Elo

Your ability to choose pain, choose negative consequences and choose contrast willingly in your life, fully knowing you could make easier choices for yourself blows my fucking mind. From woman to woman, this situation feels beyond unfair. When you talked about this situation in your last workshop, I had violent nausea, throat and womb pain just hearing about it, like I have on the first day of my period. The irony in all of this is that so much of the suffering you're teaching people to heal was caused by the suppression and abuse of the feminine polarity to begin with. You suffered that abuse on femininity first hand to an unspeakable degree, and now you're met with the same re-traumatizing resistance from society who literally will no hear a professional or pay attention to a message if not carried out in a super masculine way (fast-paced, hyper productive, constant marketing and constant showing up for people). It's like you have to be a hyper-functioning robot, constantly putting out more content for people not to forget you and to have the discipline of actually sticking with your teachings. I understand you chose this because you know yourself to not be separate from the people you help, thus abandoning them is abandoning you. But I can't help to think so many of these traumatic experiences shouldn't be here in the first place. It's a tragedy that the state of the world makes it so you need to make choices like this to remain in alignment with your purpose. It's a funny position to make super loving choices towards a collective that doesn't consciously love you back. It's like people are fighting you for helping them, defending their own demise, and even making it harder for you to give what you're meant to give. I wish you to find safety and rest, as much as you can find. I wish you more allyship with more women and men so you feel supported, even maybe to lighten the work load for you a little. I really hope there won't be any more complications with your physical health. I know I will continue to show up for you and your content long-term no matter what happens, because the more time passes, the more I see how needed and precious it is. This is a very hard path but we can make it so much easier if we don't give up on each other. Lots of love and support 💚

I don't think people are aware enough to discern how difficult of a situation you are in, and how deeply unfair (on a 3rd dimensional, subjective level) they unknowingly make it. I think people are not aware of the damage that their flawed perception of you is causing, and I think most people don't even think to take responsibility for that. Because you are so committed to openness and authenticity, mastery and love of your own being above all instead of simply performing having it all together to keep up a facade that is easy for people to digest (to avoid having problems), people take advantage of it. I think people who oppose or distrust you struggle with discerning between their own projections Vs. the reality of you obviously, but also struggle with holding in their awareness the totality of you (ecosystem as you teach) and not just some of your parts. Instead, people are triggered by specific aspects of you tat they will distort and amalgamate with their own projections and then go on to decide that this is all that you are, that they see the totality of you (i.e "I see through her", "I see through the facade"). It is such an easy cop-out on their part and you are absolutely powerless to people doing that. The way I see it, you're screwed because you take all the responsibility that is yours, because it is your autonomous, genuine choice and commitment for your life, then offer people information that can only ever help them if they're willing to do the same and take responsibility for themselves as well. Sadly, you reach both people who are up to the challenge, and people who aren't. And you can't control that. You are easy to attack, because you refuse to hurt people back to 'defend yourself'. You are calling people into higher states of consciousness, towards more maturity, more responsibility, and you are impeccably holding yourself up to that standard. This is admirable, but in today's world, it leaves the door wide open for people who are triggered about you to just lash out onto you without any consequences that would stop them (which would be re-traumatizing experiences for them). You are easy to attack because of all the things you so openly talk about, that nearly no one else dares to teach about, regardless of how deeply needed healing is on these subjects. You open yourself up to be a healing vehicle for wounds that people are still in a war/survival state about. Because they come across you indirectly on the internet instead of face-to-face, you can't calm them down individually and soothe them. How could you do that for hundreds of thousands of people in physicality. Some people who come across your material are inflamed and because you teach truth, your material makes them even more aware of how much they're burning, and they can't handle the heat from where they are. Because they don't know how to deal with it, neither does anyone around them, and no one clearly mirrors to them the very individual pain they're feeling (i.e that it has everything to do with their own life experience and not something you're supposedly doing wrong), they will enter into denial, and everyone will follow. They hide behind a professional (journalism) or altruistic