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  1. Teal speaks about Christ Consciousness, difference between fear and love and the role of choice in Christ Consciousness. Another major factor in this difference is the context of culture and time period in which the bible was written. How much culture was woven into Christ's teachings in order to have them be widely accepted amongst the people of that time period. Help us caption & translate this video! https://amara.org/v/et0s/
  2. Fungal skin issues Hello guys! Is there someone who managed to get rid from Tinea versicolor, or maybe other fungal skin infection permanently? I suffer with it already for 6+ years. During this years every several months i start seeing a lot of white spots on my body, i treat it and they disappear for next several months, and then everything starts again. It is never ending cycle. Before i treated it with shampoo that contained ketoconazole but i don't want to use any chemicals on my body, now i switched to tea tree oil that helps to make them disappear even better. Now i am trying to treat it with combination of green tea and tea tree oil, because i heard that green tea actually is one of the best cures for fungal infections. My diet is vegan and is super clean, since eating this way i feel much better but it didn't help to cure this skin issue. My problem is that even though when i treat tinea versicolor it always dissapears, after several months it always comes back. I hate this. I am so tired of fighting it. When it comes back it is all over my face, chest and back.I literally go to sleep without any white spot and the next day i wake up and see lots of them and it gets worse and worse if i don't treat them. It scares me when i look at myself in the mirror and of course it makes me feel a lot of shame. I think that this fungus is always coming back because it wants to remind me of this aspect of myself that feels ashamed and unwanted and is full of insecurities. I tend to run away from it and want to do everything that prevent's me of feeling that way. I think i should do a completion process to meet the unmet needs of this aspect of me instead of just running away from it as i always do. When i was kid i was always made feel that something is super wrong with me. I felt abandoned by my parents because i am not good enough to deserve being with them, i was bullied at school by my classmates and always disapproved by teachers. I was always told that i am ugly and stupid. I grew up in a person that suffers from perfectionism and lives only for people's approval, desperately trying to prevent myself from experiencing those feelings of my childhood. I am obsessed with controlling everything, and this fungal infection is out of my control and this is freaking me out, i feel like i can not do anything about it and i am left here alone in shame. I feel like so much internal work has to be done here. If you have or had similar issues feel free to share how you feel and your story.
  3. Talking on Love and Fear, and Isolation. If you have had trauma, abuse, ritual abuse, the most important thinking is to treat yourself with gentleness. Eventually, self love is possible. There is hope to overcome what has happened. There is always a way! More information how to heal: www.laurajworley.com
  4. Soccer penalty kick Image I'm standing in front of the goal, about to shoot a penalty kick. 1000s of thoughts coming up, fear of failing is coming up. I know when i can keep my focus positive and calm i will make the goal. So now in the spiritual community it's all about tuning into the fear, do not suppress negative thought etc.... In the scenario with the goal above, tuning into my fear, in that situation would cause a sure failure. But ''suppressing'' the negativity would help me to make it. I feel like doing constant shadow work is draining my energy and leave me unable to function in life. I want to focus positive. I feel like if i don't focus positive i will never improve my life. But in a way I'm afraid of focusing positive, because i could suppress something. It is a very practical questions and I give another example: I set my alarm clock at 4:30 to watch the sunrise. The moment i wake up, i don't feel like waking up, but if I push the negative thoughts away, I will be able to wake up. Sitting at 5 am at the beach gives me a feeling of happiness and no regrets not listening to my negative thoughts. But have I suppressed something? I'm really struggling with that right now... How do I know that I am not suppressing anything or leave anything behind that might block me later? I m almost afraid of focussing positive. Is it not sometimes better to just overwrite an belief, without dwelling into it? When to focus positive and when to ignore negativity? How should shadow work be done, so that it is not effecting the daily life and happiness of someone? How to do shadow work without messing up your life? When it's enough? When can we start focussing positive again. I am sick of dwelling and intentifying negative beliefs. I really want to figure this out in order to live my life according to it.
