Angelica Minguez

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  1. Thank you so much. I really, really needed this advice. I've been crying for the 30+ minutes, because my ex told me he's going to start talking to other women. My self-esteem is so low, and I haven't been taking proper care of myself for weeks. (My diet has been horrendous--I've been malnourished, and putting too much salt in my body, so my triggers became amplified.) Thank you for your compassionate response, too. It really hurts. It's been sucky. But the very least, I know more of what I want in a partner. I'm still very, very sad. I'm going to start seriously applying your advice from today onward. My ex telling me this knocked me out of my denial, and my false hope that part of me kept feeling that maybe he would love me again like before (which I could logically tell he wasn't this time). Thank you again. I'm glad I'm not alone. ~Angelica
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    Hi, Teal. It really strokes my ego to be able to say I'm in the same boat as you--woke up feeling crappy, but nothing, for me at least, would seem to be able to give me a mood boost today. Actually maybe, if I distract myself enough, but obviously, that's not exactly the best way to do it. Worried I'm going to keep my mood down/prolong it, though. I had a dream which brought out the remnants of the heartbreak I felt, but dull. Second and last dream of the morning showed the process of me moving on. Even though I woke up feeling crappy, I'm glad that second dream was nice. Thanks for sharing Teal. I'm glad we're able to see further into you. I hope your inner child feels our support, and feels seen by us. Love you lots, ~Angelica P.S. I watched the interview you did in 2016 which you highlighted on your/one of your recent newsletter emails, and for some reason while I was watching I thought you would feel like the best person ever to cuddle with. (My mind imagined what it was like.) It was strange and inspiring. And it was also, very, very lovely. P.P.S. I felt a little better writing this. Thanks Teal!
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    Beautiful. Thank you for sharing this experience so vividly and intimately. I am 'incredibly' envious of your capabilities at this point in time. But I felt like I was almost there, through reading your words--they're so powerful. Well said. I resonate with this wholeheartedly.
  4. Thank you (': Thank you so much. I'll definitely be coming back to read this when I'm especially down in the dumps about this. I just can't help but love him, but to cling to him, even as he's pushing me farther away. Even as his feelings have faded. Again, thank you. Things are a bit clearer now, and I feel a bit better.
  5. I honestly need after-break-up comfort words, if anyone is willing... My boyfriend and I have been together for about 2.7 years. I've been absent from myself for the best of those years when he loved me ardently, and the most. I only really got to be more present for him in person for...2 days, regrettably. The rest of the time when I was able to be present with him--he was 5 states away at another college, and I didn't have the damn chance. The distance ended up breaking our bond. I still love him, and he still cares for me to a point, but I think our relationship has reached "completion" where our souls are not in the relationship now. I...can't easily accept that he doesn't love me anymore, after he's loved me fully for years... I...can't help but remember the boy who doted on me, every day, who loved my body no matter how it looked, who thought my face was beautiful no matter the angle, even though I often thought it was ugly, who loved my hair when he first saw me, and it had been thinning. I can't help but remember how sweet our relationship was. And I'm grieving for it. I miss it, and I feel like the Universe has betrayed me, my soul moving off when I didn't want it to. I know the reasons for this happening--I've already somewhat come to terms with the benefits of what's happenings. But I love this man. I love him so much...so much. And it seems I will lose him. My best friend. My heart. Thanks for reading.
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    Hi Teal, Your descriptions of the energetics of the castles are...stunning. I wish I felt that level of connection to...anything. It sucks to be turned against by the people you loved so much. I...experienced that once to a much lesser degree, during a break-up. I can really only imagine the amount of pain you're in. I hope you have people to comfort you, just as I hope for myself now. It seems best to take a rest from the limelight. I love the vulnerability you shared. I'm not feeling so great today either, but I hope I managed to convey some level of comfort. I love you Teal. You've always been a companion. ~Angelica
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    My CP session with Sefana was amazing. She was so loving, patient, and so understanding throughout the whole process--which was especially important to me because I had so many instances where my self-doubt and self-sabotaging habits would kick in during the visualizations, and I'd make everything twisted and dark. Sefana was able to adapt so quickly, and guide me back into the process, or change it to how I needed it in an instant. She's amazing. My process came to a beautiful close after so many twists and turns. I highly recommend Sefana!
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    Teal, I've realized by reading this, that my thought processes are very much alike to your thought processes--at the point of this blog--in terms of resistance. It made me feel like...it was 'okay' to be human. It made me feel like I wasn't alone--that there wasn't some deficit in my thinking or reactions. Spiritual perfectionism has haunted me (even though I never seemed to get spirituality right in the first place from my perspective, ha ha...). Today, at least while I remember--I feel like...I can live with this humanity in me. Thank you.
