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A Very Real Risk

 An empty canvass sits on an easel in front of the window with an expanse of tropical landscape behind it.  The paints are neatly arranged next to it; the paintbrushes dry and waiting.  I want to paint on it.  I can feel the pressure of art yet to be expressed inside me.  Over the last few months, it has felt like these creations paintings-316440_640.jpgwaiting to be born are on backorder.  


aircraft-1555434_640.jpgA close friend of mine has a saying… Starting a business is like making a plane take off of the runway.  Everyone involved has to put everything they have into it and in the beginning it is tense and sometimes rocky and then after a bit it stabilizes.
philia sign.jpgThis retreat center (though it ties in with my mission and current business perfectly) is in reality, a brand new business.  Since the second we decided to go ahead with it, it has taken every last drop of sweat, every breath and every minute for every person involved.  None of us have been able to focus on our respective role within the organization because of everything we have had to get done.  Instead of fulfill my usual role, I have had to sort out details with design and direct contractors and workers and shop for necessities and haul things in pick up trucks.  At this point everyone on the team feels guilty for having ever been upset at the price any of us ever had to pay for a hotel or any other hospitality service (having seen what goes into the back end of a retreat).  It is a crazy amount of work and the minute something goes right, something else goes wrong.  The kind of pressure we are all under has made the team's collective shadows and wounds surface.  On top of that, the intensely shamanic nature of this property itself is a catalyst.    

teal philia river.jpgTo add to it all, there are people around the world who are so vehemently opposed to my career ( actually mostly to me as a person), that they have decided to dedicate themselves to trying to destroy this retreat center.  The minute that we announced Philia, they began planning how to try to shut it down.  This began with them collectively contacting the FBI and the local police.  Now their efforts are aimed at attending so as to sabotage it from the inside.  They have been targeting both attendees and teachers of the retreat.  We had one teacher resign from doing a retreat here because of the amount of Anti-Teal 'Danger' propaganda sent to her when she announced that she was working with me.  The teacher of the current retreat and many of the prospective attendees have confessed that they too felt deeply insecure coming here because of it.  Essentially, the principal strategy of those who oppose me is to “befriend” people associated with me and then turn them against me.

It has been a frustration being told by some that I should just ignore it all (which can’t happen if they are taking tangible steps).  And on the other hand being told by others that they need my help and a direct response to it all.  As sad as it makes me to say, the reality is that conflict and controversy now surrounds me. 

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customer-563967_640.jpgNow, I am at a point where I literally have to warn people publicly (like I am doing in this blog) that because of the intense dedication of these individuals that have decided they hate me and then banded together to form an Anti Teal group, that people who demonstrate association or alliance with me should expect that they are going to be targeted for conversion by these people. 

I am now facing several issues because of their strategy.  Primarily the fact that this hate group has done such a good job with their fear propaganda and slander that people’s moms and dads and brothers and sisters and friends are getting scared about me and then trying to turn the people they love away from me.  It’s WAY harder to brush off the concerns of a passionate hater than the concerns of someone in your life that you love and whose opinion and connection you care about.  Second, many people do not want to stick their necks out in support of me and be 'shot at' by this hate group too (condemned by association).  Third, even more people than that, are merely conflict avoidant and simply do not want to be involved in the heat and pressure of controversy. 

I feel more like a revolutionary than a spiritual teacher when I see people polarizing around me so dramatically either FOR or AGAINST me as a person.  And to add insult to injury, the shadow aspect of the spiritual field has reared its head in the form of messages from people saying that the reason they are pulling away from me is because they believe in the law of attraction.  And therefore, if I “attract” so much hate and controversy, it must mean something about me as a person.  When they say things like this, I wonder how people can hold such a double standard.  They say that the level of controversy surrounding me is indicative of some dark shadow within me.  And yet, they revere characters like Jesus, Ghandi, Martin Luther King and Joan of Arc.  History has shown us that controversy is not always indicative of people being evil, but people being change.  Many of the biggest game changers on earth end up dead as a result of circumstances like I find myself in today.  As history has shown over and over again, the person who wants to stand up the loudest for change, takes the highest risk and is often the one who suffers the consequences of taking that risk.                            

hustle-and-bustle-1738072_640.jpgThe pressure I am under now is the very reason that people choose to stay small.  I am acutely aware that it is much safer socially to do so.  That is sad to me.  This is what people are trying to avoid by holding themselves back.  The reality is that launching anything in the hopes of success, just like you do when you push the throttle on a plane to launch it into the air, is a risk.  It is a risk that you’ll never be ready for.  And so, rather than provide any solution today, I would like to end this blog by inviting you to ask yourself the question… What am I afraid of that is currently making me hold myself back?  By taking a risk to ‘really go for it’, whatever that may be, what is it that I risk?


