"What am I afraid of that is currently making me hold myself back" - Realizing the proof that I really am worth nothing and have nothing worthwhile to share and contribute.
"By taking a risk to 'really go for it', whatever that may be, what is it that I risk?" - Exposure. Exposure as a worthless failure, being ridiculed and set aside. Making me end up all alone, rejected and slighted.
For what it's worth, you're helping me, like you do So Many people, and because of this, of what it implies (telling your truth as it is), you're getting all this backlash from the blind and mislead - I'm sorry for that, I'm sorry that you have to go through that. And Thank You. For what it's worth, thank you for putting yourself through this for all of us.