beautiful.....this is the key to collective healing today. i wonder why more gurus or whatever, haven't made as much of a big deal about authenticity. what i like about you is that you place your healing stuff in the context of the actual fucked up modern world. and the most important thing is people actually feeling their real feelings. sad to say that we have to get there before we can even collectively move past that. we look outside of us for 'the illusion' and the matrix not fully realizing that the biggest illusions of all are the ones we hold about ourselves and how we REALLY feel about this mess.
I was wayyyyyyy too sensitive to build the *walls* the normal people have. By normal, I mean your usual person who is an amalgamation of conditioning mixed in w glimmers of their true selves. But not building them allows me to see through people and see that deep deep deep down, they feel the same pain I cant avoid. Not building them forces me to be authentic because its too painful to my inner sensitivity not to and i can see all the parts of me clearly, they cannot hide from me in compartments. Not building those walls means this world looks very insane to me and i cannot rationalize that away in order to build a boxed in comfortable little life in which the way things are is even remotely tolerable. Not building them has allowed me to keep a childlike level of passion, empathy and its why I can't do things that hurt others or live in a way that denies the urgency of what needs to shift. Not building them means the thought of prison or genocide makes me physically sick to this day and I am COMPELLED to do something, to find my purpose in the shift. I hope you keep shouting to the rooftops about authenticity because I for one am tired of swimming in a sea of disconnected fakeness and the interpersonal isolation it causes.
Id rather be around people in pain and trying to heal, then people in pain, unaware, and disinterested in going there. We should all be dealing w the collective pain as it comes up for healing. It should not just be on a few of us. And as things continue to speed up and shift and collapse, I have a feeling that a lot of peoples' psychological structures will be gutted and their ego walls will be of no use anymore, which will scare the shit out of them, and people like us will find more of a place among them, helping people into a new life of real emotions and heart centered authenticity.