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  1. Goldsky

    Hi Megan, I agree that this info should be shared on a main stream platform. Maybe Teal's team can look for something. In the meantime, I'll be sharing the video on my social media. Maybe if everyone shares to their social media then it'll reach more people. Maybe finding a way to post to a news page on Facebook or something like that would be good. Jeanette
  2. Goldsky

    This is a great idea. I've been looking for this type of connection that you speak of. I too have lots of people around me that aren't very aware or in alignment with Teal's teachings. I also love talking about all these types of things, especially psychology and the mirroring that happens in life. I would love to get in on this too.
  3. I just wanted to let you know that you absolutely can make a living at blogging. You do this through google adsense and affiliate marketing. I know of a website that has a full 5 course training certification to teach you how to build your website, start blogging using keyword targeting to get ranked in google, how to put in all the ads, do reviews and then link in amazon products that you then get commission off of, how to market yourself on social media, etc. They teach all of it. But there is a cost to it to learn all that and it does take some time to build up to though. For awhile I wanted to try affiliate marketing and blogging but didn't know how to go about it. Then I came across this website. It's definitely worth the cost to invest in your own online business. I tried it before but lost touch with what direction I was heading with. I'm back on the site now using it to build up my own spiritual business online. Let me know if you would like the name of the website to check out. They do have a free 7 day trial so you can try it out and see if it's something you wanna do. I see you and your pain. I too feel the same, want to be seen and heard but have a fear of being seen and heard. Doing the completion process and parts work has helped resolve some of the feelings that were coming up. I'm starting to work with people one on one with channeling higher self/spirit guides/angels and life coaching combined. The life coaching basically works with a person one on one to identify what areas of their life that they are not happy with and then you work to make an improvement in those areas, and also identify what beliefs are holding them back. If you have worked with these emotions with cp then you may benefit from working with a life coach to get moving towards what you want to do in life. It's hard to get the motivation for something when you feel so bogged down by a job you don't like, but having someone there to encourage and motivate you and who cares about your success can be extremely helpful. Hope this helps. Feel free to reach out to me if you want.
  4. Thank you for seeing me. Yes we tend to mirror a lot lately, I've seen that happening within the teal tribe. The group dynamic sounds like what I'm looking for. That's what I'm looking for, belonging, which I've never really been able to get very deeply. I agree that it's easier to take someone if you know what's going on with them. I will join your Facebook page. Thank you!
  5. Seriously looking for an intentional community to join So yesterday after the online workshop I realized that the feeling I have been getting when in public social situations has been that I want to hide myself. But yet I want to be seen and also I can't be seen because of perspective. It scares me so much that it makes me want to run and hide. I didn't realize the pain that I was in until it was channeled by Graciela. Also I feel like I can't have boundaries because of my family. I feel too close to them and they keep inflicting trauma to myself and my daughter. Last night I couldn't sleep too well. And when I finally got to sleep I had these intense dreams. Even as I was falling asleep I felt that Teal would be in my dream. In the dream I was in a building with Teal and she told me she could use my services. I've been a massage therapist for 12 years. After that I was giving Teal a massage. Graciela was in the dream as well. Maybe even her whole community. I can't remember all the details exactly. But I know for sure that I was interacting with both Teal and Graciela. Then it lead into another dream where I was interacting with one of my co-workers. Something happened and I hurt this co-worker by accident. Their reaction was what hurt in the dream. They turned around and had this look and reaction of disgust. That caused me to feel shame. Then I woke up from the dream. Today I felt so overwhelmed with emotional pain that I had to leave work early. I couldn't keep my composure to get through the day. The tears wouldn't stop and I ended up breaking down in front of the lead therapist and told him I needed to go home because I wasn't feeling well emotionally. So now I'm trying to process everything I'm feeling. I feel powerless to the situation I'm in because I don't feel freedom at my job. I no longer want to work full-time as a massage therapist. I feel obligated to work because I otherwise don't have money. If I had my way I would work only part time 2-3 days a week. And I feel reluctant to call out if I've got a full schedule because I feel bad for leaving the clients with no one to work on them even when I'm feeling so bad. I know doing massage is not my life purpose and I'm here to do more important work. It's just getting started on the path financially that's stopping me. I feel like I need to move away from my family because they are causing more trauma for myself and my daughter. I want to move far away from them. I also want an intentional community that can give myself and my daughter a supportive environment so that I can work on changing the dynamic I have with her. I would like the intentional community to do cp and shadow work together too. It's very hard to change habits when family who has the same old beliefs that inflict the trauma is so close that they end up influencing my parenting style because my boundaries are close to nonexistent. And no matter what I try to do my boundaries don't stay up. It also hurts that my mom doesn't see the emotional pain she's caused so that's gaslighting me into more pain. So today I feel like I'm not being seen in anyway by anyone who I know here in the city I live in. I want the connection but I can't find it here. I also feel like in the dream I had the connection but it was ripped away from me so that makes me sad. And then that leads me into the feeling of powerlessness like I can't do anything about my situation. Writing this helped me get perspective on what I was feeling and why. I just did the cp with the feeling of powerlessness and it uncovered a memory where my dad had purposely pinched me to get me to cry. I feel a bit better after doing the process. Now for me to take action and figure out what I'm going to do. I know that I seriously have to move now so that I can completely heal. So that'll be my next focus to figure out where. I'll be keeping an eye out for an intentional community that I resonate with. Please contact me if any intentional communities are looking for new members. I'll be saving up so I can move out of state in the mean time.
