Imatter

Taking care of my mother. I struggle with this so much. I always felt abandoned by her but I'm the only child close to her so I feel I have to out of duty. I still have so much anger towards her, its hard to reconcile those emotions and be empathetic to her needs.

Being successful and confronting my abuser. My self-worth has been non-existent after being abused as a small child and everyday after making the same toxic relationships. I feel that because I'm not worth anything to any one because I didn't matter to my parents so I internalized that thought and have lived that way until about 3 years ago. Its like I shouldn't be successful in anything because I'm damaged, imperfect, worthless. I know this isn't true but I feel like I sabotage myself when things are going well so I can control the loss or disappointment.

My chosen family, feeling grounded, and my fur babies