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  1. Pour Out Your Authentic Truth of the Moment Challenge I want love and intimacy I want to attract this while being completely authentic and being held accountable for it I want someone to want to understand me the way I want to understand them I don’t want to work at my Engineering job any more because it isn’t bringing me this connection I want to travel just so I can get away from all of these things I no longer want. There’s not really any other reason. I want to meet more people like me I want to dive deep and help others by expressing my authentic truths I want to create income out of my own passions of diving deep with an intimate group of friends I want touch and I want to touch (the infinite ocean of love/oneness spilling out of my finger tips) I am lost because I don’t have this now and I feel like when I find those close friends I want to express this shadow without losing them. I don’t want any them to disapprove because they don’t like the resistance that it causes within them. I know what I want but I’m afraid of losing the security of where I am now. Especially in terms of money. If I chose to leave I wouldn’t know where to go. I wouldn’t know how to continue to eat super healthy on a budget. I need a place to be able to store and cook my food. I need a place to sleep comfortably with enough room for someone else🥰 I don’t want to make my self stuck with someone who’s incompatible. I want help but I don’t want to use people. People use and have used me. Do I do it to them? Am I just not in a place where I am a vibrational match with others? Where is that place where I am? Will letting all of this stuff go including the idea of getting a conversion van help me find what I am looking for? How do i meet these needs now? I am proud to be an engineer and to be designing industrial air conditioners but I don’t want others to think I am being conceded (also it is no longer in alignment with me) At one point my survival depended on being conceded because i had a damaged self esteem which was a product of my childhood which was passed down from the “abusers” in my childhood. I know a lot about my self and others but having this knowledge makes me feel alone becuase my voice is unheard. I am not expressing it because those around me are not. I want to go to a place where this is what it’s all about. Sharing and shining authentic light. Where do i go? #hereisme #authenticity #desires #notesession #shifttime #nofilter #rant who’s next lol?
  2. In this episode, Teal Swan challenges your mind. Objective truth is difficult to grasp because inherently all of us view life from a subjective truth or reality. Objective truth can be seen as the culmination of all individual and subjective truths and perspectives. Video References: Disidentification (The Practice of Non Attachment): 12:50 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRfkTg8-I7I Fragmentation (The Worldwide disease): 12:54 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeUlPO2iXb4&t=1045s AND Consciousness (The Modern Day Replacement for the Middle Way) : 13:00 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jgbxy4WDfUw The Octopus Technique: 13:05 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ztab2iAmeXs Subscribe to Receive a New Video Every Saturday: http://bit.ly/SubTealSwan -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Teal Swan is a revolutionary for personal transformation and is one of the Most Spiritually Influential Living People in the world. As a renowned author, speaker and social media star, she travels the world teaching self-development and teaching people how to transform their emotional, mental, physical and spiritual pain. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Daily Updates, Monthly Online Synchronization Workshops & More: http://bit.ly/TealSwanPremium Website: https://www.tealswan.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/tealswanofficial/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealswanofficial/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/realtealswan Meditations, Books, Merchandise & Frequency Paintings: https://tealswan.com/shop -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Beginning Song: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/
  3. Depression can be an unrelenting force in your life. Understanding Depression begins with seeking and accepting the ways that you feel futility within your life. Many people know they feel futile but still subconsciously resist this futility. The key to understanding, overcoming, and eventually healing depression may lie in accepting the aspects and resolving the aspects of your life that you feel Futile about. Teal explains depression in detail in this episode. Find a Completion Process Practitioner www.TheCompletionProcess.com Completion Process Book https://www.amazon.com/Completion-Process-Practice-Yourself-Together/dp/1401951449 The Anatomy of Loneliness https://www.amazon.com/Anatomy-Loneliness-Find-Your-Connection/dp/1786781689/ref=pd_lpo_sbs_14_t_0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=WMJCVN8SK0Q3QD6QJCVC Video References: Fragmentation (The Worldwide Disease): 21:41 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeUlPO2iXb4 Bulldozing (The Way to Ruin the Relationship with Yourself): 21:41 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKO5t6d0kMk&t=6s The Zebra and The Watering Hole: 23:19 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmyBl8CJs1Y How to Meet Your Unmet Needs: 23:19 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERjrG3rJqr4&t=53s How to Create a Safe Relationship: 24:35 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYJlUAfl95g&t=76s Subscribe to Receive a New Video Every Saturday: http://bit.ly/SubTealSwan -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Teal Swan is a revolutionary for personal transformation and is one of the Most Spiritually Influential Living People in the world. As a renowned author, speaker and social media star, she travels the world teaching self-development and teaching people how to transform their emotional, mental, physical and spiritual pain. