Something I integrated in my daily routine that really helps me and is absolutely predictable is: grab a cup of coffee/tea, put on comfy and warm clothes and take the time to watch/feel the sunrise every morning. Take as much time as you can/feels good to arrive in the day, search for things you can see/hear/smell/feel that are uplifting in that moment. Breathe in the fresh air/energy, connect with the earth, connect with the arriving day. It´s a small thing, it helps me to ground myself, calm myself, arrive in the present day and sometimes it is absolutely magical I started this a week ago
Wow thats intense!
I feel a deep urge to question everything I am/like/dislike the last couple of weeks. So intense that it feels like I am literally sick of extra baggage that isn´t even me. So I started sorting out things in my environment that aren´t true to me. I recognised there is a difference between "I like something" vs. "I like something AND this is really me". What I mean by that is just because I like for example bright colors in someones house doesn´t mean that I necessarily like to live in such a house. I never questioned why I like things. Most of the time I like things from o
My favourite place would be a very old huge forest with giant trees and lots of moss. Maybe a River that runs through it. This to me feels comforting, cloaking, deep, ancient, wise, communicative, calm, eternal, in harmony with everything.
I feel the most supported by people accompany me. Whether by giving me space/room while I express my emotions (instead of abandon me or gaslight the sh** out of my mind) or accompany me to people, places, etc... so that I don´t get so overwhelmed and tense that I disasociate. I never had that as a child, my parents were all caught up in themselves and I had to function or sit still like a doll which lead to constant dissociation in me and a very anxious mindset. Fortunately I found my partner 3 years ago and he acutally loves to accompany and "protect" me like a shield. So now I can relearn to
Nailed it. That´s actually a theme in the wounds I am currently working on (or resisting to work on..) I realized lately that the reason why my resistance or my anger escalates so fast sometimes ist because the main problem was that I was punished for showing pain/sadness/fear/you name it because it was not okay to react at all to what my caregivers decided.
Thank you for reminding me about this question I am sure it will help me
What overwhelms me today is the amount of things I want/need to do vs. my low energy level. Im on my period right now and it really feels like winter time in my body. Tired, slow, all focus is in my womb. And the things I need to do now for example in the garden/with the family etc. overwhelms me.
Actually you already answered the question for me.. Little Mermaid. I remember LIVING in the bathtub playing Arielle. I also remember that the most beautiful thing about it was being able to move 360 Degrees in the water instead of being tied down to the ground in my reality where everything felt so extemely heavy and dense, cold and straight.
What comes to my mind now, is that her mother wasn´t there. Only her father. I grew up with both parents but I never felt any connection to my mother - as if she wasn´t really there. Only the ever aggressive, stressed out, abusive father who didn´t lis
I am proud about my capability to change. As a child it saved my life to changing like a chameleon to whoever was around me so as to be accepted and not get hurt (so much). Now as an adult, I realized those patterns and I put myself back together. And now I can use my ability "to know how to change something" to support myself in becoming my true self by slowly pulling back all those layers of adaptive behaviour.
If I would be happy all the time, that means I couldn´t dicern any longer between danger and safety. So basically this would make me a lemming...
If I would be happy all the time - correct me if I am wrong - this would mean I would also no longer have an impuls for expansion. Which therefore would be the oposite of what sources intension for creating me was in the first place...
So there is no point whatsoever to choose Lemmingess, äääh I mean Happiness.
Therefore my answer would be FREEDOM.
I feel like I want to vomit right now. Taking this perspective in makes me feel so powerless and in pain that I don´t know what to do with it. If this is the future, I don´t want to live here. I want connection AND freedom. This feels so wrong I am deeply in pain. I worked the last few years on my traumas and wounds so that, now, for the first time since childhood I understand what closeness and connection even means and how deeply deeply I crave it and need it.
And now this..
Thank you for writing this, I saw this probability as my worst case scenario but I fervently wa