts and feelings come and go, like messages from somewhere deep within this universe. But you do not have to believe them. They may seem true, but just because something seems true, does not mean that it is. Just ask a magician. You cannot know 100% that this pain will never end and you cannot know beyond a shadow of a doubt that no one else is experiencing this exact same thing. You can believe these painful thoughts are true, but you cannot know that they are. Your pain may just be creating an illusion.
  Right now, you feel as if you are trapped inside yourself, in a torture chamber built for one. A part of you is crying out for you to see your own pain and understand it. This is what pain does. It calls our attention to a problem that needs resolution. Chances are, you can see other people smile and seem happy and it feels like you can’t touch that happiness. You feel an unbearable isolation. You’re stuck in your pain as if it were a vat of poison. You need your pain to be exposed to the light of your own consciousness and then to other people’s consciousness. So first, express the hell out of these emotions. My favorite method for doing this is to write. Some people prefer to yell or to sing about it. The point is, you need to get it all out. Express how you feel and why you feel that way. Imagine you are emotionally vomiting.
  What you really want is for someone to see your pain. You’ve got to let someone in on your pain. Express what you discovered in the previous step to someone else. But choose wisely. You may have a lot of people in your life right now who are so afraid of pain themselves that they will only enhance the feeling of loneliness and make matters worse.
Involve someone who is capable of being fully unconditionally present with your pain. If you feel like you don’t want to use someone who is in your life already, know that I have personally trained a group of facilitators who are experts in doing just this. You can subscribe to my newsletter. The link is on the homepage of this website. On www.thecompletionprocess.com I have a list of these facilitators. You can look through the list and let yourself be drawn to whichever one resonates with you the most and reach out to them. Alternatively, you can reach out for someone’s presence on befrienders.org, which is an international organization that provides support for anyone who is suicidal; no matter your time zone.
  Right now, you feel completely powerlessly hopeless in a state of despair. The state of despair is the feeling state that follows the thought that you are trapped in an intolerable situation and powerless to do something about it… permanently. Whatever you do, do not try to focus positively and do not try to think happy thoughts. Don’t write a single affirmation or even look at one. This will only serve to make matters worse and make you feel more hopeless. Despair functions like a spider’s web. The more desperate you feel to try hard with effort to get out of it, the more ensnared you become. So just stop wherever you are.
  Lay down on the floor. I mean completely collapse on the floor and give up. I want you to imagine dying. If you are suicidal, you’ve been toying with the idea of fully giving up on life and killing yourself. I want you to get much more deliberate and conscious about it and consciously imagine killing yourself. This is different than suicidal ideation, which is just a subconscious reaction to an emotional state.
Imagine how you want to kill yourself and where you want to kill yourself. Imagine every grizzly detail. Imagine who is there and how they will react. Become aware of the impact you want it to have on other people and why you want your suicide to have that impact. Imagine watching every detail of your funeral and what happens with your body. Imagine watching people grieve and move on with their life. Imagine you watching it all. Then imagine yourself going back to source. Becoming part of the universal mind or God again. Imagine that now you have the relief you were seeking. You’re not in pain anymore. You’re watching earth from that removed point of view. You left it all behind. You’re just objectively viewing the madness down on earth. Let yourself imagine that peace for as long as you can. And when your mind begins to fidget in that peace, I want you to ask yourself this question… “Now what?” Stop reading this article and do this exercise before going any further and when you are done, keep reading. What you have found out by doing this process is that there is nowhere to go from the peaceful stillness of death. Instead of permanently wonderful, it is a kind of ended-ness of expansion. And so what do we feel compelled to do as souls? Come back into that movement by coming back into life once more. This is the drive that fuels reincarnation. Death is nothing more than a halting of all forward momentum and from that place, we find we desire momentum. And so, if after death the only place to go from there is towards life once more, why leave? Why not do the most with what we have already built and learned instead of starting over from scratch with a new life?
Some part of your soul wants to be here; otherwise you would not have come into this life in the first place. What did this exercise teach you that you really want out of life that is different than the life you’re currently living? So far, you’ve been passively committed to life. You’ve had one foot in and one foot out and this can never lead to a life that is worth living. Your inner most being may be putting you in this horrible crossroads so as to force you to stop being passive and make a choice to align with your original intention for being here by completely committing to life. Just because you are alive, does not mean you are consciously committed to life.