  5. Quitting a new job Hello, I have just a year ago finished school and then went backpacking around the world for five months. During that time I made the decision where I wanted to apply for jobs back home before I plan on going to university this winter. I got a job at the café I wanted to work at before I even came back home via email. Now I have been working there for three weeks and I absolutely cannot stand the job. It’s very stressful and exhausts me physically and mentally everyday for 40 hours a week. I want to quit and find a new job, but that is quite difficult to do in this small town right now, but that’s not the problem. I’m sure I could find something. But I feel weird and like I would let the people at my current job down, if I would quit after just three weeks when I said I could work there for mutliple months. I know that the right thing probably would be to do what feels right, which is to leave, but I can’t quite bring myself to do it yet, I still think that I need to stay there at least two months before I’m “allowed” to quit without it seeming like a failure to me and my coworkers, who warned me that it would be a hard job and constantly make remarks about how many people already left because of that. I also really need the money of a job, because of my amazing travels. Do you have any advice as to how to get over that fear of quitting my job and what everyone will be thinking, what I will be thinking; and the fear of not finding a new job quickly enough, so I can work enough before I go to university. Thank You all! Greetings from Germany, Elza
  6. This is my first time to visit this website and I wanted to start with a question. I believe this would be the right place to ask. Would the unconscious mind be powerful enough to force us to do something we don't want? For instance, if we are stressed with work, school, trying to build a company, lack of sleep, would we want to end our life? The person I'm in a relationship with for seven years is confused with this because when he's by himself, he goes off the road somewhere by himself and when he snaps out of it, he doesn't recognize how he got there or know the area. He feels like he wanted to end his life when he was not himself. But his conscious/normal self knows he wants to live and have no desire to die. This is just recent. I think this is happening due to childhood trauma or the amount of stress in his life. I'm seeking help from anyone who knows about the unconscious mind and how powerful it is. Has this ever happened to anyone or anyone you know? Could the unconscious self be so tired and force him to stop everything?
  7. Fear of Intamacy? I push away guys who like me When I was in high school I had started to get friendly with a boy in my band during football away games and such. Then I started to get the impression that he liked me and he started to ask me to dances. I am shy and don't have many close friends, so I had only 1 guy friend before this. It made me uncomfortable since I couldn't return his feelings and he finally confessed via text message after we graduated. Now in college, I became friends with another boy, who I felt close too and comfortable with. But then he confesses a semester later and I also can't return his feelings. It seems that when I'm confessed to, or get the impression they like me, it makes me uncomfortable and want to push them away. The last guy confessed in person and I said we could still be friends, but he is still getting too close for comfort. He messages me everyday with things like good night and how are you. To me that seems kinda like something a couple would do and I don't like that because we are not a couple. This one is kind of spiritual and we would talk about things. I noticed he is puts himself down a lot, so I introduced him to self love techniques and Teal and Alan Watts. He watched the video: how to connect with someone, and wanted to do that with me but I said no. That is scary to me with someone who I can't return feelings toward because he still likes me and I think even more now. I like to think that if it was a girl or someone who I know didn't have a crush on me, I could do it. Like with my best friend or mentor art teacher. I CRAVE intimacy, and my number 1 desire is finding my twin flame. However, I have this fear of intimacy, but don't know how to deal with it and why I respond to people who like me this way. I watched Teal's fear of intimacy video but I want it but I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY THE HELL I CAN'T DEAL WITH CRUSHES! Like how does that even relate cause I fell like I could get intimate and connect with someone if they weren't in love with me where I can't return their feelings...
  8. Fear of Intimacy This thread I am starting is in regards to Teals new video fear of intimacy. I want to compile everyone who specifically suffers from this into its own little community. Hopefully we can work through the steps on the list and maybe even meet each others needs. This is a great opportunity to make new friends and grow self awareness.
