I have a question about the doors. What if the open doors in my life look like pain? Is it a matter of "which pain do I choose"? Does it only look like pain or is it really pain? Am I projecting?
For example let's say that what I want is a client. Then I get a client (open door), but the client comes with conditions. If I take on this project, I will not get paid, for example, and that is painful. Then let's say I ask for another client, one that pays this time. Then I get a paying client, but again, there is a painful condition. Now the project itself, what the client wants, is somehow a