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Daily Updates, Monthly Online Synchronization Workshops & More: http://bit.ly/TealSwanPremium Website: https://www.tealswan.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/tealswanofficial/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealswanofficial/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/realtealswan Meditations, Books, Merchandise & Frequency Paintings: https://tealswan.com/shop -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Beginning Song: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/
  4. Channeling is the act of translating messages from another consciousness. In the spiritual field, this usually means translating messages from beings that exist outside of the 3D reality. A Channel is a person who has the ability to channel these beings. Their words are often taken as the ultimate truth because they are coming from higher dimensions, but most people don’t understand they have their own perspectives and therefore limitations of perspective as well. Video References The Sad Truth About most Gurus: 16:24 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7qVTGxDB8I&t=35s Why are Spiritual Teachers so Contradictory: 17:23 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uCMBMQjjD7I&t=196s Oneness is not the Ultimate truth of the Universe: 19:51 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lo2JW7kN5DI&t=58s Subscribe to Receive a New Video Every Saturday: http://bit.ly/SubTealSwan -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Teal Swan is a revolutionary for personal transformation and is one of the Most Spiritually Influential Living People in the world. As a renowned author, speaker and social media star, she travels the world teaching self-development and teaching people how to transform their emotional, mental, physical and spiritual pain. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Daily Updates, Monthly Online Synchronization Workshops & More: http://bit.ly/TealSwanPremium Website: https://www.tealswan.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/tealswanofficial/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealswanofficial/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/realtealswan Meditations, Books, Merchandise & Frequency Paintings: https://tealswan.com/shop -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Beginning Song: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/
  5. Hey there! I just purchased Teal's Tarot Cards.. The very first random card I picked for myself..."Truth" pretty much hit the nail right on the head...I am currently working on my spiritual awakening. Just thought I would share..how relevant the card was. If you have her deck and read the description for this card..you know what I'm talking about.
  6. Who is Teal Swan, What is Teal Swan? This video contains the answer. In finding Enlightenment people are often are searching to be ok and to transcend the shadow rather than accepting it within themselves. Poetry By Teal Swan - I am Teal Swan https://tealswan.com/resources/poetry/i-am-teal-swan-r49/ For Love there is Fear. For Sorrow there is Joy. For Night there is Day. The sanity of the soul is torn between them. Our truth is split apart by the belief in Polarity… By our alliance with one and our condemnation of the other I am Teal Swan I have come here to restore the truth by bringing an end to polarity. Balance is the upholder of this corruption of truth. It seeks to maintain separation… Separation between black and white. It seeks to find equilibrium through more of one and less of the other. Throw away your scales. Throw away your division Each, when they are allowed to combine, become a third element entirely… The state of peace you have been looking for but calling balance. I am Teal Swan I have come here to teach Integration. I have come here to restore you to a state of potential which is all that is left when polarities cease to exist individually. I have come to introduce Choice. In that state of potential, in that reality where you are all potentials and all polarities, all that is left is choice. All polarities become like colors you can choose to paint with. on the canvass called life. I am Teal Swan I have come here to teach you not to awaken from your humanity by abandoning it for your divinity. I have come here to teach you To awaken to both your humanity and your divinity, and to let them mix here on earth here in this lifetime. Enlightenment is an integration of shadow and light. Light alone cannot accomplish it Shadow alone cannot accomplish it. It is this split within each human within humanity itself that is the wound that is the origin of the suffering in the human race. I am Teal Swan I have come here to mend this wound that I have mended in me. Because I have mended it in me, I will confuse you. I will not look like what you have been taught enlightenment looks like. I will not sound like what you have been taught enlightenment sounds like. I will create in you a cognitive dissonance… A discomfort necessary for you to hold all of my polarities and accept them. By accepting me, you will be forced to hold all of your polarities and accept them. You will have to hold both your shadow and your light. By doing so, they will combine. They will become that third element… That peace you have been looking for. I am Teal Swan… By choice. I cannot be you I cannot be me Because that is polarity. I am both And I am neither. I am oneness. I am at the same time egoless and the largest ego that can possibly exist. You will not see me clearly. You will not hear me clearly. You will not feel me clearly. You will not understand me clearly until the day that you clearly see and hear and feel and understand yourself… The day you lose your Self. