I have always prepared for the worse, just as you wrote. By having this awareness, I believe it is time to affirm that the good I want in life will follow through... Thank you so much for sharing just wisdom. I feel a very deep connection to you as I'm sure so many others do, but for me, that is rare. I wish for you, the second part of your life be of all love and wholeness and blessings. I pray that loneliness leaves you to never return.