I had a moment the last time I was suicidal where I realized that I could no longer straddle the fence. I needed to commit one way or the other to death or to life and that if I didn’t make that choice, I would not have all of me behind the creation of my life. With the safety net of it always being an option to kill myself, I was able to set suicide aside long enough to give life my all. I committed consciously to life. It was really nothing more complex than making the decision “I’m all in” and caring more about how I felt in with the minute I had in front of me than about anything else. I started to make decisions in my life according to the criteria of whether it felt better and nothing else.
  When you are in this amount of emotional pain, it is critical that you stop thinking about the future. Reel it in and live five minutes at a time. What can you do with the next five minutes that would feel a tiny bit better? And do that. And when those five minutes have passed, ask again. What can I do with the next five minutes that would feel a tiny bit better? And do that. Right now it is quite simple, all you have is now and all you have is the option of thinking and doing something that feels better or doing and thinking something that feels worse. If you just chose the step in front of you that feels better and then the step in front of you that feels better, you can cover some serious emotional distance from this place of complete despair.
  Only after you have found some relief and the immediate desire to kill yourself has passed, you may feel the desire to put a tiny bit of energy into improving the way you feel. Do this slowly. Start by doing anything that feels just a little bit better. For example, play music, watch a stand up comic or a movie, sit in a salt bath, go on a walk, distract yourself from your thoughts with anything that causes you to feel a hint of relief. Then, when you feel ready to really dig into consciously improving the way you feel, watch four videos on my YouTube Channel the first is: What To Do If You Feel Hopeless. The second is: The Self Soothing Process. The third is: How To Feel Better. The fourth is: How To Raise Your Frequency and Increase Your Vibration.
  The bottom line is that if you’re genuinely suicidal, you need to treat your life with the same approach as you would if you were terminally ill. Suicidality is like a terminal illness. If it is not handled appropriately, it will end in death. So what would I tell someone to do if they were terminally ill? I’d tell them to stop in their tracks. I’d tell them to re-evaluate their life. I’d tell them to make every minute of their life about how they feel. I’d tell them to start doing those things that they have on their bucket list and to literally quit doing things they think they have to do that aren’t adding to their happiness.
You may have a list five miles long of things you think you have to do, but would those things really matter if you were dead? Would that sparkly clean house or college degree or promotion really matter if you were dead? The bottom line is that when we are terminally ill, priorities change. And they change into what they always should have been. The absolute gift of surviving a brush with suicide is that you can make this change in priorities without being physically ill or dying. You have more of a shot at really living life than most people ever do. If handled right, suicide can get you out of the prison of a box that so many people live their life in. If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you do with today? If we want to be happy in our lives, all of us (especially you) need to start living our lives as if next year may never come.
  When and if you ever feel ready to really create resolution, become acquainted with and begin to resolve the underlying emotional condition below the suicidal impulse you feel. As I said earlier, suicidal feelings and thoughts are merely a symptom. You are trying to find resolution for an internal wound. You need to become aware of that wound. You need to seriously explore why you are feeling this way. When you feel ready, I want you to watch some specific YouTube videos that I have created. This will set you on the path of resolution. The first video is: Today’s Great Epidemic and How To Solve It. The second video is: The Emotional Wakeup Call. The third video is: How To Heal The Emotional Body. And the fourth is: Nervous Break Down (what to do about a mental or emotional breakdown). I have created a process that heals the underlying cause of suicide. I am calling it The Completion Process. My book, which explains exactly how to do this process is quite literally titled, The Completion Process. It is released as of fall 2016. I strongly encourage you to purchase a copy of this book and try the process for yourself. If you need help with resolution before fall 2016, I encourage you to subscribe to my newsletter (the link is on the homepage) so you are sent a list of facilitators that I have trained to facilitate this process. Contact one of them and have them teach it to you. It may not seem like it right now, but there cannot be a problem without a solution. One polarity cannot exist in this universe without the other. And it may not seem like it at this moment, but you are a critical puzzle piece of this full picture of life here on earth. Your absence would be a devastating loss for us all. It would create trauma in a ripple effect for all of us, most especially those who are closest to you. And I completely understand that you may very well want to create that impact because you want them to see the pain you’re in and perhaps even hurt people because of how they have hurt you. This how I felt in fact. The thing is, they will see and feel that pain if you kill yourself, but the sad part is that you wont be around to feel that feeling of being seen. You wont be around to experience that impact. You don’t want to die, you just want to stop hurting and right now, you think dying is the only way you can stop hurting. But what if that wasn’t true? And what if you weren’t actually alone in this? What if there was actually an end to this pain and what if instead of trying to hurt you, your pain was instead crying out for you to help it?

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