endeavor ("this woman is dangerous and I just want to protect people from her") when really the pain they're feeling has nothing to do with you. You haven't caused it in anyway shape or form, and their accusations are irresponsible projections disguised as "discernment". Because you teach truth, people have essentially two options : A - to go all in through the fire of awakening, of feeling and passing through every pain, shadow and dysfunction you're making them aware of, which is for all of us a very demanding and painful process, that requires us as individuals to resources qualities that we may doubt we have, such as bravery, stamina, endurance, accountability, self-love, trust, faith, softness, compassion, inquiry, commitment etc... in life situations that so often oppose this process and make it harder (mainly lack of people and being alone to do the work), or B - to turn you into a scapegoat... again. To simply decide that all the pain we feel is not about our own personal trauma and how we're perpetuating suffering in our adult life, but about you. We will then exploit and capitalize on every shadow that mainstream society is in complete denial, disowning and avoidance of to discredit your image. We will derive all of that antagonistic subconscious charge we feel towards those aspects of us... towards you as a person. You're screwed because it doesn't matter how aligned and excellent you are as a teacher, you're at the mercy of people who refuse to face themselves. This is why I have such a problem with the whole "well this is just a reflection of your unhealed trauma from your childhood" thing. Because people use this truth as a way of putting all of the responsibility on you and taking attention away from the realer and more serious issue at hand : hoards of people who actively antagonize and seek out the destruction and tearing down of a spiritual teacher is the issue. I know you've been doing your healing work all the time startinglong before you started your career, with a pace, intensity and difficulty that most people cannot imagine. My heart aches on this one because people are dehumanizing you and anyone in your position, especially women, and especially survivors. I feel like we are using spiritual standards in an abusive way against you and other teachers. People expect perfection from you so that hey don't have any work to do or pressure to take on themselves. You have been choosing compassion and love with this issue, met with people who don't. I want people to realize, including tribers, that it's also on us. Spiritual teachers don't exist to do all the work so that their followers can just kick their legs up and benefit from that teacher's alignment and wisdom. Spiritual teachers exist so that one day they're no longer needed, at least not in the form they're currently needed. This situation reflects as very powerful choice point that means a lot to me : awareness & responsibility Vs. denial/projection and irresponsibility, when met with someone who speaks truth. There's a world of difference between exercising freedom of speech upon careful consideration of your personal truth and your intentions, and straight up bullying someone and coming at them, exploiting people's triggers that are relieved only by rallying and going against the targeted person. We all feel very smart and very powerful when we go against someone who has power and authority. Their loss is our gain... or so we think. Our "discernment", our "personal opinion" or worse, "the vibes" that we "feel off" of someone could very well be accurate about that person... or not at all. People miss the fact that they're in a relationship with you. As such, things can only go well if there's alignment and awareness on both sides of the equation. Us who follow spiritual teachers refuse to see that about ourselves. Instead, we continually expect you to 'make up for' our misalignment by virtue of demanding you to manage your own alignement about the tiniest thing beyond what's actually possible, at the same time as minimizing or denying the plethora of things you're doing perfectly well. We expect you to overcompensate and make up for our own shadows. And the worst part is that if you fail, we crush your credibility as a spiritual teacher and say the fault is on you. When really, this dynamic is a setup in which you can't win to begin with. Followers don't understand they're in a relationship with the teachers they follow and as such, don't take up the necessary measures and adjustments needed for that relationship to go well and be mutually beneficial in a way where both parties grow and flourish. Instead we feel disconnected from our teachers like we're disconnected from politicians and other figures of power and authority. We have a very immature way of relating to power and authority figures. We either put them on a pedestal and fear/admire/worship/obey them, or we feel threatened and get angry at them and will try to undermine them and know them off of a pedestal we think they don't deserve. From where I stand, part of the solution to this situation is not of your own doing, it's of the rest of the people involved in the situation. But I frankly don't know what to do about people who don't want you because they're not ready, even though you still appear in their reality, appart from them gaining awareness that this is what's happening and then stepping into conscious choice. But again, we can't control that. And the "how can we influence it so that