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    Thank you for updating us on your situation. When I watched the synchronization workshop, I felt connected to you because I have similar problems in my life. In my case, I've experienced the opposite of enmeshment which is abandonment trauma. What have you been doing during the last five months? Why did you fail to move out? If you need to earn money, the functional approach is to (a) acquire and work at some job, or (b) create and offer some product or service to others, or (c) derive value from the fluctuation of some system, e.g. trading with currency/stocks or gaming the casino industry strategically. You do know what you need to do to actually succeed in making money, right? If you want any job then go down the street and ask or leave an application for a job in every shop. I've done that. As for brainstorming, I know two people who didn't live in apartments for a couple of years in their lives; one of my teachers lived in the toolshed of someone for $50/month and later an abandoned building, and one of my friends completed a long bike trip for ~$1/day where he often slept in his tent wherever. In crowded cities, hotels may be cheaper than apartments. What kind of space do you want to move into? I doubt you want anything too different from the traditional apartment. I don't know what to say about your parts work.
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    @Inquisitor, @MistaRender, @Scot. You three have this pattern the strongest. I think there was some other thread, "who killed the children", where I also made a single comment on this. For this thread, I only wrote to Inquisitor in the very beginning that I find his comments boring. It is like you are walking along this path, and then you are very concerned with the landscape...... I think what I just wrote is very funny :D I feel drawn to join your discussion because I see that if you understood certain things then you would behave differently. Especially if this was a conversation IRL, I would look simultaneously for ways to leave you because I think that when something was said, you would likely not understand. After all if you need an explanation then you don't understand, and if you understand then you need no explanation. The flow of your arguments sounds very pluralistic.
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    Do you understand that "insight" doesn't change anything? If living a certain way requires some insight then living is conditional. It isn't the realizing something about yourself that changes anything. There is nothing for you to understand such that your life will change. Like the saying goes, Living is created.
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    Once I wrote a public diary for a period of one year on At that time, the website was a dark background with white text and almost no formatting. I wanted to understand what "normal" is so I probably read around 100 diaries, and I found that every person was really broken in at least some obvious way. [If broken isn't normal (which I don't know) then such a bleak website only attracted broken writers.] The sad and frustrating thing in that aspect was that "my feeling" of any writer didn't really change even as many hundreds of days passed. Eventually, I left like I think I leave this forum soon. I haven't read even half of your entries, but what has your experience of writing here been?
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    @Crystal Rob You do call yourself "Crystal" Rob so I figure you knew about crystals, and I was right! I think the Crystal Bible will suit me well. I actually thought about how Teal would play with the crystals from the crystal table in the early workshops (or only NZ?), and I want that too. I think that would be very calming. There was something else that I've wanted to ask you so I write a PM.
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    Introduction to Crystals I would like to learn about crystals. What can you recommend as a first introduction to crystals? And @Crystal Rob your alias begs the question Can you recommend any learning resources? It is alright if a book or whatever that comes to mind for you is particularly dense. Whenever the author just writes from a "knowing" of principles, I tend to learn very rapidly. There is this distinction I want to share with you. I imagine that if you have decades of experience with spirituality, you understand already. It is like when I look some people in the eyes, I see mastery. I see this with Teal and a very few others. Do you know what I mean? My only criteria is that if possible I want to learn about crystals from an author who is like that. The reason I've developed this interest is because I want to own a crystal that can feel like "serenity" or "vibrance" to me. Maybe I want to be able to make my space feel more like however I want to feel, and perhaps crystals can help. I came to remember now; When I was 4-5, I would care about stones a lot. I think that was very helpful at the time.
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    Can you cope with consciousness?
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    A thing that came up for me is one principle of Nutrition; If some food tastes bad then it is harmful to the body. Most people don't align their actions with this principle. It would be like a slap in the face for most parents, I imagine. I remember I stopped that when I internalized my parents' belief that waste is bad. It can be the case that some food tastes good because the body needs that food for emotional rather than merely physical reasons. For example, you can illuminate this principle for yourself by Chewing one bite thoroughly for perhaps several minutes Eating the same food in many different conditions; when full, hungry, sick, etc. Swallowing your food for several consecutive meals while paying attention to the body (Dry) fasting and emerging yourself in any arising feelings of hunger (/thirst) Also if any of you actually try to do any of what I just mentioned then please say so and maybe share your experiences. Usually, I've found that people just go "yeah, yeah, I agree or disagree" when I talk, and then nothing, and then I often reply with different ways to experience that for themselves (aka "bridges"), and then they don't do what I say.
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    Ask your friend... My conclusion after experimenting with inedia is that nutrition only exists as our beliefs about it. If you like to eat pizza for breakfast, and I could ever argue in a scientific way that this was unhealthy, and you were convinced to change your behavior then you made me into an expert... Btw if I could choose, I would have loved to live on vegan pizza for a very long time as a child
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    Yes! And, like Buddha said, the consequence of being angry is the experience of anger. I tried to say that in the reward/punishment thread. Must be ironic...
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    I'm not knowledgeable in the field dentistry, but feel like I could contribute a few things. Personally, I would never touch any non-holistic modalities for healing. Consider this, If she has manifested tooth problems then there are probably specific dynamics at play that I don't know. If you focus on the physical sensation of pain then the pain will always evaporate. Any pain sensation not only ceases to be bothersome – that sensation will not exist. Remember that this skill doesn't actually heal anything..
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    It isn't belief. I wouldn't say that reward/punishment applies to my perspective in the sense that my experience of integrity is reward, and disintegration is punishment.
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    In my case, I can't break my word. If I tell someone that I do X then I have no choice about it; X will be done. Living any other way ... seems ridiculous because who would I then be? Accountability has nothing to do with reward or punishment. The consequence of lying is my very experience of who I am. It occurred to me that letting others down is a whole new level of I-don't-care that I haven't known before. At a time, I remember the act of giving my word virtually became a way of controlling myself so I ceased to do that as much. @notfromthisplanet @Mark Joseph Middleton How do you experience apathy? What is your life like?
  14. I've listened to this one twice, Jim Carrey is bar none my favorite comedian. PLUS! he knows who he is which is even better. Normally, I find consciousness isolating; like I speak, and no one listens. But when Jim Carrey speaks and no one understands, he makes it funny! Edit: Sunrise cuts and doesn't show the whole Fashion Week interview. It leaves the rest of the interview here,