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Dear teal haters...IM TEALS BIGGEST FAN COME AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Also teal, I just wanted to let you know....I LOVE YOU, APPRECIATE YOU AND SEE YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU ARE! I've bought and read all your books (not quite finished with the completion story or implimenting it) I've read ( nearly) all your blogs, watched most of your videos. One day (I'm a poor 20 year old student at the moment) I'll Come to your retreat!!! Im going to be a healer too, so maybe I can even work for you. My dream is to be a completion process practitioner. LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL DIVINELY GIFT SENT FROM THE HEAVENS (not a dragon at all.....unless you like dragons which I know you do from obe but still ) xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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I've seen it a few times now....someone becomes more and more effective and encounters a major obstacle. She will get through this one and with the love and support of this community, hopefully a bit faster than otherwise. Naturally, like with a mafia entity, when someone is running counter to your agenda, you attempt to undermine and sabotage. That's the game, and the subversion is standard play most of the time. That has happened now, but no reason to lose hope. Yes, the haters are hating, and will continue to hate. I can think of several reasons, as can everyone else but mostly I'd bet that Teal represents a threat to their paradigm so they want to attack.

Anyhow, I'm still watching the videos and reading the posts, and doing my part for myself to be the best version that I can pull off. Teal is a part of the journey and I appreciate all of the effort and care given to her sharing herself. 

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Straight up these people are f*cking arseholes. They need to get a life. Quit shooting the messenger.  I'm really angry. I'm with you Teal, you have my support and always will. I can't even imagine how it feels to be sabotaged on a large scale. 

What a bunch of ignorant fools. What can we or I do to help? I can do a pro Teal video. I've introduced you to many friends. Your stuff is so practical & to the point and it ALWAYS makes sense.  

I would love to give these "haters"  a taste of their own medicine. 

Everyone has a right to an opinion but, with all due respect these haters can go play in traffic. 

 

With love ?

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Teal, I guss you are far to bussy to read that.. But I send you so much Thanks and wish you all good. and invite you to Pleas come to Israel!:) We would love to have you here. not so much crazy christans. jusy crazy judes and arabic:)

 

I share with you my illustrarion of a girl who tooked by a whale deep down. no one as you can know what is the potencial for what she might find.<3

 

Shaya. 

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I just did my first open mic performance of Neil young's 'Old Man' on stage following a friend with leukemia who wrote an original and performed. What an inspiration! So I went in the direction of my fear as he did and played two songs. I also wrote and composed two originals. So there is that.

I just recieved an anti Teal link from family. I read some of it and its a deep rabbit hole. Disturbing the amount of effort that goes into it.

I feel that all of my healing has come from within me. Teal is an amazing teacher and I have never in my life learned so much from anyone and Ive searched my entire life. I was made for this search. Since the truth came from within, I have difficulty disavowing it.

My sceptical side wonders if her story is true. Can she really see aura's? Astral travel, guides? I have always been wondering. But that aside Ive read three books and watched about 100 videos. I guess Ill never know. But I feel like i can sense energies way better now. Im understanding the meaning in more and more depth behind her message. Is she just that charismatic and hypnotic that a 'fool' such as I could be duped. The thing is I have never been more awake to bs. Hmm.. 

If anyone reads this, thank you. Thanks for your patience. I read most of the comments and many of them helped me at this late hour. If you would like to listen to a wonderful music video for upping the mood can I suggest 'Turn Into' by the yea yea yea's. Fucking brilliant.

 

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Teal wonderful Teal The answer is staring you in the face. What you are affraid of is your knowing. You know your are what you feel as you say "you feel more like a revolutionary than a spiritual teacher". 

Acceptance of this knowing is hard. Seeing past these haters is just another focus to dig deep into your true feelings seeing the love around you. Your honesty is your protection and your sheild of truth is your strength. You are here to make a difference and the universe is with you every step of the way. Know this as absolute and you will never have a reason to fear. For you know as a matter of fact everything you do is for the greater good and expansion will follow your devine messaging work. Surround yourself with love and beauty follow what you know feels right without any doubt always. Love Mark x 

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I am in agreement with Sylvana.  It's funny how haters don't get that whether they are running away from you or toward you they are still making you the center of their world...giving you the power they're so uselessly trying to take away. 

It's the people that project all their needs onto you, or more accurately their idea of who you are and what you should do for them, that then turn when they don't see their expectations being met.  Those are not your people. As for the few that are easily swayed by others, well they have their own battles with trusting themselves to conquer first.

Most of us hold space with you. Reveling in everyone's gifts and empathizing through all of our trials.  Haters just bring us closer together.

Many times when we stand in our truth we become a target. However, that doesn't mean we can't out-science and out-strategize the $h!t out of this situation to bring in a little safety net.

