Like so much of the Western United States, Seattle is shrouded in white-gray wildfire smoke. The sunlight penetrates it like splinters. It does not feel like the same shimmering city by the sea. I visited one of my favorite restaurants in the world, which happens to be here, called Mai Thaiku. It is a little Thai restaurant in what feels like a residential neighborhood. A good friend dragged me there years ago. He told me that the food there is so good that you actually can’t hold a conversation while eating it. When I first tasted the food, I could not believe it.
If food is a certain level of excellence, it makes me shed tears. True to form, my eyes started welling up with tears. The flavors are so all consuming and pleasurable that they suck you inside yourself. They paralyze you. You feel the food in all of your senses like you have come alive but at the same time; you cannot interact with the world. It never matters who I take to Mai Thaiku, they always have the same experience. Once the food gets to the table, as if everyone has taken a shamanic medicine instead of eaten food, a silence falls over everyone. As everyone eats, they close their eyes in ecstasy and breathe in as if trying to inhale the food at the same time as taste it. If I learned that I was only going to live for a month, one of the things I would do is fly to Seattle to eat my two favorite dishes at the restaurant, Authentic Pad Thai and Red Coconut Curry.
I took a Hop On Hop Off Bus Tour around the city in order to get an energetic look at the people. I usually love those kinds of tours because they usually consist of an overload of historical information and city facts that I love. But the bus tours are no longer like that. They are literally nothing more than an advertisement opportunity for local companies. The drivers now shamelessly sell restaurant after restaurant, shop after shop and tourist attraction after tourist attraction as if directly reading a marketing blurb submitted for Television. As a business owner myself, it makes perfect sense. A part of me is thinking, “Well that was a genius idea”. As a customer, part of me is thinking, “Did I just get on a city tour bus or sign up for an infomercial tour? If you want to spend a day being driven from tourist site to tourist site and getting on and off at will, it is a great idea. What it did allow me to do is to survey the city both on a physical and non physical level.
Several unusual things were taking place in Seattle this past weekend, including a huge hemp festival and to the opposite side of the social spectrum, a pro gun rally. I was unfortunate enough to end up being stopped right in the middle of it… Essentially a furious collection of the kind of ultra right wing Americans who scare the crap out of other Americans. For someone who tends to swing more towards the left of American society, it was truly a strange feeling. For a second you are feeling curious about what the buzz is all about and then after the shock of reading two or three posters settles in, you get that sinking feeling that you have just wandered into the wrong side of town. It is what I would imagine it feels like to be an albino animal that suddenly realized it walked straight out onto the savanna. I could feel my body freeze, hoping that at that moment (in the middle of an angry mob) I wouldn’t be recognized as someone from the ‘enemy camp’.
The dominant positive and negative vibrations of a city do not usually change. They tend to be incredibly fixed patterns inherent in the people and the place itself. The dominant positive vibration of the Seattle is still the same (discernment). But the dominant negative vibration of Seattle (annoyed) is being overtaken by another frequency. And not for the better I fear. The exasperation and irritation that is so inherent to the collective is sinking into a shade of futility. If a person is irritated, it means that they have expectations that are not being met. The irritation is like a last stand for what someone wants to have happen. But if that irritation leads to nothing more than just revved engines against a brick wall, at a certain point people give up. But they give up with a real resentment for the way things are. Since I was here last, it is a real feeling amongst the people of Seattle that what each individual is wanting is just never going to happen. This feeling is like the first cobblestone on a road towards depression. I am wondering if this trend is not just isolated specifically to Seattle, but might be an energetic epidemic that is rippling out across the human collective. There is a real resentment developing for the way things are.
As the frequency of this universe is increasing and consciousness itself is expanding, what is occurring is an energetic cross roads between all opposites. Darkness and light, conscious and unconscious, love and fear for example. It is no longer an option at this crossroads to continue on in an un-integrated state. It is no longer possible to bulldoze our own fear. It is no longer an option to operate despite our unconsciousness. This means that the polarization within us will stop us dead in our tracks. We must face it directly and resolve the ‘split’ within us in order to be able to move forward at all. For this reason, so many people are feeling more ‘prevented’ and ‘opposed’ than ever. And because this universe is operated according to the law of mirroring, this internal resistance will reflect in the outside world. Meaning we will meet with serious opposition outside as well and not be aware that it is a reflection of the internal opposition that exists. Needless to say, if a person has no awareness of what is happening with this crossroads within the universe, it simply feels like one is stuck and as if forward movement (so as to create what you want) is impossible. This feels really, really unfair. It creates a sense of futility and disillusionment with life itself.
When we are trying to get what we want or when we are trying to heal, any force that opposes our healing or opposes us getting what we want is going to cause us incredible amounts of pain. What we do when we feel this opposition either internally or externally is that we try to push through it. We ignore it. We do not deal with the resistance directly. Because of this, we actually enhance the resistance because we are in fact resisting our resistance. We are also wasting lots of energy this way and getting nowhere. Just like a bad game of tug of war or when two people paddle in two different directions, we end up stuck or spinning in circles or having to put forth so much effort to try to get where we want to go or get what we want that we eventually give up. If I had one message for the people of Seattle and more than that, one message for the human collective at this time it is: The time has come to directly face and resolve resistance; the internal opposition within you.