That I might one day magically find a foolproof method of leaving this shit life.
If I could let go of this, I could probably put enough effort into finding a method that's closer to being foolproof than everything I've deeply considered thus far, but as with anything I could be wrong about that.
Fuck absolutely everything
Anyone at all who was able to transcend being too big of a pussy to try to end their bullshit life.
(Obviously), also anyone that didn't fail at it.
If I had the answer to the second part, believe me, I wouldn't be here writing this pointless shit