I’m sitting here. Not expecting the person who just invited me over to entertain me but wondering if it’s me who’s not giving of myself. So myself wants to keep aligning with my highest good. This person came from work but there sleeping and I’m just like would it be better if they gave me confirmation like ok I’m tired just wake me up in a hour.
But I can’t expect someone who doesn’t usually do that to say that and I take responsibility. To maybe see what’s going on with them and either choosing to stay or leave. It’s already hard living in a world that you actively choose to feel everything that comes up. I know I am to help unlock myself in every moment and be better.
As I breathe deeper and settle into the energy I realize that I want to be acknowledged. And I have a whole home I can go and just lay down in. I wanted to go to the park they said it’s too hot. But I do have the option to choose something different but. Going home sounds like a good alternative. The other day I was talking to a friend and they were so logical.
Like he had everything figured out but I questioned him and these men. They hurt in ways I can’t come to understand but I’ll be damned if I let a man get off with the excuse of oh I’m insecure of I’m this I’m that. No WTF. Woman have been fighting hard just to be acknowledged by men. Somehow I feel as if it’s a down grade to just let anyone put their insecurities on others. In the past I feel like nobody cared. And it has truth to it because we are truly focusing on ourselves more hours of the day trying to manifest what we want by any means. But I get it.
For so long I feel woman were trying to be understood as well as men w.e the situation. But did I really elevate my mindset to keep taking a little bit of pain or sacrificing for someone else. I’m such a free spirit. I just wish peace for everyone. But I gotta get my needs satisfied as well.
Three days off back to back from my job really makes me love the thought of. Getting prepared to go out and make money. I’m glad I love what I do. But there’s this lack of energy that is just daunting.
It makes me think this friend that was an ex before really needs to stay an ex. Cusz I don’t get much from even a friendship. How would you think somebody just wants to sit here without you saying anything. They are an ex. I don’t come into your space acting as if everything’s normal. All I can do is continue my business. Dance, play video games, and be happy with the hopes of truly having my Prince Charming. Because I know it’s possible. And no matter how anyone treats me that’s still my dream.