joneziii

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  1. I have heard those songs from Blackmill on my Pandora station, I do enjoy those as well. And I think that's Sarah's orginal version of the song, I had her cd back in highschool. I am sort of drawing a blank on music tonight. When I am inspired I will send you some! I just started a new job so I feel like my brain is limited lol
  2. That's awesome! Good for you doing your own thing and what you love. I always imagined that but find that I am just not ready yet but I recently changed careers so I am much closer than ever before. Baby steps, I tell myself. I let change for me come easily and smoothly as well as in diet. I will most certainly be revisiting sound healing and Reiki in the near future. Thank you for sharing!
  3. It can be difficult to let your guard down and share personal things, it is for me as well. But I have noticed that I learn more from myself and others when I do. I am not feeling better but it will pass. I just have a head cold and I can hear my heartbeat in my right ear...which is kind of cool lol. I am off to bed. I will listen to the new music videos you posted tomorrow. I really do enjoy exchanging those. Goodnight
  4. Thanks for your insight. I found it pretty cool that you mentioned Reiki and crystal bowls. I just recently went to a sound healing class in my local town. It was my second time and so far I learned something new about myself each time. And I have had Reiki healing before and I was invited to come back again. Seriously everything lately has been coming together. Like I finally have glasses to see clearly again. Yay! Have you attended something similar?
  5. I love that visualization for grounding! I never feel taller, although I don't feel as crocked, if that makes sense!? I feel straighter lol less slumpish. Hope you heal quickly!
  6. Life is crazy!

    We all know that I am sure. It's always such a rollercoaster for me and sometimes very difficult to find the silver linings. I am still not sure how or why I went into such a dark hole over the summer. There was death all around me but I felt stable about those passings, I mourned then felt how I thought a normal person would feel. I felt numb I guess, so numb that I lost all faith in everything: souls, god, universe, tarot, all spiritual beliefs, and even a purpose to life. I literally told my best friend that there was no point of me being here. That we are all animals killing the world. How horrible. How lost I felt. I can feel that lingering inside of me still. But through that whole period I still could feel energy, energy all around me, in people, in the air, in music and the trees. So I held onto that until one day the energy shot through me so very intensely that I lost my breath and began to cry for the miracle of life pulsing through me. I could feel my cells mixed into to air and nature around me as the sun filled me with the universal golden healing light. Since then I have allowed myself to let my wall come down day by day and just see what happens if I make wishes again, to manifest my desires without fears of the worries coming true as well. To notice the coincidences that push me closer to my soul and  to my purpose.

    Here I am today, just letting this out there.

    1. Pastor George

      Pastor George

      Thank you! It's been dark days for me too. Your post gives me light and hope. Be Blessed!

    2. joneziii

      joneziii

      I'm sorry you're having dark days. What I am learning from them is how wonderful it is to feel good and happy, to treasure these moments. Hope things look up soon for you!

    3. Pastor George

      Pastor George

      Things are gradually turning the corner, slowly getting better. part of the problem is that we invited my step-daughter to stay with us to help us out with cooking housework etc. but she is ruled by her emotions and can't keep a budget or manage her finances without help. In the process of moving all my stuff was boxed and moved out of the back bedroom so now it's scattered all over the house. It's been a real struggle to adjust I feel powerless, disrespected and exploited. I retired recently and that was hard enough losing control of my professional life, losing control of my home life was enough to cause me to lose control of my anger and become very sarcastic and verbally defensive. That's not the person i want to be but my step daughter seems to expect that and reverts to being a victim since she has been abused before in her life. So I am struggling to overcome or integrate my feelings while trying to help her see her patterns being played out again in our relationship so that she can become conscious of what's going on in her shadow/subconscious side.

      I lived in Oregon for many years and I remember the Mt Shasta area as being very beautiful and magical place. Go see the mountain and say Hello! to it for me please. Be blessed.

      Things are gradually turning the corner, slowly getting better. part of the problem is that we invited my step-daughter to stay with us to help us out with cooking housework etc. but she is ruled by her emotions and can't keep a budget or manage her finances without help. In the process of moving all my stuff was boxed and moved out of the back bedroom so now it's scattered all over the house. It's been a real struggle to adjust I feel powerless, disrespected and exploited. I retired recently and that was hard enough losing control of my professional life, losing control of my home life was enough to cause me to lose control of my anger and become very sarcastic and verbally defensive. That's not the person i want to be but my step daughter seems to expect that and reverts to being a victim since she has been abused before in her life. So I am struggling to overcome or integrate my feelings while trying to help her see her patterns being played out again in our relationship so that she can become conscious of what's going on in her shadow/subconscious side.

      I lived in Oregon for many years and I remember the Mt Shasta area as being very beautiful and magical place. Go see the mountain and say Hello! to it for me please. Be blessed.