  6. Seriously looking for an intentional community to join So yesterday after the online workshop I realized that the feeling I have been getting when in public social situations has been that I want to hide myself. But yet I want to be seen and also I can't be seen because of perspective. It scares me so much that it makes me want to run and hide. I didn't realize the pain that I was in until it was channeled by Graciela. Also I feel like I can't have boundaries because of my family. I feel too close to them and they keep inflicting trauma to myself and my daughter. Last night I couldn't sleep too well. And when I finally got to sleep I had these intense dreams. Even as I was falling asleep I felt that Teal would be in my dream. In the dream I was in a building with Teal and she told me she could use my services. I've been a massage therapist for 12 years. After that I was giving Teal a massage. Graciela was in the dream as well. Maybe even her whole community. I can't remember all the details exactly. But I know for sure that I was interacting with both Teal and Graciela. Then it lead into another dream where I was interacting with one of my co-workers. Something happened and I hurt this co-worker by accident. Their reaction was what hurt in the dream. They turned around and had this look and reaction of disgust. That caused me to feel shame. Then I woke up from the dream. Today I felt so overwhelmed with emotional pain that I had to leave work early. I couldn't keep my composure to get through the day. The tears wouldn't stop and I ended up breaking down in front of the lead therapist and told him I needed to go home because I wasn't feeling well emotionally. So now I'm trying to process everything I'm feeling. I feel powerless to the situation I'm in because I don't feel freedom at my job. I no longer want to work full-time as a massage therapist. I feel obligated to work because I otherwise don't have money. If I had my way I would work only part time 2-3 days a week. And I feel reluctant to call out if I've got a full schedule because I feel bad for leaving the clients with no one to work on them even when I'm feeling so bad. I know doing massage is not my life purpose and I'm here to do more important work. It's just getting started on the path financially that's stopping me. I feel like I need to move away from my family because they are causing more trauma for myself and my daughter. I want to move far away from them. I also want an intentional community that can give myself and my daughter a supportive environment so that I can work on changing the dynamic I have with her. I would like the intentional community to do cp and shadow work together too. It's very hard to change habits when family who has the same old beliefs that inflict the trauma is so close that they end up influencing my parenting style because my boundaries are close to nonexistent. And no matter what I try to do my boundaries don't stay up. It also hurts that my mom doesn't see the emotional pain she's caused so that's gaslighting me into more pain. So today I feel like I'm not being seen in anyway by anyone who I know here in the city I live in. I want the connection but I can't find it here. I also feel like in the dream I had the connection but it was ripped away from me so that makes me sad. And then that leads me into the feeling of powerlessness like I can't do anything about my situation. Writing this helped me get perspective on what I was feeling and why. I just did the cp with the feeling of powerlessness and it uncovered a memory where my dad had purposely pinched me to get me to cry. I feel a bit better after doing the process. Now for me to take action and figure out what I'm going to do. I know that I seriously have to move now. So that'll be my next focus to figure out where. I'll be keeping an eye out for an intentional community that I resonate with. Please contact me if any intentional communities are looking for new members. I'll be saving up so I can move out of state in the mean time.
  7. That sounds great. I might come visit soon, after tax refund comes back. I think I will try your suggestion. I was thinking about advertising in some way. I've written a vision statement for what I intend for the community. Thanks for the info ?
  8. Joining or building an intentional community I've realized today that I want to join or help build an intentional community. I feel really isolated where I'm living. Even when I'm around my family I feel isolated. I would like to find my own family that's committed to shadow work. The few acquaintances that I have are not awake at all it seems. And I really want someone I can talk to about shadow work or some of the deeper things that I'm interested in. I don't know how to go about finding the people to join in building one or how to find one to join. I wish there were more tealers where I live in Jacksonville, Florida. If anyone has any insights or suggestions as to how I would go about finding an intentional community, I would be very appreciative.
