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Great Expectations

baby-2032302_640.jpgThe pulverizing constriction of expectation closes in on you the minute you fail to fulfill an expectation.  A child is not born with expectations of itself.  We learn to expect things from ourselves when other people (whose love we desire) expect things of us and only demonstrate love when we live up to those expectations.  Internalizing and beating ourselves up in order to live up to those expectations is less painful than losing their approval or being beaten up by them in order to live up to those expectations.

talking-copy.jpgIn some ways, I think I have the best career on the face of the earth.  In other ways, I think I have the worst career on the face of the earth.  Expectations is one of the areas that makes it the worst career on earth.  I do not know a career on earth where there is more of an expectation of total perfection than this one. 

 Ask yourself, what do you expect of a Spiritual Leader?  I will start a list to give you an idea of the things that are commonly expected…

  1. That they always know what is right to do and that they always do exactly that, so they never make a mistake
  2. That they do not feel negative emotion because they never see the world through a temporal, limited or painful perspective
  3. That they never react, especially never get angry
  4. That they do not have triggers because they have transcended the past
  5. That they are omniscient, so they know everything about everyone and everything and never truly feel the pain of things not going the way that they want or expect and can always see the future and make decisions accordingly
  6. That they could make a relationship work with anyone
  7. That they are unconditionally loving towards everyone, even those who hate them
  8. That they have all the answers to everything in every situation
  9. That they can suspend the laws of physical reality and thus quite literally perform miracles, walk on water and turn water into wine
  10. That they will always act in other people’s best interest and never in their own
  11. That they have no temporal or material desires
  12. That they renounce money and all personal gain
  13. That they never take things personally and are never effected by what other people do and say (a perfect sounding board)
  14. That they are always in the present moment
  15. That they have no attachment to anything
  16. That they have so much control over the mind that they live in a state of peace in all situations, absent of fear
  17. That they have completely mastered the art of deliberate creation in the form of manifestation so their reality is exactly how they want it to be at all times
  18. That they are the manifestation of either the divine mother or divine father and will act divinely mothering or fathering towards everyone

Spiritual leaders are the projection of the disowned divinity in oneself.  Essentially, they are expected to be super human.  When people hold these expectations of spiritual leaders and they do not live up to them, these people feel betrayed, disillusioned, disappointed, lost and often hateful. 

adult-background-cap-716658.jpgSome years ago, I came up with a name for this condition.  I call it the “Santa Claus Complex”.  As a spiritual leader, people project onto you a fictional perfect ideal… essentially a fantasy like Santa Claus.  This is what they expect.  And when they discover Santa Claus isn’t real according to their expectations, they become disillusioned to the degree that they turn against him or her.  

fail-1714367_640.jpgWhat I experience in terms of people's expectations of me is just a magnified version of what so many people who find their way to spiritual practice experience…  Cruel expectations of themselves.  This acceptable vs. unacceptable standard we hold ourselves to is the substance behind spiritual bypassing.

Spiritual bypassing is the cancer of the spiritual world.  It is a disease that has run rampant in both religious and non-religious circles.  Spiritual bypassing is the act of using spiritual beliefs to avoid facing or healing one’s painful feelings, unresolved wounds and unmet needs.  It is a state of avoidance.  Because it is a state of avoidance, it is a state of resistance.  Spiritual bypassing is one of the main shadow sides of spirituality.

silhouette-1321398_640.pngThe spiritual beliefs of any spiritual tradition, be it Christian, Hindu, Buddhist, New Age, Islamic, or even Self Help, can provide ample justification for living in a state of inauthenticity.  They can all provide justification for avoiding the unwanted aspects of one’s own feelings and state of being in favor of what is considered to be “a more enlightened state”.  Even the non-affiliated and unanimously beloved saying “keep calm and carry on” is in fact a glorification of spiritual bypassing.

Some examples of spiritual bypassing include anger-phobia, exaggerated detachment, emotional numbing and repression, blind or overly tolerant compassion, weak or too porous boundaries, using cognitive reasoning to escape emotional feelings. Debilitating judgment about one’s negativity or shadow side, devaluation of the personal relative to the spiritual, avoidance of physical day to day life, delusions of having arrived at a higher level of being and my personal least favorite, overemphasis of and attachment to the positive to the degree that there is a high level of resistance to anything negative.