  9. Fear of Intimacy This thread I am starting is in regards to Teals new video fear of intimacy. I want to compile everyone who specifically suffers from this into its own little community. Hopefully we can work through the steps on the list and maybe even meet each others needs. This is a great opportunity to make new friends and grow self awareness.
  10. Are you having issues with intimacy in your marriage, relationship, social environment or life in general? If you want to overcome, heal, repair and deal with your fear of intimacy, social anxiety or social phobia it boils down to your relationship with your parents and patterns it set up within you as child. Teal Swan explores these patterns and how to recognize and shift your fear of intimacy within your life. Teal Swan is an International Spiritual Leader. She offers perspective on a wide range of topics including relationships, anxiety, meditation, shadow work, the law of attraction, The Completion Process, healing, PTSD, emotions and spirituality Register for Premium Content https://tealswan.com/premium-register Website: www.tealswan.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/thespiritualcatalyst/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tealspiritualcatalyst/?hl=en Twitter: TEALCATALYST Newsletter: https://tealswan.com/newsletter Completion Process Book: https://thecompletionprocess.com/#the-book Teal's Meditations: http://www.jointeallive.com/meditations/ Teal's e-shop: https://gumroad.com/tealswan Endsong Kuan Yin's Mantra (c) 2002 Lisa Thiel Help us caption & translate this video! https://amara.org/v/cFue/
  11. Fear of independance I think I have this, and also a great need for that, because it leaded to many troubles in my life. The part of it was my social anxiety. I bought an aprtment not to live life in a free one and decided to go my own path indtead of working in my own firm with my dad. I know what have caused it, now I'm just looking for solutions and second opinion. Tnx
  12. How to Overcome Extreme Fear? The question should be simple: How to overcome EXTREME FEAR, or at least be present with it? Fear is one thing all of us should encounter and make peace with in our journey, and so is me. Let me describe my experience: For example: Me trying to meditate in a dimly lit room. When I close my eye and try to go inside, all that's left is darkness and my ego. It would not take too long until all the darkness suddenly turn malevolent. I would then find myself consumed by a overwhelming fear that takes over my body. My mind started to generate all kind of images of dangerous dark energy that's alive and is trying to invade my being. My ego would feel like losing control and losing itself to this darkness, and can not accept being consumed by it, like actually becoming the things that you fear most in life. Like dying. Or turning into a mindless monster. Then I would soon give in to an strong urge to run away, to turn on the light, to again return to the safe reality I'm accustomed with. OR ELSE I would finally lose touch of my body and get lost in a void of terrifying darkness and can never return :"< There are times I tried to embrace all of it (the feeling and those creepy darkness(es)) into my heart and let it freely merge with my being. And the fear actually lessen (a bit). But I wasn't brave enough to go till the end. Writing these is fun, lol. But the question is serious. I pretty much understood what are the fear. But overcoming them is not that easy. Any suggestion is appreciated, guys. This image alone is enough to trigger me lol. So I tried to keep it small.
  13. Why do I fear my boyfriend will find someone else only because I am guilty I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year now. He is 31 and I am 20. I have been with multiple partners in the past but never one I truly knew loved me unconditionally as he does. Maybe it's age that he knows what he wants. I have absolutely no reason not to trust him because we spend every day basically together, I know his phone code, me simply because he doesn't care about any other woman or has the intentions to besides me. But recently we got into a fight due to his stress in work and life making him sort of neglecting my emotions and needs. So me being impulse and angry when we fought and he started ignoring my calls and feelings, I went and had a one night stand with a mutual friend. I know what I did was wrong. I don't feel like I love him less though. It's been almost a month and I've been able to push it aside. I learned to not feel so guilty because it was a one time thing and I know why I did it due to him neglecting my emotions. But we worked things out and he's better at it now. So why do I fear him finding someone new? Obviously because of what I did. My real question is how do I stop overthinking and fearing it obsessively? Will I ever accept the fact that he would never cheat?