  9. I think you are right about the connection between my thoughts and actions. It honestly depends on the client and how our energy meshes together. Some clients are easier than others. Some I find that it is very easy to help them and I do love clients like that. I think that I would enjoy having more of those types of clients. The joy that comes from knowing that I helped desolve some of a client's pain has always kept me going in the field. And I think that at times I forget to take care of myself. I think that's where the anger may come from. There needs to be more of a balance of self care. Which I think I've finally realized should come first before anything else.
  10. Forced to make life changes... Money and connection Recently I came to the conclusion that I needed to move out of my apartment because my income had decreased from starting a new job. My job change came after feeling disrespected by my last boss who was a narcissist and an alcoholic, she had a dui 2 days after I walked out. I won't lie and say that it wasn't funny seeing the universe work that way. After starting my new job I was working as an employee as opposed to an independent contractor making less an hour and getting taxes withheld from my checks. On top of that my ex boss did not pay me for the last 2 weeks of work that I did for her. She's done that to multiple people. Myself and 4 other people have connected to a lawyer that's handling the situation to get our money paid to us. But since then it was a ripple effect of me being late on paying bills. I was close to catching up and then in late November I decided that I needed to change my current hours and days I work to daytime hours in order to accommodate my 9 year old daughter. There were problems with her listening to my family members when I was at work and I decided that working nights and weekends was not great for her because I parent differently than my mom or my brother, they are narcissistic as well. They don't validate her feelings or give her room to be who she is. I have my faults but I do try my best with her. And I felt I needed to be there for her more actively especially on the weekends and after school. So my pay decreased even more after that. I realized that I must hold the belief that I must work hard for the money that I bring in and if I don't work hard then I don't get much money. I'm a massage therapist so the work I do is pretty hard physical labor. And sometimes my body gives out on me like yesterday my rib came out in my back and I was forced to go home early and get a chiropractic adjustment. And today I had to stay home to rest my back from the spasms from my rib coming out. This happens about 2-4 times a year or so either me being sick or something in my back going out. Last year my lower back went out completely and I couldn't stand up at all. After 2 adjustments it started to feel better though. That happened a couple months before I walked out of my last job I had. Usually when these episodes happen I'm forced to take time off to rest my body, therefore leaving me with less pay in the pay period in which it falls. The issue seems to lie in the fact that I only get paid for hands on work. I've recently realized that I need to find a way to have some passive income or either I'm never gonna get anywhere. It's this repeated cycle of me overworking myself and then having to suffer a pay decrease after being forced to take time off. I use to absolutely love my job. But as I've done lots of growth and become more aware of my personal sense of self I've realized that I'm coming to the end of my career as a massage therapist and I've got to get out of it soon. More and more I experience anger because I'm hurting my body to help someone else. And 12 years is a long time for a therapist. Now I'm on the precipice of figuring out where I'm being led to go. I'm now being forced to move out of my apartment because I can no longer pay the rent by myself. I'll be staying with family a couple weeks before I move into a cheaper place to live. Just gotta get some money saved up for a security deposit on a new place, something more in my income range. This change will help me start moving towards my goals of changing my career. In order to do that I need to have some money to put into it at first. I plan on taking a mediumship, starting a website to build a passive income, start spiritual life coaching certification training, and then start to build my brand online to do my own work that I want to complete. I have a lot more goals in mind once I'm in a place of financial security. Getting to this place of realization has been very stressful. It does scare me that I'm having to rely on family again for help. I find the more I'm around them the more I lose myself. But I do feel different after spending time searching and finding my sense of self. But at the same time I feel that my family are the only ones that can help me. I guess I'm also realizing that every single one of Teal's videos lately have been right on point with my current inner thoughts and dialogue. She always seems to answer questions that I have been searching for. And sometimes I don't realize I needed the information until I watch the video. Like her video on how to get what I want, in my current situation I think this is an issue for me. I realized while watching that video that I also have a aspect of me that longs for connection. I long for deep meaningful connection with other people who are like minded. I have a couple friends/acquaintances that I'm not able to connect with in that deep spiritual way. With this I know now that I must seek out those who are also awakened spiritually and seek awareness of themselves. What do you think? Do you think my issue with money is finding connection? I've always identified myself as a massage therapist. I even took great pride in what I do. I guess I've always used it as a means to connect with my friends over the years. Like an interesting topic of conversation, and a way to connect with fellow massage therapists. It's interesting to ponder, what would I be without being a massage therapist? I suppose I would be the person that I know I am on a deep spiritual level which is the connection I crave. I have been hurt by many people so I do find it hard to find the connection I'm looking for. This has been therapeutic writing this and I think it's helped me to see the block that I've been hanging onto.
