The city was immersed in low hanging rain clouds yesterday. Atypical of Denver (which is usually sunny), walking from building to building, one couldn’t help but feel like they had meandered into a real life replica of Gotham City (The fantasy city which was the setting for Batman). Denver sits on the high rolling plains, 12 miles east of the foothills of the Rocky Mountains. It owes it’s birth as a major US city, to the gold rush. Admittedly, I have spent a great deal of time in Denver. My father’s side of the family lives there and so does my only life-long friend Lauren, whom you will probably be seeing on the upcoming documentary about my life ‘Open Shadow’. Denver is not a particularly cohesive city. Perhaps it owes its lack of cohesion to the fact that it is surprisingly rich in ethnic diversity. The various areas of it have a completely different feel. Driving around the city can be overwhelming at first because it’s like quickly driving into and out of pockets of completely different energies. The best simile I can make is that driving through Denver is a bit like swimming in a lake where little pockets of water are either a completely different temperature or where the water is moving a completely different direction. It is a jolt of abrupt change to the system unless you expect it. Ready for my energy diagnosis?
The dominant negative vibration of Denver is restraint. Restraint can be summed up as a measure or condition that keeps someone or something under control or within limits. I have been unable to find an area of the city, despite the ethnic diversity where restraint is not hanging in the air like a form of energetic pollution. And I have found that if someone is not adhering to this restraint, there will be someone else there to remind him or her or to literally restrain him or her. If we dive deeper into this dominant negative vibration, what we find is that under restraint is a huge level of self-distrust and other distrust. One only feels the need to keep things under control if one doubts that one is actually in control. So we could say that deep down in the collective subconscious of the people of Denver is a fear that “I’m out of control" and/or "If I don’t keep myself in control, god only knows what could happen.” This is the reason that Denver is a match to all its various breweries. Beer (along with other alcohols) are the public escape. Obviously this is not solely Denver's issue as alcohol is the collective human escape around the world. But Denver brews more beer than any other city in the nation. The reason this is a vibrational match to Denver is because lets face it… you can’t live in an atmosphere of restraint for very long without your head exploding (metaphorically). And so, people must find a way to lose control of themselves for a bit (let that suppressed energy out) but in a ‘safe’ and ‘socially acceptable’ way. As a side note, I have also noticed that it is not actions that the Denver-ites feel the most out of control of. It is their thoughts.
The dominant positive vibration of the city is the positive form of “Settle Back”. This is a difficult vibration to make clear to the intellect. But to settle back is to finish dealing with something or come to rest or to get comfortable again or to end a conflict or put something back into place. The people of Denver know how to settle back and each demographic does it in their own way. This makes for a very interesting dichotomy energetically because there is at once this internal feeling of being out of control, as well as an external feeling of “chill” (chill as in relaxed or at ease). The country would do well to send some Denver-ites to cities like New York, where no one has any idea of how to come to rest in order to recharge. Or Chicago, where conflict never seems to come to an end as a result of the rage brewing in the collective subconscious. The thing I like most about Denver is that most of the available attractions around the city, from local restaurants (especially the brunches that Denver is so famous for) to sporting events to recreation are almost all designed to provide people with the opportunity to do just that… Settle back and put themselves in a state of ease where they can finish dealing with whatever it is that they are dealing with, at least for a time.
Downtown Denver felt empty and devoid of usual activity this weekend. Most of the action was happening in the heart of the Colorado Convention Center. A buzz of seekers, all here to attend the Hay House “I Can Do It” event. This was my first time speaking at a Hay House event. I had heard before coming here that Hay House authors and staff are like a family. So, true to form, I had expected to feel like the outcast. Also Hay House has such a strong association with positive thinking that in all honesty, I felt nervous about how I would be received seeing as how tend to have such a brutally authentic and raw style of teaching (and have such a space in my heart for embracing negative emotion). I was about to be surprised.
On Saturday night, there was an author cocktail party. I walked toward the party with a feeling of hesitation. In my head I was thinking, “If I end up feeling weird, I can just go back to the room and take a bath.” But when I entered the room, to my surprise, the collective frequency of the room was so high it was causing visual distortions in the room. I had to concentrate very hard on people’s faces to stay focused on them instead of the patterns in between our faces. The lights were dimmed, making the room feel at once intimate and epic. And I was welcomed with open arms. I felt as if the minute I stepped through the door, I was absorbed by everyone there.
I met fellow author after fellow author and instantly loved them. Barbara De Angelis, Mike Dooley (we took a picture together which is posted at the bottom of this blog), John Holland, Anita Moorjani, Mike Robbins, Joe Dispenza, Lynn Mctaggart, David Kessler, Davidji, Sonia Choquette, Meggan Watterson, Kyle Gray, Kate Northrup, Tara Stiles, Liana Werner-Gray, Alberto Villoldo and Sandy Newbigging to name a few. Instead of feeling like I had to “break my way in” I felt like everyone had been waiting for me. It felt similar to the way it feels when people cross over into death and there is an entourage of people waiting to receive them and take them into the light. Except in this case, it felt as if we were all each other’s entourage. I was having so much fun talking and connecting that I realized hours had gone by. A collection of us went up to a bar/cafe at the top floor of the hotel and continued our conversation until almost midnight.
I am happy to announce that despite my initial anxiety, my presentation was a huge hit. I was so happy to see some familiar ‘triber’ faces in the crowd. That always makes me smile with a kind of inner security that I have a solid support team... My soul family is with me! Long story short, I got a standing ovation. The room was so full of people that some were standing along the back of the room and along the walls. The conference bookstore sold out of my new book (Shadows Before Dawn) and I was signing books for nearly three hours. It was a big success. Exactly the way I was hoping it would go. I think the ‘main stream’ is more ready than most of us think for a paradigm shift.
I flew home yesterday to stay for one night so I could spend time with my son and then later today, Blake and I are boarding a plane bound for Prague. The smell of the airport is now as familiar to me as my own house. Seeing as Prague is my favorite city I’ve been to in the world so far, I am torn. I am at once very happy to be back in a place that I resonate with so strongly and also feeling a good deal of separation anxiety from the people whom I call home, especially my son. It is not natural for our species to separate from our family groups and so it does not feel natural within my body leave my family members at home for this trip. Who knows… perhaps in the future my entourage on trips will be very large indeed!