  14. What to do with unwanted images in a head? What do you do when that happens? Do you sit with it and play the scenario or do you try to get rid of it? Switching focus helps but why do they come back? Any images can be a part of foreseeing the future that means that they can manifest just like anything else.
  15. Looking for Advice on OCD Hi Everyone, recently I have been contemplating my obsessive compulsive behaviours and how to approach them. To ask my question I need to provide some background of my life so this might get a bit long. I was probably around 7-8 years old when my OCD started. At the time I was becoming very aware of the dangers of life and had developed pretty strong fears, mostly related to my family breaking apart and my own health. I had this idea (I don't know how I came up with it) that there was some sort of higher power that was watching me and deciding whether it was satisfied with what I did or not. If it was satisfied, my life would continue to go well, but if it was not satisfied, my worst fears would come true. The things that I had to do to satisfy this "higher power" were things that were incredibly annoying and/or embarrassing. For example: touching certain objects, spinning myself in the "correct" direction, holding my breath for as long as I had to, counting things, saying things in my head or out loud etc. Whenever I was feeling particularly anxious I would do these behaviours extremely often. During most of my childhood and youth my entire life was dominated by this OCD. Sometimes it would take me half an hour to go to bed because I had to do the right things in exactly the right order so that I could sleep without too much fear. And if I messed them up I had to start it all over from the beginning. So this was all extremely exhausting and also embarassing (for example when I had a soccer match and everyone could see if I was spinning in a circle) but I never talked to anyone about it because I didn't think that anyone would be able to understand what I was experiencing. My mother much later told me that whenever she saw me do something like that she just assumed that I was just doing some sort of child's play and that I was enjoying it. When I was 16 I was starting to feel more confident and safe and my life was going really well. At one weekend that I was spending with friends I decided for myself that I wouldn't do these compulsive behaviours anymore. And I was feeling so safe and confident at the time that I actually managed to not do them for the entire weekend. It was much easier than I had expected and I felt more free than I had felt in a very long time. But two days later, out of the blue (at least for me) my father killed himself. He was the most important person in my life. So my worst fear had come true and it was exactly at the time where I did not obey this "higher power" anymore. So I assumed that I had messed up and this was my punishment and I went back to being scared and doing all these things that I hated to do because otherwise I feared that my world will fall apart again. Over the past 8 years I have gotten into spirituality and also shadow work and my fears have become less strong and my OCD more manageable, but it is still there. I am 32 years old now (pretty strange that I am exactly twice as old as I was when I stopped my compulsive behaviour for the first time).and recently it's like the Universe is trying to make me face my OCD more and showing me how much it hinders my ability to follow my intuition and taking inspired action. There are lots of situations where I feel like I want to do something that would feel good to me (even little things) but my OCD is telling me "no that would be wrong, you don't want to do that". I have been working a lot with my inner child, the one who is afraid, who fears punishment from the Universe and thinks that you have to do things "right" in order to be "good". And I feel like this is helping a bit already and over time I can probably make some real progress. But my question is: When I am in a situation where I sense that my intuition is telling me "do this" and my OCD/scared inner child is telling me "no don't do this, or else..." (or the other way round), what do I do? Is my belief of punishment still so strong that bad things would happen if I ignored my OCD, like they did when I was 16? Or should I follow my intuition no matter what?
  16. anxiety Hi, so I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and when I try to use an OCD anxiety spike (an obsessive thought and then the urge to perform a compulsion) for the 2nd step of the process, going into the feeling, I feel like I get stuck. I feel like maybe there's something else underneath the anxiety, but sometimes the emotion will dissolve when I try to feel it, but I know it will come back and hasn't really gone. Anxiety/OCD is like my constant companion; having something inside my head every single day telling me that I'm bad, to feel guilty, to do things over and over and over again and not feeling like I can trust my own memory or thoughts, makes me feel like I don't know what's real. Does anyone else suffer from OCD, or does anyone else get stuck on a particular emotion, and if so what do you do?