  11. Goldsky

    Hi Sunshine, I've heard Teal talk about how when we are children before the age of 8 all our experiences are felt perceptions. She said it's common not to see images with your memories when you were very young. It is somatic in nature. You may not get images sometimes and that's completely normal considering how we don't even have our vision fully developed at first. You may experience the memory with any of your other senses, smell, touch, hear etc. These senses can have memories connected to them. Just like when a smell can cause a certain memory to pop up, like smelling a certain perfume or cologne. I myself do not usually get very many images either when I do the process. I usually have some feeling or knowing that bubbles forth to clue me into what memory I'm sensing. I also do not have many memories of when I was a child. I did recently uncover a birthing memory that I know I did not have any cognitive memory of. I'm still in my early stages of working with the process so I don't have too many memories that I've uncovered yet.
  12. Goldsky

    Hi David. It may be possible that you've absorbed something on an energetic level that's weighing you down. I would suggest for you to ground yourself and release any energy that's not yours into the earth and allow the earth to absorb them and transmute them. I usually do this in my daily meditation, visualizing a divine white light that comes down from source that flows through out my chakras starting from the crown going down to the root. As I do this I visualize the divine white light as it passes through each chakra carrying any negative energy that is not mine along with it. Next, I visualize the white light going deep into the earth, as it travels the energy that was not mine is absorbed and transmuted by the earth. From there I ground myself to the core of the earth. I usually go further with it and shield my auric field after the white light travels back up through all my chakras. I then visualize the divine white light starting to pour over my auric field starting from the back topside then wrapping around to the front and underneath completely enveloping me in divine white light. I then visualize that the white light becoming a permeable barrier and then it becomes pliable. When I shield myself, I use the intention for the shield is to keep me safe and it allows the highest vibration of love to enter and everything else bounces off. Then I pull the shield in skin tight, meaning I pull my auric field in to close it. I learned this technique when I was attuned for Reiki 1 and Reiki 2 and I have since developed it into what I feel works best for me. I’m highly empathic and highly sensitive. I tend to take on other people’s energy usually. Since I’ve made this a daily practice I don’t feel as if I take on other people’s energies as my own anymore. Instead I transmute them into the earth. Also going up to a tree and touching it can help release anything that isn’t yours. The energy of the tree will transmute it for you. You might want to consider getting an aura clearing too if you still feel weighed down after trying it. An aura clearing is usually done in a Reiki session. I've had pretty intense pain in my body that wouldn't release even after getting a massage. A coworker cleared my aura for me and I immediately felt a release in my hip and lower back where the pain was. I completely understand about the depression about the lack of relationships. I have felt that way myself lately. In fact, just before logging on I was feeling a bit down about the lack of deep connection in my life that I crave. I am looking for opportunities to connect with people, hence why I logged on tonight. I know the depression can get to you sometimes. I’ve been using the completion process lately to practice being with my emotions and working through them. It’s a great process. It’s hard to connect to people when everyone you meet seems so asleep spiritually. But I am starting to see that most of these quirks about personalities are just some of my triggers popping up. Which I’m starting to see as opportunities for me to do the completion process. So, I’ve been trying to think of ways to put myself in more situations where I’m out of my comfort zone as Teal has suggested. If you haven't read The Completion Process I would suggest it. It really helps when I'm having a hard day that's emotionally charged. It's possible that the clay vest you're feeling is your own emotional energy. It definitely wouldn't hurt to do the grounding and transmuting meditation technique just in case. The completion process should allow you to find the original traumatic memory that might be causing this feeling and change the causation of it and then allow you to move forward with it. You could even get a completion process practitioner to facilitate you through it if you wish. I've been considering that for myself. Hope this helps
  13. Goldsky

    Thank you very much Damian! And thank you for being you <3
  14. Hello everyone! My name is Jeanette. I live in Jacksonville, FL. I've been a massage therapist for over 10 years. I became aware of Teal shortly after I met my twin flame connection in 2014. I think the first video I watched was her video on activating your third eye or astral projection. Teal is so inspiring. She has completely changed my life. If it weren't for her I wouldn't have known how to heal my inner self. Her perspective is refreshing. She has also inspired me to go after my new dreams of helping other people in a bit different way than my career has allowed me to(although that has been amazing, I think it has run it's course). I decided to start to put myself out there through my blog that I'm working on currently. I love working on it. Gives me this great creative outlet. And I enjoy blogging about spirituality. I am also very interested in becoming a reiki master and getting into tarot card reading. I can't wait until Teal's frequency tarot cards come out