it happens ?" question is even more difficult. This is an issue that anyone who wishes to push consciousness forward on this planet will bump against in the coming years (decades even). Honestly I'm overwhelmed and knocked off by it. It's heartbreaking enough that I don't want more people to get hurt, but complicated enough that you can't possibly make a move without hurting someone. So much of it depends of the choices individuals make, most of which are people who are totally unaware of the impact they have on the world through their free will (that they sometimes don't even recognize as free will). The more you and the world suffers, the more you wish to awaken and expand to be the antidote to that suffering. But the more your consciousness rises in a world that doesn't catch up with you, the more people end up resisting you and even seeing you as the enemy, even if all you're doing is lending a helping hand. I feel like this is the position you're in. The more backlash you get, the more inner work you do, the more willing you become to question yourself and open your mind up to new ideas to find a solution, but without other people's participation and positive intention, yours alone is not enough to remedy this issue. I think at this time in history, allyship has now become a necessity. Not in the scary, shadow way of rallying under a leader as a way of giving up on our own awareness and responsibility, and going against a so called common enemy, but as a form of friendship, benevolence and solidarity with those we feel are the most aligned, capable, pure and beneficial to the whole. Especially those like you who are facing tremendous opposition. This is not war, rather this is strengthening of a positive, firm, loving bond between each other around core intentions of what we stand for, acting as a buffer/container facing the opposition and resistance thrown at us (whoever us may be). I think you need autonomous, conscious, responsible, heart-intelligent people to support you and stand by you not for the sake of the worship of a person (which is the easy way people would go about it), but for the sake of gathering our forces around the things we do agree with (the vote we want to cast), which at this point, requires some muscle to do. If I were to spell it out, you need people to take the risk of standing up in favor of whatever aspects of your teaching they feel are accurate and deeply believe in, and to stand up for decency and basic human rights relative to how the public treats you, autonomous from how much they agree or disagree with your teachings. Mainstream society really needs to usher in conversation about how we as people choose to treat each other in a way that is not enmeshed and completely dependent on the initial triggers or opinions we have of each other. Letting yourself lose and talking shit about anyone, thus wrecking havoc within society and doing so destroying the lives of people brave enough to show up and be seen is just not gonna cut it anymore. Normalized and even encouraged abuse of targeted people through media is just not gonna cut it anymore. Continuing to smack the shit out of people who endlessly "turn the other cheek" without ever looking at ourselves is just not gonna cut it anymore. If we either bully or abandon those few people who (because of humanity's current choice of behavior) are quite literally saving the collective from its own insanity, we're signing up for our own demise. The 'tribers', are in a relationship with Teal, Teal is in a relationship with the tribe, Teal is in a relationship with human society, and the tribe is also in a relationship with the rest of society. Because of the degree of exposure Teal has reached, it's not like Teal and the tribe exist in a tiny little corner of human consciousness that doesn't get much attention from the rest of humans anymore. Now we need to integrate with the rest of society, and society needs to integrate with us. As spiritual and intentional communities like this one grow, they will bump into mainstream society's awareness, and as we've seen, society being capable to receive us depends on the degree of integration between teacher and 'followers', teacher and society, and 'followers' and society. If we use intentional communities and spiritual movements to turn away from and escape society (because we're afraid of them), closing our doors to them, they will mirror this behavior by meeting us with hostility, close-mindedness and distrust (calling movement like this one a 'cult'). Regardless of the disparity of level of consciousness within humans, maybe we can agree on the fact that deep down, we wish the best for ourselves, and for other people, and as such, choose to at least, avoid hurting each other. Maybe we can unify our voices around that fact and specifically state to mainstream society the standards we uphold for how we wish to be interacted with, and how we believe every person deserves to be treated. If we're intentional at all, and a community at all, maybe that's what we need to teach the rest of society, provided that we lead by example on those behaviors.

I'd find a woman to love. I wouldn't make rejection or failure mean anything painful about me. In general I would stop making anything in life mean something painful about myself that would be inaccurate and simply self-hating. I would ask my heart : "What is the message the you wish to share with the world the most ?", and I would make sharing it my number one priority.