The point of view that currently threatens me is: "You're not wanted therefore you have no value or meaning. You are meaningless" because, that's my worst fear. I was an unwanted pregnancy. I was only ever tolerated, not welcomed or wanted. It's excruciatingly painful and one of the most difficult lies/myths to dispel, because I have a lifetime of evidence to prove this concept/belief and only a thread of hope / truth to cling to. It's a precarious state to be in, all the time. I welcome more certainty and significance into my life.