Honestly I want ro believe it's just a phase. I'm tired of being alone. From where I stand It feels like forever. I'm constantly pressured to be in a relationship and take others best interest while I GET NOTHING GOOD IN RETURN. Again from where I stand I can't perceive it to be just phase. It feels like it's my lifestyle. And it really is the BEST healing modality I've had experienced on earth [SELF CENTEREDNESS]. But then again thanks dear Teal for your perspective.