It seems like every single person can do this kind of thing seamlessly, describing and sensing every little detail. What in the hell am I supposed to do if I can't do it? Going to a specialist isn't an option at this time and even if I did, I have too much resistance. Every healing tool seems to be based on this process. Sinking into a feeling is something I can't really comprehend. When I try to think of a feeling or a situation that should evoke a feeling all I get is some blurry incoherent picture that doesn't do anything to me. I'm obviously feeling, very intensely, too, yet I can't describe it, I can't even notice a sensation associated with it. This is frustrating beyond words. These little exercises like noting throughout the day how you feel do absolutely nothing. Teal even said in one of the workshops that doing the CP is pointless if you can't tap into your feelings. What fucking now? I'm so fragmented I can want something so much yet at the same time a part of me is dragging me in an opposite direction, it's like this with every belief and desire, anything I do or don't do ends up hurting me. I wish I could at least have the power to kill myself.