Every religious practice propagates its fair share of spiritual bypassing.  For example, Catholic confession, which is expected to just wash away sin and effortlessly alter someone’s negative behavior.  Buddhist premature transcendence, which is to act as if one is above and beyond the messiness of life’s drama, when the truth is, one is not.  Christian unconditional love, which is to espouse love that is false.  It is to say, “I love them” when in truth, one harbors prejudice and resistance to them and only wishes they could learn to love them.

meditate-1851165_640.jpgMeditation is also frequently used as a form of spiritual bypassing.  It is used to avoid uncomfortable feelings and unresolved life situations.  For those in denial about their personal feelings or wounds, meditation practice can reinforce a tendency toward detachment, disengagement, or interpersonal distance.  Spiritual drugs can be a form of spiritual bypassing.  The use of spiritual drugs can be a tool to avoid getting ones’ hands dirty in the work of resolving emotional issues.  It is easier to spend time in an altered state of consciousness than to spent time facing the pain of one’s current state of consciousness.  And in the spiritual community, no form of spiritual bypassing has become such a widespread disease as “positive focus”. 

Here is a prime example of positive focus spiritual bypassing; person A is really struggling with grief because their romantic relationship just ended.  Person B feels incredibly uncomfortable about the fact that they are suffering and so, they wish to help the person A avoid those painful feelings.  Person B tells person A that she creates her own reality and that she should therefore just quit thinking about what she is thinking about and “be positive” instead.  Not only does this condemn the thoughts, which are being thought by person A (and therefore shame them), it also requires them to do something that they are not actually capable of doing.  It requires them to jump from a purely negative thought to a purely positive thought; and that cannot be done.  It is too far of a vibrational gap to jump.  The result is, Person A feels shamed and powerless to their own thoughts.  They feel as if where they are, is not ok.

GTFO_0.jpegThere is a big difference between being authentically positive and forcing positivity in order to try to avoid negativity.  In today’s world, we have little tolerance for working through our pain.  We much prefer instantaneous solutions that involve numbing out pain.  Low and behold, Spirituality itself has become its own avoidance strategy.  When we turn away from our pain or away from “wherever we are”, we abandon ourselves.  We resist the very thing we are trying to avoid and so, we guarantee that it will come up in our realities again; only it will come back bigger next time.

Authenticity is the highest state of being for the spiritual practitioner.  In fact in the years to come, authenticity and integration will become the replacement for enlightenment as the true goal of spiritual practice.  When we use spirituality to whitewash over our issues and try to avoid them, we use the goal of spiritual transcendence to try to rise above the raw and messy and real side of human life before we have fully faced and integrated it. This can be seen as premature and false spiritual transcendence.  It is one of the major pit falls or occupational hazards of walking the path of spirituality.

portrait-3045941_640.jpgSpiritual bypassing isn’t just an annoying facet of spirituality.  It is in fact very dangerous.  Why is spiritual bypassing dangerous?  It is dangerous because it sets up a major division between the temporal self and the divine self.  It creates a definable split between where one really is and where one thinks they should be.  It enables us to lie to ourselves and delude ourselves and live our lives through the projection of a false self.  We cannot heal unless we are willing to admit to where we are and who we are.  Spiritual bypassing is like breaking your leg, but being unwilling to admit to it, putting a band-aid over the compound fracture and trying to continue forward anyway.  You can easily see how much harm would come to someone physically if they did that.  That is exactly the same amount of emotional damage we do to ourselves when we use spirituality to bypass the truth of our emotional self.  

brush-792069_640.jpgSpiritual bypassing also leads to a one-sided form of spirituality where one aspect of life is elevated at the expense of its opposite.  The exact opposite of integration.  For example, objective truth (being valued more) is used to invalidate subjective truth.  Non-physical is valued over form, 5d is valued and 3d is devalued.  Transcendence is valued over physical embodiment, and detachment is valued over feeling.  This behavior of valuing one side of polarity over the other gives rise to extremely damaging experiences.  For example, one might, try to practice emotional detachment from others by suppressing one’s need for love and becoming independently self loving, but this only drives the need to be loved by others underground, so that it often becomes unconsciously acted out in covert and manipulative ways instead.