  7. Just came across this one about a month ago. It's great for at the end of a meditation then gets me up and moving. Love dancing to this one and singing. I can feel the love for myself in this one hehe And this was my second favorite song after finding as the rush comes. Last but not least, an oldy but a goody! Heard my best friends mom play this when I was young and found myself listening to it again from time to time now. You are like my music twin! Is it weird to be this excited lol! I have heard all of those songs you posted except Break in Reality {which I really enjoyed!] and have not heard Euphoria either : {liked, I can relate to the lyrics} I am familiar with Delerium! And I love Lindsey Stirling! Have you seen her documentary!? And I forgot about Massive Attack! Missed that song, thanks! Thanks for sharing! I have been sick all day and these all picked my energy frequency up! Woot!
  8. Thank you for sharing! I fell off the spiritual path over the summer and have been trying to find my way again. Well recently I have been allowing myself to see what I would normally think of as coincedences but may actually be the universe responding to me and things happening for reasons. I hadn't been on this website in months until yesterday to see that you were the only person to follow me in that time. Then reading some of your posts I found that it was just the reminders that I needed right now and you saw something in my last post that you had just wrote! Pretty cool. I've lucid dreamt a few times in my life. I remember my first one and that last one very well but the rest I recall waking briefly and not knowing what to do so I always start flying, I love it!! The tricks that always seem to work for me: asking myself randomly throughout the day if I am dreaming {so while dreaming it will be subconscious and you will ask yourself in the dream}, before bed meditation, during dreaming to notice how phones don't work right, clocks are strange, and light switches may not work. It's been over a year now since I've had one but this has inspired me to try again. I also did my first tarot reading today for the first time in months. I feel like I'm finding my way again. I want to believe in so many things. It can just be difficult in the world we live in. I will continue to surround myself with similar inspiring people. Thanks again for sharing! Means more than you know.
  9. I have never met anyone that has heard this song before! That's awesome! I had that same Madonna cd, which I danced to while no one was watching lol! The radio is pretty boring and I do not like what most of the songs are about so I play my playlist or listen to an audio book on longer drives now. It is saddening to see the world through the dominance of the media including the songs on the radio with all the pain, money and drugs. I tend to stay in my bubble for the most part and find alternative ways to entertain thy self. Feel free to message me anytime about whatever.
  10. I completely agree. Over the last two years as I have been finding my spiritual side I have also noticed the impact music can have. I listened to all the same music growing up and was a very depressed person without really any understandable reason. I find myself listening to custom stations on Pandora that are more instrumental and uplifting. Although at times when I am feeling down I crave listening to good ol heart wrenching music that I can sing to but find that I just become more depressed. It's funny you chose a picture of Madona because she was one of the few that I loved dancing too in my late teens that boosted my mood. Die another day by her was motivating to me then. I just listened to it and the meaning I get now is different from back then. Anyways I could keep going right now lol Hope you're enjoying doing what someone that loves themselves would do p.s. Ever since I found this song and typed it into Pandora I have found many more artists that move me
  11. Lucid Dream. Music in the Stars It is about a lucid dream I had last. I woke up in the dream while talking to a dream person and had her walk outside with me. I looked up and said isn't life beautiful? Then I heard what I believe to be the sound of the universe. Like a humming and singing beauty of life force. I tried to get her to hear it but I realized she wasn't real or didn't care so I let go of her hand and flew up into the night sky. There were tall trees all around as I got higher the colors in the night sky lit up into purple and teal. I began to hear birds sing and saw that I was approaching clouds. Before I reached the clouds I looked down at my human body and it began to slough off as the human forms' energy dispersed into the night sky below. Until I was just energy again ...in the clouds.
  12. I had very similar experience a few years ago. I'm still confused about if I was dying over and over then my heart each time would shock me back to life. A horrible circle of dying for a good 6 hours or so from eating too much marijuana. It took time to get out of the depression and anxiety that followed. I had anxiety meds then that would help to an extent but mainly listening to music that was uplifting and doing things I enjoy, like hikes and crafty things got me through it. I think it's different for everyone. If you don't want to talk to a counselor just reach out and do things you enjoy. One day at a time. Now when I feel anxious, which seems to be a normal part of my being, I go into nature and meditate. How ever meditation works for you. Again we are all different. Nature heals though, no matter who you are and the power of deep breathing is amazing. Maybe try a sound healing or chakra balancing guided meditation. And remember it takes time. Don't expect to try one thing one time and be healed. Eat well and drink water! message me when ever if you want ❤ No judgement.
  13. I think and feel many things. I have always been closer to believing in reincarnation but I have never been 100% Having a feeling and a common idea does not convince me. The thought of just dieing isn't as terrifing as it once was, and I am ok with that now, but it being more than that would be amazing yet at the same time frustrating because I can't recall anything from before!! I have never been religious but I kind of envy someone who "just knows" that there is a god or higher source. The only thing I know is true is the fact that everything is energy. Science sees it and I can feel it during meditation. I don't know...I am just pondering
  14. Something more than a belief. Possibly recall past lives, and proof of an afterlife, which would require again...remembering what happend.
  15. I would love to believe reincarnation is an option ...but what if it doesn't exist? I wish we just had proof somehow