none. it's not even extinguished, it was never lit to begin with. In fact, all of me is extinguished now. I'm over this. just cant do this shit anymore. I'm tired of living. Tired of trying. Tired of being worthless. Tired of everything. Just tired. Tired of coming back to this shit planet and shit existence, just to learn that I'm in shit shape and beyond repair. To hell with it. All this shit is pointless. I did ALL THIS just to come back to this shit and realise that. I'm done.