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A Very Real Risk

 An empty canvass sits on an easel in front of the window with an expanse of tropical landscape behind it.  The paints are neatly arranged next to it; the paintbrushes dry and waiting.  I want to paint on it.  I can feel the pressure of art yet to be expressed inside me.  Over the last few months, it has felt like these creations paintings-316440_640.jpgwaiting to be born are on backorder.  


aircraft-1555434_640.jpgA close friend of mine has a saying… Starting a business is like making a plane take off of the runway.  Everyone involved has to put everything they have into it and in the beginning it is tense and sometimes rocky and then after a bit it stabilizes.
philia sign.jpgThis retreat center (though it ties in with my mission and current business perfectly) is in reality, a brand new business.  Since the second we decided to go ahead with it, it has taken every last drop of sweat, every breath and every minute for every person involved.  None of us have been able to focus on our respective role within the organization because of everything we have had to get done.  Instead of fulfill my usual role, I have had to sort out details with design and direct contractors and workers and shop for necessities and haul things in pick up trucks.  At this point everyone on the team feels guilty for having ever been upset at the price any of us ever had to pay for a hotel or any other hospitality service (having seen what goes into the back end of a retreat).  It is a crazy amount of work and the minute something goes right, something else goes wrong.  The kind of pressure we are all under has made the team's collective shadows and wounds surface.  On top of that, the intensely shamanic nature of this property itself is a catalyst.    

teal philia river.jpgTo add to it all, there are people around the world who are so vehemently opposed to my career ( actually mostly to me as a person), that they have decided to dedicate themselves to trying to destroy this retreat center.  The minute that we announced Philia, they began planning how to try to shut it down.  This began with them collectively contacting the FBI and the local police.  Now their efforts are aimed at attending so as to sabotage it from the inside.  They have been targeting both attendees and teachers of the retreat.  We had one teacher resign from doing a retreat here because of the amount of Anti-Teal 'Danger' propaganda sent to her when she announced that she was working with me.  The teacher of the current retreat and many of the prospective attendees have confessed that they too felt deeply insecure coming here because of it.  Essentially, the principal strategy of those who oppose me is to “befriend” people associated with me and then turn them against me.

It has been a frustration being told by some that I should just ignore it all (which can’t happen if they are taking tangible steps).  And on the other hand being told by others that they need my help and a direct response to it all.  As sad as it makes me to say, the reality is that conflict and controversy now surrounds me. 

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customer-563967_640.jpgNow, I am at a point where I literally have to warn people publicly (like I am doing in this blog) that because of the intense dedication of these individuals that have decided they hate me and then banded together to form an Anti Teal group, that people who demonstrate association or alliance with me should expect that they are going to be targeted for conversion by these people. 

I am now facing several issues because of their strategy.  Primarily the fact that this hate group has done such a good job with their fear propaganda and slander that people’s moms and dads and brothers and sisters and friends are getting scared about me and then trying to turn the people they love away from me.  It’s WAY harder to brush off the concerns of a passionate hater than the concerns of someone in your life that you love and whose opinion and connection you care about.  Second, many people do not want to stick their necks out in support of me and be 'shot at' by this hate group too (condemned by association).  Third, even more people than that, are merely conflict avoidant and simply do not want to be involved in the heat and pressure of controversy. 

I feel more like a revolutionary than a spiritual teacher when I see people polarizing around me so dramatically either FOR or AGAINST me as a person.  And to add insult to injury, the shadow aspect of the spiritual field has reared its head in the form of messages from people saying that the reason they are pulling away from me is because they believe in the law of attraction.  And therefore, if I “attract” so much hate and controversy, it must mean something about me as a person.  When they say things like this, I wonder how people can hold such a double standard.  They say that the level of controversy surrounding me is indicative of some dark shadow within me.  And yet, they revere characters like Jesus, Ghandi, Martin Luther King and Joan of Arc.  History has shown us that controversy is not always indicative of people being evil, but people being change.  Many of the biggest game changers on earth end up dead as a result of circumstances like I find myself in today.  As history has shown over and over again, the person who wants to stand up the loudest for change, takes the highest risk and is often the one who suffers the consequences of taking that risk.                            

hustle-and-bustle-1738072_640.jpgThe pressure I am under now is the very reason that people choose to stay small.  I am acutely aware that it is much safer socially to do so.  That is sad to me.  This is what people are trying to avoid by holding themselves back.  The reality is that launching anything in the hopes of success, just like you do when you push the throttle on a plane to launch it into the air, is a risk.  It is a risk that you’ll never be ready for.  And so, rather than provide any solution today, I would like to end this blog by inviting you to ask yourself the question… What am I afraid of that is currently making me hold myself back?  By taking a risk to ‘really go for it’, whatever that may be, what is it that I risk?


