I am knee deep in wedding plans. The cake is ordered. The dress is tailored. The guest list has been turned into the venue. I am not the kind of girl who ever dreamed of weddings. It was never a part of my list of important plans for the future. I have not suffered from a lack of feeling special. And so I was dreading the idea lending any of my energy to the creation of a wedding. But I have been having one of those years where I have come face to face with many of the ‘prices’ I was inevitably going to have to pay for the destiny I chose for this life. And it has taken a toll on me. I can feel the very fine line that so many people cross between inspired and jaded. At times like this, it is wise to step back and take a breath so that when you move forward again, you do so without divided energy. This wedding has given me the perfect excuse to take that breath in and to take a temporary hiatus from the pressure of my purpose. I’m actually looking forward to it now. It will be awesome. The part that feels the best about creating this wedding is knowing that at a time like this where there is so much unrest and cruelty in the world, with the will to do so, anyone can create a day of love, unity, beauty and celebration.
The conflict in the world is heating up. Every week there seems to be more and more acts of terror. Every week there is also more and more awakening on the planet. The polarity is increasing. It is making the world feel like a pressure cooker. I think that is the best way to describe the energy of the planet earth, especially amongst the human race right now. We are all in a collective pressure cooker. Many of us can feel the inner voice screaming at us “something’s gotta give.”
“Another world, another time. In the age of wonder. A thousand years ago, this land was green, until the crystal cracked. A single piece was lost, a shard of the crystal. Then strife began, and two new races appeared. The cruel Skeksis, the gentle Mystics. Here in the Castle of the Crystal, the Skeksis took control.”
Since the very first time I saw it, my favorite movie has always been The Dark Crystal. The first time I saw it; it was as if some universal force put ropes around my heart that forced me into remembering. It was both captivating and terrifying to watch it. Like I was watching my own life. I already knew the story. I already knew the purpose. It was like watching my inner world projected on the screen.
The character Jen, was me. A special being orphaned in the world, but destined to save the world. The dualistic play between light and dark. A feeling of isolation. A feeling of not belonging. The great conjunction, a time of prophecy and Jen at the center of that prophecy. A long journey to try to restore health and balance to what had been consumed by trauma. The deceptive lure of a dangerous being who belonged to an evil clan. The dis-identified assistance of the gentle beings who want a better world but whom leave Jen to do it on his own. Falling in love with his twin flame. Watching people be tortured and drained of their essence. The quest for the answers. Finding the key to healing the world. Against all odds and death defying resistance, restoring the crystal to a state of wholeness. Yet good does not triumph over evil. Instead, good integrates evil. The light of consciousness integrates its own shadow. And peace and life returns to the land.
The Dark Crystal is so rich with metaphor it is painful. And now that I have stepped into my purpose and destiny here on earth, the reaction I had to the movie when I was young makes perfect sense. It was a mirror of my own life purpose. Those of you who are familiar with the circumstances of my early life will immediately ‘get’ the mirror. I identified with it because it not only mirrored my life at the time, it also mirrored what I wanted most as a result of experiencing the contrast of my early life. It was alerting me to my own destiny in this life.
This is so often how it is with our favorite movie in childhood. Especially the character we completely identify with. It mirrors our own destiny. It mirrors the reason we came into life in the first place. It mirrors where we are and where we are headed. When we are children, we are closer in terms of awareness to our purpose than we often are as adults. We have not been turned completely against our own internal guidance system yet. Society has not lulled us into ‘reason’ yet. It has not fit us into the machine. And this is why it is the things we identify with in childhood that hold the key to our adult purpose. I have talked about this a lot with my fellow community members. It usually blows people away to think back to their favorite movie in childhood and to really dissect its metaphor and meaning for your life. Go ahead… try it for yourself.