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  1. Y está bueno? Yo hace tiempo que lo quiero leer pero como no tengo tarjeta todavía no lo puedo comprar
  2. Hi, Crystal Rob andPastor George. Thank you very much, I just read both answers right now. I must say that they contributed a lot with what they have written to me. It has been a great help
  3. Si, a mi me interesa, por acá no me conecto muy seguido
  4. As a girl, at about 6 years of age, I suffered sexual abuse for several years. I spent my whole life doing therapy, with a lot of psychologists, I'm still doing therapy. When I started doing therapy, it was a learning problem, nothing related to sexual abuse. But psychologists have never told me what they knew about my traumas (it's part of psychology), and it never emerged that my learning problems (and many others) were the cause of my abuse, I counted it as something else in my story. Just two years ago I made akashicos records, and that's when my guides told me that the cause of my problems was my abuse, that's how I knew it. Now, my doubt is this, since no psychologist was very helpful, I don't know how to heal the consequences that brought me that abuse, repressed emotions, such as hatred (that's what I realized) shyness, etc. I don't know how to heal those emotions. And I also find it strange that when I talk about this trauma, I feel nothing, I don't distress, I don't cry, unlike other people who have also been sexually abused, I don't understand why that does not happen to me.
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  6. Yes, I really feel that I have to face the fear, but it is difficult when you feel that when you face it you are in danger
  7. Some time ago I started to get interested in spirituality, I saw many videos of Teal, I started meditating daily, then when my interest grew I looked for other youtubers who talk about the same theme. Unfortunately, I found youtubers who treat the subject spirituality but focused on the negative side, about the low astral, about how they can attack you while you sleep, everything is danger, etc. I saw those videos because I am and I was always very curious, but after seeing them I began to distrust everything and stopped meditating. First of all I would like to tell my origin from fear. It originates from a trauma of when I was a child, in fact it has nothing to do with the spiritual original trauma, which is sexual in fact, but as a girl instead of reacting to trauma with anguish or depression, I reacted with fear, Which was later repressed, until now. It is not a specific fear, but the fear in general to be damaged in some way, whatever it is. What is happening to me recently is that my thoughts are soaring, and I can not take control of them. That is, while doing an ordinary task, as now that I am writing this text, I cross a word or image. (They are almost always words), that is repeated constantly, I can not keep silent, I can not control it, I can be a week with a word in my mind, all those words always generate fear, for example: I cross the word "demon" and then I can not forget it and I'm a whole week with the word in my mind, like a woodpecker drilling my head. And I can not face it, I do not know how to do it, it always comes back when I least expect it. Long ago I made a tarot card Osho Zen, if someone uses these letters could give me a better interpretation, this was what came out: 1-Here and Now: Control 2-Letter of Resistance: Breakthrough 3-Intuition: Silence 4-Response intelligence to emotion: Beyond Illusion 5-Answer: The Avar 6-Relaxation and acceptance: Receptivity. 7-New level: Fatigue
  8. Hi, that's not a Citrine, it's an oven-treated Amethyst. The true Citrine is smoky and light yellow:
  9. Yellow: because it is the color of intelligence, it is the color of the sun and it is a color that gives life. Fox: Because it is cheerful and innocent, because it conveys a lot of beauty and spontaneity, because it is a source of inspiration. Sea: because the sound seems very calm, has movement and life, has salt, which cleans. <3
  10. I share this CP a few days ago, I did a sleepless night I was in a dark room, in which a human figure appeared hidden behind a haystack. She was very ugly, so much so that her figure was not clear. It was deformed and dark, had holes and holes everywhere, trembled, frightened and she was frightened too, so much so that she could attack me at any moment to defend herself. I let him get closer to me and I gradually felt an agony, discomfort and fear increase in me. As I was afraid of her, I gradually changed her to a luminous female figure to transmute that fear. But before long I felt that I had been wrong to change it so quickly. I felt I had to stay with her a little longer. Then it returned to its original form and I kept with it, was a figure of shadows that still made me feel uncomfortable and gave me much pity, anguish and shame. But I take her to a nice place, with a beach and a grill. I treated her like a friend or sister, I prepared some food on the grill and at that moment, with her back to her, I felt she wanted to kill me, while I was on my back, although I was afraid, I kept quiet and did not I turned to see it. I served the plate of food. After that I wanted to remove the hood that covered her, to change her appearance a little. But he forced himself back to his former appearance, so I did not try any more and left him as he was. I asked her to go to the beach to swim, there were people and I was very embarrassed walking with her among the people, but I did. We began to swim and already inside the sea she began to move with great dexterity and rapidity in the water, it looked like a marine serpent. When I saw her swim I was surprised and asked her "You like this place, right? At that moment I lost my fear and began to see it differently. She stood in front of me and with a gesture she replied "Yes". She put her hand in the center of my chest as a sign of gratitude and I felt she was telling me that I could go and there came to me a feeling of anguish, attachment. I was anxious to leave her. I left the sea and like a snake I took off a layer of skin that I left on the sand
  11. I'm going to fuck off and the train is going to crush me
  12. Hola, cómo estás? Yo soy de Buenos Aires. Que bueno encontrar a alguien de Arg. creí que era casi imposible jaja