I'm in a situation where it basically is conform or get ignored. I don't do well with this manipulation. I'm also giving too much to people and supporting others while they blatantly ignore me. I either conform to get acceptance with some or I basically stay hidden in a box. I should never have to change myself for anyone. I currently am behaving in a manner that suits the narrative I am experiencing. I also do it in defense. I changed because I'm mad and sick of everything and these people want me to conform. lol. So what is going to end up happening, I'm going to leave and start new and never talk to them again. I asked one to tell the police if I went missing. They said they would. they never did. I went missing for 2 days. So I know I can't trust them.
I want acceptance and to be treated as a equal just like everyone else. They don't do it. They expect me to change. Why? I'm the one giving tons of support and love to their pages while they give me nothing. The problem is not me. It's actually them. I have been on a platform giving like 13k likes to these people and i have got less than 100. How does that even work out. My problem is my inner critic surrounds me with people who always ignore me and my needs. I can't get them met. This is why shadow people love me. I love them too. Sad thing, I like when they show up it makes me feel connected to something. It's like a relief. I try so hard and nobody cares. So my inner critic just believes everything the abusers in my life have said. Validates it. The world does it. I am surrounded by spiritual people, not here, I love this community, but somewhere else. They ignore me and they claim they want to help the world. They wont ever help the world when I'm a aspect of them they don't even see.
So I'm not sure where to turn and I care about people a lot. Teal was right. The people who are always like, you have to stay on a high vibration and if your not, you don't count. They want to leave everyone behind. Those who they just ignore. They want everyone to be left behind while they manipulate their energy. Sorry for the rant but everyone knows I rant.
I love you teal. your the best teacher. thank you for your community because they are truly different from the rest.