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, authenticity, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality Website: www.tealswan.com For daily updates, monthly online Synchronization Workshops join TealSwan.com/premium Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thespiritualcatalyst/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealspiritualcatalyst/?hl=en Twitter: TEALCATALYST Newsletter: https://tealswan.com/newsletter Completion Process Book: https://thecompletionprocess.com/#the-book Teal's Meditations: https://gumroad.com/tealswan Teal's e-shop: tealswan.com/teals-products Beginning Song: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/
  7. Are you unhappy, depressed or generally not ok? Every time you get close to happiness are you suddenly blocked by some unseen force? Teal Swan uncovers a strange condition that blocks our ability to be happy and to be ok. This affliction can be very confusing and frustrating if every time you feel like you are happy, that it is wrong in some way. In this episode, Teal Swan explains this dynamic. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality Website: www.tealswan.com For daily updates, monthly online Synchronization Workshops join TealSwan.com/premium Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thespiritualcatalyst/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealspiritualcatalyst/?hl=en Twitter: TEALCATALYST Newsletter: https://tealswan.com/newsletter Completion Process Book: https://thecompletionprocess.com/#the-book Teal's Meditations: https://gumroad.com/tealswan Teal's e-shop: tealswan.com/teals-products Endsong: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/
  8. Looking For Some Answers Hi guys,I've been researching lately on the topic of new agers becoming devoted chistians who claim that the new age is satanic.I know Teal even has a video on that "Is the new age an illuminati conspiracy" but as long as it answerd me a lot of my questions there are more things bugging me . My research led me to watch bunch of the former new age writer Steven Bancarz videos and i've been wondering how can someone who know so much about the movement at one moment turn to the narrow perspective of the bible.Please if someone knows something or has an opinion about his story or the other former new agers who turned to chistianity shine some light on the topic and help me with my doubts.The thing i saw that Steven quates from the bible really put me in a position of doubt and fear not knowing what is even close to real and true.
  9. Teal Swan speaks about Oneness. Teal Swan explains that oneness is not the ultimate truth of the universe. Those in Spirituality often speak about getting back to oneness as the ultimate goal to enlightenment, spiritual or religious practice. When in fact there is something beyond oneness. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality Register for Premium Content https://tealswan.com/premium-register Website: www.tealswan.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thespiritualcatalyst/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealspiritualcatalyst/?hl=en Twitter: TEALCATALYST Newsletter: https://tealswan.com/newsletter Completion Process Book: https://thecompletionprocess.com/#the-book Teal's Meditations: http://www.jointeallive.com/meditations/ Teal's e-shop: https://gumroad.com/tealswan Endsong: Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/9Hq9/ Help us caption & translate this video! https://amara.org/v/dBdT/
  10. Teal Swan responds to the allegations made against her that she is a fraud, fake, liar and a dangerous cult leader. Teal Swan exposes the truth and is exposed fully in this authentic release of her response to all the hateful allegations made against her. :22 Conflicting Timelines of Abuse 9:50 - Suicide 19:29 - Money + Spirituality 27:40 - Are you a Guru? 35:32 - Law of Attraction 52:19 - Marriage 1:00:00 - Your Pain 1:11:01 - College Dropout 1:14:05 - Plagiarism 1:18:32 - Psychology w/o a License 1:21:10 - Cult or Movement? 1:23:32 - Narcissism 1:29:12 - Shadow Motivations 1:38:46 - Why Address This Now? 1:42:17 - Passion 1:47:00 - Controversy 1:49:09 - What would you say to your haters? Help us caption & translate this video! https://amara.org/v/bzWS/
  11. Is the Gut Feeling objective or subjective? I was wondering if our (negative) gut feelings towards a person or a situation is always objective or if it can be influenced by unhealed trauma?
  12. Band of Peace I have been working on an Album, band of Paece since my recent awakening from severe illness. I have much art and lyrics to most songs on https://silentdovelove.tumblr.com/. I have a few videos on https://www.facebook.com/elizabeth.erin.robbins. I have 5 more songs to put online and then will be recording them. It will come out December 21, and I hope I am well enough to play all over the World, at Hmeless Shelters, Prisons, Native Gatherings, etc . It will b free for folks, with a suggested donation on handmade paper with link to videos online. Songs are from Visions, etc.
