I kept avoiding answering this question. It's not that I didnt had a clue, but that I found the answer trivial & embarassing. I was in waiting mode since 2019 and things good really ugly, when Corona started. So, right now, with Corona almost gone, where will I be in 5 years? Still waiting? Honestly, I wouldnt survive 5 years like this. So, basically I have to move or chose to end my life eventually. If I chose to move, I will propably be successfull and have a family. Most of my childhood trauma - or at least the really unbearable part - has been worked through by me in the last two years. So, I believe, I would have a good life, if I chose to move.