  17. Hello everyone. New here. Apologize if this is in the "wrong" section, not formatted right, etc. but I'm seeking advice for myself, as well as for anybody going through a similar issue. I feel called to voice this because I realize this isn't an issue that just I am going through, my guides have told me this concept has been at the forefront of my awareness and the strong desire to be fulfilled because this is a collective issue now, many are tuning into their abilities at a quickening rate; we have come to a state of limbo where we know our gifts but can't fully utilize them due set-backs/fragmented parts of self/lack of trust and other traumas. My question is, for those who have begun or already have mastered their abilities, as Intuitives, Clairvoyants/Clairaudients/Clairsentients/Empaths, how can we learn to trust the messages we are receiving from our internal guidance system/guides/higher self/empathic abilities? I've come across in many occasions due to complete lack of self trust from emotional trauma that I can't seem to discern between what is a true intuition about another or whether it's not to be trusted at all. I have a fear of being told that my intuitions were completely wrong and being made to feel like I can't trust myself even further. How can we learn to clear out the confusion and know completely that we can trust the intuitions we have instead of feeling like we're just going to be told they are incorrect if we voice them? Any thoughts would be appreciated. I think this can be a great fun fueled debate between all extrasensory beings of what has worked for each other, what hasn't, and our journey as becoming more integrated extrasensory beings. Much love lex
  18. Some time ago I started to get interested in spirituality, I saw many videos of Teal, I started meditating daily, then when my interest grew I looked for other youtubers who talk about the same theme. Unfortunately, I found youtubers who treat the subject spirituality but focused on the negative side, about the low astral, about how they can attack you while you sleep, everything is danger, etc. I saw those videos because I am and I was always very curious, but after seeing them I began to distrust everything and stopped meditating. First of all I would like to tell my origin from fear. It originates from a trauma of when I was a child, in fact it has nothing to do with the spiritual original trauma, which is sexual in fact, but as a girl instead of reacting to trauma with anguish or depression, I reacted with fear, Which was later repressed, until now. It is not a specific fear, but the fear in general to be damaged in some way, whatever it is. What is happening to me recently is that my thoughts are soaring, and I can not take control of them. That is, while doing an ordinary task, as now that I am writing this text, I cross a word or image. (They are almost always words), that is repeated constantly, I can not keep silent, I can not control it, I can be a week with a word in my mind, all those words always generate fear, for example: I cross the word "demon" and then I can not forget it and I'm a whole week with the word in my mind, like a woodpecker drilling my head. And I can not face it, I do not know how to do it, it always comes back when I least expect it. Long ago I made a tarot card Osho Zen, if someone uses these letters could give me a better interpretation, this was what came out: 1-Here and Now: Control 2-Letter of Resistance: Breakthrough 3-Intuition: Silence 4-Response intelligence to emotion: Beyond Illusion 5-Answer: The Avar 6-Relaxation and acceptance: Receptivity. 7-New level: Fatigue
  19. Recovering from extreme porn addiction - Do I get a second chance? Hello everyone, I'm very new here, and relatively new to Teal's articles and videos. You could also say I'm fairly new to learning about spirituality, outside of a damaging Christian upbringing. I've been struggling with self forgiveness, depression, and POCD (pedophile OCD) since I quit pornography use about a month ago. I've put a lot of mental work into feeling better but every time I start to enjoy something my mind tells me I'm a sicko because of the porn I've seen, and that I don't deserve to enjoy anything. I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and GAD, along with OCD intrusive thoughts, so it can be extremely difficult to wrangle my brain back into control. I have an extreme fear of being 'cut off' from spirituality. A truly crippling scrupulousness. I fear that the porn I viewed was so disgusting and awful that I am now condemned and beyond reconciliation. I personally believe that everyone deserves forgiveness, no matter what as long as they're genuinely remorseful and take action to change themselves, which I am and have. I have changed a lot and I want to keep learning and growing, but I feel I can't when my brain is telling me that I'm a horrible person, beyond forgiveness and that the damage has been done. I'm also suffering a bit of