  13. In this episode, Teal Swan exposes the coping mechanism that is the biggest barrier to self awareness… Deflection. Teal Swan then goes on to explain how to not let deflection get the better of you. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality. Subscribe to Teal’s newsletters here: http://thespiritualcatalyst.us6.list-manage2.com/subscribe?u=a0c9fbd5534138eb374993029&id=bebf0eebc3 Teal's Web page: http://tealswan.com/ Teal's Meditations: http://www.jointeallive.com/meditations/ Teal's e-shop: https://gumroad.com/tealswan http://www.askteal.com Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/5K3W/
  14. Im in a weird Romatic Relatioship(s) M23, I'm in a relationship with a woman who had a boyfriend and she still wants to have both the relationships. It’s been about a year and half now with the current friendship/relationship. She lives with him and I go and visit her 3 hours away when I can. I thought that she would leave her boyfriend and that I would be with her and live with her but there is so much going on in the relationship that I can feel myself anymore. I have to connect with the other boyfriend to intentionally provide for two people's need to get approval for the other. She really wants my attention and love and constantly pulls my energy to get it. I feel emotionally, mentally, spiritually, as well as sometimes physically and sexually drained. They are both wonderful people together in their own relationships and I feel that if on their own they will do just fine. I feel the woman that I'm sexually active with is influencing us both to get what she wants and for us to feel bad when she is not happy. I want to tell her to be responsible for her own happiness and not be in the relationship any more. The feelings I have felt before I have never had in any other relationships before. The highs of love and romantic sexual desire is thought the ceiling. I'm waking up in my own spirituality and the truth of the world with the occulted knowledge that has been hidden by the powers that should not be. Both my girlfriend and her boyfriend want to stay in willful ignorance and to stay in that as long as it doesn't affect their freedom. I have brought empowering information into their hands but I can tell that they don't want to be bothered with the truth. What I want to have in life is someone life my current partner in my area living with me and wanting to grow into leaning the truth of the world. Love like my girlfriend and I have had in the past; all of the passion and all of the love with our sexual relationship and empowering each other to become our greatest versions. A lot more can be said in many different joyous and disempowering situations with my girlfriend. I’m really lost now and alone when it comes to this. I tried to reach out to others to see if I can work things out. I might need couching from someone. Could anyone help? ~N~
  15. There is a show on gaia.com called Cosmic Disclosure. It's an interview with a man named Corey Goode that is not portrayed as fiction. Here is a rough short explanation. He spent 20 years in a secrete government service enhancing his intuitive empathic abilities which were then used for various secrete projects including alien communication. He was stationed in one of many colonies in space for six years where he had alien technology and was able to learn a vast array of information about the universe otherwise "classified". He retired from service, but was later contacted by an alien group called the Blue Avians who asked him to be the spokesperson to send a message to mankind to raise our vibrations and be more loving, caring, and forgiving so the future changes of the Earth would be better adapted by us. He has a website I'm linking to the message http://spherebeingalliance.com/introduction The message is nice. What the man has been through is mind blowing. I'm posting this because it is my first exposure to such a thing and I believe this man. He seems genuine, and I'm having a really hard time wrapping my mind around this information. The potential/inevitable changes to the world scare me. What do other people think? This is the link to the show. http://www.gaia.com/video/first-encounter
  16. it's an Enochian mantra to force the wicked to speak truth
  17. A question has been on my mind lately. As a spiritual person (but really, even if I weren't spiritual, I would be a seeker of truth) I hate lying, in all its various forms. Probably to a fault. If I'm not okay, I'm not going to act like it, and if I see something that others don't seem to notice, I go out of my way to point it out. If the emperor isn't wearing clothes I usually am the first to shout, "HEY! That guy's naked, people! Am I the only one seeing this?!" I've gotten myself into trouble time and time again because of this. I point out when I observe people are behaving in toxic ways, when other people are living in illusion or fantasy instead of acknowledging what is, and speak my personal truth about how I feel life should be lived even though it's often quite radical from other people's views. The way I see things, I have no desire to control other people or otherwise impede on their rights, and anyone whose 'rights' include wanting to impede on other people's rights, I start having a problem. I believe we humans were designed for symbiosis and expansion, and believe everyone ought to have the freedoms to be who they are as long as who they are doesn't mean beating down or otherwise harming other people. Ok, so we've got that out of the way; now why I'm wondering about this... I have been wondering lately if