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    I'm reading this in 2018, and still it touches my heart. It's so beautiful to consider that you did find such a man (I watched your online interview having to do with your and Ale's relationship). I love it. I love you. I have a lot of darkness too, and I was lucky enough to find a man who was able to accept and love it as who I was. I love this blog Teal. I love it.
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    I used to be like this, the majority--or all--of the 6 things you listed. Number 4 dropped from my list once my life situation shifted into something much better--such as having a cleaner house in comparison to the hoarder house that was a result of, most especially, my mother's emotional trappings. And it helped that I found someone outside of my family who loved me. For a long time, 1, 2, 3, 5, and 6 were a large part of my life. I was miserable, but didn't know. How could I? Positive emotion--the truest, highest forms, such as appreciation and love--were alien, absolutely alien to me. I had a fear of intimacy. I was scared of losing anything that I could possibly gain, so I subconsciously made sure to gain nothing. Nothing. No attachments, no ability to feel happy about the things I had, no gratitude for the endless love my partner showed and sent to me in endless ways... that was, until he broke up with me. The loss and grieving was unavoidable. The barrier I didn't know I had toward 'grief' specifically was blown apart. It crumbled and what was left was the hole of heartbreak in my chest--the same feeling I had when my mother locked me (I think when I was around 4 years old) in a room. The room was dark. It had a bed too high for me. I think I may have only been locked in there for...say 15 minutes? But as a child where every moment lasted forever, it was torture. It broke my heart. Part of me doesn't know why I'm telling this here. It's probably because I'm lonely and need to express. But also...I understand. I can understand the misery because I now understand what appreciation and love are. I hope...I hope that you guys can find the source of your loss and grief before the Universe decides to push you into it. But who knows? It certainly helped me, the way it happened. My wish and hope for you, who resonate with those 6 in the list, is that you can also feel what gratitude and love are like. I never knew... I hope the best for you. C:
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    Hello, I am also quite lonely, and am also looking for a friend, or someone to talk to. I just had a break up with my boyfriend, and are taking a 4 week break from talking to find ourselves, out of love for ourselves and each other. I have to crunch my time and progression in order to complete my applications to transfer to a college that can fund me in little over a month. Ugh, I'm just a bit of a mess right now and want to connect very badly with someone, to just talk about my conflicts, and perhaps you can tell me yours? Anyone can message me through Teal's site. If not, my name is Angelica Minguez on Facebook, and I have a goofy picture of me and my ex as my profile picture, so you'd know it's me. Thanks for reading!
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    THAT WAS AMAZING CONTENT! Thank you to all who participated!
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    Personally, I love hearing about both sides of your life Teal, from work and content to personal matters. I think that a reason that I love hearing about your personal life is that, for me, personally, the majority of what I've seen/heard/learned from you is the information you've been providing us. And it's been wonderful! I simply revel at the prospect of learning more about you, who have taught me so much for the past few years.
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    Wow, Teal. This blog--its sentiment and outpour--is more than I could've imagined. So beautiful, that I nearly teared up the second time I read it. And in that beauty is also a sadness, in the way that I, and most likely many others, begin to fully understand what should have been and wasn't. And what should be when the time comes. In my youth, I envy Winter for his beautiful, spiritual, wise mother, while I still feel the effects of my own. But in my youth, I'm so glad, and grateful, that this knowledge, from you, comes to me now. That, when the times comes, my own child will be treated in the way that Winter is. I'm so glad to have you as an example, not only for a spiritual teacher, but a mother. Perhaps in my next life, humanity will have progressed enough that I would have a mother like you, Teal. I do love you, and thank you ~ Angelica
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    Wow, Teal, I did the exercise that you wrote in your blog, and I felt a change by the end of it. While I was writing, I was so filled with hatred--but most of all, for my own race. I and my family have been caused so much pain by our relatives and old "friends" of the same race (and I have also experienced a lot of pain from my own immediate family) that I realized I felt the most hateful and developed the most and most derogatory stereotypes and judgements against my own race. It was pretty crazy. I still have to write about what my vulnerabilities and pains are in regards to my judgements of each race, but while writing, it was pretty liberating to feel all of the pent up emotions "spewing" out. Thank you again Teal, for another enlightening experience. Will finish the exercise, hopefully later in the day, once I muster up more courage. Much love, Angelica