POCD, though I do not experience attraction to children. I'm 20 and I do have fantasies of myself as underage (15) when I have sex with my boyfriend, and I sometimes think about childhood sexual experiences (w/ other children) and it sometimes arouses me. Is that sick? The porn I viewed often reflected these feelings. The taboo of being underage, attraction to older men, etc. I never viewed actual child porn, but I was attracted to the youngest looking models. I believe that masturbating from a very young age, early access to porn, and a natural sexual interest are what led to the addiction and escalation, because there's nothing sexy to me about hardcore, disgusting porn. I think about what I viewed now and I recoil at the thought. I had a difficult childhood, being raised by my single grandmother in poverty, not really knowing my parents. I believe I took to porn and masturbation as an escape. I'm not excusing anything, but I know that porn use escalates and when you start as a young child it's even more detrimental. I'm a very anxious, sensitive person and scrupulousity was instilled in me from an early age. I never want to hurt anyone and I try to treat others as I'd want to be treated. But the extent of my porn use has been a dirty secret of mine for so long and it feels like it alone outweighs the good. I just want to know that I'm not being somehow shunned by the universe or something. I want to know if I really can have a second chance at living a meanungful, helpful life and I want to gain spiritual awareness and conciousness. Can I do that when I've behaved so sexually deviously? Can I make up for my horrible mistake by changing and never again giving in to the unrelenting grip of porn? I'm embarrassed even posting this because I know how neurotic this all sounds. TL;DR: Can people who have done awful things be forgiven, make changes, and live a spiritually meaningful life? Can one big mistake ruin your soul?
  20. Terrified. Hi, i don't think i can explain myself, don't really know where to start so in trying to come up with a simplified explanation to post, "terrified" is the truest thing i can find to start from. i have a few questions about the completion process / living in general on relation to this terror. i found Teal's video on what to do when feeling suicidal one day and (when i can find space between destruction, denial, and desperate attempts to cope less destructive lying with life) ive watched a few more trying to find some way forward from my self built hell. Trying to keep a long story short, all of the advice in the videos and the completion process seem to rely on being able to face your feelings. My inability /unwillingness to face my feelings is exactly what is ruining my life. (i am ruining my life, that is a big how). It is beyond pathetic and in general i feel like a monster who needs to be gotten rid of for being this disgusting and weak, but i am terrified of myself, of my feelings, of reality and im afraid that means im completely hopeless. That is where the FIRST QUESTION comes in. i wish i could explain in a word because no one will understand and no one has reason or time to read even if i could explain myself. im wondering why people "trust the process" as Teal says in one emotion based video? As in, i believe that truth and integrating all parts of yourself in this is the only way to live as a good person, free, im so grateful for Teal's voice hopefully nudging the importance of that truth into our world, but i don't at all trust my ability to do the right thing when faced with my emotions, when faced with reality. At worst, and for a lot of feelings, i fear it will lead me to the knowledge that i am not good enough, it will let me see how bad and wrong i am and how much hurt and badness i have caused and am causing by allowing this monster that i am to exist. Then i have to die. i have ruined my life by ignoring my feelings (starting 10years ago, after previously living by trying to uphold "truth goodness beauty", in psychiatric treatment for an eating disorder the denial started, where recovery=ignoring negative feelings and thoughts and lying to yourself ) and now i spend all my time running from the horrible truth in order to survive. i see other people live, alive, feeling, growing and it amazes me, the beauty and strength in people literally amazes me. If i feel my feelings and see reality the only thing i'll see is that i should be dead. i know other people might use that realisation to transform into a better person who deserves to live but i don't do that so facing reality is essentially suicide to me. Is the entire process based on the assumption that a person is strong and good enough to be able to handle and transform the feelings and truths they are working with? That if they go into a feeling they will survive it? Because i feel 100% incapable of that growth. THE SECOND QUESTION : i have no job or income and in desperation was thinking of trying the completion process by myself (depending on the answer to my first question on feelings) but my parents offered me the last of my mother's money for her hip surgery for reduced cost counselling (75euro altogether) and i was wondering if it would be worth using that for a private session with Teal instead? As in would one session be enough for real change, especially considering that my issues are probably complex and up against much resistance because of how weak and pathetic i am? And finally if it would be worth it, how do i contact Teal about a session? If i think about anything clearly it all says die. Don't post pathetic questions to strangers, don't pretend you can get better, stop holding off the inevitable and fighting the violent hate, just kill yourself already. But the part of me that realises how beautiful and wonderful and amazing life is, how lucky i am to have the parents, partner and life i have, how they deserve better, the part that really does love my partner and my family and would love to be a strong, giving, loving, capable person who is GOOD for all that she loves is the one writing this shit and still looking for a way forward even though it all feels wrong and hopeless. Thank you if you took the time to read this. X x
  21. In this interview, Teal Swan and Lee Harris are interviewed by Eric Laronda about the times we are currently living in, awakening, health, wellness, fear, closedheartedness and how to thrive in life at this time. Teal Swan and Lee Harris also discuss 2016 and 2017 in depth. More Information for Teal Swan at www.tealswan.com More Information for Lee Harris at www.leeharrisenergy.com More Information for the Philia Center at www.philiacenter.com Help us caption & translate this video! http://amara.org/v/1bRI/
  22. Fear of being alone I spent a lot of time by myself to know myself an to understend myself and my past. I really want to have the experience of being in a deep and strong connection with my essence and now I realised that I am scared of being alone because every time I saw and felt my self as a child or adult during the meditation it was me surrounded by darkness and nothing else. In my mind i should experience light or love or something else but I can only experience this strong presence in the darkness like in a picture of the universe- I will add a picture -. Should I be scared or should I let it be. How do you experience yourself?
  23. Heavy panic attacks Hello community, a while ago, I posted something about fear, in which I stated that I had panic attacks around the thought of getting really ill. It got worse since then, and the topic changed. I am afraid of killing my mother for some reason. While the thought of harming someone is bad enough, the panic gets worse, because I am worried of losing control over myself. I am certain, that nothing will happen, but as soon as I get near my mother or think of her, I get these really bad panic attacks. Please help me! This feeling is unbearable! PS: I don't think Teals video on panic attacks really applies, because I don't think you would compare a plane crashing to commiting a serious crime PPS: I am currently taking Mirtazapine. I started taking 15 milligrams about two weeks ago. Maybe that information could help.
  24. Teal has said we are in a vibration that is a match for World War III. That a great change is pending but in order to have something new emerge the old must be swept away. What can we do to prevent this? What should we do to prepare for this? What could we do to facilitate this? The greater the change the greater the upheaval, the more we want to change things the more we have to accept change. 2008 was the beginning of a huge change in the financial world and continues to ripple around the world causing changes that could topple the European Union and have contributed to instability in Central Asia. The great Depression in the 30's preceded WWII. In today's world Multinational Corporations control massive amounts of resources and power. Could a change in the mind set of the economic elite change the future without the conflict of world war or nuclear exchanges? Nuclear weapons and nuclear war are still a very real possibility, the release of nuclear waste into the Pacific ocean after the earth quake and tsunami in japan would be minor compared to the release of radioactive material in a nuclear assault. It could accelerate evolution dramatically, but at the cost of terrible suffering and death. Can the world change fast enough to avoid such a conflict? Should it?
  25. I'm posting a lot, but I'm just realizing what some of my issues are. I have a hard time leaving my house. I actually experience rage when I have to leave. I thought it was all the things I have to do to get ready to leave the house that bothered me. But, I think it's actually leaving my house that bothers me. If you've experienced the same and healed from it, I'd be interested to know your experience from that. What shadows did you uncover? How did you heal them? Did it work?