You feel stuck because growing up you learned that to be loved, you have to be good. But to be good you have to be humble and unworthy. However universal law says that in order to get love, you have to feel worthy. So your subconscious mind thinks that you're trying to convince it that to get love, you have to be bad. But it knows that if you're bad, you're unlovable. So there is a stand off between the way love really works and the way your parents taught you that love works.