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I can totally feel for the magnitude of responsibility in getting Philia launched.  It takes so much to start a new venture and surround yourself with the right people who do what they do best, and allow you to do what you do best.  I am really surprised by the negative comments, which to me on the surface, seem so obviously hateful.  If anyone were to question my choices in guidance, I would see that as their choice, to each his own.  I am thrilled to be able to learn from you and not only learn, but help you in anyway to feel better.  It's an "all-hands on deck" and you have so many people to draw in as resources to support you.  It's all going to be fantabulous! xoxo 

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@Teal This is not the first time you  are writing about how your hate groups are dissuading  previous followers  and turning them into detractors.

 

My personal perspective is, what's the big deal? That's just cause and reaction. 

Essentially it is "just" change.  I do have asked myself the question you posed at the   end. My answer is I fear uncertainty. I'm safe where I am and comfortable.

Any change  to my routine, even positive, results in a potential risk. Risk of loosing familiarity. 

The only consolation I have so far is that it does not matter what happens, as everything is happening for a reason. 

 

Your role as a spiritual catalyst is to make spiritual change easier. Your job is literally change. There is bound to be some collateral  effects as everything is one anyway. 

I guess you can find solace in the fact that catalysts normally don't take part in the chemical reaction itself. However wear and tear  does happen. Especially if  the reaction you are catalysing results in sudden changes.

There is more, but I have writers block now.

Keep on doing what you are doing. 

 

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Teal, let me just say that you are a candle...no...a roaring bon fire in a world of darkness. Many come to be warmed by your warmth and be illuminated by your light. But even though there are many that come to be comforted by your flame in the darkness, many others come there because they like the darkness and will do everything they can to extinguish your flame, you warmth and your light. Just remember to tap into the fuel that sustains that fire and do not give those that are trying to extinguish you the satisfaction of seeing you falter, flicker or be extinguished. Stay strong in her Source Energy and the naysayers and saboteurs of your spirit will eventually exhaust themselves and give up trying to throw the dirty water on you. Much Love and peace to you in this new year to all of your tribe and followers. I will take some of your burdens onto myself if you let me. You are not alone, never alone. Remember that. I love you. Namaste teacher of mine. ☯️✌️?Boe

P.S. Whatever you need help with, just let me know. I may be able to help.

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I love you

 

i love you 

 

i love you 

 

dont give up 

 

we keep going 

 

thank you for this honest blog post. I've missed you a little bit and my teal tribers 

 

the pressures are huge at the moment but never mind. 

 

We got each other. I love you teal. Xxx 

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Teal, I hope you are skiing in your gorgeous town these crystal winter days....being in nature, especially alone.

I cannot imagine being you, trying to integrate your extra-ness while still living life as a human. Yet here you are.  As you've taught us: whatever our struggle, it should be happening ... because it is.  You are the bravest person.

I'll be crossing the country to attend Kripaula and support you lining up with 2 other respected presenters. It's such a different venue for you to continue being introduced to new populations.  It's a beautiful place, maybe you could extend your time to find some respite yourself.  Let me know if I can help you in any way. 

About risks, I got a clear message about pushing my comfort zones at Teal Tribe camp. My cautions [fear] and mental justifications [risk-avoidance] led to being so self-absorbed that I even missed your surprise visit - which was a big regret.  Cacooned in my tent just feet away - yet so oblivious to others.  A bittersweet but crystal clear lesson.  So we steady on...see you next month. IMG_4156.jpg

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I am behind you Teal. The shit might be hitting the fan for the greater good. I have felt this vibe in my past and on some level I chose to stay small which is like a slow death isn't it. Lets all push on through this together. Sending you a huge hug and all will be okay xox

 

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You Go Girl! You have Joy every Step of the way. You deserve beeing Happy. If you don't they got you. The risk May be loosing your Joy and getting Into a negative spiral. For me it ist a reminder to follow your Joy...People might hate or Love...I want to say..I enjoyed it..not I sacrificed and that is what i got. If it all chrashes at least i had a good time. 

