Erinrenee

Allowing myself to sit with feelings of self hate, remorse, and whatever comes up for any causation I’ve done by the way I communicated or treated someone, and sit with the consequences without blaming and destroying myself over it. Allowing myself to take responsibility for my part and understand the other person’s. I’m allowing myself to take responsibility for my part, but not blaming and taking on everyone’s parts to self sacrifice.

Being the baby in the family and the “favorite” and not being able to excel in school and not wanting to be there. A lot was given materialistically, and how I was seen and represent the family was always a theme. Insecurities about my self worth and being approved of. Picking an overtly narcissistic partner to have a child with and the fallout, and overcompensating in guilt for what happened with our son, and taking on my own behaviors and patterns to heal while blaming myself for my own codependency and being selfish. Constantly feeling like I have to fix myself.