I would like to have a routine, have soemthing to get my hands busy, grounded work.Doing grounded work, like working with food, I love that to requre skills, and physics, I would feel content with making food, mayebe working in a restaurant? I thought working in the kitchen tho, not sure. But not for the whole day, it's like for 4 -5 hours a day, tired but fulfilled, and feel happy. Grounded work,make money from grounded work to support myself. Then maybe I would be content?