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Are you a fox that feeds the worms, or, like a fox, do you sit tall, proud and beautiful just because you are a fox?

What would a fox that loved itself do?

Edited by Caravaggio
Nice thought

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Well I would say you can't force things to hapen.. There is cooperation needed thats sure but people should come out of there own choices. I would recommend you to step a few steps back for your own safety and also for this project does not go into a direction you don't want it to go to. You can't force the world to become a better place :)

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I agree with what you say here. I also think it would be beneficial if arguments of the "anti-tealers" would be adressed. In fact there's nothing wrong with being skeptical about spiritual teachers, as many of them were dangerous, as you know yourself.

Therefore, instead of seeing them as something bad, why not jump into the shadow and reply to the things they say. Have a logical disscussion, like scientists have when facing opposition. We need both perspectives. I really think it would expand people's way of thinking.

The argument "you shouldn't give them attention" from people who want you to ignore it all has no logical base or benefit whatsoever.

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Dear Teal, I understand and consider it very understandable to feel pain naturally from people deliberately intending to cause pain. All the spiritual teachers who fall away are meant to. The right helpers are there with you. Its ok to fight back to, these haters have got to be breaking some laws with there harrassment, is it better to just use their own system to bring them down temporarily so you can concentrate on your mission. 

I love you sister! You're doing a good job!

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Dear Teal,

I'm new to this group and have only read this and a few other, much earlier, posts. My daughter follows you and has gained a great deal of wisdom, comfort and inspiration from your posts and youtube videos. I confess to being a mother bear and a mystic married to a skeptic, which puts me in all kinds of awkward spots. But I feel for you, and I believe in the goodness of your heart and your mission. My daughter and I plan to share a meditation/prayer of solace, rest and healing for you and those you love tonight.

Acknowledging that I don't know the whole story behind your latest blog, I would like to lovingly suggest that you reserve the phrase "hate group" for groups that are actually organized (with a manifesto, website, membership, etc) around a mission to deport, imprison, harm or kill whole categories of people-- you know, people who look, believe, or identify in terms of gender/sexuality, differently than members of the group. I think that the more precise you are with your language, the stronger your standing will be, both with those who want to harm you and with those who want to know more about you and your mission but are nervous or afraid.

Things feel so precarious right now for so many of us, for many different reasons. We should reach toward one another with love. Thank you for taking the risk of sharing your great gifts.

Noria

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I bet that this resistance is in result of a real fear of change. A fear that people are going to loose there way of life because of something revolutionary. Teal, you are one of the strongest people I know who made there career a passion of coming up with and/or gathering wisdom to share with all who will listen. You are not afraid to tell people what may not be popular, but feels right in open hearts, but it's never a shame to take a brake. What I found helpful when things seem to get messy mentally and emotionally, is to take some time to listen to breath. Maybe even set a timer for 3, 5, or 20 minutes, so you could be that more present with yourself and the space around you. Best wishes on your journey.

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Boy how I can relate Teal,  I know the retreat is by far the largest strain to date that you have had to deal with.  But you and I both being clarvoyant know there is little time left, the fire storm is almost here!

Many planned communities like the one I'm forming will be looking to it when the storm arrives as the capital guiding us in the efforts of rebuilding after the universe resets things ;-)

P.S. Would love to see you use a building on your new retreat to teach energy healing,  I know it's not your thing - but your organizational skills would go a long way to formalize an effective corriculum.  If what just half of what my spirit guides show me takes place we are going to need an army of Energy Healers shortly :-(

In Gassho
 
布雷特 - 阿倫感知
Bùléi tè - ā lún gǎnzhī láng
 
ブレットアレン知覚ラング
Burettoaren chikaku Rangu
 
بريت ألين. تصور لانج
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We hear stories right form our chikdhood that when hero character in the story endeavour for achieving something great which is being placed in a far fetched mountain and guarded by some fiece dragon, the hero goes to the mission and completes it against all odds . Also in the journey, he gets help from some divine energies and when he achieves his mission,all the people plus the naysayers has the change of heart.

      so, u must go for the mission

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