Aja

I guess I would take Teal's advice and throw "balance" out of the window. I would indulge fully in all those things that I love and have loved since I was a kid. I would take them as far as I could go with them. I would go "balls to the wall" and be curious to see what would happen if I actually invested 100%.

What I refuse to accept about my reality is that what happened in the past can't be changed and I may never get a chance to rectify those mistakes. I may never get a chance to tell that person how much they hurt me and what I really think about them. I will never be able to go back and say that thing I really needed to say but didn't. And there are some people I will most likely never get a chance to finally say I'm sorry to.

I loved this! So helpful!

Beautiful, Teal! As a side note - although he is very raw, I really like what Cult of Dusty on Youtube has to say about race relations. I haven't seen all of his videos, but what I have seen I like. I think he's fair; as a Black person myself, he has helped me swallow some bitter pills about the Black community and how they shoulder some of the blame. Yes, it's true, we all need to look deep within ourselves and face the truth of what is there.