it's selfish to be as truthful as possible. See, my friend is dating this guy and she really likes him. She seems really genuinely happy with him, and that makes me happy for her, except for one big thing... I think he's a cheater. When I first met the guy, he knew that I was best friends with my best friend. She told me that she explained to him how important I was in her life and vice versa, and so I expected to be treated with respect; I let my guard down (yeah, I'm recovering from abuse so don't hate me for having my guard up 90% of the time haha) The whole time her boyfriend kept talking about wanting to have a threesome (yeah, which seemed kind of stupid in my opinion because I felt like it was obvious he wanted one with the two of us, and it was objectifying). I knew my friend wasn't okay with that as she's always been more of a traditionalist when it comes to the life she imagined, where she'd want to have kids, a husband, a house, the "American Dream" really. She's always been monogamous and hasn't expressed any interest in breaking traditions in that sense, and I respect that. Needless to say, I wasn't impressed by this guy. I was taken aback to see her actually afraid of telling him that she's not okay with that and that she has no desire to have a threesome with him at all. She kept on indirectly hinting at not wanting that, but I guess her boyfriend's a fucking idiot because he wasn't listening. (to be frank). haha- sorry. I use colorful words! I did tell her when we were alone that she'll have to let him know eventually because (speaking from experience here) these sexual things usually happen heat of the moment, and don't usually have a long conversation about values when they do happen. most of the time, there's no planning how things will turn out, when they do start happening most people didn't consider they would find themselves in such a situation and thus don't usually verbalize that they are having a boundary violated. So he was talking about this on the way to these primitive hot springs, and ironically enough, having a threesome became a sort of theme for the time I was visiting. When we were at the hot springs, two girls and a guy joined us who were polyamorous, the girls kept kissing eachother and the guy and it was interesting witnessing a poly couple for the first time; though I could pick up on the subtle undertones of jealousy that two of them had for the other girl, who seemed to not have a care in the world. It was interesting to watch as an outsider... It was also clear to me that this was a theme and something that we were meant to look at. That night my friend and i went to see matt kahn speak, then we got back late and I slept on the couch in his living room. OK, you follow me? Sorry this is so long! SO, the next morning, his roommate gets up at like 4 or 5 AM, and turns the lights on in the room that I'm sleeping in, waking me up. I thought he would be walking in the room he turned the lights on but after 15 minutes pass of him not being in the room, I get up and turn the lights off again so i can sleep. About 10 minutes later, his roommate comes back in the room, and starts yelling aggressively at me for turning the lights off, giving me a panic attack. He starts to be really straight up horrible to me and I hide under the blankets until he's gone, confused because we both literally just woke up and I feel like the lights being off really isn't that big of a deal.. Whenever a male yells at me I get triggered because my dad was abusive. So, I go down into their room, shaking and crying, and explain what happened. It's like a bizarre series of synchronicities but they invite me to stay in their bed, so I accept because I'm afraid this guy's gonna start physically hurting me if I stay upstairs. I did remember the threesome thing in the back of my mind, but I'm just like "this is so weird that all these things happened and now I end up in the same bed as them, WTF" So long story short, he tries getting all touchy feely, which I don't feel comfortable with because I told them both that I HAVE A BOYFRIEND so I AM NOT interested. The only reason that I would want to have a threesome, is so I could give my friend an orgasm (because I don't trust that her boyfriend is really that great in bed tbh). My friend and I have already acknowledged that we're attracted to each other a long time ago, but we've never wanted to do anything about it because we care about our friendship and wouldn't want to make things weird. Plus, I don't think my friend is really sexually attracted to girls, she just thinks girls are pretty. So, this becomes a turning point because I'm getting kind of into being with my friend but I want her boyfriend to go away, we end up just sort of cuddling but then her boyfriend's touching me inappropriately and finally she gets up and is like "I don't want to do this" i'm immediately hands off and cheering her on the inside for being strong, but still kind of confused about the whole thing because it just seems like there was no other way this could have happened (i know that's not necessarily true but being there and having everything happen the way it did, felt like some sort of weird fate). She goes upstairs and takes a shower, and I just want to fucking sleep. Her boyfriend's still there, and that's when he said the thing that I asked this question over, "maybe we could still do it even though she's gone," he says. EWWWWWW, I cringe internally, why is he doing this? He's not even valuing her feelings about this at all. The only reason I'd want to do anything is so I could give my friend an orgasm, like