I feel like I am in a pressure cooker. I have had no time to write blogs lately because my schedule is too full. I’m famous for piling too much on my plate but this is a new level even for me. Last week, in a Skype meeting, I realized that one person literally can’t do everything I’m trying to do at once. So I have to prioritize. I had to decide what the most important things were and what the least important things were. I have decided to put most of my effort aside from Ask Teal episodes and Podcasts into developing products that help people. I have begun to write and record guided meditations. Speaking for myself personally, aside from Vipassina, guided meditations are my very favorite. I can let go and allow myself to be carried through the process. Like a child, unburdened by responsibilities or worries, my mind is able to flow in an intended direction. I have also found that once you begin to associate a certain voice with positive feelings, hearing that voice has an instant effect on emotions. For this reason, I am hoping that my voice will offer some solace and comfort. I thought about hiring a voice specialist for the job. But the tonality of my voice carries my signature, a signature that resonates at a very specific level. The tonality of my voice is the majority of what will move people into a deeper state of consciousness and so it is essential that they be guided by my voice through these meditations.
I do not believe in secrets, except when they are kept so as to not spoil a pleasant surprise. So I must confess, I am keeping a little bit of a secret! I am not going to reveal my “secret” yet for the sake of seeing the excitement on your faces and in your comments when I release what I am going to release. But I have figured out a specific collection of meditations that have never been done before. I do not know of anyone else who does this kind of guided meditation because it is seen as “too risky”. This means, I am the perfect person for the job! But I will tell you that when I release this product, the “Teal is out to destroy people”, "Teal is Illuminati" demographic will be all over it like white on rice. I’m such a tease!
I’m also designing a line of clothing for a friend of mine who owns a fashion company. I used to design clothes when I was a teenager. I have binders full of ideas and if this collection ends up selling well, it will be a good stream of income for my company. Running a company is my favorite thing. I feel like there is no glass ceiling. I feel like there is no limit to what I could do except the limits of my own mind. And running a company means that I am not just limited to what I, alone can produce. I am seeing first hand just what can happen when multiple people with differing skills and talents join forces and all move towards a common goal. It is amazing. I also love the feeling of being a vortex through which abundance flows to people. I imagine this feels a lot like the feeling of drilling into an aquifer and suddenly seeing a new source of water spring forth to nourish people. I want to make a lot more revenue so I can hire people to grow this company more and more. I want it to be an out of control positive world change monster. I get my pleasure out of watching actual change take place. I want to implement these changes that we always talk about. I literally cannot tell you how much inspiration I have. I feel like I am inspiration’s slave sometimes. It feels like I am holding tight to a tether being drug along behind it. Sometimes it exhausts itself and falls asleep, but then it rips me out of bed in the morning again.
Yesterday I was walking around in a crafts store trying to find a canvass and I watched a mother pin a little note to her daughter’s shirt that said “I’m whiny, don’t pay attention to me until I can use my big girl voice”. She was probably three or four years old. I waited until her mother was out of sight and went over to the little girl and took the note off of her shirt and I told her “I think you’re wonderful, it’s ok to be frustrated, everyone gets frustrated sometimes”. I patted her back and stood up to go to the check out counter before her mother came back around. I was almost in tears. This month, I have been a match to witnessing more emotional abuse between parents and their children than ever before. I am blown away by the sheer amount of emotional abuse that exists within our species and even more blown away by the fact that much of it is seen as normal by society. Normal is no measure of health. If you look back at history, “normal” parenting techniques included sitting children in dunce chairs, washing their mouths out with toxic soap, smacking them on the hands with rulers, whipping them with belts and paddles and depriving them of dinner. Just wait to see how future human society views our practices today! I am sure now that in the future I will be doing workshops and books aimed specifically at parenting. Parents need tools and knowledge. Children need healthier environments to grow up in. Physically abusive styles of parenting have for the most part gone out of style in the mainstream and now it is time for emotionally abusive styles of parenting to be abandoned completely. In my opinion, having endured all the kinds of abuse available to experience, emotional abuse is by far the worst. I found it to be even worse than sexual abuse; it’s just that sexual abuse never comes without the side dish of emotional abuse, so the two are inseparable.
It turns out that this practice of shaming children by making them wear self worth stripping notes on their clothing is not an uncommon practice. When I told this story to my friends, a few of them seemed totally un-shocked and said oh yeah, my mom or my teacher used to do that to me too. What am I supposed to say to that? What do we as a society say to that? What does it say if we as a society watch parents do that to their children and don’t interfere? I think that’s no worse than watching someone hit their child and doing nothing. It raises the question; to what degree do children belong to their parents? This seems to be a very slippery subject because it involves many shades of gray. For example, I am doing a great many unconventional things with my son because I believe that what I am doing is better for him, like not vaccinating him and enrolling him in child centered education programs, which some people don’t believe in, and raising him without the idea of punishment and reward. If he did not “belong to me” in society’s eyes, I would be prevented from making these decisions for my own child. But on the reverse side, if children were not thought to “belong” to certain parents, they would not be spanked or shamed or malnourished or filled with racist beliefs. So what’s the answer?
I want to put this question to you… To what degree do children belong to their parents?