Being a good spiritual person can become a substitute identity that covers up and defends against an underlying deficient identity.  The spiritual idea we have of ourselves is used to whitewash over the truth of our true concept of ourselves, which is that we feel badly about ourselves.  We feel that we are not good enough. We feel that we are innately bad.  Then, although we may be practicing diligently, our spiritual practice can be used in the service of denial and defense. And when spiritual practice is used to bypass our real-life human issues, our spirituality becomes compartmentalized.  Our spiritual life and practice remains separate and un-integrated with our day-to-day life and our overall functioning.  We feel like we have split personality disorder.  We can never truly become the embodiment of the higher self, because we are still thinking of our lower self as our lower self, or as our unwanted self.  Our spiritual practice cannot ever fully penetrate our life and make us feel good if we are using spiritual principals to avoid ourselves or avoid pain.

Ask yourself these questions:

Are you avoiding the fact that you feel like you are deficient and not good enough or bad by creating a “persona” of a spiritually transcendent person?

Do you use spiritual beliefs to avoid your pain or problems?

Do you feel like the spiritual you is different than the embodied you?

Do you use spirituality to justify an insecurity within yourself?

Do you use spirituality to avoid looking at things in your reality that you would rather think didn’t exist?

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We are not just physical beings waking up to our spiritual essence; we are also spiritual beings waking up to our physicality.  Physical life is not clean.  It is messy.  Physical life is a life of contrast.  It is an experience that involves both what is wanted and what is unwanted.  Spirituality is not an excuse to run away from physical life.  The soul is not a justification to deny the human side of ourselves.  Spiritual principals are not an excuse to avoid the unhealed aspects of your psyche and your pain.  Spiritual principals are not meant to serve as a justification to support your defenses.

In order to avoid the trap of spiritual bypassing, we need to be brave enough to admit to how we feel, what we want and don’t want, what we like and don’t like.  We need to be willing to risk admitting to where we are and who we are, even if we think that where we are and who we are isn’t good or ok.  If we want to avoid the pitfall of spiritual bypassing, we must express and allow our emotions, wounds, traumas and pain to surface healthily and with compassion.  Make a conscious effort to allow instead of suppress your emotions and not judge them when they arise.  Make peace with being uncomfortable. If you are numbing yourself inside out this energy lingers and creates a breeding ground for other issues to arise and manifest. Get down to the root of your problems.  The journey through life is not always one of bliss.  And you haven’t gotten life wrong if you are not in perfect bliss.  Sometimes the path through life leads you to breakdowns where you are curled up on the floor in tears.

tools-864983_640.jpgIn order to avoid the trap of spiritual bypassing, we need to apply what we learn to our life.  Spiritual and Self help information is relatively abstract. Attending workshops, talks, reading books, going to yoga and meditation classes, etc. are good tools. However, tools are of no use if they aren’t used. Take action by applying what you are learning from these modalities consistently.  Integrate them into your life daily. If these ideas remain abstract and merely intellectualized, they aren’t going to help you to create long lasting and permanent change.

If we are to avoid the trap of bypassing, we need to let go of the idea that something must be terribly, “wrong,” or dysfunctional about us if we have problems of negative beliefs or negative feelings or negative thoughts. Everyone has personal, “struggles,” to work through.  I mean EVERYONE.  When we judge our problems or feelings or negative-ness as wrong, we suddenly have a motive for spiritual bypassing.  We make where we are “not ok”.  We want to be good and right but we can only achieve that goodness or rightness by being inauthentic.  We put on a false façade because of it.

You cannot avoid your pain because you cannot avoid yourself.  Anything you try to avoid will haunt you.  It will return again and again until it is so large that you cannot avoid it.  The thing about spiritual practice, is that we turn to it because we are in pain and we want to feel better.  But then all too often, we wind up using spiritual practice as a substitute for facing our psychological and emotional issues.  When we do this, our spiritual progression is halted.  We cannot move forward on our path of spirituality by lying to ourselves any more than we can reach our destination on a map, if we are unwilling to admit to where we are first.  For this reason, true spirituality must incorporate the practice of shadow work and if we want to progress, we must face our psychological and emotional wounds.  If you want to feel better and enjoy your life more, dare to face your pain.  Dare to be… Authentic.

What do you expect of me?

What do you expect of yourself?

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I thank Universe for having you in my life)

I really had expectations of you, and I still have some

I love so much to explore a real human in you, just like me!(: 

beautiful human being

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