a really good orgasm. But only if she wanted it, which she didn't. "Are you fucking retarded? [my friend] is not okay with that, I can't believe this shit," I say. "The only reason I'd want to do anything is to help get her off because I would like to help her have a good orgasm, she's obviously not okay with a threesome so why the hell would you even ask that." So I'm pissed off, it's clear to me that this guy doesn't give a single fuck about my friend's emotions. I just want to fucking sleep! Why does all this shit happen?? I steal all the covers and try to sleep but the sun's up and that's not happening either. Soon he leaves, thank god. I didn't want to have to kick him in the balls but I was willing to do that if push came to shove. My friend comes back and I explain to her that he was trying to have sex with me when she was gone, despite the fact that she was clearly unhappy with what was happening. She just didn't want to hear it, she said he was just kidding. And I'm just thinking, "UGHHHH this is so fucking retarded, he wasn't kidding, this guy is an ASSHOLE" And I know that my friend really values finding a partner, she's probably just so happy to have found someone, she'd rather live in fantasy than acknowledge that he doesn't actually care about her, because let's face it, that's painful to realize. I ask her as calmly as possible why someone would joke about something like that, I don't see the reason to and I would never joke about something like that. I guess it was too stressful for her and she conveniently erased that experience from her memory. Months have gone by, and now they've almost been together for a year. She talks about how happy they are together, but then he has a billion other red flags that are just setting off my inner compass like crazy like "RED ALERT! THIS FUCKER IS A CHEATER!" My friend claims she's doing well and she seems well, but it's hard for me to just keep quiet when it's clear to me that he doesn't have her best interest in mind, because in my book what he tried doing was not okay, and will never be okay. He was violating a boundary of hers. If you're polyamorous or wanting an open relationship, you gotta advertise that's what you're looking for because otherwise you're being deceptive. I can't forget something like that, and if I was dating some guy who was like that, I'd want to know about it. So, I'm treating her how I'd want to be treated. So, I told her about my concerns, and she listened even though it was hard to hear. But now I'm beating myself up, because it's like is my wanting to tell the truth selfish because I'm not considering how hard it is to hear the truth from her perspective? She understands why I'm saying this, but will she listen? That's another thing entirely. Will she choose to see me as the enemy? I don't know. I'm certainly making myself an easy target. I keep on explaining though, that if I'm not the person telling her this, it's possible that no one else will. She seems to understand that on some level, but I really want for her to find someone who values her as much as she values them. I've lost friendships because I chose to tell the truth instead of pretend like everything's okay. And I'm afraid I could even lose this friendship. She seemed to be at peace with things and they otherwise seem to have a healthy relationship, before I showed up and started telling her the hard truth that she hasn't wanted to look at, so it's like, what's my deal? Why can't I just shut up about my concerns? Spirituality is not easy honestly, I think anyone who thinks its all sunshine and rainbows all the time is living in illusion. I push for growth in myself and I think I grow quickly compared to many because then I show up and I seem to be a sort of wave, whose momentum also starts waves in other people's lives. But this isn't pleasant experience at first; if the truth hurts, is it really worth it? I keep telling myself that I'm just speeding up the process of things that were bound to happen anyways, but a lot of people just look at me and blame me for causing them to see things that they can no longer 'unsee'. I'm curious to hear what your thoughts are on this, because I want to feel unafraid and solid knowing I'm shedding light on something, but it's hard when I feel like I'm the one who's causing my friend pain. And maybe what I think is best, is actually not best for her. I tried to ask her, "if he is cheating on you, are you willing to live with that, or is it a deal breaker?" Thanks for listening, I'll appreciate any advice.
  18. Hey Tribers, Here is the situation. I rent a house in Jacksonville and I get some roommates from Roomster and craisglist. My newest one, that moved in five days ago, is some 19 year old girl student with her dad paying her rent. She has a "needy" friend, some guy. He's stayed the past three nights, and today, he's been here the whole day while she was gone. So I feel I've been lied to, about renting the room to her... she didn't mention that this guy, who doesn't have a job or a car, would basically be her live in puppy dog. Anyway, So I'm pissed about it, primarily being lied to, and from that, I anger I get depressed and disappointed with myself, because i feel like a failure. I feel if I were more successful, I wouldn't have to deal with stupid shit... Lastly, I'm not sure if I believe I can create my own reality in terms of financial abundance. I think that i'm unsuccessful because I don't find joy in what I do. I am not a very motivated/ambitious person. I'm trying to figure out what really Inspires me. I feel stuck. I welcome any thoughts and comments.