What I refuse to accept about my reality is the possibility that  maybe I will never be able to shift it the way I so badly want to.  

What I refuse to accept about my reality is that what happened in the past can't be changed and I may never get a chance to rectify those mistakes. I may never get a chance to tell that person how much they hurt me and what I really think about them. I will never be able to go back and say that thing I really needed to say but didn't. And there are some people I will most likely never get a chance to finally say I'm sorry to.

That I’m not very superior, that im average, ordinary, 

my physical appearance, that I’m ugly and not very nice to look at, that I don’t have much or any talent, that i wasn’t meant to be incredibly beautiful or great or talented but..mediocre. And often below average. 

That its it! That there is nothing more. That maybe Im just looping into a familiar pattern that feels safe and convincing myself that Im learning and being different somehow.

I refuse to accept that my step daughter and I may never have a relationship again. Currently I refuse to accept that we don't have a relationship right now, and I live in the past of how it used to be.

I’m very dépendant of my parents

I refuse to accept that I feel stuck with no way out, no hope for a better future. And that I am angry at the people around me because I blame them for it.

That I right now channeled a super epic impro solo in a poor microphone, cause the singer had to use the good mic. And I wonder if I can make a solo that heavenly inspired again in a good microphone later.. So I have to accept that this happened, and there is nothing to do about it other than maybe buying an other great mic so Im all set for next home studio sessions.

That I'm not getting any better unless I heal my past traumas

Competition

I hate this question so much...ahhhhhhhhhh! WTF!!! This is a tough one cuz I clearly refuse & honestly...wow instant tears..

okay I’m a little loss on this one but it’s clearly intense. Maybe that I’m not excelling or that I’m not enough

That I feel powerless not to recreate circumstances that retraumatize me. 

How awesome, fulfilling and succesfull it could really be!!!!

That I am going to have to learn through my reality. And I have and will make mistakes. That’s how I learn. 
 

I do badly don’t want to accept it, by the way. I want to get it right, EVERY TIME. Who is perfect? And never makes mistakes in relationships and communicating? 

I still live in a scarcity. I feel powerlessness.

I refuse to accept that I alone do actually have all the responsibility for my life and my daughter’s life right now, when the healing experience I so desperately long for is to not be in charge of everyone’s life for once and not carry the burden of constant responsibility. Because I refuse to take the responsibility of creating a life where there is actually less responsibility on me, I am passive and feel powerless a lot of the time.

Anything I condemn as negative.

That to live I need to stop my pattern of wanting to end it all. Also I have not invested enough into my life for me to be considered as talented.

About MY reality? 

Negative things about myself that aren't true, that I have internalized, Im rejecting. Probably that I'm not ready for a relationship l, the feelings I have for my new partner are very strong.

Reality in general is way too harsh for me: that you cant expect others to be compassionate with eachother, for example. (I honestly probably skip reality very often, living in my own world, on a different planet) I dont know. 

That it's forever fucked. 

I just want to be put to rest already.

That I have talents and I am not taking steps to hone them, and If I don't take steps fast It will be disastrous.

That I am alone. I can not seem to shake this belief which grew its roots very early on. No one is coming for me and I am alone.

That's control doesn't actually make you more safe.

That pretending is more detrimental than I think. 

That the desire to be good is very valid considering what I was taught to believe about the world and myself in it (and as detrimental to my well being as pretending is). 

That my well being is actually the most important thing which means that old patterns that aren't serving me anyone is actually not in alignment with my best interests.

That it's okay to change your mind about EVERYTHING and that life doesn't need to be perfect nor does it need to be lived perfectly. If I accept that reality I'll see that everything has much more to do with following your joy than anything else which is so simple yet challenging. 

I refuse to accept that I am really non committed to things

What I refuse to see about my reality is that reality doesn’t have to match the ideas and beliefs I have and what causing me a lot of pain is that my reality doesn’t match those ideas and beliefs. Reality depends on from what angle you’re seeing it, what you think and feel, your vibrations. Reality is a mere reflection.