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    Thank you so much, all you wonderful people. I must say, it feels a little strange, but at the same time so good to be heard and understood. It’s really difficult to ask for help and opening up is really scary, but I’m learning. For me, the greatest obstacle is the fear of abandonment which usually takes the form of indifference. It’s not even the physical abandonment that I’m afraid of, but it’s more about the other person not being present, interested or involved in the relationship. Sure, we all have different languages of love and different value systems, and it’s possible that what I perceive as indifference isn’t what I think it is… Thank you again for your advice and for sharing your stories and feelings – it means the world to me!
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    Isolation and being stuck I know it's not a new topic, but... I feel stuck. It’s unbearable to stay alone and impossible to reach out. This emotional isolation is suffocating. I have no clue how to trust people, how to receive love, so recently I’ve just shut myself away from people. In many relationships I was usually the giver, receiving nothing in return. I’ve done some shadow work but reached the point when it’s way too painful. It’s so painful to crave genuine connection and being terrified of it, not believing it’s possible to get it anyway. There’s part of me that even doesn’t want to write this post. Can anyone relate? What do you do when you feel so stuck?
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    Greetings to all from Latvia!