I say tackle this three-fold:

  1.  Educate your team on spotting liars/deceivers (especially those that hold contempt for you, as they are the most dangerous):
  2. Take a note from Matthew Hussey on how he seems to approach his week long seminars, and that is have people interested in attending events in Philia first call in for an interview process (one that can be tuned to identify possible trouble, as well as help pinpoint any additional considerations for the care of those who will ultimately attend).
  3. Have attendees send in a 1-2 minute video of themselves, possibly explaining why a particular seminar is important to them and what they hope to experience.  A way to both see the authenticity in people, and build anticipation for the participation in an event.

xo - G

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Hello Teal, thanks, as always, for sharing with us what's going on within you, I find it infinitely inspiring to feel and see the transparency that is you becoming a divine human. 

I feel a wave of protective sisterly emotion coming up, wanting to say or do something to let you know that we feel your pain, your over tasked humanity, your fears and curiosities, it's all sometimes too much to process all at once.  I wonder if you're eating some delicious foods you find comforting right now?  I also wonder if you're going deeply into yourself and getting the comfort you need?  Are you being heard and understood in a compassionate way from beloveds close to you?  Are you watching a really great comedy that makes you laugh, at life and all its tragedies and challenges?  And in the midst of the hurricane, compassionately and lovingly holding yourself from within, being the conduit for the Great Mother energy that just loves?  

I know a thing or two about growing up in a childhood devoid of protection, safety, warmth and belonging, not to the extent you've experienced, by golly no, I'm not that awakened, yet  I can empathize.  What I notice is that I too am asked to let beliefs go that doesn't align with my soul, parts that have been disowned are now asking me firmly to be part of the whole.  It feels so uncomfortable when these aspects of myself arise and yet, every time I go through the experience, I am a little more comfortable in the discomfort.  AND I understand the process, what's going on and why I am feeling and sensing the things that I'm sensing which gives me so much comfort.   I have done the completion process organically to heal myself from my traumas and now, I do it much more efficiently due to your work Teal, I am always thankful for your generosity.   It's as if I feel that we are somehow connected, as sisters, doing this work of becoming whole and conscious.  Thank you infinitely for your eloquent and truth filled information you give to the world so freely, I trust your authenticity implicitly and in my way, I am with you.  I hold your hand as you also continue to become whole within your humanity as an enlightened soul, it's hard work marrying the two!  I shout out words of encouragement and support as you go through yet another layer of becoming Teal Swan.  

The haters are accomplishing their intended purpose, they are exposing everyone's true feelings, intentions and level of fear that is still their reality.  We can bless their journey.  

I always find it exquisitely helpful when I can hang out with the salt of the earth types of folks, the ones who work with their hands, blue collar folks, if you will, the ones who are genuinely kind and down to earth people.  We are after all, here to have a human experience, aren't we?  They help me to feel grounded in the small experiences of being human, the basic things we forget to pay attention to.  I find myself in an ecstatic state of love when I talk about every day things with these folks.

Yes, I feel that you are definitely a female version of the great teachers of the past, one who is still struggling with sinking deep into being Teal Swan.  I love how you describe the way you feel when you're hanging out with females, I hope you are surrounded by lots of nurturing, older females who support you, feed you good food and hold you close to their bosoms with all encompassing hugs so warm and healing, you want to forever be in the mother/grandmother/sister/aunt/divine feminine embrace!  That will help heal that great big mother wound of yours.   And to see your mom as a flawed human, not your mom, but someone who made mistakes AND that was the very best she knew how to do at that time and perhaps even still.  That's a doozy of a healing you can gift yourself, one of the best and greatest ones we can experience, I know.  

All my love and affection dear Teal.

 

 

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I have learned a lot from you and am grateful for the wisdom you share with the world. Even though I am a complete stranger I send my love and support and wish you the best.

Maybe the universe sends you these haters as a test, either way it majorly sucks and I'm rootin' for you!

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Yes, you are absolutely correct that this is just another example of the epidemic of mediocrity that happens in our society. Whenever anyone risks to venture outside of the box created for them by our diseased society, they are persecuted.

Will this farce of inane persecution never end?

You are a brave goddess Teal. 

Love and light from Canada.

 

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I would be more than happy to teach anytime at your retreat. I'm not famous. I'm not trying to write anything. I don't care about "reputation". I can feel it too, calling me. From thousands of miles away. I've been waiting. Where there is free will, there is always a way. 

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My dearest Teal, I am really sorry to hear how difficult this all has become for you. I sincerely hope you will not stop blogging,  that would really make sad.

It is wonderful to see how many are responding with love and giving you advice. I also feel that I´d like to give you advice too but that would of course be based on my knowledge and experience in my life (lives) and wouldn´t necessarily be what you need to hear. Only YOU can feel/see how to handle this hard experience/lessons you are having. I feel that all I can do to help you is to keep you in my prayers and send you healing (and) love (I know by experience that it works). And so I will.

Many blessings and love

Fríða Júl.

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the hate created only proves how right you are and that the timing is right for you sending your word. The world has always been fighting bloody battles for the good, no matter what the message was. Challenging peoples closed world views will cause a lot of bitterness. See the good in the bad, the people who are not believing in you 100% will be leaving you. 

lots of strength and love towards you Teal!

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